The next few chapters and Epilogues (there will be three) are all very short so going forward I'll update this week Monday - Friday, next week Monday - Thursday and lastly the three Epilogues will post Monday the 22nd - Wednesday 24th.
Some may not like after some of these chapters, just hang in there!
Sorry I didn't reply to Chapter 8 reviews as I had a crazy weekend.
And of course I own nothing Twilight!
Chapter Nine
~Regret~
Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump. Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have or could have had. No one waits forever. ~ author unknown
CPOV
As I was driving home the weight of what I just did, what I said to her hit me like a ton of bricks. I ruined everything because I freaked out. She was my ultimate temptation, the most forbidden of fruits. I still partook of her every chance I got, even if it was against my better judgment. To make matters worse, I started having very intense feelings for her. I knew she was a broken vessel, and now when she was just finally starting to let me in, to let me get to know all of her not just her body; I hurt her with my words and ran again. What kind of man was I?
Seeing that picture of her and her father just pushed me over the edge and made me realize that a future with her could never be. My heart shattered when I walked out her door. There was something about Issy that called to me, made me ache for her and not just sexually but on an emotional level also. I was falling for her, maybe I already had. Did I just ruin what was to be my future? Maybe she was right; we could have made this work somehow.
I pulled into my driveway and then slowly walked into my small house. Since moving here I had never felt so empty and alone. Would she ever forgive me? Surely not, I wouldn't forgive me. It's too late. I sat on my couch and put my face in my hands and let the tears fall. How had I become so attached to her so quickly? I knew, deep down, that a relationship with me would ruin her life. She deserved better, someone her age. I needed to let her go and live her life.
"Oh Issy, I'm so sorry I said the things I did. I never wanted to hurt you. Please live a full and happy life. I will miss everything about you, sweet girl," I whispered into the air as the tears fell. My heart felt empty, numb. Then I realized that I'd just left it with her.
I slowly got up and made my way to the bathroom. I needed to shower and get ready for my shift.
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