Don't worry, I'm still alive.
Astrid didn't do anything at first when she read that false, idiotic, text. She just sat on her bed, staring at it. So now Hiccup wants to be some sort of charmer now? To say he broke up with his girlfriend, and not only that, but also told that Astrid had some sort of girly crush on him? Pishhhh, yeah right! The only thing likeable about Hiccup is maybe his wit, or sarcasm, or way his emerald green eyes sparkle in just the right light… but that's not the point!
She is not into him! And how dare he ask that she is!
Hiccup why would you even ask a stupid question like that!
Her fingers moved so quickly on the touch screen that she could barely see them. Her heart pounded so franticly that she felt nauseous. She DOSN'T like him! She just need to keep telling herself that, no madder what Storm thinks, or Cami believes to be true! They were friends, good friends that laugh and tease each other. Why should that chance? Who was the idiot that said that had to change?
Maybe if she overthinks a few things then she would want everything to change. Does she now even? Maybe she needs to channel something inside of her, something that she hasn't connected with yet.
Astrid closed her eyes and let her head plunge back onto her pillow. She shouldn't have responded…
*Bussssssssssssssssss*
She inhaled quickly, and lifted up her phone to read the torturous response. 'Just something that I want to know I guess.
Astrid felt this burring agony flow through her body. And not just 'I spilt some milk' sorrow, deep suffering, coming from her chest. It hurt to breath.
Well, I don't know how Camicazi even got THAT idea but… no I'm not.
She grid her teeth.
So, we cool?
Part of her didn't want him to answer the question, knowing Hiccups response could be something that could probably wreck her. Was it too late for her to stop the text from sending? Could she maybe write something else? Something that's true…
Her heart still aches.
Fuck emotions.
Astrid glanced back to her phone as soon as he wrote back. 'Sure.' She smiled at the single word on the screen; it seemed bigger than the rest, more important. She could almost hear his stupid, muffled voice saying it. The pain got a little better. The policing through her head got worse though, as she remembered the essay she still had to edit. At this point Astrid didn't really care about it… that was Hiccups problem to deal with. He said he would do it right?
You still helping me out with that stupid Cesar paper right? Astrid texts back.
She looks outside for a second, scanning the sky to see if she could go for a walk. But it was still raining.
Damn Berk…
'I don't really have a chose, do I?' He asked and Astrid snickered at her phone.
Nope.
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Hiccup stuffed his wallet back into his jean pocket after buying a coffee from the cart outside the school. He never really intended to get one until he saw the stand and realized just how tired he really was. This was insane, no human being should ever be THIS tired. Somehow it was Saturday again, after another exhausting two days of quizzes and essays. Essays that aren't just his either. Hiccup couldn't really blame his teachers for all this sleep depriving stress… oh wait he can…
Anyway, all he really wanted to do today was get away from the campus. Four weeks into his freshmen year, almost five, and he only left the prison twice. So why not take a day off and hang out with Fishlegs? Apart of him wanted to invite Camicazi, but that probably wouldn't look to good seeing as how they are really supposed to be 'Ex-es'
He was still messed up about Astrid and his conversation two days ago. They have been a little, well, distant since then and Hiccups scared they are going to get in another fight. That seems to be the only thing that they do.
But maybe getting in another fight wouldn't be that bad… they would eventually make up because of it and its possible he might get another hug.
Ha, yeah, like she will ever do that again after he asked her that dumb question.
Stupid, stupid, stupid! That word was floating around his head for the past few days and it was driving him mad! Maybe school wasn't the only thing that was keeping him from a good night's rest.
NO! A girl can't keep you up all night! Even if Astrid has golden blond hair and eyes like the summer sky…
"Stop it Hiccup!" He says out loud to himself, making the barista look over to him. "You're better than this!" He knew he sounded crazy… but he needed to get his mind off her. He had to.
But, as hard as he tried, he couldn't. It was too late for that, so, so late.
He knew it was probably none of his business, but he kept on wondering how she was doing with her scholarship situation. Hiccup knew what he was going to do if she struggled to keep up with her grades, he was going to help, even if she didn't want it. He had to help. No madder how much he begged his father.
His father. Great now all he could think about was that guy…
How he was never there for him, how he was always avoiding him, how he was always comparing him to, well, Toothless, like everyone else. Hiccup started to sniffle, but still felt the barista's eyes glued on him, so he muffled it out with a sip of his coffee.
Freaking weak!
Nothing in his life made since anymore… Nothing. Sometimes he wishes he was just back home in his too large house that everyone was jealous over, and his broken down school where no one knew him. Everyone knows him here. It sucks.
Hiccup glanced down to his phone were Fishlegs had texted him. 'Sorry dude, cant hangout today, I am stuck in my dorm with stacks of homework.' Hiccup chuckled; at least he wasn't the only one who was stressing. But his small smile turned into a frown once he released he wasn't going to hang out with his friend today. Why does frowning have to be so easy?
"What's the madder man?" Hiccup whipped his head around to the girl in the stand. She looked as tired as he was, greasy, light brown, curly hair in a side pony tail. Bags under her tired brown eyes, covered by scrunched up bushy eye brows. "You look like you just killed your own cat…"
Hiccup quickly tried to put on his well-known smirk, but he couldn't bring himself to do it. There was something about getting stud up that was disappointing, even if it's only from a guy friend.
"Um… hello?" She asked, burying her eye brows deeper in her lashes. Releasing he had been staring at her for, however long she has been waiting for him to answer her question, he shot his eyes straight down to his feet.
"I have just been a little stressed out from school, that's all," Yeah it has nothing to do with how he is worried about losing one of his best chick friends and go completely crazy from all the roamers flying around.
"Yeah, me too," She agrees and he looks back up to her, noticing her face looks softer than before, less concerned about him. She was concerned about him…
"Do you go here too?" He asks and she immediately starts laughing, she has this high, snorting laugh that makes Hiccup's nose crinkle.
"No, haha, I-I only work here," She said sighing out the last bit of her laughter and wiping her eye. "I go to the public school on the other side of town… I work here to make a little more money on the weekends…"
He lets out this small chuckle, taking another sip of his coffee. "I'm Hiccup, if you even want to know my name," He says with a sarcastic snotty smile.
The girl's eyes get wide eyed and she does her best to striating her poster, no longer leaning on the counter. "Um… well I, you're," She bit her lip not knowing what to say to one of dean's family members. "You're Stoick's son right?"
Hiccup sighs, nodding slightly at her scared face. "But don't worry I don't bite."
Her face lights up slightly, but it still looks intimidated when she goes back to leaning on the dirty counter.
"I'm Danica, if it even madders," She snickers with a smug look. "I am only one of your royal subjects after all."
Hiccup groans, he hates being claimed as a 'price' because it really doesn't fit his name… besides he is only the son of a principle, that doesn't make him royalty.
"Don't talk like that! We are not in the sixteenth sentry and we are not in England!"
"Yes but we are in Berk…" Danica smiles as she spot the corners of Hiccup's moth crawl up his face slightly.
"Still though…" He sighs. "I'm not anything special."
One of her eye brows shoots up, looking him over from head to toe, then rubbing her chin with curiosity in her eyes.
"Your right," She laughs. "Nothing at all…"
There is a pause and then silence as the happy expressions slowly get wiped off both of the teen's faces.
"Anyway…" Danica says rolling her eyes and glancing up at the clock on the top of the school. "My shift ended two minutes ago, so I'm going to head home."
His face gets gloomier.
"Alright," He mumbles, watching the girl put her small apron on the back wall and closes the windows to the cart. "I'll see you later then?"
"Here," She says grabbing a napkin from the stack and writing her phone number down in messy hand-writing with a blue pen meant to take orders. "Call me if you need someone to talk to…" Danica smiles and he walks over to her and takes the napkin.
"Thanks," He says grinning down at the number than back up to her. Then she's gone.
Hiccup quickly enters the number into his phone, knowing that he would just loose the small delicate piece of paper. He couldn't help but think that Camicazi and that girl would probably get along pretty well.
Then his mind shifted to Cami, so obviously it drifts to the girls, then to Astrid…
His heart pounded again and he felt clammy.
Nothing makes since.
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Thuggory tapped his foot excessively on the granite floor of the lobby. He has been waiting forever for Hiccup and Toothless. How long since he texted them… ten minutes maybe. STILL THOUGH, they should at least try and hurry up. Sunday night was meant for football, not cheering up one of his friend's brothers! This is all Toothless's fault, if he hadn't got Hiccup to make up with that Astrid chick he wouldn't be so depressed about- well, whatever he is depressed about!
Sometimes he thinks he should just go home to England, his dad would get that he doesn't like the school and send him off to a more expensive place.
…Or would that be asking for too much.
"Well aren't you loud," Thuggory turned around in his wobbly char to see none other than Camicazi walking out of the elevator.
"I like to think of myself a little noisy, loud is so mean."
He could see her eyes roll despite how far away she was. Damn she was hot…
"Whatever you say dude."
Thuggory surprised himself when he stopped.
"Why are you down here anyway? This place is a ghost town around this time," He said with a slight snap, even though he had no idea where it came from. He didn't want to act like a snob to Cami.
"Honestly, Hiccup invited me to go with you guys…" She said glancing down at her camera, making sure all the little lenses were in place. "Said it would be like going with two bickering parents if he didn't have a friend."
Thuggory scoffed. Parents, PARENTS! Well… he supposed Hiccup had a point there. When your friends with a guy your whole life, it's just normal to bicker like an old married couple.
"Aww, for a second I thought you were stalking me. That's too bad."
Camicazi laughed slightly as she walked over to take a seat across Thuggory. He started to panic when he noticed she wasn't looking up from her camera. Why wasn't she looking at him?
"I thought you and Hiccup broke up though, won't this be a little awkward?" He asked fiddling with the caller of his shirt. Why was it so hot in there?
"Oh please, Hiccup told me you knew about everything like a day after your embarrassing appearance," Cami forced herself not to laugh remembering his stupidity as she cleaned the lens one more time with her sleeve.
She still wasn't looking at him.
Why wasn't she looking at him?
Thuggory felt the need to fix his hair before she glances up at him, and his shirt, and his tie…
What was it about this chick that made him so edgy? God, he wishes he knew more about her so that they could actually talk about something other than Hiccup. Is he still staring at her? Thug quickly cleared his throat and looked to one of the walls of the building, as she finally looked up at him.
"So um…" He made the mistake of looking back at her and seeing those long eyelashes. "Nice… weather we have- I mean we having- I mean we're having not we… that would make the phrase weird and, well, yeah."
She blinked, unknowing what to say.
"Thug… it's been raining all week." He was so, weird. Again not as weird as her, but almost. She smiles as his eyes widen and fall to the table.
"OK, I knew that. Just trying to make conversation," He snapped, again.
Cami sighed as he looked away. Thuggory was trying at least, failing horribly, but trying to talk to her.
"Hey…" She said making him glace back to her, his eyes wide and gentle like a child's. There was something within here that clicked at that moment, she knew deep down that's all Thuggory was. A big foolish child who was trying to befriend her and all she was doing was trying to push him away like every guy who is a big enough idiot to flirt with her. "Sorry."
He smiled at her, a little charming and out of character, placing his head in his hands. "Yeah well, I guess I can forgive you this time."
Aaaaaannnndddd there it was again.
"Ugh! Just forget it," She groaned, clicking something back onto her camera
"What?" Thuggory asked, looking like a helpless dying animal in her eyes. And what was with that annoying stubble on his jaw line? And the way his ears matched his face perfectly, trying not to notice the piercing in the left one…
"You're just… stubborn. You can't let anyone win unless it's you." She sneers, not wanting to look at his freakishly cute face any more than she has to.
"Well maybe I like winning," He says coolly letting his eye lids close half way as she looks back up. "Why do you have to win?"
"I don't like to win, I just like the competition," She explains making him chuckle.
"Then it shouldn't really be an issue then," He grins, leaning back into his chair as she wags a figure at him. "I win, and you're competitive. Win, win right?"
"See, right there! Your stubbornness is showing!"
"Oh come on you know you like the stubborn side of me," He teases pushing her figure away.
"UGHHH YOU'RE SUCH A BI-"
"-Heeeeeeeey, guuuuuuyyyysssss," Hiccup said awkward, interrupting the arguing teens by placing both his hands on the table.
How long has he been standing there?
"You ready?" Thuggory flinches when he hears that all too familiar voice and a pat on his shoulder. That makes Camicazi giggle at least.
"Ready for what?" He asks Toothless, "I still have no idea what we're doing!"
Toothless shrugs, "Nothing exclusive, just maybe going to see a move to cheer this one up." He jester's towards Hiccup making him snarl.
"I don't need cheering up! I don't even know why you guys think I'm sad!"
"We all can tell you're a little gloomy man," Camicazi says standing up. "Just except it."
Hiccup just crosses his arms and stands his ground, sticking out his lip like a baby pouting. He isn't upset, he just needs to work some things out with Astrid, and get his homework all squared away, and some studding done, and maybe talk to his dad a little more…
No, he isn't upset over any of that.
He probably only wants to do one of those things, he needs to do the rest.
"Who says I even want to go with you guys?" He asks. And really, he didn't. It was Toothless that pained this whole thing, which woke him up, that texted Thuggory. Sure Hiccup may have texted Cami, but that was only because he didn't want to be stuck with his older brother and immature friend all night. And there was no way he could invite Astrid, she wouldn't go.
He needs to talk to her. They need to figure this awkwardness out before it wrecks everything. Dose she really like him? She texted him no, she refuses to say why though. And she said 'no' through a text! He couldn't see her face when she said it! That means she might not be telling him the truth.
She might have lied to spare their friendship…
There was a bubble of hope forming in his gut when he thought about it. She could have lied. Then he remembered one important detail: she might've not. She could be completely disgusted by him now. Although, she didn't act completely disgusted on Friday.
"We never said you did, but what else are you going to do, stay in the room and watch T.V.?" Thuggory snickered at the thought of the nerdy boy watching Star Wars or something, curled up in a blanket.
It was more than hope, it was courage, and doubt. He doubted himself, but he needed to know! He needed to talk to her before curfew, he needed to talk to her now!
But the question was did he even like her?
The bubble was spreading throughout his body like it had just popped, he had realized something.
Of course he did…
"No," He said glancing over to Thuggory and his brother, both slightly confused. Before he could stop himself he started running to the girl's side of the gigantic building. "I'm going to go talk to my… friend."
The last word caught in his throat, like it was the wrong word to describe her. Maybe she was more than a friend, or maybe she was less…
"Wait Hiccup! Boys aren't allowed in the girl's side, remember!" Camicazi shouts, but it's too late.
The elevator doors already closing around him and carrying him up into the girl's dorm. Cami's eyes go wide for a second, then, she smiles.
"Finally," She says with a sigh of relief.
"What?" Toothless chuckles.
"Nothing… Are we going or what?" Camicazi asks grabbing Thuggory's arm with one hand and Toothless's with the other, heaving them out the front door.
Who's pissed at me hug? Aren't I just the worst?
Ok so I have a lot of explaining to do for those who care… if not its cool if you just skip to the next paragraph. First off, I want to say sorry for being gone for so long, second, I have a good reason. My computer (Old Betty) Finally decided to die on me… it's too bad too… she was always really reliable. So I had to wait a while, in fact over a month for a new computer (Which I still don't have). So after all this I got freaken worried about how the hell I was going to get you guys more chapters. Well it turns out the library is good for more than just reading, writing too. Anyway I got screen time here little by little, in the computer lab at school, in the library, you get it. So anyways here we are rambling on about me, when I just want to say I am truly sorry for the wait. I can't say when the next chapter will be up, for this FF or wdyttm, but I am pretty sure I will have my computer before Christmas so my normal schedule coming back soon.
And don't worry about my OC Danica, she isn't into Hiccup, like Cami she's older and well, not that into him. She said herself that he 'isn't anything special'. Besides she has more in common with Tuffnut *hint hint, nug nug.*
Fewwww, glad I got that out… anyways so sorry guys and like always thanks for reading.
BTW: I am starting a Q&A question thingy. PM me a question or leave one in the comments and I will pick one every new upload to answer in these little notes at the end.
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