Chapter 8: Slowly but surely
Alice's POV
It's been a week after that make out I had with Bella, flash backs was hitting me hard every day. Me and Bella happy together, let me correct that—me and human Bella happy together. Yeah, I started to put the pieces together. It all took place after Jasper first left me, like I'll forget someone leaving me.
I always knew there was a piece of me missing and now I know why. Bella was that missing piece, but I still wondered how I'm now with Jasper and not with Bella. The flashbacks only helped me piece things together it didn't help me figure out why I'm with Jasper and how. Yes there was still things missing and I do intend to find out.
And I slowly started to understand that dream I had when I first slept. I had to just follow my heart, like I did in my dream and now I knew for a fact it'll choose Bella.
But while that week was going by Bella avoided me like the plague. In school she usually stood outside in the pouring rain when we had lunch and when we have class together it really didn't help. Seeing her soaked body every time she entered the class room took all my power, to not jump her in front of everyone.
Yeah I started to not care about my marriage with Jasper. I could see he couldn't make me feel this way. He couldn't make me desire him in ways Bella can. Let's just say he doesn't even try, well he never did before.
I can feel it, I was slowly falling in love with Bella and out of love with Jasper, not that I didn't mind. Jasper can't make me feel whole, when I'm with him I always felt incomplete. And that was before I met Bella.
And I knew I had to end my marriage, if I want any chance with Bella. But something was telling me not to end it yet. I didn't understand why, if I didn't end it I'll be suffering but then it dawned on me. If I go with Bella then I won't know how I ended up with Jasper.
So I decided to stay with Jasper, trying to see if I'll get a flash back that included him or a flash back that showed how my relationship with human Bella ended.
Yeah I'm gonna suffer, but I want answers on how things came to be.
A/N:
Sorry about the late update nd it's shortness, I truly hate this chap. But due to having school it takes all my time away from writing. And plus I can only go on the computer Fri-Sunday, yeah not much time to write T.T.
Well review…
~Zelly
