this is really short as I working on my other story aswell so I apologize think the next chapter is longer not positive cant remember lol. Em enjoy and review please they make my day.

CHAPTER NINE BELLA.

I sat on the beach with Edward until it got dark. It was like a silent bond between us. I didn't hate him nor would I ever but I couldn't trust him and I didn't think I ever would. I had let myself once but that turned out to be a disaster but I was the bigger person. I would show him that he didn't have that much of an effect on me.

It really hurt just sitting there and not be able to kiss him. Sure I wanted him but I wanted all of him and not just part of him. I also didn't want to share and he wasn't willing to give that up. So that is why I hated him. He was brilliant in one way but absolutely degusting in another. I knew I was the same and I wanted to change I was going to change hence why I was on the beach here with him, trying to be open minded. I knew he thought I was crazy after what he did to me..

"We'd best be going, the tides coming in" He looked down on me and I smiled.

"Okay, I need to study anyway" I got up taking the blanket with me I was freezing and I was more than likely going to be sick in the morning.

"Oh god that test tomorrow in bio" He looked shocked he had forgotten.

"Oh shut up smarty pants you wont possibly fail" I pushed on his shoulder and ran away and he started chasing me.

"I'm going to get you" I ran until I couldn't run anymore and collapsed onto the sand.

"Bella are you okay?" He helped me up.

"Of course I guess you caught me" I laughed we walked back to my truck and I could feel his eyes on me the whole time. I didn't speak on the way to his house. I just listened to his breathing and laughed when he sang along to the radio in perfect sync. It really was something else.

I dropped Edward off and waved goodbye. "Night Bella" He called just as he enter the house and Alice bound out of the house quicker than lightening and Edward looked at her stunned.

"Bella I need to talk to you urgently as in right now come in to the house please." She looked scared as if her life was about to end. I got out of the truck and followed her inside but apparently that wasn't fast enough. "You took ages."

I looked at Edward who also looked as confused as I was. "Alice what's wrong?" I asked she was seriously freaking me out.

"Nothings wrong. I just have news, great news, brilliant news" I looked at her funny.

"Well then tell me" Edward was looking at us funny.

"I cant tell you yet cause Edward is here I promised Jasper could tell him" Edward immediately dispersed but I saw him pulling out his phone obvious who he was calling.

"Okay tell me now would you" She pulled me into her room.

"Jasper proposed" I screamed in delight.

"OHMIGOD OHMIGOD" I calmed down within a few minutes.

"Congratulations" I pulled her into a hug.

"Bella I want you to be a bridesmaid"

"Of course Alice." I hugged her again.

"Alice" I heard Edward call. He barged in the door then and pulled her into a hug. "Congratulations"

"Thanks" She smiled sweetly.

"So you and Bella will be paired together and Emmett and Rosalie" she smiled and I cracked.

"Alice I got to go congratulations again I'll see you tomorrow" Edward looked at me as I left.

I got in my car and thought about the wedding and being paired with Edward. I knew that would have been the way but still. She couldn't hold off on that news for another day or two. I though today went well and then that. It wasn't that bad but it made me feel tied down and I didn't like it.

I went home and slept and dreamt about Edward which made me sick. This was wrong. I was suppose to hate him and feel numb around him and not all funny and goofy whenever he was near. It was fucking unhealthy and I knew eventually I'd pay for it.

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jen xx