Title: Go, Got it Memorized?
Author: Izzy-Lawliet (Rin)
Disclaimer: Let's go over this slowly so you can understand what I'm saying. I do not own this. If I did, do you seriously think that I would be typing a poorly written story like this?
Pairings: Axel/Sora
Rating: M
Warnings: AU, yaoi and whatever comes along with it.
Summary: They met online, met in person, and became friends, what's stopping them from becoming more?
Author's Note: So here's the next chapter. I hope you all enjoy reading it as much as I enjoyed writing it - okay, enjoy it more, because there were parts that I wrote that made me feel like a whore (You'll understand by the end of the chapter. Please review and tell me what you think, I've worked hard on this story, I really have, and I want to know how you all think of it. :]
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I got up feeling like I haven't felt in ages! I woke up in Axel's arms, Reno wasn't mad - okay, maybe a little - and I felt safe as can be. When I got out of bed and the bathroom, Axel was already up and dressed, having laid some clothes laid out on the bed. I walked towards them in my boxers and picked them up, examining them critically.
"Oh, Sor, get over yourself and put them on!" Reno said playfully, softly bumping me with his elbow while walking by. I stuck my tongue out at him and started to take off my pants. I hesitated slightly when I was about to pull them down I looked over at Axel, then to Reno, trying to signal to him that I needed him to distract his brother. Axel nodded and stood up, walked over to his brother before tackling him on the floor, kicking the wall and making a big ol' dent in it. "You little whore!" Reno exclaimed, and then pushed Axel off of him to jump on top of him.
"Shut up, you bitch!" Wow.
I quickly took off my pants while Reno was distracted and couldn't notice my cuts. I took off my boxers too, grabbed the pants and boxers on the bed and pulled them on, surprised when they fit me perfectly. I knew the clothes looked familiar! I haven't seen or worn these in months! Axel must have somehow gotten a hold of them.
Once I pulled on the pants I heard a huge crash and something breaking. I looked over to the guys and saw them still entwined with bloody faces and looking down at a broken lamp.
"Oh, nice going, you nimrod!" Then they started laughing and continued to attack each other with a playful viciousness. I shook my head at there idiocy and finished putting my shirt on. Once that was done I gathered my clothes from yesterday and threw them on what I'm assuming was Axel's bag. I mean, it had his crazy boxers that I bought him months ago at the mall to embarrass him. I just never thought he'd wear them.
I walked over to Reno and Axel and clapped my hands over their heads to get their attention, when that didn't work I kicked one of them in the back - who? I'm not sure. I just know that when I did, there was a girly-like yelp and then they separated. When Reno stood, he pointed to Axel, who was rolling on the floor, holding his back. Dropping to my knees, I rolled him over and onto my lap. I didn't kick him that hard did I?
"Ow, much!" Axel groaned out, obviously in pain. I worried my lip and held his head in my hands, getting him to look at me.
I'm sooooo sorry. I mouthed to him.
"It's okay, you sometimes don't know your - what I thought was - nonexistent strength. Don't worry, Sor. I'm not mad." He said, sitting up and wrapping his arms around me. I would never get tired of the feeling of it.
I backed away from him so he could read my lips. You sure?
"'Course! I know you didn't mean to kick me that hard, you just wanted our attention, right?" I nodded frantically. "Then it's fine. I forgive you." I beamed at him and hugged him again before standing up. I went in to kiss him before I stopped at his bloody lip. "What..? Oh," He wiped his lip and then pressed them to mine in a simple chaste kiss. I slightly winced at the bitter taste but ignored it to kiss him deeper.
"Okay, as much as I would love to watch gay porn, Axel's my brother and for him to be a good boyfriend I have to make sure he gets you home." I backed away once more, but this time with a blush on my cheeks. "Didn't mean to embarrass you, hun." Reno chuckled.
"Leave us alone, Reno." Axel said, defending me since he saw that I was blushing. "I'll take him home. And, yes, I'll walk him to the door, dad."
"Uhm, actually that might not be a good idea."
"Why not?"
"Roxas and Hayner, they might not appreciate you being with Sora."
"So, I'm not going to wuss out, I'm not afraid of Hayner, or Roxas. I'm going to walk Sora to the door, up to his room, and tuck him into bed, after we hang out for the day. I owe Sora at least that." I smiled and stood up, holding out my hand for him to take. When he reached to take it, instead of standing up, he pulled me down on his lap, holding me tightly. I went to get out, but he wouldn't let me. "Uh-uh-uh. You're not getting away from me that easily again."
I stopped struggling and pouted, crossing my arms while in his lap.
"Aww!" Reno said, clapping his hands together and laying them against his face.
"He's adorable!" Axel agreed, hugging me even closer to him.
I pushed off of Axel and went to sit on the bed, but the plan was 'thwarted' when Reno picked me up and planted me on his lap.
"I swear Axel, if I found him first…mm, mm, mm!"
"Hey! But you didn't find him first, so give me back my boyfriend!" Axel said, standing up and picking me up bridal style, throwing me on the bed to go argue with his brother. I shook my head and picked up two pillows off the beds and threw them both to hit Reno and Axel. "You buttface!" My boyfriend said then tackled me, tickling my sides while kissing my neck. I was silently screaming, trying to get him to get off of me, but loving the way his teeth were biting along my collar bone.
"Stop torturing him and go for a walk in the park." Reno said, lifting his brother off of me. I smiled up at them with happy tears from crying in my eyes. "Look, ya' practically killed him!" I smiled wider and took Reno's offered hand and sat up.
"That actually sounds like a good idea, what do ya' think, my love?" I nodded and then took Axel's hand and walked out of the hotel, waving goodbye to a semi-looking-depressed Reno.
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I was dancing in the rain. There was thunder, lightning, pouring warm rain. And I was reveling in it. It was so beautiful out. Axel was spinning me around and under his arm like a gentlemen from the movies would do. I was pressed up against his body, slowly swaying on the wet cement.
The only real sound was the rain pounding on the ground, and the thunder booming every few seconds. It was dark outside, almost pitch black, if it wasn't for the lightning it would be impossible to see. The lights having gone out a few hours ago.
"Sora…" I took my head off of his shoulder and stopped moving. "I love you." I kept a straight face an leaned up to him, pressing my lips to his in a tender kiss. The rain already pounded down our hair, making it almost completely flat, and having our hands run through each other's made it more tamed, something we both didn't like.
But right now, it didn't matter, as long as we were still pressed against each other.
When the kiss ended, he leaned his forehead against mine and looked into my eyes, blinking rapidly to keep the water out of his eyes. "I truly do love you, you know that right?" I nodded and mouthed, 'I love you' back to him. "I need to get you home, warm, and in bed. Okay?" I nodded again and stayed pressed against his body for the little warmth that he held.
The park wasn't far from home, and we got there in no time. I used my house key to open the front door, and took into consideration that mom wasn't home, so we would only have to deal with my overprotective brother and his even more over protective boyfriend. I shut the door silently and took off my shoes and socks, knowing that they would make too much noise and leave footprints on the cream colored carpet.
Axel was about to say something, but I put my finger against his lips to shush him. When he was about to say something again, I leaned up and kissed him, thinking that this was the only way to keep him quiet.
We parted because there was a clearing of throat that sounded exactly like Hayner. I backed away, but kept touching Axel, just for comfort.
"What do you think you're doing?" Hayner asked, now with Roxas by his side, both with either a candle or a flashlight in their hands.
"Kissing my boyfriend." Axel said smugly while wrapping his arms around my waist from behind.
"Sora?" I nodded, not ashamed for some reason.
"Since when?" Roxas asked, not mad, not disappointed or confused.
"Last night."
"Why?" Axel was about to say something, I could feel his chest rise with an upcoming breath. "No, I want Sora to tell us."
I sighed and lifted my hands over Axel's arms to talk. I was walking through the park and Riku found me. Don't start. Axel and Reno found me, kicked his ass and took me to the hotel. Axel and I were talking, and yeah…I love him, more than anything – bar you Roxas – and I need to be with him. I really do. And I am going to be with him, whether you two like it or not.
After I signed all that, I took Axel's hand and went up the stairs.
"Sora!" Roxas called. I sighed loudly and turned around. "Hurry, you're dripping on the carpet. Mom will kill you if it stains." He said with a smile, taking Hayner's hand to calm him down.
"Thanks." Axel said, hurrying me up to get to the bathroom, the lights coming on when we were getting undressed, but we left them off, liking to take showers in the dark.
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Shower sex. Wow, it's hot. I thought it was awesome the first time after…yeah, but when it's full of love and wow. It's the best. Not as good as the first time, I don't think anything will ever be that good. But it was up there. Axel was pressed against the shower wall, screaming at the top of his lungs, while I was thrusting into him, hand on his member. I was also biting into his shoulder, knowing he liked it when I did that.
Damn, I was so close to coming. I could feel Axel tensing slightly right before he came, causing me to, not even a second later.
Next thing I knew I was pulled out of him and in his arms on his lap, letting the water run over us. He was whispering in my ear, but I couldn't understand him.
"Sora? Answer me, sweetheart. Are you okay?" I nodded, cuddling against him, loving how he was warm in the cold spray of water. "You usually black out for a while after we make love, but that was kind of ridiculous." I shook my head, and closed my eyes, determined on going to sleep right here and right now. "Come on, baby, let's get you up."
I was tired, and to make this difficult for Axel, I literally put all my weight on him, so he had to somehow stand up with me on him, dry us both off and take us to my room to get dressed while covering us decently with towels.
I was laid down on my bed completely naked. I sat up when I didn't feel Axel next to me. He was sitting in the corner of my room on my bean bag, fully dressed, looking out the window.
"I love you, Sora. And I want to be with you, forever. And once you're old enough I promise to marry you." I gasped, getting his attention. "Sora! I thought you were asleep!?" He stood up and crossed the room over to me, sitting down on the edge of my bed, playing with the frail of my blanket.
I reached to my side table, turned on the small lamp that gave enough light so I could see his shockingly bright green eyes. After I turned the light on, I grabbed my notebook and pen so I could talk to him.
You want to marry me?
"Yes. There could be nothing more in the world that I want more than you to be with me and my husband."
I would LOVE to be your husband.
"Really." I nodded. "God, how I love you!" He wrapped his arms around me, holding me close to him. "Then I'll make you a promise. Next year, the day you turn eighteen, I will propose to you, with a ring and everything. Got it memorized?" I nodded and hugged him back.
I felt him start to press me down against the bed, running a hand over my back, to my sides, then to my hips. His hand went further down, trailing down my thigh before coming up and resting on my groin, right above the area that I needed him to touch. "Sora…" I looked up at him, smiling slightly. The little light from my lamp cast shadows onto Axel's face, illuminating his smile, making it look a little eerie, but not uncomfortably so.
"I would like to make love to you, Sora, will you let me?" I breathed in slowly, and then breathed out a little out, biting my lip in fear. "It's okay if you don't want to," He raised his hand to stroke my cheek. "I would never intentionally hurt you again. Okay, my love?" I nodded and wrapped my arms around his neck, pulling him to me so I could kiss him. His hands stayed, caressing my skin, not touching anywhere major, I think that was because he didn't want to rush things too much. "Just push me away," He whispered before pecking my lips a couple more times, "When it's too much. Got it?" I nodded.
I trailed my hands down his back, going to the hem of his shirt to pull it up. That was flown across the room to I don't know where as I went to the front of his pants to undo them. I pushed those down as far as I could, then let him take them of completely.
Axel wasn't wearing underwear, which confused me. "I didn't have any extra boxers here." Oh right, he only had a couple of outfits left here from forever ago.
His hands went to two different places. One went to my neck, rubbing right above my collar bone. Something that I haven't done in years. "A while ago, your mom said this relaxed you, that this was a comfort mechanism when you were a child after you lost your voice." I nodded and smiled gratefully, I can't believe he's so caring. The other hand went to spread my legs, allowing him to lie in between them. "I love you, Sora. Never forget that." I nodded once more, and shivered when his finger touched my entrance. It felt different, but not bad, so I don't know if that was a shiver of pleasure or fear.
"Just relax, okay." I was going to dare tell him how tense I was. I don't think I needed too, I think he could feel it. "Baby, we can't do this if you don't relax." He removed his hand from down there, but continued to rub that part along my neck for comfort. "We really don't have to do this. If it's too soon – which I know it is – then we'll wait. I don't want to push you," I wrapped my arms tighter around his neck. Axel rolled us over to I was laying on his chest, my body cradled by his legs. "Sleep, my love. I know you need it."
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"I don't want to, Reno. I'm staying here with Sora." There was a pause. "All that 'beating me up' because I wasn't with Sora, and now you want me to leave him. Why?" Another pause. "So you can what!? You fucking jerk." His snapped his phone shut and I heard it slam against something soft, probably my bean bag.
I slowly opened my eyes to see it was still dark outside and rain was still pounding against my window, making it look surreal. I looked to my bedside cloak and saw it only said 11: 48. Everyone was probably still up. Sitting up, I caught Axel's attention.
"Sora, baby, I love you." He said as he enveloped me in his arms, hugging me close. I hugged back hesitantly, what was wrong with him? "Reno wants me to leave, he says he…doesn't matter. I won't leave you, not again, I can't deal without you." I nodded and ran my hands over his back in a soothing way. "Are you still mad at me for leaving?" I shook my head, backing up from his shoulder to kiss his lips.
The kiss quickly turned into more, Axel having pressed me down to lay on the bed. Our bare bodies were pressing together in an intimate way. Axel hands were crawling over my body, moving slowly, but a little roughly. I guess I didn't mind it much, only when his, you know, brushed against my, you know, I tensed, pushing Axel away, but failing miserably. I wasn't nearly as strong as Axel, so how was I supposed to get him away.
But when I tried, he moved right away, rolling onto his side to look at me. "Sorry, I just…needed something." I smiled a little and pressed my lips to his in a tender kiss. The kiss again turned into more, this time it ended in me inside of Axel, not that I was complaining whatsoever.
Just as I was about to start to thrust into him, he flipped us over, with me still in him and started riding me. I looked at him, carefully watching him as he was able to get pleasure from him doing all the work. It was amazing. I left my hands on his hips, not knowing what else to do with them, I mean, what was I supposed to do? His face expression went from enjoyable to pleasurable in seconds flat, his screams getting louder as he hit his prostate while going down each time.
I closed my eyes, and looked away from him. I don't know why, but…just having Axel above me…it, scared me. I didn't like it. I felt Axel start to slow down, and eventually completely stop. "Sora?" He asked in a breathless way. I felt him get off of me and pull me into his arms. "What was wrong?" I shook my head, but he ignored it and reached for the notebook on the nightstand. "Write it." I shook my head. He forced the red pen into my hand and put it on a blank page.
When you were on top, it made me think of Riku and how he looked above me. I…couldn't deal with it.
"That's why you weren't hard anymore. That's how I knew to stop. I'm sorry baby, I didn't think it would bother you."
It's okay. You didn't mean to do it. :)
"Of course not, my love. I love you and hurting you isn't even the last thing on my mind." I nodded and fell back into his arms, laying the notebook on the floor.
There was a knock on my door, it was soft, but I couldn't tell who it was. I scooted back and covered myself with the blanket while Axel stood, pulled on his pants, and went to unlock and open the door.
"Hey, your brother's here." Hayner said softly, eyes avoiding Axel's. "And I wanted to apologize for how I've acted towards you. If you make Sora happy, then that should be all that matters. So, I'm sorry."
"It's okay," Axel said simply, a smile lightening his voice.
"Kay." Hayner left, a proud smile on his face.
"I'm going to be right back, baby. Don't worry." I nodded and laid back, watching him leave.
He wasn't back within minutes, and I was getting curious, not worried because I knew he would return. But I wanted to know what was taking him so long, so I got up, pulled on a shirt and boxers, and headed downstairs.
"-will not! He's back and he's staying!" I heard Hayner yell, then be calmed by my brother.
"He has to come back home with me. I can't tell you why, but he just has to." Reno said calmly, knowing that Hayner had a temper because I told him.
"No! Reno, until you give me a reason, I will not step one foot out of this house, away from Sora." Axel said, and from the sound of his voice, it sounded like he was still near the stairs.
"I…can't." Stupid jerk. I came down the stairs and looked straight at Reno.
I can't believe you would do this. You tried so hard to get us back together, and now you want to take him away from me? I can't believe you, or the fact that I thought that I could actually fall for you, or even love you. My signing caused Roxas to gasp, him definitely not knowing that I kind of liked Reno.
Reno didn't speak, but signed back. I can't tell Axel, but…I'll tell you. In the other room, away from your brothe. I nodded and followed him outside, barely acknowledging Axel's protest. Sora, I have to take him back because of Zack, something happened to him. If I told Axel now, he would break down, I thought it'd be best if he heard it from Zack himself.
That's it? I replied. He nodded his head and I reached forward and slapped him as hard as I could. Why didn't you just say so? He can go, as long as you bring him back within a week.
But, how do we get him to leave?
I'll think of something. I paused to think. I could…no, that'd be real cruel. But, it would definitely work. I could start a fight with him. Telling him to leave. Then when you guys get to Midgar, I could tell him that it was just a trick to get him to go.
Would you really do that?
I didn't reply, but I did nod, turning around. I felt Reno wrap his arms around my waist and lay his head against my ear on my shoulder. "Would you really have fallen for me if you met me first?" He whispered in my ear, causing a shiver to run down my spine, it wasn't uncomfortable at all. Not whatsoever. "Then it's too bad you met Axel." I gasped at what he did next.
He actually kissed my neck, going all the way to my lips, where he left a soft kiss against them. He lingered there for moments before doing something else. Reno pressed on my lips more and…
I responded.
Yes, I actually kissed him back. Don't ask me why I did, I didn't know then and I don't know why now. I just know I felt the same way I did when I kissed Axel.
Now that sounded horrible.
Regretting nothing, I moved away. Eventually.
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I threw Axel's clothes at him, making sure to do it as hard as possible.
"Sora, sweetie, what's wrong? What'd I do?" I shook my head and walked away, to the bedroom door and opened it. "You want me to leave?" I nodded this time. "Why, please, Sora, tell me what I did wrong. Let me fix it. I don't want to leave you." I shook my head again and motioned for him to leave. "You really want me to go?" I didn't answer and looked everywhere but him. "Please." He said, voice thick and eyes obviously watering.
He eventually stepped out of the room, just as he turned around and said something, "I lo-" I slammed the door in his face. I locked it and leaned against it, sliding down until I sat on the floor. Laying my head on my arms which were resting on my knees, I started to cry. Sob.
Outside the door, I heard Axel sniff and then walk away, heading down the stairs with heavy footsteps.
No. No. No.
Why did I do that?
For Reno, I did it for Reno. Which I shouldn't have. I'm such a whore. I mean , I kiss Reno, felt as good as I do with Axel, and now I told Axel to get out, because Reno wanted him to go with him to see their friend.
I couldn't do this.
I couldn't live without Axel. Not again.
I stood up, opened the door and ran down the stairs, outside the front door, where it was still pouring, and to where Reno had a black SUV parked. The lights were on and I could tell that they were about to leave. I saw Axel look out his window at the house, and just as he did, I felt, hitting the floor hard, scratching up my hands. But I didn't care. When Axel got out of the SUV, I ran to him, falling in his arms.
"Sora, are you okay?" I shook my head and clawed at his back, not wanting him to go. "I thought…" I shook my head again, this time furiously. You thought wrong, I wanted to say. I don't want you to go, I wanted to say. But with my voice disability, I couldn't say anything I felt. "Come on, let's go back inside and we'll talk."
"Axel!" Reno yelled over the rain, coming towards us. "We got to go." He said, voice depressed by the rain and the situation.
"Not now, Reno. I got to make sure Sor's all right." He picked me up bridal style, minding my knees which I didn't even know were cut up.
We got in the house and there was Roxas and Hayner, watching the scene from the doorway. Mom still obviously wasn't home, even though it was around twelve o'clock. "What happened?" Roxas asked me.
When Axel set me down on the kitchen counter, I immediately started to sign to Roxas while Axel got the First Aid Kit to fix up my knees and hands. Tell Axel I'm sorry. I don't want him to go. He relayed it to Axel who hugged me tightly and kissed my neck. I regretted pushing him away, but I felt wrong being so close to him when I did that thing with Reno. Axel was hurt by my reaction, along with Roxas and Hayner, but not Reno. If you ask me, he looked a little smug. Tell him…I kissed Reno.
"You didn't!" Roxas yelled, sounding appalled. I nodded and felt tears come to my eyes. He whispered it in Hayner's ear, who then looked at Reno with accusing eyes. "Keep them apart."
"Keep who apart? And why?" Axel asked, looking to everyone in the room for an explanation.
"Reno and Sora…kissed." My brother said, gauging the reaction of Axel, who turned to stoic, shock, then pissed. He lunged for his own brother, but not before Hayner jumped in his way to stop him, successfully holding him back.
"You fucking bastard!" Axel yelled, trying to get to his brother who backed up further away. "Why?!" He shouted. "Why? Why? Why?" He asked, getting quieter with each 'why' until he was almost at a whisper. He calmed down, stopped fighting with Hayner, and fell to the floor. "Why?" He asked one more time, this time questioned at me. I shook my head and looked away. "I'm gonna go for a walk." He mumbled, standing up and bypassing Hayner and not even looking at his brother. I went to get up to stop him, but immediately fell to my knees because they hurt to much to support me. Axel looked back at me, a tic starting in his jaw as he resisted helping me up. Then he turned away and didn't look back.
I heard the door open.
And I heard it shut.
Meaning he left.
I curled myself up on the floor, ignoring everybody's help to stand up. I only wanted one person. And now that one person was gone.
