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Chapter 9

JAZZ POV

I was surprised by Bella's silence after my story had been told. But what surprised me most was the way our eyes locked and we shared such a deep understanding with each other. I knew that I would go to the ends of the earth to help her through this pain. When our eye contact finally broke, I had a weird sensation of extreme exposure. Like for the first time I was an open book to someone else. AS much as it frightened me it was almost a relief to finally have someone understand me. It was Bella who finally ended the silence.

"Jasper" She asked quietly.
" Yes, Darlin" I said as my accent slipped out.
"How did you know I didn't want to go home" She asked.
" Well, first of all you ran away. So I figured you wanted to get away. I also thought of how I felt and the last thing I wanted to do was to go back. I just figured you needed time and space to figure things out too" I said truthfully.
" Oh, I guess that makes sense. Can I ask you something else" She asked sounding unsure.
" Sure Darlin, ask all the questions you want" I said
Bella smiled then and thought about her next question.
" Can I ask you one first" I asked.
" Yeah sure" She said.
" Do you want your clothes back" I asked still a little embarrassed.
" Oh yeah , I forgot " she said blushing.

As she got up and walked to her clothes in my oversized ones. I turned my back allowing her some privacy. I waited patiently for her to change. When she finished she said " OK I am done".
I turned around to see her back under the blanket and my clothes folded neatly on the ground.
" Do you mind if I get dressed too" I asked.
" No sure go ahead" She answered.
As I got up she turned away. I smiled then and dressed quickly and returned to my rock seat.

BPOV

I sat there in my makeshift bed finally back in my own clothing. Which I had managed to change without killing myself. Ten points for me. Once Jasperhad redressed he sat down waiting for my next question. I was so glad that he answered my questions. Without editing the parts he didn't think I should hear and he even said to ask all I wanted. That cheater never did that . He always avoided my questions and only answered the ones he wanted to. I hope Jasper realizes he just opened a can of worms.

" Why did you go all the way to Port Angles to get the blankets and stuff" I asked.
" I went there because I didn't want to leave a sent trail from Forks. It would make it easier for them to find us" He said.
" Do you not want them to find us? Do you not want to go back" I asked
" For the first part, no not yet. Do you want them to find us? He asked back.
I thought about it for a second " No " was my only reply.
" As for the second part. I am not sure" He said.
" Why not, They are still your family" I asked.
" Well truthfully I don't know now that Alice and I are done if they will still want me. She was the reason that we ended up with them. She fit in perfectly form the beginning but I have always felt like I was on the outside. It almost feels like Alice has taken the rest of the family with her. The Cullen's are the only real family I have had and I am worried that if I go back that they wont want me" Jasper said sounding ashamed.

" Oh I never thought of it like that. But I don't think that they would turn their backs on you just like that. But I know how you feel" I said.
" What do you mean" Jasper asked confused.
" Well I have always wanted to become a true part of the family and now I feel like that's been stolen away too. So I feel like a whole life was taken from me not just a love" I answered sadly.

I wondered then if he would understand or if he would just think I was being a silly human.

" Believe me I understand that more than you know. Before I met Alice and the Cullen's. My life was not good. I only ever knew war and murder. When I found out there were other ways to live. I wanted,no I needed to find something better, something more. With the Cullen's I found that. For once in my life I felt love instead of pain. Even if it wasn't easy for me . I tried because I wanted it more than anything and it was where I was meant to be. With them it was the first time I was home and that gave me so many feeling that I can't even describe. Out of everything that is what scares me the most to no longer belong. I kind of thought you might feel the same way and I didn't want you to feel alone either" Jasper said with understanding and compassion

What Jasper made me realize was just how caring he really was. We understood each other like I never though possible.

" I understand how you feel too. All my life I have always felt out of place. Like I was lost and searching for something but I never knew what. Until I entered the world of fairy tales and magic. Even if I was only a weak human. It didn't matter because I was home. For once I finally fit in somewhere and now I have most likely lost my chance to truly belong to this world. I am so glad you found me to because I need you. More than you will probably ever know. More than I have ever needed anyone before" I said a little embarrassed.
" Don't be embarrassed Bella Because as much as I hate to admit it. I need you that much too" Jasper said a little unsure but relived.

Authors note Hey sorry for the long wait but I am kind of having writers block. I do have more chapters done but I just don't want to post to many and then not give myself enough time to figure out the next step in the story. I know what going to happen but I just haven't figured out how to yet. If that even makes sense. Anyways thank you for the reviews. I always love them and the adds too you guys are great. It maybe a while for the next one though but I promise to at least one a week. Well until I figure a few thing out. Reviews with any suggestion are nice too thanks again.