A/N: Said I would put it up on Tuesday give or take, well I couldn't resist so yeah... see how special you guys are?
Emma didn't mean to, but she did. She broke down, and she didn't want Killian to see. She didn't want him to see her walls break down just like that, so she ran- ran into the captain's chamber and started crying. She heard the door slam behind her. Killian sat next to her and she turned. He can't see her like this. Crying. It's not how Emma usually was, but ever since Henry came and found her, her walls have been getting weaker. Then she met Killian, in a single moment on the beanstalk, he was able to shatter her wall in a single second; no one has been able to do that before, ever.
The tears were coming out slower now, and she opened her eyes, but Killian's hand on her back caused her to close it again.
"Emma," he said, his voice soothing, and comforting. She slowly let her gaze float to his eyes. He was holding the Peter Pan book she first carried when she came on the ship. He gently put it on her lap and wrapped both arms around her. Emma's head but Killian's neck and she left it there, breathing hot breaths and tears on his coat.
After a minute, he pulled back and said, "you're not pushing me away."
"That took you a while," she laughed.
"You usually push away the people who try to comfort you. How come you're not pushing me away?"
"Because I trust you," Emma replied like it was the most obvious thing ever.
"You.. trust me?" Killian asked, his voice gentle, like she just broke his wall.
"Why do you think I left you on the beanstalk?You'd think it's for my own safety. It's not, and it never will be. I left you up there because I couldn't take the chance that I was wrong about you," Emma paused.
"That i'd betray you," Killian replied, but got an immediate answer:
"No, that's not it. I was afraid you might break my heart. Like him." Emma didn't need to tell Killian who the him was, Killian already knew.
"So that's why you came to me when you needed to find you boy?" Killian asked, and Emma nodded.
Suddenly, not knowing why, Emma had a flashback.
"For the last time, I AM NOT IN LOVE WITH HIM ANYMORE!" Emma screamed at Mary Margret. Like seriously? How can she think that Emma can be in love with someone that left her. Left her in prison for a crime that he did. And pregnant too.
"I don't know," Mary Margret said,"because saying that 'Tamara is the 'she' that August tried to warn us about' sounds like what a jealous ex would say."
"I'm trying to protect Storybrooke," Emma said, "and do you know where Henry is?"
"I know you are," Mary Margret replied, "and I have no idea where Henry is."
"That bitch took Henry too," Emma mumbled under her breath.
"You still sound like a jealous ex," Mary Margret complimented.
"Henry's GONE," Emma told her, as if she was deaf.
"Maybe he just wandered off," David said, entering the room.
"He doesn't just'wander off'" Emma said, "or else he would have taken his story book."
"Maybe he has school?" David asked.
"It's Sunday," Emma reminded him.
"Emma have been saying that Tamara took him," Mary Margret told David.
David let his gaze turn to Emma, "you still love him don't you?"
"For the last time, I don't bloody love him at ALL," Emma screamed at her so-called 'parents'.
"Why are you 'bloody'?" David asked.
"You're questioning how I speak?" Emma questioned him and started storming out the door.
"Where are you going?" Mary Margret, asked and got the most obvious:
"To find Henry."
Emma didn't know why, but the first place she went to was the docks. 'Why?' the thought had occur in Emma's head, but she didn't have an answer, until she saw a seagull stand on the middle of the sky. Aha.
Emma took a fist full of sand and threw it, to make sure she wouldn't fall into the water when trying to enter the pirate's ship. The sand landed on parts of the ramp, and looked like it was in the middle of nowhere. Aha, she thought and walked on.
"Killian?" Emma asked, and immediately regretted it.
"Hook?" she corrected, hoping he didn't hear Emma call him 'Killian'. She wandered on the ship a little more before coming to the conclusion that he wasn't on the ship and walked off. 'Granny's?' she told herself after walking out. Emma only took a few steps before she heard someone walking behind her and she turned.
"Kil-Hook," she said, "you're alive!"
"Miss me, love?" he asked, spreading his arms and Emma ran straight into it.
"Of course I missed you," Emma replied, he arms around his neck. Emma pulled away and jumped back, finally realizing what was happening.
"Something wrong?" Killian- no Hook- Killian- Hook, said, probably seeing the panicked look on her face.
"Two- no, three," Emma said, still thinking if she should call him Hook or Killian.
He walked to her and wrapped his arm around her, said, "you can tell me." And walked her back to the Jolly Roger.
"Henry's gone," she replied, "my so-called parents think I'm still in love with Neal, and you."
"I can find Henry for you," he whispered back, "who's Neal, and me? What about me?"
Emma was still in his arms, but instead of pushing it away, she welcomed it and hugged him again.
"Rumpelstiltskin's son. And you, you're just impossible. I can't-" Emma didn't finish her sentence. She can't tell Killian that she was in love with him. He's a bloody pirate, first of all. And second... there was no second, but still.
"The bloody coward's son, was he a coward too?" Killian was calm, not what Emma was expecting.
"Left me in jail for a crime that he did, and he bloody ran away," Emma told him, he didn't need to know anymore, did he?
"I guess cowardice runs in his family," Killian complimented.
"I hope Henry doesn't get that," she said aloud to herself and decided to change the subject. "So you will help me find Henry?"
"I always keep my word, lass." Killian replied, "always."
"Well, kind of," Emma corrected herself.
"Kind of?" Killian asked, "what do you mean, you only needed me to find your boy."
"And for me," Emma silent replied, trying to keep the tears away.
"For you?" Killian asked, confused.
"Yeah," Emma said, somehow not afraid to admit her feelings, "I need you."
Killian was caught by surprise, he probably didn't expect her to say that. Emma let her gaze rest on his ocean blue eyes and unexpectedly hugged him, and he didn't refuse. They stayed in the position for a long time until Emma heard Killian say:
"I need you too," and she fell asleep, on Killian's shoulder.
