So this is my 'school is almost over' chapter. Seriously my professors are insane: first they say we finish classes one day but then they decide to give you one last project. Anyways I want to know what do you guys want to happen, make suggestions or comment on any detail that you liked from the chapters please :). Sorry it took me long to update but as of now my updates are going to be in a matter of a couple of days, not more than that.

Chapter 9: Lunatics

Bidding goodbye had never been so awkward in my entire life, then again I would've never thought about thanking Penelope and her stupid mouth. She had kept the conversation going at the table away from my issues. But then Dana and Sage's time to leave had arrived. Dana hugged everyone quickly while Sage just shook everyone's hands until he reached me. He hugged me tightly and kissed me on the corner of my lips and stayed there a bit longer than he should have. It wasn't until they left that everyone decided to bombard me.

"What was that huh?" Logan asked raising his eyebrows smirking.

"Hey, don't you make her think its okay! Do it menacingly like me, or James apparently." He said glaring at me.

"I think somebody might be getting herself a boyfriend soon." Penelope said, right there I stopped thanking her for what happened at dinner.

"I did have a boyfriend, we broke up." I said dryly.

"What? Why do you never tell me?" Kendall asked.

"So you won't act like a lunatic like now. Anyways just so you shut up, you never knew about Sage because I dated him while you guys were on tour for 9 months, we dated for four of those." I said and went over to my room. I closed the door and grabbed the card that was in my pocket. Sage had managed to slip me his card with his new number on it. We hadn't lost touch on purpose; it was just the crappy technology he used to buy.

I texted him my number and he texted back saying he got it. I went over to my closet and sat in the floor opening my shoebox. I would always write thoughts since I was little and put them in there, but when I took singing classes I started to write songs. Sage had taught me how to write music and how to play a bit of the guitar so I could rehearse by myself with Kendall's old guitar.

I read one of them: Masterpiece. It said everything I felt when I knew Sage and I would be ending soon. I couldn't help to wonder how could you love and hate someone so much at the same time and even after a while you still talk to that person even if it hurts and you don't want to let them be out of your life. Then again, that is the same thing I feel with James. I hate him for being with Penelope, knowing that would hurt me more, if he even cared that he was hurting me, but I still loved him with everything and I just wish I could tell him everything that happened and make it all go to the way it was.

Well, not to the way it was. I still hate the fact that we had to hide from everyone. How can someone go through so much shit at 16. I decided to text Camille.

Can you come to my room? –K

No, sorry. –C

Can I go to your apartment? –K

I don't want to see you right now K. –C

What? Why? –K

How come I had to figure everything from today right on the spot? –C

Holy capers!

I went out of my room in a hurry only to bump into James. I looked at him and decided to continue my way to Camille's apartment but he grabbed my arm.

"We need to talk." He said leading me forcefully to my room.

He got me inside the room before shutting the door and locking it. I tried to pry away from him but he wouldn't let me. I decided to just let go and sat on my bed.

"What the hell was that?" He asked fuming. Why the hell would he care? He's with Penelope.

I stayed quiet and didn't answer. My phone buzzed signaling I had a text. I was about to check it when James grabbed it and read it.

"I had a good time at dinner even though it was a little awkward, but thanks anyways. This is my new number. See you around. –Sage -Can you explain this?" He said holding up the phone to my face.

"Well its called being friends with your exes and also being nice, which you aren't being right now. So far I understood you didn't want to talk to me and when you started going out with Penelope I figured 'he doesn't ever want to see me again in his life'. So may I ask you, what's up with this little act of yours? 'Cause so far all I remember is you dumping me which means you aren't my boyfriend anymore which denies you any right you might have had."

Right at that moment someone knocked the door, I stayed quiet.

"James, Katie, open up!" Kendall yelled from outside the door.

James unlocked the door and Kendall came into the room with Penelope following behind.

"Here you are baby, I've been looking everywhere for you." She said wrapping her arms from behind him but i didn't expect for him to hold them in place.

"Nah I was just talking to Katie."

"About?" Kendall asked.

"About the guy. We never met Sage before today so I was curious because they never said how they met, just that they dated." He said letting me know that not even Kendall would stop him.

"Actually I am curious too. Thanks James." Kendall said.

"Fine. If you want to know so badly I'll tell you. And just so you know brother.. This is gonna make you realize that neither you or anyone else here for that matter really knows me." I said bitterly and stood up walking towards James and Kendall's room. I grabbed Kendall's old guitar and sat in his bed while Penelope and James sat on his.

I started playing a couple of chords for 'I'll Find Mine' and when I reached the chorus I started to sing.

I've got it down

You showed me again

Just so you know.

Don't push me around

I know you resent that I'm alone

Pity and mercy

Do nothing for me

You know me better than anyone.

Go get your girl

She's looking at you like you're crazy.

We can pretend you never even knew me.

It would work out

Don't let go of that one

And I'll find mine.

I stopped playing and left the guitar in Kendall's hands before continuing what I was going to do before. I went over to Camille's apartment and she opened the door.

"Sorry I didn't say anything before. Can we talk." I asked and she let me inside her apartment.