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Chapter 8: Morning After

From all the crying, I had worn myself out to the point of falling out. Turns out Sam brought me some clothes and I was able to change before I felt out. I didn't remember the ride back but the others told me I was jumpy and would occasionally cry for my mother in my sleep.

That had only made me fall deeper into my cycle of depression.

I woke up to find myself asleep in someone's bed. I was half wrapped in a thin sheet and the door was shut closed. The window to my side was huge so I got a large amount of sun in the room. I tried to go back to sleep but I found myself falling into a nightmare each time I closed my eyes.

So in the end, I stayed awake leaning against the wall for support. It wasn't long until someone came to check up on me.

Jacob just looked at me and I knew what he was staring at. I was a mess, I probably looked like I would fall out any second which was true. I felt exhausted but that seemed impossible after all the sleep I had.

"How are ya Nevaeh?" I resisted the urge to be sarcastic, it wouldn't help anyone. "Fine I guess." I muttered not in the mood to talk. He shifted by the door debating on a question. "Breakfast is ready if you want some." I nodded and got off the bed following behind him. I was hating the questions and stares I knew would follow.

Once we got to the kitchen, all the noise I knew would be there was suddenly gone. I wished I was still asleep, the silence was hurting me in a way nobody could see. They all assumed I was still morning when in truth I had given up long ago.

"Morning Nevaeh." Billy spoke in a kind tone yet his anxiety was still clear whether he tried to hide it or not. "Morning." I muttered back sitting in a chair Jacob had pulled put for me. I sat huddled in the seat. I didn't want contact so early but when your between two huge boys, no contact was seemingly impossible.

Everyone sat in a seat, well except Billy but it was obvious why. "How are you this morning Nevaeh?" Billy asked and all eyes went on me in seconds. I flushed slightly embarrassed by the attention and nodded. "Fine…" I just wanted them to leave me alone and to go back to what they were doing and saying before I woke up.

"That's good." He said and I knew he wanted to say more but he just couldn't get it into a sentence. I grabbed a plate of pancakes and grabbed two that seemed to get everyone back on the food. I was lucky to have gotten the pancakes when I did because by the time I knew it, the plate was empty. It amazed me how much they could eat, I didn't eat that many and I was the same as them. Well almost the same.

I silently ate my food, not really hungry but not willing to let myself go hungry. I was depressed but I was in denial. I would be fine in a few days. Every so often I would feel hard eyes on me and when I glanced up, I caught Paul's gaze but he would turn his attention back to Jared and Jacob. It was awkward; I didn't understand what he was looking at. I wasn't pretty and I kept to myself, he seemed more like and outgoing kind of guy,

"Nevaeh are you excited about school?" My fork dropped, hitting the edge of the plate and splattering syrup around. The question had come out of nowhere and it had scared me.

School was not friendly to me. Kids always teased me and I had no friends. Nobody cared to get to know me. "Nevaeh?" The worried tone in Jacob's voice sent me back into reality. "Not really." I muttered feeling all eyes on me again.

"You'll be going to school with the rest of the boys." I groaned inwardly, not only would I be an outcast but I would be around the hot shots of school. It was obvious they were popular, they were all good looking and if they joined a sport, good athletes.

"Emily said she would take you shopping for some new clothes." Sam spoke up, and I looked at Emily. She had three jagged scars on her face, the scars put on by some attack. I had seen her the first day I was in La Push but I never talked to her directly.

"It'll just be us girls." I smiled at her trying to be happy about it but the feeling in me just didn't want to leave. I felt like crying all over again, my mother would have done something like that with me.

"Okay." I would try to be up to it, I knew life would still go on. Nothing would stop just because someone died, if that were the case, the world would have ended a long time ago. And I knew I had to get in with my life. Saving everyone, I knew from the beginning, would be impossible.

"You're going to be a Sophomore right?" I nodded to Embry. "Told ya Jacob." He grinned showing off his white teeth. Jacob growled at him and stayed quiet. "He thought you were going to be a freshman but I knew you were older than that." I heard a sound from Paul as if he were growling. Laughter erupted from the table but I was still confused, why was Paul being so…protective of me. I was a nobody.

"Around 12 we'll go shopping okay Nevaeh?" I nodded to Emily. She was trying to get to know me and I would let her in. She was the only normal person her who was a girl too.

The rest of breakfast was loud and I was grateful the attention was off me. My mind was wandering to what school would be like. I didn't want start school that would mean 7 hours of total isolation and teasing. Kids don't change; they're all the same to new people. Especially in a small town where everyone knew everyone, I would be spotted just as quickly.


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