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Chapter 9

'We think first time is good enough, so we hold on to high school love. No matter how wrong or troublesome it gets. When flaws outshine the good qualities and I still can't see anyone but him, when I still drown every time I look him, and I ask myself why am I with him. I spent too much time thinking why am I not good enough, that I never thought maybe he's not good enough. That only caused the rift between my mind and my heart is becoming greater by the minute. Sebastian, more than anyone, knows that. I wonder if he would've chose a different path if he knew that earlier. Would he try and fix my heart, close the rift and fill it with whatever suits him.'

Sebastian's vision was hazy, he tried to walk straight but it was hard. The half bottle of whiskey he finished before he decided to go see Ciel was having all kinds of effects on him. After their phone sex Sebastian got nervous, and when he gets nervous, he drinks. He wanted to shut out his emotions, the guilt, and the fact that he might like Ciel. He wanted to shut his thoughts out, is this right? Should he go through with it? Is Ciel worth it? He hated all the unanswered questions and wanted to go back to his old self, guilt free and emotion free.

He let the whiskey deiced if this is right or not so he drank half the bottle, which didn't have a big effect on him at the beginning, then thought about it and came out with the conclusion that Ciel isn't worth 300 dollars. So he left the apartment and started walking to Ciel's house. He was still himself but minus the emotions. He wasn't too drunk but he knew he'll need to sleep this off later because a bad hangover will follow.

It was almost sunset, Ciel waited patiently for Sebastian to come like he said, but it's been two hours and he didn't show up. Ciel thought that maybe he changed his mind again and went back to ignoring Ciel but he wasn't about to dig deep into that just to avoid a headache. He got up his bed and walked to door, leaving his room he saw May-rin in the hallway heading towards him.

"Do you need anything young master?" She asked while walking closer.

He thought about telling her not to bother him but that decision was too early since there was a big chance of Sebastian not showing up. "No, I'm fine" he walked past her quickly so she doesn't come up with a following question. He made his way to the main stairs and with every step he found himself getting nervous. He had no idea why, he's been with Sebastian many times before and this time shouldn't be any different.

The front door was knocked and Ciel's heart skipped a beat. He knew that it was Sebastian, there's no one that would visit without informing Ciel first. He ran down the stairs and all the way through the main hallway until he reached the door out of breath. The door was opened and Ciel was met with the majestic sight that he longed for. He relaxed a little bit as he took in all the features he's missed so much, he was now able to stare without it being wrong.

Sebastian smirked as he took a breath and waited "aren't you gonna invite me in?" He asked while his eyes pierced though Ciel.

Ciel nodded nervously as he opened the door further and watched Sebastian walk in gracefully. The door was closed and Ciel threw his arms around the tall male, hugging his waits and taking in his scent. "I missed you" there was something different about his scent.

Sebastian looked down at the boy, his head burning from alcohol and his body too numb to move. He didn't need a proof anymore. In the back of his mind he knew Ciel was telling the truth, even alcohol can't make him forget that. This boy was innocent in every meaning of the word, he's the opposite of what everyone says, he's the opposite of Sebastian.

"Hey Ciel?" He didn't move an inch as he watched the boy lift his head up so their eyes can meet.

"Yes" Ciel answered, feeling uneasy. There was something different about Sebastian, he wasn't his usual self. Ciel wasn't about to give excuses and he pushed that thought aside.

"Do you like me?" He asked with the blankest expression making Ciel remove his hands and stand few inches away.

Ciel was silent; he wasn't thinking about the question, it was the way Sebastian asked it. It was empty and emotionless. This was definitely not the Sebastian he knew. "Why do you ask?"

"Just answer the question Ciel" Sebastian demanded.

"You shouldn't have to ask by now. Don't you know the answer?" Ciel was playing with fire, he was getting on Sebastian's nerves and it was fine by him. He needed to know what's wrong with Sebastian without asking him directly.

Sebastian leaned closer, his hand squeezed Ciel's shoulders pulling him closer "I need you to say it" he was still calm and collected but something was off.

It hit Ciel just as fast, the smell of alcohol all over Sebastian. He wrinkled his nose from the repulsive smell and looked away to avoid it "you're drunk? Are you kidding me?" He struggled to get out of Sebastian's grip and succeeded. He stepped away to leave few feet between them "were you drunk when you called Sebastian?" Hurt was written all over his face that even a blind man can see it.

Alcohol wasn't strong enough to kill all the feelings of guilt and Sebastian realized what a mistake it was to come here. As soon as he saw Ciel's face it was like he's sober, nothing changed. He was being eaten by his guilt. "Ciel.." He started, not knowing how to finish. Did he want to confess everything? Or did he want to dazzle the boy into bed with him and get through the guilt with sex.

Ciel's sapphires couldn't look more pained. He looked straight as Sebastian and Sebastian hated it. They both wanted to say something but didn't know what. "Why are you drunk Sebastian?"

"It's just beer, I can't get drunk off that" he lied through his teeth.

"Then leave. I don't care which kind gets you drunk but I don't want to see you like this" Ciel was firm and more confident than usual. Sebastian wasn't about to start thinking of reasons why and he just ignored it.

He walked closer "I'm fine Ciel" another lie.

Ciel instantly took a step back "Please leave"

Sebastian kept walking "why are you scared? I won't do anything. You know that" he had his hand around the boy's wrist pulling him closer and Ciel struggled a little bit before giving up with the same scared expression on his face. "Why are you scared?" He asked while kissing the boy's forehead.

Ciel flinched and closed his eyes in an attempt to calm himself down. "Please leave Sebastian. We can meet tomorrow"

Sebastian's hand wrapped around the small waist and brought their bodies together. "I'm here now." His free hand lifted Ciel's chin so he can see his face and he smiled lightly "Didn't you say you miss me? I promise I'm not drunk so relax and don't look so scared...it's offensive."

Ciel blinked as he sighed a breath of relief. He could still smell the alcohol but it was faint and light because he got used to it. "Why were you drinking?" He was surprised to find out something like this about Sebastian. He doesn't seem the type to do things like this.

"Even I get insecure for time to time" Sebastian knew where the conversation is going. It was just a bet and he had to choose one of the options. Since the money wasn't available but Ciel was, it was an obvious choice.

"About what?" Ciel asked curiously.

Sebastian punched himself for what he's about to say but kept his usual composer and smiled "you." That made Ciel open his eyes wide and Sebastian leaned in closer so their faces were aligned "I wonder if you like me or not"

Ciel blushed and tried to look away but Sebastian's fingers on his chin held him tight. He melted quietly and Sebastian smirked "I wanna hear it"

Ciel buried his face in Sebastian's neck "but it's embarrassing"

Sebastian gave himself another punch and he felt his heart tear in two. He had time to back down but he couldn't afford to owe 300 to anyone. "I've heard you say far more embarrassing things. It's simple three words"

He felt Ciel take a breath, the small boy wrapped his hands around Sebastian and muffled his words into his neck. Sebastian chuckled "I didn't hear you, say it again"

Ciel blushed even a deeper red and raised his voice a little bit that it became a whisper "I like you"

Sebastian closed his eyes and he let the words wash over him. He didn't think that it'll feel so good hearing them from Ciel's mouth. He liked it, he wanted to hear it again and again. These words were his lullaby now. "Again" he demanded

"I..like you" Ciel repeated, with a louder voice.

He sighed "I like you too...I like you so fucking much" When drunk, Sebastian couldn't lie very well, or for too long. The truth ways drags out of him.

Ciel smiled and pulled back to see Sebastian's face. He was cut by a violent kiss on his lips and he gave up quickly. Closing his eyes and feeling Sebastian again. Sebastian didn't deepen the kiss and he pulled back too fast for Ciel's liking.

"Can I tell you something Ciel? But you have to promise not to hate me" Sebastian wasn't himself, that much he knew. He wasn't the player that can juggle three girls at once. There was gravitational pull dropping all the balls he juggles to the ground.

Ciel was nervous again and he didn't hide it "If it'll make me hate you then I don't wanna know"

Sebastian's eyes widened. This boy had a surprise at every corner. How can he be ok with not knowing something that might decide the course if their relationship. He smiled and sighed "Do you have any idea what you're saying?" He asked with half a mind to drop the whole bet and just take Ciel to his room and ravish him. "What if I'm lying to you about something?"

Ciel smiled and pulled Sebastian closer "then start telling the truth and I'll forgive you"

Sebastian chuckled and pulled away a little bit, before Ciel can voice his confusion he was swept up bridal style and held against Sebastian's warm chest. He wrapped his arms around Sebastian and smiled to himself. He felt that this is the Sebastian he knew. Whatever changed him, the alcohol or something else, it was gone now. He let himself be carried up stairs and he knew Sebastian was heading to his room. "I'm gonna do all the bad things I promised to do, so you better be ready." Ciel blushed and looked away to hide his face but that only caused Sebastian to chuckle.

When they reached the room, the door was sent flying and Ciel was thrown on the bed with a thud. He smiled and waited for Sebastian to climb up next to him. When Sebastian stood in his place at the edge of the bed Ciel had a small frown on his face "what's wrong?"

"Would you really forgive me if I lied to you?" He asked with his crimson eyes avoiding looking at Ciel. The truth threatening to get out.

Ciel sat straight "why are you acting weird? Did something happen?"

Sebastian sat down slowly and Ciel crawled closer to him, he sat in his lap, straddled him with heavy breath and Sebastian seemed nervous for the first time "I don't want you to hate me"

Ciel had his hand on Sebastian's chest massaging it with his eyes looking for some kind of expression on Sebastian's face to know what's going on "I won't hate you..I can't" he placed a kiss on his lips "you're my first real boyfriend..and you're gonna be the person I lose my virginity to. Would I do that if I hated you?" Ciel was surprised to admit that out loud.

Sebastian finally had the guts to look up and meet the sapphire eyes. He found himself drowning in the ocean within them. He saw Ciel's innocence, his true feelings, and his true self. He can't ruin the only relationship he wanted to be in, his first real relationship. "Then I'll make sure you don't find out" he whispered to himself as his hand stroked Ciel's red cheek. Ciel leaned into the touch and he smiled, until Sebastian's hands removed him from his lap and back on the bed. He looked confused and stared at Sebastian.

The freshmen laid down then pulled Ciel down with him. They stared at each other, their bodies weren't even touching. Sebastian made sure to leave space between them so Ciel doesn't smell the alcohol, he didn't know that Ciel had already gotten used to it. Ciel reached his fingers and touched Sebastian's lips "don't drink again, ok?"

Sebastian tried not to get too curious "why?"

Ciel closed his eyes and moved a little closer to feel the warm chest "you're an idiot Sebastian" he smiled to himself and wrapped his arms around his waist. "Are you gonna do bad things to me tonight?"

Sebastian sighed inwardly as his hand danced to Ciel's lower back and stopped there "not tonight little one"

Ciel pressed himself closer to tease Sebastian "but you haven't touched me in a long time" he rubbed his half hard erection against Sebastian's soft one "I didn't like touching myself today.." He trailed off as his mind was being filled with images from their phone sex.

Sebastian held his breath and he tensed while trying to get this sex crazed monster to think of something else. "Ciel.." He started but was cut by a strong thrust that made him hold a moan.

"You came two hours late and you were drinking" Ciel began and he held onto Sebastian's chest "you made me wait.." A moan escaped and he was fully hard by now "and you scared me.." He pushed Sebastian so he was on his back. He climbed on top of him and straddled his lap. "You're so mean Sebastian" his hips began thrusting and Sebastian held the small waist to guide him. Ciel threw his head back and closed his eyes as he felt the pleasure he longed for control his body.

Sebastian took the sight in and he felt himself getting hard. He knew that he kept going he'll end up taking Ciel. He didn't want to take him now, not like this, while he knew he was drunk, his emotions were still all over the place. If he did it now he'll regret it. He can't start acting weird again and make Ciel suspicious, or even worse, hurt him.

Sebastian wrapped his hand around Ciel's and he pulled him down again. Ciel laid on the bed surprised. Until Sebastian hovered over him and played with his belt "I'll make you feel good, ok?" He worked his way to the button and the zipper while Ciel's breathing became arousing for him.

"Sebastian.." He breathed and waited for an answer.

Sebastian stopped and looked at him. He leaned closer and hummed in response, wanting to kiss Ciel's soft lips but resisted. Ciel wrapped his hand around the freshmen's neck "I wanna make you feel good too"

Sebastian sucked in a sharp breath and tried to calm his heart beat and his heating erection. The only time he wanted to do something other than sex, Ciel was very innocently seducing him. He haven't got a blow job since he doesn't know when. Most of their time together he was the one making Ciel feel good. Now, Ciel wants to give him pleasure and the only thing stopping him from saying yes is the fact that he have no self-control.

"Not tonight" he pecked the tempting lips "besides..I doubt you know how to please a man" he teased making Ciel blush.

"But I wanna try..I wanna touch you" he pleaded again, slowly stripping Sebastian of all control.

Sebastian buried his face in the boy's neck "you don't give up, do you?" He pressed himself closer and felt Ciel comply too. Sebastian was still feeling like he's using Ciel and he wondered when will it disappear. He admitted that he likes Ciel, for real this time, and he's willing to pay the money if it means keeping Ciel by his side. Somewhere deep inside him he knew that this started as a bet and he used Ciel for the longest time they were together, and he can't change that. If he was still feeling guilty it mean that he doesn't like Ciel and he's doing this out of pity. If he wasn't convinced that he likes Ciel than how can he make the boy believe him.

He pulled back and tried not to move his thigh so he doesn't distract Ciel "You can touch me all you want, but you have to be patient." He stated.

Ciel nodded and relaxed a bit more, letting Sebastian shower him with kisses. He wanted to grab Sebastian's head and kiss him violently but he settled for being submissive like always.

The night went by faster when Ciel found Sebastian's company enjoyable even without touching. They talked about Ciel's parents, he told Sebastian how his father was poor and didn't know about the manor until he visited here during a business trip. He told him of how happy they were before the fire ate everything away. He talked about his aunt and how he lived with her until they rebuild the mansion and then she was killed and he lost all his family. Sebastian listened firmly, with each word he found himself being brought closer to Ciel. Believing that this sweet boy can't lie or cheat or trick anyone no matter the reason. He can't be the same boy everyone talks about in school. With each word the guilt grew and the hate that was inside him was building up. Hate for himself, for who he is, who he became, and how he was so close to ruining a damaged boy who's still trying to fix himself.

Sebastian placed a kiss on Ciel's lips that lasted few seconds before pulling away and smiling "Don't ever change, I like you just the way you are now"

Ciel blushed as he took in the words and once they reached his brain he nodded quickly and snuggled closer to Sebastian's chest, enjoying his warmth and his scent.


Finny stepped into the food store with his eyes scanning for someone who works here to help him. He was sent by May-rin to find some herbs that he's never heard of. She said it was for the master, he's been always nervous lately and putting some herbs in his morning tea will help calm him down. He walked to the male with the red vest ad black pants with a piece of paper in his hand. He was already tired since it was the end of the day but May-rin refused to wait till Saturday morning to get all the shopping done like she always does, she insisted he goes now, almost eleven o'clock at night just so the master can get the herbs tomorrow morning.

It didn't take Finny long to get all the four herbs on the list with the help of someone. So he headed to the register to pay with his eyes closing shut. The servants wake up very early at the manor so it made sense that they sleep early as well. Finny paid for the herbs and dragged his feet out of the store to meet the dark sky and night lights over the pavement.

When he started walking he heard footsteps behind him that matched his but ignored it, being too tried to focus. He had a long walk for the manor and with the pace he's taking it'll be even longer. He yawned and struggled to keep his eyes open as he focused on counting the lights in front of him.

When Finny made the turn that leads away from all buildings and store but still heard the footsteps he had his guard up. This path led only to manor. Even Alois' house wasn't close to here. He knew that he must be followed but didn't change his pace.

When he was able to see the manor from far he suddenly stopped and heard the footsteps stop with him. He slowly turned, prepared for whoever that was following him but was surprised with the beautiful sight of a young lady with big scared eyes. He took a minute to gather his thoughts. "Why are you following me miss?"

She flinched, her light blonde hair stayed next to her face from the lack of wind and she placed it behind her ear "I'm sorry. I'm lost...I thought maybe you can help me find my way back but I was scared to ask.." She trailed off.

Finny drew a huge smile on his face "why didn't you say so! I can take you home if you want. But isn't it late for you to be wandering like this"

"I was looking for my brother" she seemed embarrassed to admit that.

Finny reached his hand "I'll take you to the manor and Bald can drive you home so don't worry" he knew he was taking a chance in bringing a stranger to the manor then promising her to take her home without knowing if Bald was even awake.

Her eyes lit up and she walked to him "thank you so much! I thought I'll be lost till the morning" she breathed a sigh of relief and Finny gestured her to start walking with him.

He glanced at her one more time, feeling shy. "What's your name miss..if you don't mind me asking?"

She smiled "of course not..I'm Angela, what about you?"

Finny thought of how her name matched in beauty her looks and turned red "I'm Finny. I work at the Phantomhive manor" he pointed to the big mansion peeking through the trees.

Angela took a second to let his sentence sink in. Ciel Phantomhive, the same boy that she admired so much, the same boy that she heard all these rumors about in school. After hearing her brother's conversation with Sebastian she asked in school about the infamous slut and the name Ciel Phantomhive was her answer again. It took her a while to believe that the school slut was the same boy that wrote amazing poems and heavenly music. She never heard Ash and Sebastian mention him again and she felt better for some reason, she wanted to believe that maybe they changed their minds. Until Ash took a phone call that seemed to be from Sebastian and he looked happy. She almost felt depressed because the only reason her low life brother would be happy is if Sebastian had slept with the boy.

She was pulled out of her thoughts when Finny announced that they reached mansion and she tried to smile. Was it too late to tell Finny that someone is trying to take advantage of his master. Did Sebastian actually go through with it? Will she make any difference if she told the truth about what she knows.

Once they entered the manor, Finny led the way to the kitchen, he knew May-rin would still be awake and waiting for him in there. Angela didn't hide how impressed she was with the house, considering how poor she was, being in a house like this was like a dream. Her dream was interrupted by a female voice "who's that Finny? Are you trying to get us in trouble?!"

She turned her attention to the voice and saw the two red pony tails and big round glasses. She became more nervous when she knew she's not wanted but Finny defended her "she was lost. Her name's Angela."

"That's not our problem. The master will kill you if he knows you brought a stranger to the manor" she suppressed his yell by gritting her teeth and Finny took a step back.

"Come on May-rin, she was lost. What if something bad happened to her?"

"It still wouldn't be our problem" she repeated. She looked at Angela and sighed. Pondering whether to keep her the night or kicking her out. Finny can't drive and she can't leave the manor without Ciel's orders. Bald was asleep so she was left with little options. "If you care so much than walk her home. She has to leave before the master finds out"

"Isn't he asleep yet?" He questioned.

"No, since Sebastian showed up earlier today he's been with him in his room. They've been asking for me to make a late night snack for them"

There it was, the name Angela feared. The name that shouldn't be in the same sentence as Ciel's. She opened her eyes and walked till she was too close to May-rin. "Sebastian's here?" She asked nervously as if she heard the devil's name.

May-rin nodded in confusion "yes"

Angela breathed and looked at Finny for a second. If she wanted to help Ciel simply because she's a good person, this changed now. She had a lot of reasons, she liked him, his music, she hated her brother, she hated Sebastian, and one of Ciel's servants just saved her. What more reasons could she need. All she had to do was tell them that Sebastian is using Ciel. If they don't believe her than she'll tell Ciel himself. She'll confront Sebastian and tell him about everything she heard. The conversation between him and Ash. There's no mistake that it's a bet. Sebastian had to sleep with the school slut and he wins. That part was clear. She just wasn't sure if she had the guts to say that aloud.

"Angela? Is everything ok?" Finny's voice seemed worried.

She turned to him "uh..um..I have to.." She felt the two sets of eyes watching her and she grew nervous "Sebastian is..I mean.." How was she supposed to finish that sentence. Did the servants even know about Ciel's reputation or his orientation. Was it her place to say something like this.

She took a step back and shifted her gaze away from both servants "um..I have to go" she glanced at Finny "thank you so much for helping me but I'm fine now" she didn't give either of them a chance to say anything when she started running in the same way she came from. Leaving them too shocked to do anything.


The next morning Ciel woke up alone in the bed. He very well remembers sleeping on Sebastian's chest last night. He saw the clock pointing to eleven in the morning and sighed. Realizing that the chances of Sebastian still being here are slim to none. He thought about calling and asking him why he left but changed his mind quickly to avoid repeating their last phone call. He left the bed and walked to the bathroom, not surprised for not seeing May-rin anywhere. Since it's Saturday she wouldn't dare wake him early so he doesn't lash out on her.


Sebastian laid on the old couch in his living room with his head spinning all around. A headache has taking over long time ago and the hangover was painful. When he phone rang he was ready to throw it against the wall to shut it up until he saw Ash's numbers. He knew that if he didn't answer than he'll just show up. He placed the phone on his ear and he took a breath and hated how much it burned his nose. "What?"

"I should be asking that"

A hot pipe was piercing through Sebastian's head. Right behind his eye and he shut them tight to expel the pain "um..I don't know.."

"What do you mean dude?" Ash questioned while about to jump through the phone and smack him "you said you'll do this weekend"

"Yeah..I know...listen, I might've gotten drunk and I kinda don't remember shit from last night." He admitted while massaging his temple, feeling aggravated with the pain.

"Oh shit!" That's all Ash said

"Why?"

"Because you're a fucked up drunk. I can never tell whether you're drunk or not. It's very easy to believe that you're sober when you're drunk" Ash explained with annoyed tone.

"Fuck!"

"Exactly" He agreed. "He probably didn't even know you were drunk which is a good thing, but I still wanna make sure you didn't fuck this up or maybe confessed everything to him"

Sebastian didn't even want to think about it. It'll fry his brain to try and remember. "I woke up early and left his house. We were both clothed though so I don't know what that means...anyway..I need to go..this..my head hurts and-"

Ash cut him off "make fucking sure that you didn't blow this off. Call him and ask and don't sound too shitty like you do now" he hung up and Sebastian couldn't be more happy. He was gonna take few aspirins and sleep this off no matter how long it takes. "Why is it so fucking hard to fuck someone" he asked aloud when he placed the phone down.


Monday morning Sebastian had made up his mind and this time it was final. He needed to be firm and get his old self back. He can't let someone he met two weeks ago change him so much. He can't fall for a guy, he can't start feeling guilt all of the sudden because Ciel looked innocent. He decided that he doesn't want anything to do with this kid. Not because he likes him, not because he felt guilty, but because this boy was like a hormone accelerator that messed up Sebastian's emotions and thoughts. Whether the boy was telling the truth about being virgin and impotent or not, he doesn't want to take the time to figure out. Because the longer time he spends with Ciel the more he'll change.

This fake relationship wasn't going anywhere and he had to finish it sooner or later. He planted the idea that Ciel was a slut and he's not changing that idea no matter what. He'll avoid Ciel and treat him like he's a nobody. He won't have anything to the boy anymore.

First period haven't began yet. Ciel was at his locker with Alois waiting for the blonde to get his history book out. He didn't know that Sebastian was in the classroom and wasn't expecting seeing him after being rudely ignored this weekend. He told Alois and Alois said the Sebastian's defiantly having second thought.

Ciel stood in front of the door and Alois waited for him to move but when he didn't he peeked over the small boy and saw Sebastian standing with Aleister looking very comfortable. He saw Mr. Spears stand up and walk to the board to write something and when he was done he looked over at Sebastian with blank expression "Sebastian, since this is not your class, leave. I don't want your homeroom teacher to think I'm keeping you here"

Sebastian turned to him and Ciel saw his sharp eyes again. He had a different look than usual "Why? Afraid I might make this class interesting?" Laughs were heard from all over the class and Aleister grinned while waiting for Spears to say something.

"Get out" Spears demanded with a firm tone.

Sebastian chuckled and walked away from the desks and towards the door "Relax old man, or you might get a heart attack, not that I see anything wrong with that" he smirked and put his hands in his pocket.

Ciel waited for their eyes to meet. For Sebastian to look at him. This wasn't Sebastian, not the one he knew. He wasn't sure if he should be shocked or scared right now. Sebastian looked up and his eyes barely met Ciel's before he walked right past him, ignoring him like he's not even standing there. Ciel froze in his place, his heart beat the only thing he could hear right now. Above the voices of the student and even Alois'.

Alois pulled Ciel by the wrist inside the classroom and seated him in the chair. He sat next to him and turned his chair so he was completely facing him. "Ciel?" He called with a worried voice.

Ciel looked at him with a hard faked smile "it's fine. I shouldn't have gotten my hopes up anyway."

Alois bit his lip, he wanted to punch Sebastian in the face and wake him up. Was if fun for him to treat Ciel like this, to torture the boy and break his heart every chance he gets.

The bell rang and both males flinched as they woke up from their daydreaming. Their thoughts were cut short and Ciel didn't mind whatsoever. Now he had the chance to get Sebastian out of his mind, even if it was for few minutes. Sebastian didn't want Ciel, and now he could tell everyone that he's gay. Aleister could know and he wouldn't hesitate to tell everyone. Why couldn't Sebastian just break up like a normal couple instead of making Ciel go through hell.

Sebastian and Ash sat together during lunch, there was nothing to talk about and Sebastian refused to even mention the name Ciel. He had already called Ash and told him that he's backing down from the bet because he can't sleep with a guy. Ash didn't believe him but didn't push the matter in fear if Sebastian getting mad and punch him in the face when he sees him. Ash wanted to know the real reason for Sebastian forfeit. Did Ciel find out, was he embarrassed to admit that he couldn't get Ciel in bed, or did Ciel cheat with someone else and he just lost. Ash placed his fork down and didn't look up from his food. "Do you like him?" He asked with much annoyance.

Sebastian turned to him and frowned his eyebrows "What's that supposed to mean?"

"Why did you back down? Do you like him now?" He repeated with the same tone but this time he met the crimson eyes.

"I didn't feel like fucking a dude since I'm not gay. So, no, I don't like him. It's exactly the opposite of that" Sebastian explained with his eyes flaming with rage.

Ash breathed a laugh "that would be so believable if you didn't act like this bet was so fucking important just two days ago" he pushed the problem and there was no going back now.

Sebastian tried not to slam the table too hard "Fuck off Ash. I said drop it. I'm paying for you, aren't I? You should be happy"

Ash laid back on the chair and held a glare "oh! I see, so now you suddenly have 300 to spear?" He asked with all the right intentions to start a fight.

"That's none of your fucking business" Sebastian stated as he got up and pushed the chair too fat behind him.

Ash followed with a calm expression and tried to match Sebastian's fast pace "So you wouldn't mind if I told him about our little bet?"

Sebastian was topped by the words. He didn't move, not even flinch. His eyes stared into nothing and Ash found his answer. Sebastian didn't mind Ciel hating him, but once Ciel was hurt by him then he'll know he's screwed. Ash smiled and walked in front of Sebastian "always a pleasure talking to you Sebastian"

Ash was gone off his sight before he could finish one thought. Was Ash really serious about telling Ciel? Could Sebastian live with the guilt of having seeing the boy hurt all the time. Or even worse, not seeing him at all. Sebastian found his feet again and he started moving. He didn't know where he should go or where Ciel would be right now but he all knew was that he can't have the boy knowing the truth. He left the cafeteria and he could see Ash's figure at the end of the long hallway. He was heading right, to where Ciel's locker was, he started running and felt that he was still too slow.

When he reached the end of the hallway he turned right and stopped when he saw two small figure at the longer hallway. He couldn't be sure if it was Ash or not but he started running again. His heart beat becoming louder and louder. Not because of the running but because he started seeing a small body next to Ciel's locker. Sweat was forming and his legs wanted to give in. He could see Ash standing next to the small boy. He slowed down and took in the sight. He wanted to be wrong so much that he kept walking until few feet separated them.

Ash had his hand around the boy's shoulder, his face too close for Sebastian's liking and he was whispering something in his ear while looking at Sebastian. Ciel was frozen in place. His eyes refused to look at Sebastian and his mind blowing all over the place. His ear burned with every word and he felt his heart being crushed slowly. Sebastian saw everything on Ciel's face. The shock, then the disbelieve, then pain, there was a lot of pain. Sebastian felt his weight was too much. He wanted to rip Ash away from the boy. Having him close with Ciel like this just made him boil. On top of that he was telling him what a horrible person Sebastian is. He was telling the boy the truth.

Ash smiled and pated Ciel's chest with his free hand twice before pulling back and standing next to him. Sebastian waited, he waited for Ciel to be mad, to hate him, to get so angry and punch him. Ciel simply stood in his place, eyes too tried to even look up, but he knew that he needed to look Sebastian in the eye and see if this is really the truth. Did Sebastian only use him, did he pretend this whole time, was Ciel just another slut that he can throw away.

Their eyes met and Sebastian sucked a breath, he's never been this scared in his life. Ciel was so close to crying that he couldn't trust his voice. He looked straight through Sebastian and his sapphires burned with pain.

Ash was the first to break the silence "Lots of looks being exchanged here, care to share some words Sebastian"

Sebastian shot him a death glare and he went back to looking at Ciel while taking a slow step towards him.

Ciel flinched unconsciously and swallowed lightly, completely avoiding the scarlet orbs. "Is it true?" His voice was too weak and unsure, but he couldn't care less right now.

"Ciel-"

Ciel cut him off with half a yell this time "just answer me!" His teary eyes looked at the ground in front of him, he didn't want Sebastian to see him like this, weak and vulnerable.

Sebastian walked towards him again "I didn't want to hurt you, I swear-"

He was cut off again and this time Ciel knew he was crying "just stay away from me." Ciel took off running as fast as he can leaving the two males alone, one with a smile and one with raging anger.

Ciel ran to the only person he runs to all the time. His only friend, the only person who would never judge him. He wondered why it had to be him, out of all people why it had to be him, why did he have to be the one who gets hurt like this. As if he haven't gone through enough. Now everyone will know he's gay, one more thing to be made fun of. How was he supposed to get though another year of this. It was all because of Sebastian. It was because he let his guard down and chose to like someone so sick and messed up. Someone who doesn't deserve to be loved. He made another mistake and he has to pay for it. This was more than just a broken heart that will heal in time, his heart was now completely crushed, too broken to be fixed.