36. At the Jennifer's
I let loose
I was an unstoppable force
That was killer
And when I felt the craziness
Wear off I just took a pill
And another
And another
Until I dropped to the floor
37. I Lost Control
Took too much
Pills that I should have
I'm gonna die
I know it
I can feel myself
Slipping away
Into oblivion
Never to return
God couldn't help me now
No one could
At least that's what
I thought
I thought wrong.
38. After Being Rushed to the Hospital
And getting my stomach pumped
I was brought back from the dark side
But even though they almost killed me
I wanted more
More drugs
So I could be free
And not care anymore
But like wasn't that easy
Nothing was
39. Josh Was in the Room
When I woke up
He didn't have kind words
He was furious
"What the hell were you thinking?
You could have killed yourself
How could you do something
So dangerous, so carless, so stupid!"
"Thanks MOM for the riot act"
"Don't talk to me like that!
I've been so worried!
You don't know what
You putter everyone into!"
"And I don't care, no one does
I'll do what I want when I want"
"Fine, whatever Carlos just remember
That you're not the only person your
Bringing down"
40. What was that supposed to mean?
I really didn't care though
The guys came in after Josh
Said that same thing
I told them to leave
I didn't care
I would never
All I wanted was more drugs
Now
