Haku POV
Sometimes, I sit in my room for hours, blocking the door, and I just think. I think about anything from, fireflies, to all the funerals I've been to. Sometimes I just like to lock myself in my imagination for while. Sometimes I tune everything out and just sit there, staring at the wall lifelessly.
Today, I'm lying in the middle of floor, staring at the ceiling. Not thinking, not imaging anything, just staring. And strangely, I find myself hoping that Neru might stop by. Hoping she might stay for a while, lie down and talk with me, or maybe lie down and stare at the ceiling with me.
But I know that won't happen, after-all, it's not like she likes me.
I need to stop thinking like this so much…
Shaking the thought from my head, I start to hum something, to help numb my thoughts.
Giving a heavy sigh, I decide to go for a short walk, to clear my head a little. Pushing myself off the ground I throw on a loose hoodie and hesitantly grab the doorknob.
Should I go out there? The better question is can I got out there… What if they all want to hurt me? What if they want to use me?
What if they're all just my imagination…? What if no one was there when I went out?
I'd be alone… I don't mind that…
"God Haku… Pull yourself together!" I mutter to myself, resting my head against the door. My breath picks up a little, and I shake slightly. I try to take some deep breaths, to calm myself down, until a thought crosses my mind.
"Neru"
And suddenly I find myself halfway down the hall, stumbling over to the stairs. I'm too drained to care that I probably shouldn't rely on someone I only met nearly a week ago; too tired to care that I'm being selfish.
I find myself nearly running up the stairs, only stopping when I run straight into someone, effectively knocking me to the ground.
"Oh jeez, I'm sorry Haku!" someone laughs awkwardly, holding out their hand to help me up. I hesitantly grab it, pulling myself up, looking down at the person.
"It's fine Gumi." I sigh shakily.
"You ok? You seem a little off…" she tilts her head to the side, frowning.
"Y-yeah… I'm fine. I was ju-just going for a walk" I gulp uncertainly, god I'm a horrible liar… Why am I even lying about this in first place?
"Bullshit," she glares at me, "you had another panic attack didn't you?"
"I-I… well-"
"Come on, we're getting you some hot chocolate!" she grabs my wrist, tugging me back downstairs.
Bursting through the kitchen door, Gumi let's go of my wrist, setting off to make some hot chocolate. "I hope you like yours with vanilla it's the only kind they have here." She chuckles lightly, shrugging.
"No I d-don't mind." I shake my head slightly, my mind still dwelling on Neru.
Neru POV
I grumble slightly as I turn up my iPod, trying to concentrate on the Mindless Self Indulgence song I have playing. I've been huddled under my covers, listening to all my favorite songs for over an hour. I got this feeling earlier that something happened… I don't know what, something just happened. So grabbed my headphones out of my barely unpacked backpack, shoved them on, and tried to distract myself. It was working for the most part, but my mind just kept wandering back to it.
I sigh, pulling the blanket tighter around myself, trying to warm up a little. Maybe I should take a nap or something… Nah, I sleep too much as it is. Maybe I should… eat something…I am feeling rather weak today.
No. No definitely not… God I hate myself.
Maybe I could go talk to Haku, being around her makes me feel better...
Making up my mind, I sit up groggily, readjusting my headphones. But before I can go anywhere, the door bursts open, and Haku stumbles in, followed by a satisfied looking Gumi.
"Stay here, I'll be back in a little while! Doctor Dingbat wants me." Gumi grins, skipping out the door, nearly slamming it behind her. I'm pretty sure someone just said "That's not my name!" but I can't tell.
"Oh uh, hey Haku." I yawn nervously, looking to the side.
"He-hey…" she trails off, taking a sip of something from a mug.
We're quiet for a little while, both of us kinda tense. I let out a silent breath, and for some odd reason, I find myself listening to hers. It's shallow, and a little ragged. I wonder why…
"Hey Haku, are you feeling alright?" what a dumb question…
"Y-ye-yeah, I'm fine."
"Liar." I shoot back, frowning.
"y-you're smart." She breathes tiredly.
And now there's just silence again. I don't mind too much, I'm used to silence. I look over at Haku, and she's trembling slightly, too much to be shivering, but almost too little to notice.
"C'mere for sec…" I wave her over, patting the spot next to me. She hesitantly walks over and sits down. I slip my headphones over her ears, and switch to the playlist that I put on when I can't get to sleep.
"Thank you…" she murmurs, relaxing a little.
"Anytime." I yawn again, giving my blanket to Haku, wrapping it around her shoulders.
"Aren't you cold?"
"Nah, I'll be fine, I've had my share of warmth-solace." I say without thinking.
"What do you mean?" she tilts her head to the side, blinking.
God she's adorable…
"Being warm makes me feel better. I can't really explain it, but it makes me feel calmer, and a little tired." I yawn, yet again. Damn I feel really tired… and numb now that I think about it. My head starts throbbing and I know that if I don't try to sleep this off, I'll probably black out again. "You don't mind if take a quick nap do you?" I ask quietly, my voice wavering slightly.
"No… I don't mind." She frowns, patting my head.
She continues to stroke my hair as I try to even out my breathing, dozing off.
"Sleep well." Is the last coherent thing I hear before drifting off.
