Chapter 8: What Really Matters?

Jacobs P.O.V.

I lunged at Seth, leaping into Wolf form. He did the same. I bit his shoulder. How could you?I accused. Me, you're the one that left her, I was there to pick up the pieces! You're lucky I am a nice or I wouldn't have told Ness where you were and you would have been married to that psycho maniac. You're Welcome! He thought as he swerved around and bit my leg. I kicked him into the wall and jumped to face him barring my teeth. You came 'cuz you needed a leader, need I remind you I am Alpha! You missed me. Admit it! I growled. He got off the wall and charged at me.

I heard soft whimpers from behind me. I turned to see Renesmee Crying into Nicole's Shoulder. She looked me in the eye and ran out the room. Nicole shook her head and whispered, "You are the Alpha aren't you?" and left closing the door as she did so. I was vaguely aware of being hit in the side by Seth. I was the Alpha, wasn't I? I had thought so, but now I'm not so sure. Why was I fighting him? I wasn't like this. I didn't want to fight Seth, did I? I mean if I wanted a match I would go to Paul or Leah. It didn't feel right fighting Seth. It wasn't his fault. Okay, so maybe it was, but I wasn't truly mad at him. I was mad at myself.

I was having so many mixed emotions. One hand I am angry at my friend for having kissed my girlfriend,

And another I am hurt so deeply. I mean how could Nessie kiss my best friend. It felt like a battlefield in that hotel room, Ness, loyalty to both sides. I mean truly I am thankful to Seth for being there for her when I wasn't and now I think I am turning into Edward. Gosh, as if my day couldn't get any worse!

I was first fighting for Bella and now Bella's daughter! Didn't I ever get a happily ever after? I mean I knew I was on the short end of the stick with Bella, but I really thought I had I good chance with Nessie. She belonged with me. The pair of us was destiny. Not only that, but a girl I could actually call a friend, I mean besides Leah, but I'm stuck with her! If Renesmee felt anywhere near this badly when I left her, then it is going to take longer than forever to make this up to her. The pair of us, me and Renesmee, where nothing with Seth in the middle. Wow, this really sucked! It hurt me that Nessie was already gone.

I made my decision; Nessie would have to choose between us. Seth listened intently to what I was saying.

If Nessie chose me then I would chose me, but for now or if she chose Seth, I would back off and let her have her space. I really did love her, enough to let her go. Maybe, if that happened, suicide was another option. My life was nothing without Renesmee. I loved her and if someone's got to go, then it was going to be me. She just had to say the word and I was gone. Ness had to make her own choice.

I heard Seth whimper. I hadn't realized he'd stopped attacking me to listen. No Jake, Suicide is not the answer for everything!I shook my head. Do you even realize what you did? Seth, you're going to have to make her chose between us! I don't want our friendship to be ruined. I told him.

Jake, you don't have to be dramatic all the time, have you been hanging around Leah? God no! What has she done to you? Seth thought in a panicked voice. Whose being dramatic now? I asked. Seriously, though Jake, even if she chose me, she wouldn't want you to go commit suicide! She loves you! And you need to hang around Jasper, let him deal with your mood swings! Seth suggested. I looked at my paws. I already do, I'm a lot better now though. Maybe he can help cure Leah! I thought. He would be my Hero! Seth said. I nodded. Hey, do you have extra clothes I could borrow? I asked. Umm…yeah…hold on… He walked over to his suitcase, unzipped it with his teeth. Yeah come get something. He said. Thanks.

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Alice had decided for us all to stay in France for a few days to do some sight seeing. The 3 witches were no where to be found. I was beginning to worry about Renesmee. She never talked anymore. She didn't eat, unless Bella made her too. That little hamster Cloud, seemed to be the only thing keeping her alive, that and Nicole, who barely talked to Seth and me. Nessie especially didn't talk to us. She occasionally talked to Alice, Jasper, and Emmett, but not much. I had to tell her that she has to choose between me and Seth, I mean, how do you do that?

She was sitting with Nicole in Nicole's room. Nicole looked at me, nodded and left. How she does that, I'll never know! Ness looked a lot worse today. She had dark circles underneath her eyes from not sleeping and she looked like she was getting paler. I cleared my throat. She looked up at me, sorrow in her eyes.

"Nessie, you have nothing to be sorry for. It's me. I shouldn't have acted the way I did and I'm sorry" "I'm the one who kissed Seth so I should be apologizing. You had every right to do what you did!" her voice cracked. I hated seeing her like this. I was tearing her apart. "Ness, I know how much this is hurting you, so I am taking my self out of the game." I heard her gasp but I didn't let her object. "I love you. You know I do. I love you more than anything and I'd do anything to see you smile. Right now your not so ill make you happy and not stand in the way of yours and Seth's relationship." She stared at me in horror. "W-What? You can't! You can't go! I won't let you!" She screamed. I didn't want her to scream. I also didn't want her t do anything for me except be happy… and be alive.

"I'm leaving now. Goodbye. I love you" She stared at me. "No, Kyrazzah's back, I know she is! She put a spell on you and now your going to run off with her!" I just shook my head. "No, there ids no spells or witches involved. You know that." She was shaking her head in disbelief. "If I was under Kyrazzah's control could I do this?" I asked as I kissed her.

I pulled away, wishing it had been longer. That will be our last kiss. "Jacob..." she started but didn't finish. The tears were poring down her cheeks. I wiped them with my hand. "Don't cry, Ness." I told her as I lightly kissed her forehead and stood up. "Don't" she pleaded. "I have to" I told her as I walked out the door.

I ran to my room, packed up all my stuff in a matter of minutes and started for the door. Edward, I thought, I know your listening. I am leaving because I love her, remember that. I knew he was listening. I quickly wrote 2 notes one to Leah and one to Nessie. Leah's said:

Dear Leah,

As you probably know I'm leaving. I am still going to be the Alpha I'm just…going away for a while. I hope that you tell Billy that I miss him and the guys I'll be around. Don't go over board with the Beta thing or I'll tell Sam that you and Quil, Embry, and Seth will go back with him until I get back. Don't ask where I'm going 'cuz when do I ever? You're the only one I think run this pack "Partially"! I'll be back soon.

Jacob

The one to Nessie said:

Dear Renesmee,

I'm sorry that I made you do this. I just wanted what's best for you. I thought that if I made you choose between us, then I could live with it, but I didn't really want to know the answer. So I'm leaving. I don't know where to, or if I'll come back but just know that I love you, always have, always will, and nobody's going to come between that. Your mine, Forever and Always. I'm always thinking about you.

I'm yours forever,

Jacob

I left both notes on Leah's door as I passed it. She'll give it to Nessie. As I was about to turn the corner I just happened to run into the mind reader himself. Oh yeah, he'd know I'd be leaving before any one else, well, maybe Alice. "Why are you hurting her like this?" He asked. "I'm leaving so I can try NOT to hurt her!" I yelled at him. "Fine then, you shall succeed. Alice has seen you dead already." Edward said. I shudder at the thought of Alice's vision. "And Nicole?" I asked. "Reunited with Willow" Edward said. As I turned t leave Edward spoke. "Jacob, I would have thought better of you." I was about to ask what he meant but he interrupted me. "Now be off, and leave my daughter in peace." He growled. I nodded and grabbed my bags and stomped off.

"Wait" I heard a little voice say. I turned around and saw Nicole running towards me. Edward smirked but other wise said nothing. "I'm coming too and I'm not taking No for an answer!" She said. "Fine" I grunted and headed to the door with Nicole cheerfully following.