Chapter 8
Gone
A/N: Thank you all for the reviews!!!! I couldn't believe how fast they came!!! Special thanx to maraudergurl and CC. (But… I have a feeling you are the same person. Am I right? Correct me if not) Anyway, clever, I wasn't expecting to have to post so soon. Thank you very much though, it is encouraging. But please,( I know I don't sound grateful for all the reviews, but really, I am) next time no cheating. Those include, no two people in one kind of thing(if that's the case, it's just a lucky guess), and try to review only once. LOL! It's just because me and my best friend on FFnet (Cristalake) are doing a competition to have the most reviews at ten chapters but if I get "fakes" it doesn't make it fair for her. Anyway, here's another chapter, sorry if it took longer to post than I thought.
Bella's POV
I was crawling backwards away from his threatening stance. I knew my life was over then and there. However, I couldn't make myself be as scared as I should. I knew the love of my life was about to kill me but I didn't want to scream for help. One, it would give him away, and two, I wasn't really able to.
What really terrified me wasn't the fact that I'd die, it was the fact that I'd never again see Edward. Of course, any normal person would've run away screaming, but I've never been normal, why should I start now?
I desperately tried to knock some sense into him. He didn't listen to my reminders of his love for me and mine for him, however. He was a totally different Edward than the one I had known for the past couple of months.
Edward lunged at me; there was no way he'd miss. He pinned me down brusquely. In a last attempt to save our relationship, I sucked in air and tried to scream.
"NO, EDWARD!!!"
It wasn't my voice I heard, though I had opened my voice to utter the same words. Out of nowhere a shape flew through the air and crashed straight into Edward, catching him by surprise and knocking him off of me. I gasped, fighting for breath. He seemed to wake from his trance then.
I realized, having seen her with Edward's family, that Alice was my savior; she had Edward pinned to the ground. I marveled at the strength she had never showed.
I was trembling, of course from fear, but also from cold. Now, why would I be cold? It was probably from the shock.
"Bella! Are you okay?" Alice walked slowly over to me lifting me up gently. I realized my face was probably frozen in a mask of shock.
"Ye…Yea…Yeah… I…I…Th…Think" I managed to stammer.
Edward was sitting a little way off; he looked so much more terrified than me. Alice shot him a vicious glare, something I never would've expected from somebody that looked so innocent. Edward just looked down, and I swear if he could've, he would be crying. He was shaking. I looked away from him and into Alice's eyes.
"Thank you," I murmured
"We should get you home now," she glanced at Edward. "I think I'll take you home." She didn't trust him.
I didn't argue, not because I agreed, but because I was too tired. I turned back to look at Edward, but he was nowhere to be seen.
"He left," Alice said, when she saw me. "Don't worry, he won't bother you again."
I looked at her, terrified. I didn't want him to leave. He was my life. I'd die if he did. He couldn't do that to me. No, no, no.
Seeming to think my terrified look meant I was scared of Edward, Alice told me; "I should never've let him bring you."
"No! I'm happy you did! I love Edward! I don't want him to leave! Please, NO!" I was going into hysterics.
"Don't worry, Bella. We'll do what's best for you," She glanced at me worriedly.
I didn't like the sound of that. So far, Alice seemed to think that the best for me was to take Edward away, and that was the worst she could do to me, that would kill me, break me.
"Come on, I'll take you home."
I let Alice drive me home without complaint, even though she was driving at twice the speed allowed. Not one of us spoke during the whole drive home; we made it there way faster than when I had driven to the meadow. The meadow. Already, memories, fresh from today were invading my mind.
Alice dropped me off, with my truck, and ran home, after making sure I was okay to walk inside. Charlie wasn't home, he'd be gone until tomorrow. And I'd be stuck here with no news of Edward until Monday.
I trudged inside, lost in my own thoughts. I kept thinking of Edward's face after he'd almost killed me. It ripped me open. I remembered the powerful electricity when he'd kissed me. I remembered fainting because of his kiss. All of it was too much. They could've been good memories. But now, everything was shrouded in darkness for me. I loved him. I always would. Did he not know he was the best thing that had ever happened to me? No, he didn't. And that hurt. Hurt too much.
The evening past in a daze for me. I refused to think, knowing I'd only think of him. I half-heartedly swallowed a bowl of cereal, yes, for supper, and took a long, hot shower. It was only 7:30 when I trudged up to my room to get in pajamas and go to bed, but I didn't take notice of it. The day's activities had taken a lot out of me. I just wanted the weekend to pass by quickly, so that I could see Edward again.
I put on a pair of earphones to listen to some music, not bothering to check what CD it was. Before long, I had fallen asleep, even with the music. I woke up a few hours later, realizing this. I pulled off the earphones and started thinking of something. Edward couldn't leave me. He loved me, hadn't he told me that? And why would he leave me, anyway? I knew the answer though. He'd leave me because he wanted to protect me. What he didn't understand was that he would make me more vulnerable to death if he left me. But try as I might to convince him of that, I knew he'd never believe me.'
I fell asleep again, still lost in thought. I dreamt that night. It was nightmarish. I relived every moment of this afternoon, only this time, I died. Everything was the same, only Alice didn't come. I dreamt that I went to heaven, but it wasn't heaven. I was alone. No Edward, no Alice, not even any Mike!
I awoke abruptly, drenched in cold sweat. I hated this. I missed him. I didn't care if he had tried to 'eat' me, I knew that would change, it had to. I loved him. He loved me. It was 'chemistry', no?
I remembered Carlisle's theory, the one that we'd know soon enough if our electricity was a good one or not. He had said that if it pushed too much… That didn't look too good.
It was the longest day of my life. I sulked around the house for ages. I even started reading Withering Heights again. I closed soon after though, because it reminded me too much of him.
Charlie came home around supper time, and I warmed up some left over lasagna for him.
"I got us a weekly supply of fish," Charlie stated, grinning.
I forced myself to look happy, anyway, I didn't know if Edward was going to leave me, he never said so. "That's great, dad! Anyway, we'll never run out of fish with you around!"
He merely smiled and took his lasagna to go and eat it in front of the TV, to go watch the football game. I, for the first time in ages, sat down with him. That's proof of how much I was bored and needed to get my mind off things, or more like, Edward.
We sat there for a long time, and when the match got too boring I crept upstairs to take another long, hot shower. I was anxious for tomorrow to come. When I got out, I took the time to dry my hair thoroughly, something I hardly ever do. More proof of my boredom and anxiety. I slowly made my way to my bedroom and slipped on a pair of old PJs.
I fell asleep a couple of hours after laying my head on the pillow. I tossed and turned all night, fitfully tying to drown out the sound of the relentless rain with my pillow. I had never gotten used to it.
When I awoke the following morning, I got up earlier than ever, in a rush to get to school. I got dressed quickly, randomly pulling on a pair of pants and a T-shirt. I jammed the hairbrush through my hair and brushed my teeth the fastest I could manage, which wasn't all that fast. I stumbled down the stairs, and, for a change, made myself a toast, which I burnt.
Taking a quick glimpse at the time, I noted it was way too early to head off to school. I still had about a half-hour before getting there. But instead of hanging around the house I decided to go to school anyway, I could sit on a picnic table.
I slowly drove out of the drive, and, driving a little slower than the speed limit, made my way to the school. I parked cautiously into the drive and stepped out of my old truck. It was gray, again. And cold, and humid and… Gray.
Suddenly I was surprised by a cold, firm hand around my waist, pulling me in. I was held close against a hard, marble chest, his nose in my hair. I felt the electricity make my heart flap around in my own chest. I gazed up into his eyes, which were onyx. I started pulling away, remembering Saturday.
"No, don't, it's okay," he said, gazing into my eyes. I noticed a sad, faraway look in them.
I had forgotten all my doubts when I felt him with me. I relaxed, letting myself melt into his arms. I wasn't ready for what happened next...
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(A/N: no just kidding I won't end it here)
Both his hands were on my face, his lips gently gliding over mine. I threw my arms around his neck, and much to my surprise, he didn't pull away, instead, he responded and we stayed like that for what seemed a very short eternity.
"I love you, Bella, but it's too late,"
"Wait, what do you mean?" I was anxious again.
He never answered me, the last I saw of him was the blur of his shape as he vanished, for what I knew to be forever.
That made me break down. I fell to my knees, falling on the hard cement, and lay there, not believing any of it….
A/N: I hope you enjoyed the chapter, I know it wasn't that long, but enough to understand…. I hope.. Thank you for all of your understanding and support. Read my BF Cristalake's fic My Last Breath, it's so much better than mine! Anyway thank you for all the reviews!! Keep reviewing!!!
