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Live With You, Can't Live Without You
Chapter 9: Truth
Can Make You Faint
"Mmm…" Namine smiled in her sleep and rolled over to her face, expecting to come in full contact with a mouth full of grass, but instead her mouth was still clean. Her head on a…
Pillow? And a bed? With blankets? None of the things around her were familiar. It seemed all so foreign. Where was she?
One thought immediately popped into her mind.
'Roxas…' Namine smiled at how kind he was. He must've carried her all the way back to his house and put her on his bed so she could sleep. It was obviously a sweet gesture to do, but Namine hadn't seen Roxas in sight at all.
Now where was that spiky blonde boy and what was he up to?
Namine pouted to herself and rolled out of bed. She was still in her silk gown pajama dress, which she didn't usually wear (but once again she forgot to do her a laundry and ended up wearing some fancy lingerie she got from her mother). She felt a little bit exposed in such a skimpy dress, after all she usually wore pajama bottoms and a shirt, but today she was wearing a spaghetti strapped silk gown that was cut way above her knees and since she was so thin, it was baggy up top. She frowned at her outfit, but decided it was no big deal. Before she and Roxas had walked all the way to the lake and nothing was wrong.
Then again neither of them was both awake enough to notice her outfit. She paused and contemplated her options. She could either stay here and waste her time here over a stupid sleeping gown or go down there and find Roxas. She decided to go with her second choice and find Roxas. But before Namine went downstairs she observed the room. It was filled with posters of bands, skaters, and clothes were all over the place. Although it was messy it still smelled good. It was citrusy, but not girly. No by any means, not girly at all, but it smelled like Roxas.
Namine then realized she loved the smell of Roxas. She shook her head and remembered she had a task to accomplish.
She opened the door and immediately smelled something delightful downstairs. She also heard a string of curses as well, but she knew that voice was Roxas's. She stifled a giggle and continued walking down the stairs quietly. She didn't know where she was going, but she followed the sound of frying or something of the sort. By the time the noise was at its climax she creaked open the door quietly and peeked through.
The first thing she saw was Roxas throw a burnt pancake in the trashcan and let out another sentence filled with curses. The second thing she noticed was the beautiful table with flowers in the center and plenty of food around. She was surprised that Roxas did this, but was it for…?
No. No. No. Impossible. It just couldn't be for her. Just plain Namine. No one ever did anything special for her. She was a shadow. A girl no one noticed. The girl who was silent and mainly drew pictures. Those pictures were her sanctuary.
But there was such a thing as more than one sanctuary.
"HOLY CRAP! NAMINE!" Roxas shrieked as he looked up and saw a flash of blonde hair a pair of blue eyes, "What?! What are you doing here? You…you're awake?!"
Namine froze as she realized she was caught, but composed herself easily and opened the door all the way and came into the kitchen. "Of course I am silly. Does it look like I'm sleep walking?" Namine teased as she sauntered over and sat down on the table, "Nice plate setting."
"I…I didn't think you'd wake up yet," Roxas stammered.
"What's the nice plate setting and the food for?" Namine wondered as she trailed her finger around the outline of a flower.
"You of course," Roxas explained logically as Namine picked up a small piece of bacon with her fingers and started chewing on it.
"Me?" Namine choked on the bacon she was eating, but began to calm down and finish the piece, "Why me?"
"Because I just felt like it," Roxas replied vaguely as he turned his back to her and began washing the dishes, "Am I not allowed to do something nice for a friend?"
"Uhh…but…" Namine paused trying to think of the right word, but nothing came up, "Sure."
"Exactly" Roxas smiled at her and sat down right across from her, "I'm just doing a friendly favor."
"You do too many favors. I really don't need all this Roxas," Namine assured.
"But you deserve it," Roxas retorted, "Plus you're parents are always on those stupid business trips. They don't even send you a card."
"My mom just came back home yesterday," Namine defended, "They…they care, but they don't show it as much."
"Yeah and you're mom's leaving this afternoon right? And why'd she come home? To just relax for an hour and then leave?" Roxas asked angrily, "You don't deserve that. Your parents just neglect you and expect you to take care of yourself. Where's your dad? Off on another business trip?"
"They trust me Roxas! I can handle myself!" Namine shouted, "I can. I'm fine."
"Don't you feel even more lonely in a big house with no one at all?" Roxas wondered, "I mean…no one at all. Not even a pet."
"You get used to it," Namine whispered silently, "My parents gave me all they can. They work and pay for my food. I can't take that for granted."
"They can't take you for granted," Roxas declared, "You need someone who will give you this attention."
"No, I don't. I'm fine just by myself," Namine explained, "Just fine, Roxas."
"Namine don't do this to them. Don't do this to me," Roxas begged as he leaned forward, but Namine backed up a little and pretended to begin eating breakfast.
"It's okay Roxas. With you I'm fine," Namine explained as she began chewing again. Roxas was flustered a little at the compliment, but he didn't want to get off track like this.
"Namine…" Roxas whined, "If your parents aren't at home spend the night at my place. My parents won't mind."
"But I'd mind. I don't want to intrude and I'm not lonely," Namine explained as she finished up the last of her breakfast.
"Well, in case," Roxas added, "Just stop by my place and don't ever feel like you're intruding. You're not."
"Okay whatever," Namine replied as she picked up her plate and walked over to the sink to wash the dishes.
"Don't forget," Roxas demanded.
"I won't," Namine answered firmly, "I should go."
"Stay," Roxas demanded.
"I need to change!" Namine exclaimed. 'I…there's something wrong with me.' Namine thought as she felt butterflies in her stomach.
"What's wrong with that?" Roxas asked as he rose an eyebrow, "I have clothes you know…"
"Roxas n—" Namine paused as she heard a faint buzzing coming from somewhere, "Do you hear that?"
"Wha--? OH!" Roxas exclaimed, "That…" Roxas pointed to a flashing color on top of the microwave, "It's your cell phone. I didn't want it to bother you while you were asleep so I put it down here."
"Oh…" Namine quickly glided over to the phone and didn't bother looking at caller ID. Roxas waited patiently as she picked up the phone and gasped, "Kairi? What's wrong?"
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As soon as Kairi got home something kept bothering her conscience. It kept annoying her and nagging her.
Of course it was Sora. He always seemed to get on her nerves even if he wasn't even doing anything. Sure, he was taking a nap in his room quietly, but still something bothered Kairi about Sora.
Why the hell did she kiss his neck? It bothered her. She didn't mean for that to happen. After all it was just a small gesture, but she didn't want him to get any funny ideasAnd after thinking, and thinking, and even more thinking. She somehow got on the topic of her friendship with Sora in the past. His promise that he didn't fufill. This made her mad all over again, but that was ages ago. Why wasn't she over it yet?
'I…there's something wrong with me…' Kairi thought to herself as she shook her head.
Suddenly Kairi jumped up and scribbled something on a sheet of paper. She slid the sheet under Sora's door and grabbed her cell phone and quickly dialed the number she knew so well.
One ring. Two ring. Kairi sighed.
Three ring. Four ring. 'Pick up your phone!'Suddenly the phone stopped ringing and she heard some muffled voices for a brief millisecond, but Kairi began talking.
"I haven't told you everything yet. So just listen. I'm going to your place in 10 minutes. I've got this problem," Kairi explained all in one breath.
"Kairi? What's wrong?" Namine wondered.
"I need you to go to your house. I need to tell you something!" Kairi demanded.
"I'm at Roxas's, but I'll be there soon," Namine agreed as Kairi silently let out a breath of relief.
"Thanks! Bye!" Kairi hung up and dashed to Namine's house.
Whoa. Whoa. REWIND? Roxas's place? What the hell was she doing there?
'Whatever she can explain after I tell my story,' Kairi thought to herself as she dashed toward Namine's house. She was still in her pajamas, but she didn't really care at this point. She needed to vent out. She needed to find out what was wrong with her!
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"So what's wrong?" Roxas questioned as Namine hung up the phone.
"I need to go," Namine simply stated, "I'll call you tonight."
"You better," Roxas teased as he slowly leaned forward and Namine began blushing furiously. And just like that he kissed her…
On the cheek.
Namine let out a sigh, but if it was of glee or disappointment she didn't know. All she knew was that in the back of her mind she kept wondering what a kiss on the lips would be like with Roxas.
Okay, now would be the best time for her to go.
"I…uhh…got to go…uhh…bye…" Namine stammered. She didn't want to do something stupid or somehow kiss him without noticing.
"Namine are you all right?" Roxas wondered.
"I'm f—fine…bye Roxas." Namine quickly hugged him and rushed out the door, but she couldn't help, but feel that spot on her cheek where Roxas kissed her. The thought just made her blush all around.
"Stop it Namine! Kairi needs you," Namine muttered and began to run to her house.
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"Kairi," Namine whined. Both Kairi and Namine were sitting on Namine's couch once again chatting. They lit the fireplace and the flames began to dance since it was a bit chilly today. Namine's parents weren't home this afternoon so it was perfect for their little gathering.
"Okay, okay, I'll tell you," Kairi muttered, "I just…it's hard to explain." Both Kairi and Namine had just sat on the couch eating and watching TV for the first hour. It seemed Kairi didn't want to break the ice first, so after an hour Namine had finally whined for Kairi to start.
"Please tell me. I left Ro…" Namine didn't want to explain how she left Roxas's house earlier for this meeting. It would cause questions that she herself didn't know the answer to, "I mean…I woke up early for this…"
"It's like 2 in the afternoon? Usually you wake up by 9 and didn't you say you were at Roxas's house?" Kairi stated.
"Can you just tell me what it's about?" Namine asked.
"As usual…" Kairi fumbled with the loose strands of her hair, "Sora…he just…there's so much I didn't tell you and so much that was messed up. There were so many things that weren't fixed or spoken about. They were all just left unsaid. I just…it's hard to explain."
"Talk…" Namine demanded, "What's going on? Start from the beginning."
"That's where I was going to start. I have to tell you the story of how it happened before I explain you know…what's going on," Kairi explained.
"Okay…?" Namine stated softly.
"So…I'm going to start from the beginning and reminisce," Kairi began, "It all started when I met him in the kindergarten. From the start I knew he was different. Just special. Don't ask. He was different back then, but we became good friends in the third grade and—okay honestly I don't know what kind of drug I was on back then to be friends with him. So right before middle school we promised each other we wouldn't change and that no matter what we'd be best friends. Not just that we promised we'd meet each other at this park where we'd always hang out as kids. I still remember the date. March 15th of the eighth grade. I don't even know why I showed up. It was cold that day and Sora had changed so much since then—"
"He didn't change that much," Namine interrupted.
Kairi continued as if she didn't speak, "Before I talk about that particular day I'm going to describe the events that led up to that day. For about 2 weeks before middle school Sora and I didn't talk and I missed the first week of school cause my mom and I went to California to visit some friends. So basically I hadn't talked to him for 3 weeks and I missed him—why? I seriously don't know, but he was pretty annoying. It was so weird though. I went to school and I tried to find him on the first day so we could walk to class together like we planned, but as it turns out I didn't have as many classes as I thought we'd be in. Not just that Sora ended up being this total regulation hottie or something. What kind of drugs those girls were on I don't know either, but it was probably relatively close to the one I was on," Namine laughed at Kairi's joke and Kairi continued again, "But honestly he was different I knew it, but I didn't want to admit it. So when I finally waved hi to Sora he didn't wave back. I don't know if I wasn't cool enough for him, but he was surrounded by a whole bunch of girls and that's when it slapped me in the face. Sora wasn't Sora anymore. He wasn't the boy who'd save me his last piece of candy even when he didn't eat lunch. It was Mr. Hot-shot Sora who was all cocky. I mean sure he was a bit cocky when we were friends, but this…this was different." Kairi paused.
"I know all of this already. What does this have to do with--?"
"Shh woman and let me finish," Kairi commanded, "Then Selphie said…you know Selphie right? The brunette that was left back in the 4th grade? I used to be friends with that retarded cheerleader. Anyways, she said that I had a crush on Sora or something and I was all like…'No I don't!' I know I sound pretty immature or something or like that whole cootie thing, but trust me, by 6th grade I'd gotten over that. Granted, I was still a bit slow on this whole 'crush' concept, I still could never like Sora. He was my best friend! That just doesn't work out. But Selphie kept nagging me and saying things like that I stared at him! I mean just because he's in the way of the clock doesn't mean I'm staring at him!" Namine made a coughing noise and Kairi ignored it, "Shut it Namine. I was seriously staring at the clock that time. Not Sora." Kairi grunted and continued, "So I tried avoiding him so Selphie wouldn't think I liked him or anything. I stopped talking to him. I know…I know…stupid mistake. Who cares what other people think? I was young so what? And the next thing you know we're not talking. Like in general. I didn't hate him, but I didn't like him. But you still miss that feeling you know? The one person that knew you for so long was gone and it's like a part of you is gone too. Oh well I got over it."
"Kairi honestly…I don't have the rest of my life…" Namine sighed.
"Just stop interrupting me!" Kairi suggested.
"Oh dear…" Namine mumbled as she nodded for Kairi to continue.
"So a week before March 15th when
I was in the 8th grade I was rereading over my diary
entries. I mean everybody rereads this kind of stuff! I read the
entry about Sora and my promise about how we'd meet each other no
matter how much we drifted apart. Hell no was I going to go to
that place and visit that guy who'd probably forgot about that
promise anyway. No way! Screw him! That's all I thought, but when
the day drew near and it was already 6:30 of the 15th of
March I was out there in the freezing cold while it was raining
waiting for him. I waited for about an hour, but he never showed. I
almost wanted to cry, but I didn't…I couldn't and then I
realized. I hated him. Too bad I figured out two years too
late, but I hated him and even though in the back of my head I
still missed him I still had that strong feeling of hate. He had
broken a promise and this wasn't a light thing. We took promises
seriously.
But this wasn't Sora. Sora had changed hadn't
he? Well never mind him," Kairi sighed and looked down,
"There's more don't get your hopes up too high. I just need a
break."
Namine rolled her eyes, "There's obviously more. I just kind of wish this story wasn't so long!"
"I told you in the phone call to just listen. There was a lot I was hiding. This Sora subject is very touchy for me," Kairi explained.
"Continue," Namine commanded.
"Will
do," Kairi smiled, "So in the ninth grade I was doing my
homework on a Friday night. My mom wasn't going to be home tonight
so it would just be me by myself. I didn't really care that I
wasn't out on a Friday night. Whatever, I was a loser. Is it my
fault I rather not go to some party, get drunk, and probably end up
sleeping with some random guy? No it isn't. But that one night the
strangest thing happened. As I was doing my homework in my skimpy
pajamas the doorbell began ringing furiously. Over and over again. I
thought it was a killer or someone pranking so I didn't open it,
but it wouldn't stop. Then suddenly there was a voice. A familiar
voice calling my name over and over again. I rushed to the door and
opened it up. There was Sora. He was just standing there.
With that strange mop of a head and he was leaning on the side of my
door so when I opened it he fell through. He was drunk I knew it. Mr.
Hot Shot went to a party cause he's so "It
hasn't changed," was all he said and I gave him this look like.
What the hell? But then he later explained that my room hadn't
changed. How the hell would he remember? I didn't know or care.
Then I asked him what he was doing here. He said he had no place to
go and I was the closest. I was about ready to kill him and kick him
out the door. When suddenly he just blatantly stated, "You're
beautiful." And I shut up. Just like that he made me shut up, but I
began to talk rapidly to hide my blush or the fact that I was
touched. Okay, this was all way too weird as you may have
figured. A drunk Sora complimenting me when we weren't even friends
and we were in my room alone. Then he says something else,
"You smell good." He leans in close. He's drunk I know it, but
why the hell are his senses on overdrive? I thought drunk people were
supposed to be completely stupid. Well, actually that'd make sense
because that would explain all of those compliments—"
"It was so weird. He was leaning in closer to me. I began to talk real fast and say mean things. I could smell his budweiser-filled breath. His big blue eyes were wide now and suddenly he closed the gap and kissed me. His tongue licked over my lips and he pressed me down on the bed. Okay, let me remind you I'm in the ninth grade and I hate this guy. If he was trying to find a way to shut me up it definitely worked, but I was still pretty pissed. This guy just stole my first kiss and…wait…he was still kissing me and I hadn't done anything. What the hell?! I suddenly pushed him off and threw him out of my house. Like literally. In the end he found a ride home, but I couldn't forget that kiss. I liked it. I wanted it again. But I brushed it off as hormones. Because well…it was. The next school day we acted like nothing happened. Maybe nothing did happen because he didn't remember it. In the end though everything had changed and I just didn't want to admit it. And like that we were enemies and like that I didn't know him. And just like that he's under my roof living with me!"
"So what's wrong…?" Namine wondered, "Besides the fact that he's living with you."
"He…I don't know. It's like I don't want to lose him again and I don't know why because frankly I think my life would be much better without him," Kairi stated meanly, "I can't stand him. He's annoying and he loves getting in fights with me. Not just that he's totally arrogant and cocky. I can't stand him!"
"So why don't you want to lose him?" Namine questioned calmly.
"That's the thing! I don't know! And just this morning I hugged him because I was scared I hurt his feeling! What the hell? I shouldn't give a damn!" Kairi shrieked as she felt her blood pressure rising. This most definitely was not a good thing.
"Kairi…" Namine whispered.
"Sora…I don't understand him! Or me for that matter! He and his broken promises!" Kairi yelled.
"Kairi," Namine repeated.
"He can be such a jerk! He broke a promise. Something important to us and—god I can't stand him. He pisses me off all the freaking time! He's practically on my hit list like no joke. He's so—"
"KAIRI!" Namine yelled.
"What is it?"
"Kairi I know why you're acting like this," Namine stated simply as Kairi's eyes widened in excitement.
"You do? Thank god because I need the truth and I need some answers," Kairi demanded.
"Three words," Namine paused and took a deep breath, "You're. In. Love."
Kairi never thought the truth could literally cause her to faint.
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SORRY GUYS! I know; I know I haven't posted in so long. I'm such a bad author, but I try. Not many authors are posting I know and it was pretty heartless of me not to either. But now that swim season is over I'll have time (granted, track season will start soon so don't get your hopes up TOO high)
I hope you liked this chapter. Next chapter will be a little more Roxas X Namine more than Sora X Kairi. Sorry all you people who don't like Roxas X Namine as much!
I promise I'll try to update at least one chapter before track season! Thanks for sticking with the story
x3,
LJ
