I in no way own these characters!! And guys I am so sorry that I haven't been able to write..these past months have been absolute madness so forgive me! This prolly isn't my best work but I wrote in my World lit class...lol...
Bella POV
A lot of tme had passed since I last saw Jacob. I had left him lying in the hall a mess. I'd like to think I had healed. Only my physical appearance had changed. My bruises had faded and the bones had mended ,but healing always took time...It was the one thing I didn't have enough of. I needed time...time to say my goodbyes, time to live, time to experience the many things a young adult should, time for my heart to mend. My heart had a hole that I couldn't stitch shut. It was a different hole, nothing like the one Edward had left me with. I longed for my best friend ,but I was furious when I thought his name. Edward was dealing the best he could, the best I could ask for. Many nights I would wake to his stare from across the room. Only for him to trace my cheeckbones with his fingers leaving a icy burn along them. I knew I was the source of his misery. I could see the pain I was inflecting on him. I just needed time, how much I wasn't sure...I just needed time. Time could heal everything or so I told myself.
Edwards POV
My "condtion" allows me to withstand mass amounts of pain. If there was a way I could take my love's pain from her I would in a millisecond. I longed for the day that her smile returned, to see the life return to her eyes. The one thing she needed was time., it was the one thing I could give her that I hadn't. I would wait an eternity for her. It felt like I already had. I wished now more than ever I could read her thoughts. Then I could atleast help her heal the way she wanted. I could only take so much, I watched her everyday. She wasn't the same. She was a shell of the Bella I once loved... I still love...
Bella's POV
I woke up to a foreign light streaming through my window. I quickly realized the sun was shining. I got up slowly and got dressed. Charlie was gone and I was alone. Edward hadn't spent the night. I was causing him so much pain. So, I decided that I would try and be the old me. Someone I knew well. I just had to find her. He awsnered his phone on the first ring, no doubt Alice had told him it was me.
"Hello my love" his velvet voice flowed through the reciever.He still had the power to make my knees melt.
"Hey, Can we go to the meadow today? I just want to get out of the house." I no longer recognized my voice. It was a stranger to me.
'Yeah, are you sure you want to go?" I could read the excitement in his tone.
"Yeah, I'm sure."
"Do you want me to come get you?" he wasn't trying to hold back the anxiousness.
"No, I'll come to you. The truck needs to be ran. It hasn't had much use since." thats when the hole tugged at my heart, but today was Edwards day so I kept o.n," you know."
"Ok, Bella. I'm waiting for you. Take your time...and I love you"
" and Edward I love you"
'Bella, one more thing...PLease be safe." I hung up the phone and searched for my keys. I opened the door and stepped into the sun.. I felt warm. I hadn't felt that way in a long time. I walked to the truck and started my way to Edward's house. This was a good day... My heart hadn't felt this way in a long tme... I could almost feel the hole closing...
