Chapter 9- Over the edge

Hitomi's POV

What's left for a pathetic girl like me? I asked myself in anguish while clutching the railing of the bridge in a death grip making my bloody knuckles turn white. I stared at my scar filled wrists and grimaced. Cutting won't kill me, but I know this will...This is a perfect day to die...it even has the perfect atmosphere...hehe...gloomy rainy day, who wouldn't think about death today?...I looked down at the deep murky waters and it looked so welcoming right now. It will save me from this hollowness I feel...it will save me from this cruel world...from everything...I felt numb all over...I feel nothing...except for the strange little aching in my heart...

I lift up my head, letting the light rain hit my face...it's so soothing...I can't see anyone...is it really late? Oh who cares...I sure don't...

I leaned against the railing of the bridge, thinking for a minute. I can't believe my own father wants to disown me...today started off so wonderfully...we spent time together...just like how we use to...I thought he had changed...but I guessed wrong...I'm such a fool...believing in everything and knowing nothing at all...so foolish of me...stupid stupid me...

There's no time for self pity...I would forget all of this in due time...goodbye father...goodbye dear friends...I'm sorry, but I know you can live without me hanging around...

I climbed over the rail and held it behind me, just staring at the waters...entranced by its beauty...hardly hearing footsteps behind me...

"Your wrong Hitomi, it would be hard to live without someone like you" a voice said

I turned my head around; already knowing who it was...I could recognize that deep voice anywhere...

"Leave me alone Yami" I said to him in monotone.

"Not happening" he replied

'Sigh...can't I just die in peace?' I wondered 'why does everything have to get in my way?'

"Don't do it Hitomi" He continued in a calm yet worried voice. "Ignore what you father said, ignore everything he says, he isn't worth your tears"

'What? How did he know? What's going on?' I asked him how he knew, but my voice was quivering...must be from the cold...

"I have my ways..." he said still staring at me.' Why won't he stop staring at me, I can't take this pressure.'

"Listen Hitomi, I know you're in pain...and I probably can't come close to knowing how you must be feeling right now...but please...don't do it...your going to be missing out on so much...think of how we would feel if your gone...think about how I would feel! I'm not going to let you go through with this Hitomi, whether you like it or not! I promised the gang that I'd bring you back unharmed and I plan to keep my promise!" Yami said as he stepped closer to where I was.

"Don't come any closer!" I yelled as tears fell from my eyes. 'Why am I crying? I didn't even know that I had been crying' I thought mentally.

Yami didn't listen to me; he kept coming closer..."Stay back! I yelled I'll jump!" And I did. I waited for the splash I'm supposed to hear but I heard none. I waited for the freezing water to hit my body, to take my life away, to take away all this pain, but I didn't feel anything. From all this numbness I feel, I can only feel some pressure on my right wrist. Looking above me, I saw a hand holding onto it.

"Let go Yami!" I said to him

"No! I won't let you do this Hitomi! I won't let you throw your life away just like that!"

"Please, I can't live like this Yami...please...let go!" I pleaded him but he won't budge.

I dug my nails into his flesh but that only caused him to hold on tighter and start pulling me up. Once I was on the ground again, I pushed him down and ran for the rail, but I felt two strong arms wrap themselves around my waist, away from the ledge and into their body. I started to thrash violently in his grasp but it was pointless, he had an iron grip.

"LET ME GO! LET ME GO!" I screamed

"Hitomi stop!" Yami shouted with a harsh and demanding tone. And I did. I stopped and just went limp, breaking down and crying my heart out, until he loosened his arms and pulled me into his embrace. I looked up at his face and I see raindrops running down his face, he looked at me in concern, we were both soaked to the bone now, but I don't care, I was too frustrated, I couldn't even die! I buried my face into his chest and just let my tears out, soaking his shirt even more. I hear him whisper soothing words into my ear but it didn't matter...I'm still alive...why won't he just let me die? By the time I finally cried myself out, it stopped raining, but I was too tired to move.

"You okay Hitomi?" I think I heard him say. I'm not sure because I feel really tired and I'm trying to block everything out.


Yami, hearing no response looked more worried, he was going to shake her shoulders when a black limbo pulled up beside them. The windows rolled down, revealing a stressed looking Kaiba.

"Get in" he demanded


I felt hands lifting me up and carrying me inside the limo. My vision was blurry and I could barely move. I was too numb to care, too far gone to realize what's going on...felt like half of me is already dead...but I felt someone sit beside me and someone sitting in front of me...I heard the door close and the car started moving...with half opened eyes I looked out the window with dead and hollow eyes...


Kaiba was about to open his mouth and ask questions but stopped when he saw Yami's warning look. The ride had been a quiet one; both men were just staring at the girl who tried to kill herself. After a few minutes, they finally reached the game shop. Hitomi wasn't planning on moving so Yami had to reach in and carry her out of the limo and into his house.

Inside was a mess, there was stuff everywhere. Joey, Anzu and Ryou looked frantic. It was quite a funny sight; Joey was holding a bundle of blankets in his arms, Ryou was holding a handful of towels in his and Anzu had about two pillows in one arm and a tray of ten cups of hot coco in the other. If this situation wasn't this serious, everyone would have been rolling on the floor, laughing their hearts out. But it was.

Yami gave Hitomi to Anzu. "Take her to my room and change her into some dry clothes will you?"

Anzu did as she was told and carefully led Hitomi up the stairs. Ryou offered a towel to Yami and he took it gratefully. Going up to another room, he also changed into some dry clothes. The guys made a comfortable spot on the couch for Hitomi when she came down, but she didn't say a word, and didn't look at them.

"Anzu, could you watch Hitomi for a minute? Dry her hair or something? I want to ask Yami something" Joey said seriously as he threw a towel at Anzu and dragged Yami into the kitchen, the others trailing behind.

"Okay Yami, what happened? Why is she like this?" Kaiba asked

Yami told them everything that happened, how she wanted to jump and he won't let her, and they all had a look of sympathy on their faces.

"So what are we going to do now?" Ryou asked him.

"Just don't mention anything right now, she is very unstable...anything can drive her over the edge right now...just keep her comfortable I guess..." Yami said quietly.

They all went back out to where Hitomi and Anzu were. Anzu was currently wrapping up Hitomi's knuckles, not saying anything. She knows that in a situation like this, it's best to keep quiet. Hitomi just stared in front of her with shadowed eyes.

"Umm...hey Hitomi...why don't I blow dry your hair for you?" Anzu asked hesitantly, but Hitomi didn't reply, it was as if she didn't even hear her, so Anzu blow dried it anyways. There was no way she was going to let her sleep with her hair soaking wet.

After she was done, Yami brought over a huge blanket and wrapped it around her. "Go to sleep Hitomi, you need it" he said to her. The gang pulled out their sleeping bags and laid them on the floor, all of them slept near Hitomi just incase if she planned on doing anything stupid again, they could stop her.

No one slept that night, how could they? The gang just lay where they were, keeping an eye open for Hitomi.

Hitomi lay on the couch, her eyes half opened with her limp red bangs hanging over her eyes. She stayed like that for the rest of the night, not caring for anything, nothing went on inside her mind at the moment…she was numb, inside and out…and once again, no one had noticed that the crystal around her neck has just turned a few shades darker…


A/N- Welp…that's chapter 9 for ya, hope you all enjoyed it…thank you to the people who reviewed, feels good to know that a few people actually read this…well tell me how this chapter was. Review please! Laterz!