I wasn't surprised when I was back in the Bleak white room. But my heart rate suddenly pounded as if it were trying to break through my chest, as I realized there was no door. A woman emerged from the corner of the room with a smug smile. "Finally, I've been waiting for you. You wil lnow be given the death serum. Enjoy your last breaths." She smiled walking back into the corner. The lady came back she held a needle in her hand with a strange purple liquid waiting to be injected into me. She lunged for me but I ran into the corner watching her disappear into thin air. The walls began closing in on me again, and I crouched into a small ball and told myself over and over again that it wasn't real. The walls disappeared.

I was now in the Amity gardens hidden within hundreds of Amity crowded round a small stage, which Johanna Reyes stood on. I tried to get through to the crowds and to the front but no one would move. I began pushing people but they didn't seem to be affected by it. Johanna began a speech. "The last few weeks have been a hard time for us all but, we cannot let the hard times get the better of us. We must carry on in life, it is what they would of wanted." She began. Wait, who was she talking about? What does she mean by we must carry on in life? "We give our thanks to all those who lost their lives in honor of our safety… Jessica Holmes, Harrison Chappemen, Cali lee… " Johanna listed. I was screaming for people to move but no one heard. And it all became clear when she finished her speech. "And we shall always remember Natasha, and her sacrifices for the greater good. We will never be able to repay you, for your acts but we will never forget." Tears streamed down my face. "I'm not dead. I'm here! I'm alive. Listen to me!" I screamed shaking Johanna, but everyone walked away. And I was left to watch my mother and sister grieve over the death that never happened. I fell to the floor unable to keep myself up and chocked on my tears. "Not real… It's not real. No. This never happened." And eventually I saw the scene in front of me disappear and I was launched into oblivion yet again.

My breathing became heavy and each breath I took choked me. I was lying on the floor struggling for air. I struggled to my feet and gasped for air as I held myself up against a nearby tree. My consciousness faded between every last breath I took and I found myself back on the floor. How was I meant to get out of this fear? Maybe I had to just accept suffocating… And after my last breath I refused to take any more. A burning sensation rose from my chest up my throat then to my head as I drifted into darkness.

When I was aware again I took quick breaths and stood up. In front of me was a knife. "Take the knife." A voice boomed. "NO." I responded. "You really might not want to refuse my orders…" The voice sneered. "NO!" I yelled. But just as I refused my hand reached out to take it. As I tried to drop it my grip became tighter and tighter… "What the hell?" I screamed. "I tried to warn you but you can be so… stubborn." The voice laughed. My knuckles were white from the grip, "I want you to kill her…" The voice said as a small dark figure emerged from the darkness. "I can't kill someone!" I said my voice breaking. "You can or I will." The voice chuckled. I ran far away from the figure but as I reached a safe distance my body was being pulled towards her. And that's when I realized who it was, Anya. "Just a simulation." I muttered under my breath. "What was that?" The voice asked. "Just a simulation!" I screamed. And my knife went straight for her heart. Just as the knife pierced her skin I yanked it back, and it went straight through my skin. The pain was excruciating and I shed several tears as I fell to the ground. They weren't tears of terror or fear, they were because that's when I realized it was all going to be ok… And the pain slowly faded as I descended into darkness again.

I blinked a couple of times as my eyes had to adjust to the darkness, but as far as I knew my heart was already racing. I felt a tickle run up my leg and when I slapped it, I began to panic because there were constantly more running up my legs. Spiders. I screamed as they covered up my flesh and began crawling down my sleeves, but I began to hyperventilate when they were by my mouth and eyes. I slapped them but each time one died it would bring back a dozen more. I struggled for breath as they crawled into my mouth. I spat them out and calmed my breathing. I imagined that I was back in the dauntless compound. And after minutes I was free of the spiders.

I stepped out in front of me but hit a plank of wood, I felt my way around it but I was trapped. I kicked at the wood but it just resulted in filling the box with soil… Wait, was I buried alive? I kicked at the wood and screamed for help but it only resulted in my getting a mouthful of soil. So when I stopped screaming, I lay there. And enjoyed the peace, ignoring the fact I was stuck in a box and the wood disappeared around me.

A woman stared me in the eye, she had a blonde bob and plain grey eyes. In her hand she gripped a needle full of a purple-black serum. "Any last words?" she asked mockingly. I squirmed under her grip. "I guess not…" she smiled and injected me with the serum. My legs became numb but I kept moving them, and slowly my body became more and more tired I let out frustrated screams and grunts but I wouldn't let this serum work on me. NO. I kept moving when she returned. "Oh, having trouble?" She smiled holding me still and I lost all feeling in my legs. And then my Arms and my vision went black…

I heard a gun click into place and a cold sensation ran through my back as I felt it being pressed there. And my body was flung forward as the trigger was pulled back and the bullet descended into my back. The pain was agonizing but with every move I made it increased so I lay still. I waited for the pain to fade, it never did. A searing pain shot through my back as I tried to sit up. But I propped myself against the wall and sat in a pool of my own blood, and my back was extremely painful. I moved my head slightly to the left and looked for something, but I didn't know what. My eyes skimmed the room and landed on the gun. There was a way to overcome this… But would it work… It's only a simulation… I pulled myself across the floor and screamed in agony, and grasped the gun. I raised it to my head and I winced in pain. But as soon as my fingers curled around the trigger my doubts vanished and so did my pain. And I pulled it…

I stood in a mirrored room, there were at least a dozen mirrors here. I stared at my reflection and let out a small gasp as I found my youth had been swapped for a lifetime's worth of aging. Tears ran down my face and I couldn't bear looking at my reflection any longer and I turned around. But each time I turned around I was facing the same mirror with the same reflection staring back at me. I punched at the mirror in frustration and watched my knuckles bleed. The mirror had cracked into a million more mirrors that reflected the same image. But I stared right at them, this was an illusion I am still young and I still have a life to live… I didn't blink until the mirrors disappeared.

My hair flew back behind me as I fell through thin air. My arms flew out from my sides and the ground never got closer. I screamed but the air took my voice. I twisted and turned but this made me feel sick, but the ground never got any closer. My heart paced and I was beginning to get scared. No… NO! I couldn't allow myself to feel scared, because I wasn't. Well I was but thinking I was would only scare me more. I closed my eyes and pictured myself falling as I was now. I thought of ways I could calm down. And I tried them but at the moment luck wasn't on my side, and I just ended up becoming more and more afraid. I closed my eyes once again, and pictured myself. But instead of falling I landed on the ground, safely. And when I opened my eyes there I was, on the ground safe, just like I had imagined.

I jerked up, I was back in the simulation room. Oh how I was grateful to be out of my fear landscape. "You ok?" Christina asked. "Yeah." I replied. "How long?" I asked. "12 minutes." She smiled. I let out a long sigh, how long had Christina been here? "How long have you been here?" I asked. "Just when you woke up." She told me. "So you didn't see my fear landscape at all…" I questioned. "No… But we saw your reactions, the whole of dauntless did! Oh my favorite part was when you started slapping yourself!" She laughed. "Stupid spiders!" I muttered, as Christina walked me out, laughing at my funny reactions. Outside the room Will was waiting for Us. "What were your fears then? They were quite funny to watch!" He laughed. "Claustrophobia, Not being seen or heard, suffocating, Killing my sister, spiders, being buried alive, being given death serum, dying a painful death, becoming old and falling." I admitted. "Wow, you only had 10 fears!" Will exclaimed. "Yeah, why?" I asked. "Because that's not a lot compared to the fears your meant to have…" Christina explained. "You know last year someone was afraid of moths!" Will smirked, as Christina blushed. "Christina?" I chuckled, as she blushed an even deeper shade of red.

Before Christina got a chance to admit her fear Max interrupted her. "Initiates this is your last day. By the end of today 13 will become dauntless members. The rest will become factionless. Tonight all the initiates are to attend the banquet, where the final rankings will be revealed." Max Announced, as the dauntless cheered and pounded their fists in the air. After Max's small speech I managed to Locate Meg with Elis Brooke and Liv. I said goodbye to Christina and Will and walked over to them. "Hey." I smiled. None of them seemed nervous, they all looked at me with wide eyes. "Well, we are all going to die our hair and buy some new clothes for tonight." Elis grinned. "But what if we have to leave?" I ask. "Well if any of us leaves then we will leave in style!" Brooke grinned. And we all walked off into the pit.

I stared in amazement at all the colours you could dye your hair. There was pink, Green, Red, Blonde, Brown, Black, Purple, Blue…. And yeah we spent ages picking out colours, I picked purple and pink. Liv choose red, Meg had blonde, Elis had black and Brooke had brown. After I chose my hair dye I roamed the shop and ended up choosing a black dress with long sleeves and pair of black studded lace up boots.

Back in the dorms we ran in and out the bathroom using our hair dye, we all chose to dip dye our hair the colours we had bought. My blonde hair was pink and Purple at the tips, and it looked amazing. I got changed into my dress and slipped on my boots, but just before I left I ran back for my leather jacket, I felt more comfortable with my jacket.

We all walked into the cafeteria together and sat in silence as we waited for the rankings. "Well, I'm not too keen on speeches and I'm sure the initiates would kill me if I did a big one right now, well only if they could kill me. But that's not that likely." Four chuckled revealing the board:

Shane

Elis

Tasha

Meg

Owen

Brooke

Alex

Liv

Laura

Jacob

Darren

Jay

"I'm sorry to say but the following initiates have the rest of the hour to pack their stuff and leave. Talia, George and Sienna." Tris announced.


Thank you for all the reviews i've had, the story isn't done yet. I still have a few tricks up my sleeve! Sorry for any mistakes! One of my friends TrisandFour64xxx has just begun a story similar to mine, it is called The initiate's wold, i loved it, go check it out! ;) - T