The twins were six months old, Angelle had taken the role of big sis to heart, Ty saw himself in her alot. It took Bay two weeks to finally have the boy's name, Bohdi Alexander Mendoza, Ty loved it. The babies had unusual first names with middle names that they could use if they were embarrassed
Ty was working outside, Bay wanted a swimming pool for the kids, Ty bought a five foot deep above ground pool and John and Toby helped them put it up. He was making a deck around it, it was march and it would be perfect for the summer, every weekend he was working on it.
Jacob knocked on the door, when Bay saw him her heart fell, it had been over a year since she saw him. He wanted to talk to Ty so she said he was in the back yard, she looked out of the kitchen window. They talked for a while, Ty sat down and listened to what he had to say.
Ty told him bye and it looked like he was coming inside, Bay sat at the kitchen table, her heart felt like it was beating out of her chest.
He walked in and got him some water, he looked at the fear on Bay's face," I love you " he said.
A tear fell down her cheek, he pulled a chair right in front of her, " baby there is reason for tears, he just wanted to tell us they identified Nancho's body."
She closed her eyes, " I thought I would never hear that name again, I'm glad that I know for sure he is dead."
He rubbed her cheek, he really wanted to kiss her, "you never had anything to worry about, I would not let anything happen to you again."
"Do they know what happened. "
Just then they heard little foot steps, Angelle woke up from her nap, she saw Ty and ran to him. "Your girls love you more than me" Bay said.
"Just have them spoiled, Bohdi is stubborn, wonder where he gets that from" he kisses Bay on the forehead and gets his angel some juice.
The twins were just like her, Bohdi had Angelo's temper while Isly would be a little artist. She saw colors and would try to put them together, Angelle's puzzles were always apart, she would have them with all of the same colors together.
She is sitting in her hi chair having some cheerios, "baby can we send the kids to your parents house tonight, I know that they have never spent the night away from you but I will take you to dinner. Please say that we can do this tonight, I know how hard it was hearing that about him, I will take care of everything."
She really needed a night away, " if I miss them too much can we go get them?"
He shakes his head, " of course baby, I know you need a break from everything, tell me where you want to eat."
"At home, you can grill us steaks, I have a surprise for you."
"I'm scared very scared, baby you are my world, I will go take a shower before I go bring them."
An hour later she was taking a bath, Ty gets home and knocks on the bathroom door, " I'm home."
Bay doesn't respond, she loves him so much but how can he love her when she is all used up.
She gets out of the tub and dries off, she was putting lotion all over her body when the door opens, "baby I was just making sure you are all right, I am marinating the steaks."
She grabbed the towel and had tears in her eyes, he goes into the bathroom, " baby I have kissed every inch of your body, you have nothing to be ashamed of."
Her head was down, " I don't even look the same, all of this weight that I haven't lost yet so I'm ashamed."
He picks her up and goes into their room, " you had three children, I really don't care how you think you look, I love you so much and nothing will change that."
"I don't feel like myself anymore, my belly's flabby, I feel like I will never get better."
He sat on the bed with her on his lap, he put his hand on her stomach, " you are the most important thing in the world to me, one day you will wake up and feel like a knew woman, I love you."
She had her head on his shoulder, he took one of her hands and kissed it, she looked at him and kissed his neck.
He took her off of his lap, "I will go put the steaks cooking."
"You can leave me I know that I am a disappointment, you can see the kids when ever you want."
His back was turned at the door, he turns and sees tears streaming down her face," baby I will never leave you." He walks up to her and gets on his knees," that was the first time you have been affectionate towards me in over thirteen months, I had to take you off of my lap because I am so hard for you right now, forever baby."
She hugged him, it felt so good, like she really needed him. He took her face in his hands, " remember that I will always be waiting, no pressure or anything from me, I will show you how beautiful you are" he kissed her on the forehead and left.
They sat outside and ate, when they were done they sat on the swing and talked, " I have something to tell you and you might be upset."
He looked at her," what in the world could you have to tell me, I could never be mad at you."
" I was not taking the pill after I had Angelle, I wanted to get pregnant again."
He closed his eyes, "when they told me at the hospital that you were pregnant, I knew that you weren't taking anything, I prayed for ya'll so much. I am not upset about anything, twins were a big surprise but I love everyone so much."
He opened his eyes and saw the smile on her face, she hardly ever smiled from her heart. "Now I have to tell you something too, you probably won't have that look on your face anymore. "
She got up and ran into the house,she comes out with her hands behind her back, " before you tell me I have a surprise."
He looked unsure, " Natalie came see me a month ago, I was upset so she gave me something, I figured we would enjoy it together."
He had a look on his face," same surprise that she gave us before you got pregnant with Grace?" Bay nodded her head
She was leaning on him and his arm was around her, they had just finished their joint, they laughed and now they were just enjoying each other.
" I have to tell you something and I imagine that you won't be happy. " She sat up and looked at him, " your children will all be going to school the same year."
"No way that is impossible "
"Baby they were born 10 and a half months apart, so you had better love them one while they are home with you."
She looked at him, " well you will have to get me pregnant again, we can wait a few years though."
"I love you so much baby, it might be difficult to get pregnant, remember the Dr said there was a lot of damage. I am glad that he didn't have to give you a hysterectomy, you have to realize that it may not be that easy. "
"I would have to be naked in front of you and I would have to let you touch me, can we try tonight? "
He stopped breathing, " how about we work on you tonight, I promise to make sure you cum so many times , we need to make you ok with being my beautiful wife. "
She shrugged her shoulders, " I love you too, Ty will you take care of me tonight, I'm not sure I can do anything. "
He picked her up and brought her into the house, he walked into the bedroom and didn't turn the lights on, he laid her on the bed and kissed her.
No part of his body was touching her, she pull away from him, " my breasts please."
He sat up and looked at her, " can I take off your shirt and bra?"
She took off her shirt and he took her bra off, " you are so fucking beautiful" she grabbed him and started kissing him. He was so hard, he grabbed her by her shoulders and took a deep breath, "Bay if you do that again I will cum in my pants, lay down and please let me show you how many times that I can make you scream."
She laid down and took her sweats off, "please make me cum baby please."
They kissed and he played with her nipples, she kept moving her hips, "make love to me."
He sat up again, " tonight is all about you, can I take off your panties?"
She nodded her head, he stood up and took them off, it was dark in the room but she looked so beautiful. Her hair was spread over the pillows, he kneels on the bed and took one foot and starting kissing her, when he got to the middle he licked her. She screamed and came, he kissed the other leg down to her toes. She was breathing so hard he went to the middle again, he kissed her again and she was screaming.
He sat up and looked at her, " baby can I touch you, I want you to cum all over my fingers?"
She got on her knees and started kissing him, "Ty I have to make you cum, I need to please, It's been too long."
" I will not make love to you, you deserve to be treated like a queen, baby please lay down and let me love you."
She was having none of it, she unzipped his pants and put her hand around him, he was cumming too.
He collapsed on the bed, he looks up and she is just sitting there with tears in her eyes, "did I do something wrong, baby please don't cry."
"You didn't want to have sex with me, I understand why but it's hard for me."
He sat up, "Bay you are crazy, I was trying to make you so comfortable, I have been wanting to have sex with you forever but you have to be alright with me. Baby please understand how much I need you, I have to love you, you are my life."
She hugged him and he pulled her down so that she was laying next to him.
"I really want to try, please can we?"
He started laughing," I don't have any condoms so no we can't try, baby you know how much I want to make you ok with everything, I will pick some up tomorrow."
She sat up and looked at him, " you told me a few hours ago that it will be hard for me to get pregnant, so I don't know why you need condoms."
He shook his head, " It is because I don't even want to take the chance, Bay we are raising six month old twins, I really can't afford any more now. I will get condoms until you decide you will have some kind of birth control, I would get a vasectomy but you want to have another baby so that's out, so if you wait one day we can loose our selves in each other."
She laid back down, " when you wake up you will go and I will try birth control but now I have the munchies."
The next morning he went to the pharmacy and picked up condoms, it had been so long since he had to buy some that it took about twenty minutes. He got donuts and went back to the house, he walks into the bedroom and she is not in bed, he walks to the bathroom but the door is opened and he doesn't see her. He walks back to the bedroom and walks in, he sees her on the floor behind the chair they had just bought, she had her hands on top of her head like she was hiding.
Since the babies were born she hadn't had a nightmare or slept walked, she had only slept walked once since he was sleeping with her. He woke her and she started fighting him, he put everything down on the bed and moved the chair, he sat next to her and waited for her to wake up.
About an hour later she starts crying, "baby I'm right here, can I hold you?" She looks at him and starts crying so much harder, he picks her up and kisses her forehead, "I am not going anywhere, I know we talked about it yesterday, I stopped to think about how it affected you. I love you so much baby, I should have stayed with you, please know that I never want you to be afraid."
She finally got up and went to the bathroom, he hears the shower turn on so he puts the condoms in the drawer.
About thirty minutes later she comes out of the bathroom with a robe on, he was waiting in bedroom waiting for her, " you remember what the psychologist said? "
She had her head down like she was ashamed, " we have to talk about your nightmares, please let me in."
"He was here and he tried but I hid, I didn't know that I was walking, I need to find out how he died. I asked you yesterday but you never answered me, maybe I can let it go if I know."
She sat on the bed and he sat next to her, "he suffocated." She closed her eyes, " I wished it was something more than that, I wanted him to suffer."
Ty let out a little laugh, " well his balls were cut off and shoved into his mouth. His mouth and nose were taped so I believe he suffered, his dick had cuts in it and there was empty bottles of alcohol buried next to him."
"If you would have told me that yesterday maybe I would have slept like a baby, thank you for telling me though."
They laid in bed together for a while, "I went get donuts this morning, are you hungry?"
She turned around and straddled him, "not for food."
