Summary: It has been so long since I posted a chapter and today must be my lucky day because I actually had time to. Hope you like it and the next chapter will be posted as soon as possible, I promise.
Disclaimer: Don't own Scrubs
Chapter 9: My Worst Moment
This takes place two months after the last chapter so Perry and J.D have been together a total of about nine months. Anyways on with the story.
J.D was sitting in his apartment, waiting on Turk to arrive because tonight it was going to be all about them. Since Turk's marriage and J.D new relationship they barely had time for each other so that is why they decided to work the same shift and take the same day off so that they had ample time to catch up. J.D was psyched because tonight is was all about Sylvester Stallone and they were kicking it off with the Rocky series. J.D had just finished popping the popcorn and pouring the chips into a bowl when he heard Turk come inside.
"Whazzup brother" Turk shouted as he walked inside and went to the kitchen to give J.D a high five.
"What the dil-li-o playa" J.D responded back with a high five.
"Dude be whiter."
"I'm just keeping it real" J.D smirked. "So you got the movies."
"You know it. You got all the unhealthy food ready that you know that I can't eat but will do so anyways."
"You know how I roll."
"You've been warned." Turk smiled as he went into the living room and sat on the couch. Soon J.D came out of the kitchen with snacks and put the movie in while Turk got started on the potato chips.
"This is great," J.D said after the movie had been on for a while.
"Yeah I know man, it's been pretty hectic and it's nice that we get a chance to hang out with each other."
"So what's new in your life?" J.D asked
"Nothing, just Carla is pressuring me to have kids."
"I thought you were cool with the whole having a baby thing."
"J.D man I am, it just" Turk sighed. "Carla and I just got married and we're still in that newlywed stage. I don't want to mess up our relationship by having children to soon, I just want it to be us for a while you know."
"Yeah I know, so have you tried talking to her"
"Yes dude I have but you know how she gets. She starts to get angry and then she says that she does not have that much time left because her biological clock is ticking. Man marrying an older woman is hard."
"Tell me about" J.D smirked.
"J.D you do realize that Perry is not a woman right"
"I know that Turk, I was just agreeing with the older part."
"That's right he is like fifty," Turk laughed.
"Dude that is so not funny and he is not fifty. He is more like in his early forties" J.D sulked.
"He's old enough to be your dad."
"Hey I resent that, he is not that old."
"Whatever dude, I just don't know if I am ready to be a father yet. I mean I act like a kid myself sometimes. How am I supposed to teach a kid that it's not polite to laugh when people fall down, when I laugh at you constantly for the same thing?"
"Wow, I feel the love."
"You know what I mean. When I am ready to have a baby, I want to be completely sure and not regret it."
"Well man you know that I am behind you one hundred percent if you promise me one thing."
"What" Turk asked?
"I get to be the God-father."
"Oh of course" Turk smiled as him and J.D did their secret handshake.
"I can't believe how are lives are right now. You're married with contemplation about having children, and I'm in a real meaningful relationship with a man no less." J.D replied. "If someone would have told me about this moment 12 years ago, I wouldn't have believed them, would you."
"Now that you mention, yeah probably so."
"I know that is… hey wait a minute, what do you mean probably so. You do realize that Perry is the only man that I have ever been with."
"Yeah dude, but to be honest when we first met, I thought you were fruity. It just took me 12 years to prove my point."
"Really."
"Really, you always had girlish tendencies to me but I was cool with that, still am."
"Well I guess you're right, at first when this started happening I thought that you might reject me or something."
"Naw man, you're like a brother to me and I have mad respect for you. I am here to always back you up one hundred percent, remember."
J.D looked over at Turk and smiled. He was happy that he had a friend who didn't care about who or what he was. When Turk looked at J.D, all he saw was a very confused, amusing, funny person who would do anything to help someone else.
"And I always have yours" J.D smiled.
"Good thing we know that but I have to ask you."
"Anything."
"Could we stop talking, I don't want to miss this part."
"Cool" J.D replied as he went back to eating his popcorn. He felt good to know that no what, him and Turk would always be there for each other.
Perry was sitting in his office, looking at a picture of him and J.D smiling at the camera. J.D had begged him to take the picture when he got himself a new digital camera. He thought that it would be nice but Perry hated taking pictures almost as most as he hated people. Even though he protested, he was like putty in J.D's hands and eventually gave into his request. He did have to say that he looked great in the picture and J.D was pretty cute too. He was abruptly dodged out of his thoughts, when there was a knock at his door, which he was reluctant to answer. He didn't have time to say anything when Kelso came in anyways.
"What the hell Bobbo, are you so old and deaf now that you can't hear when someone says don't come in? Or are you so deaf that you thought you heard me say come in when those words never escaped my lips." Perry ranted.
"Dr. Cox, there are times when I would fine your useless rants rather amusing seeing as how I don't give a crap about you but today I would like it if you stop being such a jackass for a day because this hospital has a very special guest here."
"Let me guess, a useless board member jackass that you want to suck up to, or a useless rich bastard that you want to suck up to. Stop me when I'm right."
"If you must know, it's neither. It is a follow doctor that hosted the medical conference that we forced Dr. Dorian to go to."
"Okay and I care because."
"Because, even though I hate to admit it, you are on of the best medical doctors in this hospital and I want to show you off. So behave or your ass will be fired."
"Right captain." Perry saluted as he followed Kelso out of his office and to where the visitor was. He didn't have to walk for long before he came across an unfamiliar face of a Caucasian female with curly brown hair.
"Ah Dr. Cuddy I want you meet on of my colleagues Dr. Perry Cox. Perry I would like you to meet Dr. Lisa Cuddy. She is the Chief of Medicine at Princeton-Plainsboro Hospital, where the conference was held."
"Hello Dr. Cox, it is a pleasure to meet you, Bob here as told me so much about you."
"Well whatever he said, don't listen to him. The man is Satan. He will tell any lie that will make someone else bad just so he can look good." Perry said.
"Perry" Kelso snapped.
"Actually he told me that you were one of the best doctors at Sacred Heart. He also said that you were once voted best doctor in the city by a local magazine. Is that true."
"Well I don't want to sound conceited but I am the best damn doctor in this hellhole and I have to say that I am quite proud of that." Perry replied.
"Cocky, I like that in a doctor. You would get along well with the people on my staff," Cuddy laughed.
"I doubt it," Bob mumbled under his breath
While Perry and Cuddy were talking J.D wasn't paying attention to where he was going, and he ran right into Dr. Kelso. It wouldn't have been so bad if J.D didn't have a cup of coffee in his hands when he ran into Kelso, which ended up all over Kelso's lab coat.
"Dr. Dorian" Kelso snapped.
"Dr. Kelso, I am so sorry. I wasn't paying attention to where I was going and I…"
"Save it Dorian, I will deal with you later. Right now I have a board member to suck up too so I'm off, where is Ted" Kelso said while walking off away from them.
"Ah J.D, it's nice to see you again." Cuddy smiled when she saw J.D
"Hey Cuddy, what are you doing here. Last time I checked Princeton-Plainsboro was I don't know, in New Jersey" J.D joked.
"Well it is still there, I'm in town for another conference and thought I come by and check out Sacred Heart. I have to say, it is a very different experience."
"Well at least you don't work here everyday."
"You know, I was hoping I would run into you here. I was hoping that you changed your mind about my offer."
Perry looked at J.D and frowned. When J.D got back from Seattle, he never mentioned if anything happened. "What offer?"
"When J.D was at the conference, I offered him a job to work in the Oncology department. The hospital is expanding that department and he would be working directly under Dr. James Wilson."
"He's one of the best."
"I know that's why I thought J.D would be a perfect candidate for the job."
"You did, did you?"
"Yes I did, I still do. I asked to think about it and he said that he would. But I guess he is either dedicated to his job or doesn't want to leave his life, whatever the reason may be he turned me down."
"You did what," Perry snapped at J.D.
"I simply told Cuddy that I was happy with my life the way it was now and I didn't want to change it." J.D shrugged. "No big deal."
"Well J.D if you ever change your mind, my offer still stands" Cuddy replies as he looks at his watch. "Look I have to go, it was nice meeting you Dr. Cox and J.D I hope to hear from you."
"Goodbye Cuddy" J.D replied as he began to walk off but before he got a chance to walk away, he felt himself being pulled into an empty room.
"What are you doing?" J.D asked.
"Why didn't you tell me you got a job offer from Princeton-Plainsboro?" Perry practically yelled.
"There was no reason too; I wasn't going to take it."
"Newbie that has to be the most stupid thing that I have ever heard you say since you been here and believe me you have said a lot of stupid things."
"Like what"
"Need I remind you of shower shorts? For the man who has nothing to hide but still wants too."
"That was funny" J.D smiled.
"J.D I'm serious."
"Why are you making a big deal out of this?"
"Because I want to know why aren't you taking the job?"
"Are you serious? My whole life is here, best friends, you. Everything is so perfect and I don't want it to change."
"Did you forget that PPTH is one of the best hospitals on the East Coast? As a matter of fact it was named one of the top ten in the New York Times; seriously did you think about your decision." Perry ranted.
"Yes I have Perry, and Sacred Heart is a great hospital too."
"Not as good as Princeton-Plainsboro, do you realize how advanced your career could be if you worked there. Working there would be a great opportunity for you, especially working under Dr. Wilson."
"Perry, I understand what you're saying but I have made you my mind. I am happy here" J.D replied as he hugged Perry. "I'm happy here with you and I don't want to leave. I thought about my decision thoroughly and I decided that a life with you is way better than a life in New Jersey."
"But what about your career."
"What about my career, its fine with me working right here and I am okay with that. Moreover, if I always think about my career, I would never have a personal life. You know what they say, all work and no play makes the Jay-ster a dull boy." J.D smiled as he leaned in to kiss Perry.
Perry accepted the kiss but he couldn't let the argument go. He thought that J.D was making a huge mistake, choosing to stay with him instead of advancing his career. He wanted to believe that J.D didn't use their relationship as a factor in making his decision but he knew that it was. They stayed together in their lip lock until J.D's pager went off.
"Just when it was getting good" J.D sulked as he pulled away. "I have to go but I will see you tonight okay. Love you."
"Love you too" Perry replied as he watched J.D walk away. He sighed as he too walked out of the room to check on his patients.
Perry arrived at J.D's apartment indecisive about what he wanted to do. Half of him was glad that J.D decided to stay here with him but another part that J.D was making a mistake. What if something happened between them and they called it quits. Would J.D resent Perry because he gave up a great job opportunity to stay with him? He didn't want to bring it up but he knew that it would. Using his key to get into J.D's place he walked in a noticed in a Lakers jersey with a bowl of popcorn in his hand.
"There you are" J.D smiled. "What took you so long?"
"What are you wearing" Perry asked as he dropped his things. "Tonight is your TV night."
"I know but since I didn't tell you about the job offer, I decided to make it to you by letting you watch your basketball game so you don't have to Tivo it. Aren't I sweet?"
"Yeah you are."
J.D sat down on the couch after he grabbed the beers from the kitchen and patted the sofa for Perry to sit down beside him. "Are you going to sit or what."
"You're going to watch the game too." Perry asked sitting down.
"Yes I am and it's not all that bad. I think it's starting to grow on me."
"Oh."
J.D sighed when he noticed the look on Perry's face. He looked a mess and his eyes looked sunken in. "Okay, what is wrong?" J.D finally asked
"Nothing"
"Perry, we've been together for nine months now so I know when something is bothering you."
"It's just I'm still thinking about this afternoon." Perry whispered.
"Are you serious, how can you be mad at me because I turned down a job?"
"Because it was stupid, do you not get that?"
"My God Per, what is your problem." J.D sighed.
"You're my problem," Perry snapped.
"What"
"You're my problem. Ever since this afternoon I wanted to tell you that you were being stupid about this whole thing."
"How can you be upset with me that I turned down a job because I love you and want to be with you? Why the hell are you upset, don't you love me?"
"Of course I love you, that's what I been trying to tell you."
"I don't understand."
"The reason I'm so upset is because you are turning down something that you have been working towards forever. I don't want to take that away from you.
"But I'm okay with it" J.D cried.
"For now J.D" Perry yelled. "You're okay with for now but who's to say in a couple of years that you will be. How do I know that you won't always wonder how your life could have been if you would have taken the job. How do you know that you won't start to resent me because of this? You're already doing so much."
"Like what." J.D screamed.
"You're watching a basketball game with me even though you have no damn clue what is going on."
"So what I want to watch basketball with you, it's just a damn game. You've been nice to my friends; you watch my favorite shows with me. That is what a relationship is all about, you do things for the people that you love. I love you and I don't mind doing it."
"But this is bigger than that, this is your dream."
"Well dreams change. Why can't you except the fact that I love you and I want to be with you."
"Because I can't live with the fact that one day you will resent me for your life."
"But that won't happen."
"How can you be so sure?" Perry screamed. "Can you be sure?"
J.D looked at Perry and he felt tears swell up in his eyes. He couldn't lie and say that he didn't want the job but he was willing to let that feeling go for Perry.
"No I can't" J.D whispered.
"See"
"I can't say that I won't ever wonder if I should have taken the job or not. Or how my life would have ended up working at PPTH." J.D replied. "But I can be sure that I will never resent choosing you over work. I can promise, no scratch that, I can swear to you that I will never resent you."
"J.D, I want you to take that job."
"I don't care what you want Perry because guess what, it's my decision and I already decided on it." J.D said walking back to the sofa.
"J.D"
"Let's sit down and finish watching the game, we're probably missing the good parts." J.D replied ignoring everything Perry was saying.
"J.D would you listen to me." Perry screamed.
"No I won't" J.D screamed back. "I worked to hard dammit to get to where I am right now, and I refuse to let you walk away from me because you're scared. You told me that you were in this for the long run, well Perry you better put your track shoes on because this here is a long race." pointing back and forth between himself and Perry.
"Well I guess there is nothing else to say." Perry replied as he started to walk towards the door.
"Where the hell do you think you're going?"
"If you won't call it quits, then I will. I wouldn't be able to live with myself if you ever resented me."
"Perry, you better not be doing what I think you're doing" J.D cried.
"I have J.D, if I don't then" Perry replied as he put his hand on the doorknob and turned it. "I won't be able to live with myself."
"Perry please, don't do this."
"It has to be done."
"If you walk out of that door, you're going to regret it." J.D said as tears began to fall from his eyes.
"I can live with that, what I can't live with is your hate. If I have to give you up for you to find happiness, then I will. I don't care about my own, haven't since the day I met you." Perry replied as he walked out of the door and closed it behind him.
J.D stood in his spot for a long time, praying that this was all a dream and that he would soon wake up. He felt like his heart had just been ripped out of his chest and torn into a million pieces. Out of all the relationships that he had broken up from, this one had to be the worst and he knew why. The love of life had just left him and J.D had a feeling that he wasn't coming back. Wiping his eyes, he threw the popcorn on the floor, went into his room, lied on the bed, and cried every single tear that his eyes would let him.
What is going on with me today, I just broke up Perry and J.D. I am so full of cliff hangers. I swear to God, these things should be against the law but whatever; it makes the story a better read. Sitll more to come with
1) A suprise pregnancy
2) A major move
3) A loved one's death
4) A friendly visit
5) And a birthday celebration
