- Blair's point of view-

I'm out of hospital now. Which is great news, that means I can be with my family and with Kol. I try to ignore Mikael's note and the whole thing with him telling me Kol is evil. The real reason I don't want to bring it up is because people will think I'm crazy that I was going to the other side. But I am a little pissed that Jeremy Gilbert hasn't been arrested or had any charge on him. So I'm coming up with a plan to make him suffer. So much he would regret doing what he did to me. I HATE him! I LOATHE him! I DESPISE him! My plan might by cruel but he really deserves it. Kol offered to take me away for a weekend. Which is a lovely idea but I said no just so I could harm that Gilbert. I know what I'm going to do. But I have to say it won't be pretty.

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My tummy is in twists and turns about what I'm about to do. I'm quietly tiptoeing down to the police station. Slipping past the guards. I try not to make any noise, my mum isn't at work today, so that means a free office. That has an emergency gun in it. I know it's really bad but I have to do it. He deserves it. Everything he's going to get. As I open the door a rush of guilt spreads over, but as strong as I am I pull out of it. In my mum's office I see pictures of me, Caroline and even my father. I stop and look at that family photo. Everything was so good then. Everything!

There's a combination to the case which holds my murder weapon. The code is my birthday of course, I remember Caroline having a big strop over it once.

8102

'Bing!'

It opens. As it opens I gasp as I see the gun lying there. I have an idea with gloves. So that I don't have my finger prints on the gun. The gun wasn't as heavy as I predicted, I was hoping it would be too heavy for me to lift. I have my weapon, now I make my way to the Gilberts'.

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Elena isn't home, so it's just Jeremy. I sneak in through the side window. As I walk around I see more and more blood on my hands. How can I do this? I think. This isn't me! I go up the stairs to Jeremy's room. He's lying there listening to music. Not noticing me. I slam the door. Jeremy's awake and looking frightened.

"Baby? You came back to me?" He asks moving towards me.

"No! We just need to talk." I say pushing him off.

"Oh come on, I know how much you love me." Jeremy grasps my waist and pins me to the bed.

I try to get away. But I was too weak, he was a hunter and all.

"Get off!" I finally scream and I scramble off him.

"Come on darling. I just want you for tonight and tomorrow I want pay any attention to you. Is that ok darling?" He smirks.

"Don't call me that!" I shout.

"Why not darling? Isn't that what Kol calls you. Darling this and darling that. You know in my opinion it's a little creepy." He steps closer and touches me.

"Touch me and I'll shot!" I scream and suddenly holding the gun up at his face.

Like a baby, he crouches down. And he tries to beg for mercy.

"Just shut up!" I scream at him.

"Look. Blair I was just teasing you." Jeremy smiles.

"You're a liar. You never loved me! You hurt me and tricked me and slayed me. I was a toy to you." I start crying I really didn't want to do this.

"I'm sorry!" He says.

My hands start shaking. My head is spinning. I can't do this? Can I? I'm not a killer!

"OH come on Blair! Don't be such a baby! You can do it just one flick on your finger. Then BOOM!" Says a familiar voice behind me.

I turn around holding the gun up, nothing.

"Really you don't remember me? I'ts me Mikael." I hear laughter and that voice again. Mikael.

"Think about Elena, Caroline, you're mum. She would be devastated if you do this. That means you're a killer and you're not are you?" Jeremy tells me crying.

My whole body is trembling. I can't think straight I start to feel sleepy.

"Please Blair." Jeremy insists.

"Come on! Come on! You can do it!" Mikael is saying in my head. "You're going to be a big baby if you don't pull that trigger!"

I feel as if my head is about to explode! I just wish Kol will come and save me. Tears stream from my eyes.

"Come on baby. He deserves it! If you love Kol you will do this. That means you're a killer like him!" Mikael mocks.

"Leave me alone!" I scream dropping the gun.

"Coward! Coward! Coward! Kol would never love you and you're too much of a COWARD to tell him about the past! Coward!" Mikael mocks.

All I hear is coward, coward, Coward, COWARD!

I lift up the gun and point it to Jeremy Gilbert's head. He's crying and saying please don't. But I don't listen I'm about the pull thrigger.
But time turns slow, as if it's been paused. My finger is slipping and I'm crying. The trigger is nearly pulled until I hear the window behind me smask. And something jumps over me. I pull the trigger but it shots the wall. I look up to see Kol, saving me from doing something I would regret for the rest of my life.

"You're not a killer Blair, and you never will be." Kol tells me.

"What about Jeremy." I ask weeping.

Kol settles me down and walks over to Jeremy and looks him in the eye.

"You will forget about this whole night. You'll forget the way you treat women and now you will be kind gentle and sweet. Towards them. Now go downstairs and make yourself a coffee and forget about this whole night." Kol releases Jeremy from his eye contact and moves back to me.

But I can still hear Mikael's voice in my head.

"You're not a killer! You're a COWARD! Kol will never love you! Remember to ask him! Coward!" Mikael laughs in my head.

I block his voice out and try to calm myself. I will ask Kol tomorrow I promised myself.

I hug Kol and cry, cry, cry as that's all I feel like doing- crying. In his arms I feel so safe and happy. I feel as if I've always been wrong.

Love isn't an over-rated word people make a big deal out of.

Love is love and it's the best feeling you could ever have.

"I love you." Kol whispers in my ear.

"I love you too." I say before closing my eyes.

Thinking, I'm going to ask him tomorrow.