Sorry I didnt update yesterday, was with best sister and cousin ever! You know who I own and who I don't. Happy reading.

Alex and Olivia walk into the squad room holding hands, and Alex has a million things swimming through her head. She hadn't seen Meghan in at least ten years. How would Meghan ever forgive her? She wanted nothing more than to make it up to her niece, but she didn't think she'd be able to. Yeah she could give her a place to sleep, food to eat, clothes to wear, and a school to go to, but could she ever give Meghan back her piece of mind. Meghan had been through so much in fourteen years. She had lost her parents twice and now she had been abused for six years. All Alex wanted was to give Meghan a childhood before it was too late. In the back of her mind she thought it was already too late.

Olivia led Alex to her desk and sat her down in the chair. As Alex looked around trying to clear her head she saw it. She saw the scrapbook her mom had made Meghan after they all agree to close the adoption. Her mom wanted to give it to Meghan so that she would know she was loved and that all they wanted to do was give her the best life she could possibly have.

Alex reached across Olivia's desk and picked up the book. She opened it a thumbed through it stopping when she came to the page she had created. It was cover in pictures of Alex, and her sister and Meghan. She rubbed her fingers over the caption and whispered to herself "I'll love you to the end of all days, Meghan! May all your days be filled with happiness."

As Olivia realized what Alex was looking at, she sat down on her own desk. Placing a hand under her lover's chin she forced Alex to look at her. It was then that she noticed the tears that were in her girlfriend's beautiful crystal blue eyes. "Alex, you did the right thing Meghan was loved and happy. You couldn't have known what was going to happen when she was eight."

Alex now let the tears roll down her cheeks. She knew logically Olivia was right but her heart was telling her a different story. Her heart was telling her that she ought to feel guilty that it was all her fault. She couldn't take the waiting anymore so she left not knowing where she was going.

"Alex" Olivia cried after her. Alex kept walking she would be back but, until Meghan was here, she needed to be alone.

* * * * * * * * At the Hospital * * * * * * * *

After Serena had helped Meghan into the cab, she stood outside, "I need to make a quick phone call," explaining to both Meghan and the cab driver. "Just one second." She said as she closed the door.

The phone rang three times before a woman answered, "Hello Ms. Southerlyn is Meghan ready for us to come meet her?"

"No not exactly, Mrs. Garder, we found somebody else." Serena explained

"I see," Serena could hear the disappointment in the woman voice. She felt terrible. She knew that the couple wanted a child desperately. They would be excellent parents. But Serena also knew that Meghan needed to be with Alex. Serena had tuned out the rest of what Mrs. Garder had to say. She was only brought out of her own head when she heard the line go dead.

"Alright," Serena said as she finally got into the cab, "Let's go."

Meghan rolled her eyes as she looked out the window to watch the city go by. She just wanted to die. She was tired and in pain. She had lost everything before the age of fifteen. 'Why does God hate me so much' she thought just as the cab pulled in front of the one-six.

Alex was walking out of the coffee shop adjacent to the precinct when she saw Serena getting out of the cab. She began to panic and nearly dropped the coffees she was carrying. And in a split second she decided that she would go in through the back. She wasn't ready to run into Meghan, not yet.

Meghan walked into the squad room and immediately saw Olivia and marched straight at her. "What else do you want from me?" She yelled at her, "I already told you everything I just want to go home. Where ever the hell that is now."

"Meghan, why don't you take a seat for just a second please?" Olivia begged as she reached for her cell phone to text Alex.

Meghan was too tired to continue to argue so she did as she was told. She studied the photos on Olivia's desk. There was one of Olivia and a blonde woman that Meghan recognized but couldn't place. Just then she heard someone walking into the room. As she looked up she saw Olivia taking the coffees from the same blonde that was in the picture.

"Alexandra?" Meghan knew who the blonde was. It was her aunt.

Please, please review. I really want to hear what you have to say people. Thanks for reading. And I promise the next chapter will contain a conversation between Alex and Meghan!