Chapter 9
The curse & and the half breed glow
October came fast. And now it was my first trip ever to Hogsmeade.
We walked down the path towards the rain drenched village without being about to speak a word over the thunder and rain. I loved the ran, but I was the only one in the village not wearing a cloak. I didn't care the rain felt magnificent on my skin.
'WHERE SHOULD WE GO FIRST!' Screamed Ron over the Shriek of the wind which had picked up even more dramatically. I couldn't hear the answer but before I knew it everyone was gone. And I couldn't see anything over the rain.
Hermione's hand came out of nowhere, her screaming voice ringing wordlessly in my ears. After minutes upon minutes it seemed she was dragging me into the deeper darkness.
I heard a door bang open and she dragged me into a cozy pub. The fire place was crackling and the bar tender was watching me, with a smile on her face. A half demon I had set right years ago.
'Madam Rosmerta!' I squealed. Happy to see a old face. She rushed forward wearing a million glittering jewels and one small pearl I had given to her, when she was just a girl.
'Lady InuYasha! How lovely, I never thought I'd see you again!' She put her hands on my face and even though she looked much older then me ( even though I am much older then she) the little girl shone through. 'I will serve you and your friends in a moment!' and she scurried away.
Hermione looked at me with a complex look. But saying nothing she led me to a large table where everyone had taken there seat. 'Oh! You found her!' said Ron smirking 'Thought she got lost in the Shrieking shack. I'll ummm… go get the drinks.' he added going pink.
'Don't need to, Madam Rosmerta is a old friend of InuYasha's.' Hermione said quickly. Ron looking slightly put out said nothing.
Soon Rosmerta came over with eight Butterbeer bottles. And who said nothing but 'No charge.' and walked away with a smile.
I opened the lid, never having tasted it before my team did the same. Shi ( Who even though was a first year I insisted Dumbledore allow her to go.) took a small sip an gasped. Then smiled and went in for a full gulp. Guessing it was good Mitch, Steph, and Kayla all took their drinks. They again smiled and took a drink. I knew Kayla would pay for it later though, Alcohol was much strong for us then for humans.
With my wand under the table I removed the alcohol out of our drinks and nodded to Kayla. With that she tuck into her drink. Slowly, I put the glass bottle to my lips.
It was so sweet. It was butter scotch, and caramel, chocolate and milk. It was amazing. I must have finished it in five swigs.
'Shall we head back to the school then?' Asked Ron.
Heading up to the castle was no picnic either. The rain and voices ahead were screaming. 'This has nothing to do with you Leanne!'
The rain had parted only for a second, Katie bell was arguing with a friend. Katie pulled a brown package out of a dark haired girls hand.
Katie rose in the air, arms spread like an angle. And she started to scream. A necklace fell out of the package while the others were trying to pull her down.
It was a black Shikon no' Tama copy. A corrupted one. I went to pick it up. I was like my mother, I could purify it.
The moment I picked it up my hand burned. Crying out in surprise I let it go. The curse with it absorbing into my skin.
'Shit! Son of a…. arrrr!' Keeping my hand covered up I turned over to Katie who was withering. The curse put on her would have killed her if It was any stronger. This curse was meant to crimple me threw the times in the feudal era originally.
Hagrid showed up right then. Sucking it up I stuck my hand into my pocket, the curse was spreading up my arm.
I followed Harry and everyone else while Hagrid ran up to the castle with a withering Katie. The pain was increasing, it was terrible.
Everything was becoming a blur. I didn't hear the Professor as she screamed and spoke, who ever she was. A cold sweat swept threw me, everything was going white.
Naraku who had sent the corrupted jewel now had me in his grips, and it burned a searing pain. I wanted the burning to stop… his voice held me closer.
He showed be terrible things, Him killing everyone I cared for one by one, Then I, a full demon blood on my hands, Hermione and Ron dead on the ground, I holding Harry's dead body by the hair with a smile on my face.
Kill…
No!
The pain doubled I cried out at the burning.
Voldemort will kill you if you don't. He knows you love the boy, He is much less merciful of his enemies then me, Kill, save him from tainted love of a half demon…
I don't love Harry!
Then why is it that you think of him always, I've seen into your mind, You dream of him, And if he doesn't love you back you'll kill him, so die first…
'NO! I DO NOT!'
Love, tainted love… You will be the death of the boy.
'I will never! I have better control!'
You're a monster….
'SHUT UP!'
Will you kill him like you slaughtered that village? Or attack him slowly like your father did your mother when he lost control….
'I TOLD YOU TO SHUT UP!'
You want him InuYasha….
'It doesn't matter…'
And he wants you…
'You're a liar.'
I work with Voldemort now. He sees into the boys mind, He dreams about you…
'NO! STOP IT!'
It was torture how could my mind that was such a secure place let him read me like an open book. The same and Voldemort and Harry, The pain hit me again, only much harder screaming out Naraku spoke again.
He will be your dominator if you allow him to get closer to you…
'No one will ever…'
And then he will die from your tainted love, look at you scared mother as proof. You like your father are killers, not lovers. Born Monsters…
'SHUT UP!'
'InuYasha! It's okay, darling, my love. It's okay…' Came a motherly voice from my side.
Sitting up, my eyes popped open. I was in the hospital wing, there was a lot of people around me. Some having being students easily were here, others not so much.
My mother, Kagome ( tear stricken, but beautiful with her hair in a bun, green eyes with worry stuck within.) , had a arms around me. On the other side was my father, InuYasha( Dressed in a red wizard robes, black long hair, looking surprisingly dashing, black eyes shadowed with concern), patting my hair. Beside my mother was my sister holding my hand, at the edge was Ron and Mitch with Miroku and Sango, who looked like they just stopped a conversation.
On my lap was Shi who seemed to be crying tears of joy as Shippo ( Her tiny father) was trying to pull her off. Steph was sitting beside Hermione who had opened a book called Evil curses, and how to speed the healing of the hurt ,Inusuke standing off away from the rest looking smug, and Harry (Making my heart race) was holding my other hand looking at me in wonder.
Suddenly I pictured a scene with Harry praying over my body that made no movement to wake up. I shook my head and erased it. Shaking my head again I thought Don't think about that, You don't wanna think about that! That movement made me realize that my hair swaying in front of me was…
'We've explained it to Hermione and Ron dear, of course you couldn't hold it in. They got you to the hospital wing when your hair was white, but your ears hadn't formed. People think it was the curse.' My mother said soothingly as I was holding my white hair. I looked over at Hermione, she looked like she was fighting a scream. Giving her the nose up, with the half demon proud look I turned to Harry.
'Where's Katie? I don't see her.' I asked giving me a good reason to stop thinking about Hermione.
'A wizard hospital. If you haven't woken in another day you would have been too.' He replied.
Shock filled my face ' Another day? '
Harry nodded. 'You've been out for two weeks.'
I laid back on my bed. Harry was staring at my ears. I sighed 'Go ahead, everyone does.' knowing what unexplainable urge had hit him. And with a smile on his face he touched my dog ears.
Twitching at the nice feeling, I looked away to table of sweets and cards, I looked at them confused.
'Ginny, Neville, and Luna and the rest of the Gryffindor's heard what happened and sent you these.' Said Kayla.
Not moving my head so Harry could continue petting my ears ( which was the most amazing thing I've ever felt) and picked up a box of Jelly beans.
The nurse came over and told everyone visiting hours were over. But when Harry's hand was in danger of leaving I grabbed his arm and growled at her. Rolling her eyes she walked away.
Harry smiling continued to pet my ears as slowly everyone started to file out. When we were alone something caught my eye.
A box of crystallized pineapple had a violet ribbon and a parchment note connected, from my demonic eye sight I could read it from my bed.
Ms, Higurashi,
Hoping that you are well in four weeks I am having a Christmas Party. If you are able to come in with be splendid. It is formal so wear a gown.
Your Sincerely,
Professor Slughorn
Suddenly another un invited scene came to my head, Harry and I in a lantern filled room, Him in wizard robes me in a tight styled kimono…
' I got one too today.' Harry said noticing my eyes had drifted from his face. Smiling he moved himself to be sitting beside me stroking my ear. It was dark that lanterns were lit. His eyes seemed to sparkle. ' Go with me. Help out a ugly boy so he doesn't have to go alone.'
'I don't know how to dance…' I said stupidly.
'I learned when we had the TriWizard tournament Yule Ball. Here.' He waved his wand and quietly the music came on, Harry pointing his wand at the nurse said 'Muffilo' And gave me his hand. Blushing I took it. The floor was cold on my warm feet.
We moved in a little circle, Rolling our eyes at each other and laughed I hugged him. Accepting the hug but still swaying I whispered ' This is my favourite love song.'
I felt Harry' s body heat up in what I knew was a blush ' Not many people here know Muggle songs.'
I nodded in agreement, Absorbing this perfect moment, thinking about Naraku's words You want him…. And he want's you…. ' My mother won't let anyone have a wedding without Iris.' Closing my eyes I remembered when I was a little girl my mother and fathers wedding them dancing to this song with Kayla and I dancing like them together beside them. Without think I whispered out the lines. 'And I'd give up forever to touch you, Cause I know that you feel me somehow, You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be, And I don't want to go home right now, And all I can taste is this moment, And all I can breathe is your life, Cause sooner or later it's over, I just don't want to miss you tonight…
I laughed at my own stupidity, the fact I was dancing with the boy who these lyrics came to mind every time I was alone with him, But to my surprise, Harry didn't push me away at all, He finished the Chorus, whispering in my ear 'And I don't want the world to see me, Cause I don't think that they'd understand, When everything's made to be broken, I just want you to know who I am
He fell silent ad we danced threw the Verse and Chorus going in circles again, and he spun me when the singer didn't sing. Laughing gently I put my forehead on his and we finished the song in a whisper never taking away green and red from each other 'And I don't want the world to see me, Cause I don't think that they'd understand, When everything's made to be broken, I just want you to know who I am, I don't want the world to see me, Cause I don't think that they'd understand, When everything's made to be broken, I just want you to know who I am.' Without realizing, I gave him the look in which my mother, when she was 15, gave my father. The look he said showed the whole universe. The look that said as silently as the wind blowing in spring That she thought about you.
I smiled looking back at his wonderfully un-ugly beautiful face 'I'll go to Slughorn's party with you'
Harry smiled, and momentarily closed his eyes putting his nose to mine. I felt his lips quiver being centimetres from mine. Wondering what would happen if I removed the space, and if he accepted that, what would happen…
A metal picture came to me, the fact that if I let him even kiss me he could, would die. His lips moved the smallest way towards mine and just as he was about to removed the space…
'Just walk away.' My voice even surprised me. I opened me eyes which I just realized were closed. 'You shouldn't be with me Harry, I'm sure Hermione told you what would happen if I lost control.'
Harry opened his eyes and looked at mine, I could tell he was feeling more denied by the second. 'Death. I know your mother told me too. I asked her about the scar on her neck…'
I hugged him, I hated myself. But my human side was screaming in victory. ' Not now, Not ever. I'm a monster.' I breathed into his ear.
His face and body pulled away from mine as he stalked to the door. Without turning to me he said with a bad attempt to seal the fury and the feeling of rejection in his voice. ' Look at your self in a mirror once and a while InuYasha, your not a monster, How can you be? Every boy in our year likes you.' I felt a little wave of shock. He finally looked at me with his eyes bright with fury. I could tell his scar was hurting him too ' And how can you be a monster, when a monster can't feel regret yet I've seen regret in your eyes from freeing Naraku.' My face went red but he continued ' And how can you be a Monster, when you can understand how it feels to be scared of yourself, to be ignored and hated, and how can you be a monster, when you almost kissed a human, a race your kind of monsters detest.'
I smiled and looked him in the eyes ' And how can I be a monster for wanting to be with a human. How? Because I want to be with him so badly I would let anything hurt him, not even me.'
Harry straightened up 'I can take care of myself!' he shouted at me. I wanted to scream "I know" and jump onto his and kiss him till the sun rose. But I couldn't, That hurt.
'I know, but I've killed people who could take care of themselves before.' And with that I turned my back on Harry Potter. And before leaving I said 'Let's stay friends.' Looking at him once more before I blew out my lantern ' And pretend tonight was just a dream.' I blew out my lantern and Harry's face disappeared.
' What did you wish for when you were little?' Asked Harry's voice.
I twitched no one ever asked that ' I asked then, and when I get the jewel now. I'll wish to be a full demon, and leave my human heart behind.'
I crawled into bed but before I fell asleep for the night I heard a shudder in Harry's voice as I said what I wished for. Harry's voice whisper ' Being human isn't so bad, you can be happy, you can love.' He paused for a moment, I wish I could see his face. 'Your father said that being a full demon was like being gravity for a half demon, when he said that… I thought, I stupidly thought' Anger picked up in his voice. 'That you'd do what you always did, prove everyone wrong. I guess I thought wrong. You don't care for anyone enough to defy gravity .' And his steps softened out of hearing distances into the darkness. My demon blood rushed to y head and when I was sure he was far enough way, I howled, a strange, deafening pain filled howl into the night.
