Chapter nine
He kissed me.
He's kissing me, he's kissing me, he's kissing ME! I couldn't even explain on how wrong that was, like a rabbit kissing a snake. But his lips were so soft, and he kissed me so sweetly and gently that as soon as our lips touched, not only did I turn to jell-o but a rush of static electricity went through us.
It wasn't long before Edward slowly started to pull away, but he left me craving for more and I wasn't finished with him yet. I threw my arms over his neck and kissed him, this seemed to surprise the hell out of him. It took him a moment to start corresponding with me, this time a bit more urgent.
One of Edwards' arms went slowly around my waist, while the other snuck around to my neck, deepening the kiss. I could feel his tongue trace the bottom of my lip, begging me to open, I obliged. His tongue, oh his tongue...Could I even begin to speculate? His taste...Yeah, I have the same problem with describing that too. His tongue explored my mouth with not an instance notice, as mine twisted around his. I couldn't help but moan at the feeling.
My stomach had major butterflies doing some freaky things in there, while my heart pounded so loudly that I was afraid that Edward could hear it. Edward, on the other hand, as soon as he heard me he instantly took more dominance. Not like he didn't have enough!
Though like all good things, they all had to end sometimes, and ours had to stop to breath. Edward rested his forehead on mine, his emerald jewels boring into mine, never looking away. A blush spread over my face, Edwards cheeks just flushed as we both were breathing deeply, trying to catch our breaths. I know it sounds stupid and really hard to believe, but that was my first kiss. Yes, I am a twenty two year old that has never been kissed. But all I could say right now is that even though I had no experience, that nothing could beat that kiss.
The doubt started to flying back to me a moment later. Did he actually want to kiss me? He could have gotten caught up in the heat of the moment, not thinking of what he was doing while he just went in for the kiss. He was so talented; he probably had a lot of practice. What am I thinking? Of course he had! With a face like that, how could he have not?
"Wow," He whispered, removing his forehead from mine to kiss it, "I've been wishing to do that since you first moved in."
This however, shocked me. He wanted to kiss me ever since I first moved in!? That couldn't be plausible! How could this god I'm sitting on want to kiss a lowly peasant like me?! I couldn't wrap my mind around any of it. It was then that I realized that I have, now, my head on Edwards' chest, listening to his heart beating at an unusually fast level, most likely still trying to catch his breath. He stroked my hair lovingly, lightly kissing my head ever now and then.
My heart, however, was still running a marathon, and I don't see it settling anytime soon. God I hope I don't wake up soon, I knew it must be a dream. How could anyone like him like someone like me? There are standards. He's on the North Pole, while I was a million miles back in space. I could feel the tears fill my eyes once again, I was so happy at that moment, just being with Edward. And now all the happiness is going to leave, with nothing left but a bitter after taste. The tears finally fell, and Edward reacted instantly.
He grabbed my chin lightly and forced me to look up. I heard a low gasp, and his facile expression turned immediately to pain and sadness. Why does he keep doing this to me!?
"I-I'm sorry." Edward said sincerely, his arms retreated instantly and the cold air clashed over my exposed skin immediately after.
"Why are you apologizing again?" I asked, my eyes still blurred by the tears that hadn't shred. I'm going to wake up soon, I know it.
"Why are you crying?" He asked, not answering his question.
I didn't look at him, but I still replied, "This isn't real, I'm going to wake up soon, I know it." Another tear streamed down my face. He didn't reply, but his fingers whipped away the tear and creased my face.
"You're awake love," He said, and the instant he said the word 'love', my heart skipped a beat, "God, I was worried that you didn't want me."
WHAT!? What the hell is he thinking?! This made me look at him, his expression showed amusement. If I'm not asleep than that must mean he's toying with me, pretending to be all chocolate covered candy while he just was some bitter bastard that wants me for sex and leaves me broken hearted and cold.
I started to get up, but he put his hands on my hips and pulled me back down to him.
"Let go." I said dangerously low, his hands stayed firmly on my hips, not showing any signs of moving.
"Why? What did I say or do?" He asked, sounding like a child whose toy got stolen and got punched. I looked straight up at him again, this time he had a heart breaking expression, I couldn't help but have some of that absorb into me.
"Why are you saying this Edward? You probably only want me for one thing and ditch me the next day. Now please let me go." I said bitterly, this time his face showed the same expression as mine. He was now pissed.
"What!? How could you even think that? You're the only girl I EVER felt for! I just kissed you, my first kiss, and you say that I want to use you!?" He nearly yelled his expression murderous. It would have scared me, if I hadn't noticed the hurt boy look in his eyes.
"Bullshit." Was all I said. Edward release me, though he didn't let me leave, he scooted me over so I now sat on the chair while Edward paced the room, pinching the bridge of his nose.
"What can I say to make you believe me? I love you, no, love sounds like an understatement to the way I feel for you." He rambled, he looked over at me and I showed no sign of believing him. How could I not? He said he loves me, ME! That just proves that he is either a dream or is lying. He laughed bitterly to himself, "You still don't believe me. God Bella! Why don't you believe me?!"
"Ok, were should I start? Maybe the point that you want me, bullshit. Then there's the point about you never kissing a girl, bullshit. And then the whole thing about love, BULL FUCKING SHIT! Look I know when something is real or not! And just the fact that someone like you is in love with someone like me, proves that it's all fucking bullshit! Fact, I want you. Fact, that was MY first kiss. Fact, I'm in love with you! So don't go toying around with MY feelings for your amusement!" I started to yell. Edward looked over at me, dumbstruck, than his face turned to pure happiness. Won't this guy ever give up!
I got up and made my way to the door, until Edward grabbed my upper arm and spun me around. As soon as I was facing his direction, his face came to mine and forced me into a kiss. All sense of meaning left at that moment. I was so steamed, so reared up, so I focused all that into our kiss. It was definitely better that the first I can tell you that. There was so much passion, so much desire.
The next thing I knew my back hit a wall. I didn't know when that wall got there, but I was thankful for it. My legs started to go weak after his tongue entered my mouth again, this time I didn't just let him explore, we played for dominance. My heart pounded as our chests were firmly pressed against each other, I could feel his heart in the same position as mine, which made me semi-wise proud of myself. But since Edward could feel mine as well, he just felt smug, and I could feel a smile on his lips through the kiss.
My arms were around his neck and his around my back and one supporting the back of my head. But still, Edward didn't feel that we were 'close' enough. He bent down, but still refused to break the lip lock and picked my legs up and pulled them around his waist. My paper hospital dress hitched up to my upper waist. I never felt like this before, I could feel an ache in between my legs, and all to suddenly I felt Edward press up against me. It felt so good, I couldn't help but thrust into him again.
Both Edward and I moaned at the friction, it was amazing. Edwards kiss turned from desperate to animalistic, not that I minded or anything. All I knew was, that I was no longer angry at Edward anymore, heck, I don't think it's possible to be angry at him when he is kissing me like this. This kiss, I don't know, but it was like I knew that his feelings were true. And that made me happy; it would certainly make it easier to make him happy.
But right now, I instantly knew he was happy. Not as in the emotional happy, but in the 'downstairs' type happy. When I felt it poke my thigh through his pants I stopped, full on blushing, Edward had the same reaction. Edward put me down and leant against the wall. But still didn't let me leave from between him and the wall. He took deep breaths and had his face in the crook of my neck, breathing down it. This made me giggle, well, that, and the fact that Edward had to calm his mini down.
Edward heard me, and he just smirked and looked me in the eyes, his expression had cheekiness written all over him, "Well know you know what type of affect on me you have, does that mean you believe me now?" I couldn't help but laugh, he laughed alongside.
I leant in and put my forehead on his, "I guess, but I still don't know what you see in me though." I said, completely honest. He just looked at me with confused and some-what angry eyes.
"Bella," He said sternly, "You are the most beautiful woman I have ever laid eyes on, don't you EVER say differently."
I couldn't help but blush; the only other people that had ever called me beautiful were either relatives or close friends. I always thought that they just said that to boost my self-esteem up, but when Edward said it. I almost believed.
This very sweet and classic moment got interrupted by my stomach growling embarrassing loud. I could feel my blush turn ten shades darker; Edward just laughed and kissed my forehead, "Love, you wait here while I go get you something to eat. I'll get Carlisle to come in and check if you're ok to go ok?"
I grunted and complained, "But I don't want to stay here. It's boring and cold." Edward just laughed at my pouting expression.
"I'm just going to the hospital cafe, it's just down the hall, and I have to grab Carlisle," He said, I just gave him, yet another pouty expression. I didn't want to stay in this cold and uninteresting white room when I didn't have Edward in there. Yes, I know that we just confessed our undying love -for the past seven days- and I already was getting clingy. I know, nice one Bella, right?
"But why can't I come?" I whined, this just caused Edward to laugh.
"Bella, if you haven't noticed, you're wearing paper. I wouldn't feel comfortable if other guys start drooling over you." He said, this time it made me laugh.
"Oh, protective are we?" I teased.
"Of cause, I'm not going to let something of mine be stared at like a piece meat."
With the mention of the word 'mine' made my heart pound and my stomach flutter. If it was any other guy that said that I was his, then I would be a little freaked. But this isn't another guy, this is Edward, and him calling me his, I don't know, it just has me hook line and sinker. But still, I couldn't help but make a joke of it.
"Yours huh?"
He just smirked and pulled me into his arms, obviously his little, well big, problem had been taken care of, it just made the embrace that much more comfortable, "Yes, mine. All mine, and no one else in allowed having it. I may lend you to yourself if your lucky." I laughed at the last part.
"Gee, thanks." I couldn't even say that without laughing, Edward didn't try stopping himself either.
"No problem Bell. I'll go and get you your food, and you ARE going to stay here and rest." He teased. I just rolled my eyes; Edward laughed and pecked me, causing me to blush wildly. I am never going to get used to that, never.
Then he left quickly, he said the faster he went the faster he got back, so I told his to run it and he laughed. And right now, all I could think was, damn. I still couldn't quite believe what had just happened, no matter what he said, he's still a god, and I'm still a peasant. Than there's the whole deal about work, he is still my boss, and I am still his secretary. Is anything going to change? Could I possibly be fired for being with Edward? No, that wouldn't happen, Edward owns the company. Unless he fires me of cause.
But what would happen if this ends badly? I would lose a good friend, I doubt I would be able to still live with him, and then I would probably quit or else he would fire me, depending on how hard the break up went. So would it be worth it?
Next thing I felt was hands wrap around my waist, they were familiar so I didn't freak out, "I got you a burger, water, and a bar of chocolate. I figured it would boost up your energy level. Carlisle is just in surgery at the moment, he'll be in here when he's finished. Should you really be standing? Are you sure that you're strong enough to stand? You could still be sick." Edward said worried, I turned my head semi-wise to see him, but by doing that Edward, once again, attacked my lips.
The answer is yes, It definitely would be worth it.
"Edward is Bell- AW!" Alice shrieked, just entering the room. I blushed wildly at the fact that Edwards sister/my friend has just seen us make out. And the fact that even though we broke away lip wise, he still had his arms wrapped around my waist, and he had no intention of letting me go. I would definitely not mind if he didn't take his arms around me, but when his siblings see us like this, yeah, I mind.
"Why do they always interrupt?" Edward whispered in my ear, I couldn't help but giggle. Alice stared at us with an amused look and a grin, which mainly was directed at me, causing me to blush deeper.
"So...You and my brother?" I nodded, not looking directly at her, too afraid that she would be disappointed, "And when did this happen?"
"About ten minutes ago." Edward answered her. I held my breath, waiting for her to yell at him that he could do better, that he could have someone more in his league.
"Edward, would you mind leaving the room for a minute? I would like to talk to my sister for a minute." Alice asked. Did she just- I knew from before that she said that I was her best friend, but that couldn't possibly mean that she already thinks of me as a sister, could it? Or does she think that one day I really will be her sister...? She couldn't really be thinking that far into the future could she?
Edward reluctantly let go of my waist, he kissed me sweetly and left out the door, I just stared after him, my heart still pounding from all that had happened. Alice's giggling was what brought me out of my trace; I just stared at her with a questionable look.
"Oh you so love my brother!" She squealed.
"I know that." Alice just looked at me dumbstruck, I guess she thought that I would try to deny it, I think I am the first person that has ever caught her off guard.
"WHAT?!" She shrieked, "When did you find this out?! Why didn't you tell me?! I'm your future sister for god sakes, your supposed to tell me!"
"ALICE! I found out when I woke up half an hour ago, I couldn't tell you because you weren't here and let's face it, I just found out. And why do you keep saying I'm your future sister? Edward and I aren't getting married anytime soon." I told her. I wasn't ready, maybe when I'm thirty I might consider it, but that's in another eight years.
"Oh that's what you think." Was all she said.
"What does that mean?"
"You'll see. Anyway Bella, Edward really loves you, you know that? I just heard him over the phone when I called because Jasper said something about Edward going crazy carrying your dead body like a mad man or whatever." When she said that I couldn't help but laugh, I would say I wished that I was there, but I couldn't because I was and there, I was just asleep. "Anyway, the point is Bella. You should have heard his voice, I swear it was worse than the night he called to tell Emmett and I, that mom and dad were dead. He loves you so much Bella, and you two only meet a week ago. What I'm saying Bella, is just don't break his heart. I don't think that he would be able to hand it if you left him."
Her words struck me deeply. Not just the whole thing about me leaving him, because I know that I would never be able to do that, I loved him too much and I made a promise that I would do whatever it took to make him happy. But the fact that he was -supposedly- more broken up about me being sick than his parents death, well, I couldn't begin to verbalize how I felt about that. It made me feel loved, definitely, but still. If my mom died, than I would be pretty broken about it, but if Edward did...How would I take that? Would I even be able to take that? I was broken about Charlie, but Edward? I don't think I would be able to handle a blow like that.
"A-Alice, I would never h-hurt your brother. I love Edward, I know it sounds so sudden, I mean we only known each other for a seven days. But just the thought of hurting him makes me sick, Alice I love him so much. You can trust that I would rather die than do anything to hurt him." I reassured, I couldn't possible hurt Edward, not now, not ever. Alice just gave me a warm smile and came over and hugged me, this time I hugged her back.
"I know you won't," She said, breaking out of the embrace with a gritty smile, "Which comes to the point of you being my new sister. Oh Bella you have to let me design the dresses! You're going to look so gorgeous! Oh I have to start designing it! And your outfits for the honey moon!" She said suggestively. As soon as she mentioned the 'honey moon' I blushed beat red, and I knew that I had to stop this conversation before she got any further in the details.
"Stop! Ok, Alice, look, I may love your brother to bits, but I don't plan on getting married till I'm thirty. Then we can have this conversation, but until then, no." Once I said that, Alice's expression turned from happy to horrified.
"Oh my god Bella you can't be serious! By then you'll have gray hairs! You're so not waiting that long!" Alice shrieked.
"That's in eight years Alice! I won't go gray! And why are we even arguing about this!? Edward and I just got together thirty minutes ago!" I complained.
"Because I brought you onto the subject that inevitable, you're going to marry my brother, I know you will. And I'm betting it's in the next eighteen months! Oh, and Bella, you're one of my brides maid, just thought I should tell you that." Alice added. Damn, she really needs to lay off coffee. One minute she's talking about me getting married to her brother in the next year and a half -which I seriously doubt-, than she starts talking about me being her brides' maid!
"Alice, I may love you, but you're delusional. As I just said, Edward and I just got together. So no talking about weddings for another year or two." I said, just than the door opened reviling both Edward and a very handsome blond doctor following behind him.
"Uncle Carlisle!" Alice shrieked and tackled the doctor into a hug. I must say that Dr. Cullen was not what I expected in the looks department. He was way better! None of them looked the same, but Carlisle is definitely good looking, so there was at least on bit of resemblance.
"Hello Alice, Esme misses you, you guy have to come visit the house soon." Carlisle said, returning the quick hug. "So, Bella, how do you feel at the moment?"
Edward came over to me and put his arm around my shoulder, I blushed and answered, "Hungry." This made all of them laugh, but just made me blush deeper.
"You haven't eaten any of your food yet." Edward stated.
"Um, yeah, I was to busy talking to Alice, sorry." I apologized; Edward grabbed the burger and gave it to me to eat. I just sat back on the hospital bed and started to eat.
"Ok, so Bella, feeling light headed? Sore stomach maybe?" Carlisle asked me, I just shook my head, my mouth filled with food.
"I'm just going to get a blood sample, just to check if anything spread into the blood stream."
This made me start to panic, I gulped whatever food was in my mouth and spook, "U-um, do you really need to do that? I feel fine and everything. I don't think it's very relevant." Edward looked at me with amused eyes.
"Bella, are you afraid of needles?" Edward asked amusement written all over his tone.
"No! I don't mind the needle, it's just the blood, I can't stand the smell."
"Humans can't smell blood." Carlisle said, getting the needle ready.
"I can, it smells live metal and rust." I said, shuttering at the thought.
"Ok Bella, this won't hurt, just don't look."
Edward came over and took my hand in his, I squeezed down when the needle went in, and I burred my head in Edward's shirt, trying to smell him and not the blood. The needle didn't hurt, but the smell of my blood made me want to faint. Edward stroked my hair, and kissed it once. Before I knew it, the needle was out and Carlisle put the medicine on it and coved it with a cotton bud and sticky tap.
"All done. Once we check this out and if it comes out negative than your free to go. It'll only take about fifteen minutes."
"Ok, thank you Dr. Cullen."
"Please Bella, call me Carlisle. And welcome to the family." He said, he kissed my forehead and walked out with the vial of blood. Damn the Cullen's are all very affectionate and caring. They all seemed very close, I never really felt that. Well kind of, when I was younger my mom was my best friend, but I was always the more dominant and mature one out of us. If she didn't marry Phil, I don't know how she would have survived without me.
It didn't take long before the tests came back, everything was clear, so I was allowed to leave, which I couldn't be happier. Today has been hectic, well; I guess that yesterday had to be included too. What with me getting sick, me waking up and kissing Edward and then fighting, than kissing him again. But still, I couldn't regret any of the acts, I wouldn't change a thing. I knew that everything would be ok.
Because I have Edward. And nothing can take him away from me.
