Man, after that long chapter I feel like all the rest of my chapters are so short. D: But I hope you guys enjoy this end and thanks so much everyone for the great reviews! I'm happy that everyone enjoyed the super long chapter.
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Delic & Hibiya
Delic ran through the hospital doors, panting as he whirled his head around wildly. Psyche showed up right behind him, leaning over with his hands on his knees as he gasped for breath. When he stood back up, Psyche spotted a familiar brunette, "Dotachin!"
Kadota looked up from where he was speaking with a nurse and the only word that could describe the look on his face was fury as he marched up to where Delic was and suddenly swung his arm forward, punching the blonde squarely in the jaw. And since the blonde had not been expecting it, Delic staggered for a moment and fumbled over his feet, falling to the ground. Psyche and several others cried out in surprise just as Kadota grabbed onto Delic's shirt, bringing the blonde up to his face, "You've got a lot of damn nerve to show your face here."
"Hibiya," was all Delic could mutter in response as he tasted blood on his tongue and felt the sting in his cheek. He honestly didn't care right now about himself, as long as his angel wasn't…wasn't, god he didn't even want to think about what could have happened to his angel. "Is Hibiya okay?" Please god, let him be okay.
Kadota glared at Delic, his grip on the blonde's shirt tightening as his words were short and clipped with his rage, "He's okay. It was just a panic attack due to stress that a certain someone caused him. You could've gotten him killed! He collapsed on the fucking street, Delic! The fucking street! If I hadn't been there, he could've—!" Kadota shook his head in disgust, shoving the blonde away from him.
"I didn't—!" Delic started to protest angrily, but he stopped himself as his heart sunk and he realized that this was his fault. He was the one who made Hibiya ran away, and he was the one who kept hurting his angel. "I-I…"
Kadota shook his head again, "Save it. I don't want to hear your excuses." Kadota then shoved Delic towards to the exit. "Just get the hell out of here, Delic. You don't deserve to see Hibiya right now."
If only Kadota knew how much those words cut through Delic, how much the blonde believed those words. Delic set his mouth in a firm line, his jaw still aching from Kadota's punch. His eyes were downcast on the ground as his hands clenched into fists. He wanted so badly to see Hibiya, to know for sure that he was okay, but…Kadota was right. He was the one that got Hibiya into this mess in the first place.
"Dotachin, that's not being fair, you can't blame Deli-nii for this," Psyche tried to defend the blonde, but both the Delic and Kadota knew he was clueless to the truth.
"No, it's fine, Psyche," Delic reassured him, his voice rough and tinted with bitter sadness. "I'll leave."
"But Deli-nii!" But the blonde had already turned away and walked out of the hospital, his hands in his pockets, his shoulders hunched over, and his heart heavy with misery and guilt.
"Wow, this CD is great," seventeen year old Hibiya commented as he pulled off the headphones on his ears to look up at Delic with excited eyes. "What's this band called again?"
"Three Days Grace," Delic answered as he looked up from his music notebook where he was scribbling a new song. "They're one of my favorite bands. Their older stuff is better than their newer stuff, but they're still awesome."
"Yeah, they are. Hey, can you make me a copy of their CDs?" Hibiya asked.
"Better, I can give them to you," Delic smiled as he got up from the couch. "I've listened to them so many times I know every song by heart, so you can have them if you like them. Hold on, let me go find them."
Delic then ran up to his room leaving Hibiya alone in the living room where they had been listening to music while doing their homework.
"Nii-san must really like you." Hibiya almost jumped from hearing the new voice as he turned to Delic's little brother, an almost clone-like copy of him except with scarlet eyes instead of pink, who appeared from the kitchen. He held a glass of milk in his hands as he adjusted the white scarf he was always wearing. "To let you have his CDs, I mean. Nii-san never lets anyone borrow his CDs, much less have them. He's never even let me borrow them."
Hibiya looked at Tsukishima with a bit of confusion. So he was saying that Hibiya was…special to Delic? Special enough to let him have his CDs?
"Nah," Hibiya heard his voice jokingly laugh at Tsukishima. He shouldn't be getting his hopes up that Delic treated him specially. It would just hurt in the end. "They're old CDs and he knows them already. He's just giving me old junk isn't he?"
Tsukishima looked at Hibiya with an incredulous look, "Music isn't junk to Nii-san. He takes it very seriously. I've never seen him throw away, give away, or neglect any of his CDs or records."
Hibiya could feel his heart thumping in his chest as he whispered, "No, Delic doesn't treat me specially at all."
Tsukishima looked a bit disbelieving as he shook his head and started to head to his room. "Hibiya nii-san, I like you, but sometimes I wonder if you're really as smart as you seem."
"What?" Hibiya looked a bit shock to hear a middle schooler tell him off. "What's that supposed to mean? Hey, Tsukishima!"
But the little blonde had already walked up the stairs just as Delic came down with a confused look. "What? Is Tsuki bothering you, Hibi-kun?"
"No," Hibiya quickly answered, looking back towards the CDs as Tsukishima's words came back to his mind, 'Nii-san must really like you to let you have his CDs.'
Does he really? Hibiya thought as he closed his eyes, If only I could know the truth.
Hibiya then opened his eyes, turning to where Delic was to talk to him, but raven backed up in shock when he saw empty space instead. He looked around, finding himself surrounded by complete darkness.
"Delic?" he called out questionably, feeling panic rise in his veins as he stood up. Although the space was endless and vast, he felt like he was trapped in a box as he backed up slowly, swearing his back had hit against a wall. "Delic!"
Suddenly it was like the air around him got sucked up, and he couldn't breathe. Hibiya reached for his throat, gasping. His eyes began to water from the pain, and even though he was sure there was no oxygen pumping it, his heart beat erratically in his chest like it was about to burst out at any moment. He tried to call out the blonde's name again but sound was lost as he found he couldn't speak. He collapsed to the ground, his body curling up in pain. He took in ragged breath as he shut his eyes tightly.
It hurts so much, he cried in his mind. Delic, where are you?
But the blonde was nowhere in sight, and Hibiya felt fear grip his heart. Where are you, Delic? The thought of the blonde being gone sent another sharp pain through his chest. Where are you?
But he was just surrounded by darkness, the blonde nowhere in sight.
Hibiya coughed as he suddenly breathed in air, gasping as his hands unconsciously reached out for something. Delic, his mind thought. Where's Delic?
He could feel his heart burning in his chest, his mind screaming for the blonde. He wanted him here right now to comfort him. So that he could at last know the blonde wasn't gone. Even if it hurt him, even if Delic didn't really love him, right now he really needed the blonde to be beside him.
Because it hurt too much to think about living without Delic.
"Hibiya? Hibiya, thank god!" he heard a relieved voice shout, but it wasn't the voice he wanted to hear. Hibiya turned to his side to see someone holding his hand, the grasp on it tight. Kadota looked at him with relieved eyes.
"Dotachin?" Hibiya croaked, surprised by how hoarse his voice sounded.
"He should be alright for now, but we're going to take him to the hospital for a couple tests just to make sure," an EMT said to Kadota as he put away the oxygen mask he had just used to get Hibiya breathing properly again.
"Dotachin," Hibiya called out, reaching for the brunette. "Dotachin, wher—" He stopped, thinking, where's Delic?
But he knew that the brunette probably didn't want to hear him say that, especially after what had just happened. Hibiya knew he was supposed to be angry with Delic, but he also knew he could never stay mad at the blonde for long. It just wasn't a part of his nature.
"What happened?" Hibiya rephrased his question as he looked around. He found himself in the back of an ambulance that was moving through the streets.
"You had a pretty bad panic attack," the EMT answered instead. "Most likely due to stress since your blood pressure's a little high. It caused your heart to stop beating for a moment and you couldn't breathe."
Hibiya looked at the EMT to Kadota with wide eyes, and the raven could see what Kadota was thinking as the brunette met his eyes, Is this because of the talk you had with Delic?
Hibiya only looked away, afraid to face Kadota right now. Afraid to admit that Delic had once again hurt him. Because he knew it hurt, and he knew he should give up. But a part of him just couldn't, and he wondered how he ever thought he could.
"Hibi-nii!" Psyche cried out as he ran and threw his arms around his twin brother, squeezing him in a hug. "Are you okay? Shouldn't you stay in the hospital?"
"I'm fine, Psyche. The doctor said I'm perfectly healthy, I just need to watch my blood pressure," Hibiya reassured as he gently pushed his brother away. He wasn't sure how he should feel towards his brother right now. Psyche was also the reason for his pain after all. Hibiya then finally noticed that Psyche was alone, and he was surprised to see that. He thought Delic would be here to comfort his twin. "Is it just you?"
"Yeah," Psyche suddenly puffed up his cheeks in irritation as he glared at Kadota that was sitting next to the hospital bed Hibiya sat on. "Dotachin here made Deli-nii go away!"
"Because he's the one who did this in the first place," Kadota calmly said as he crossed his arms. "It's his fault that this happened."
"You can't blame him, Dotachin! Deli-nii didn't mean for this to happen!" Psyche retorted as he threw his hands up in frustration.
"He's always been hurting, Hibiya. If you ask me he—"
"What do you mean hurting Hibi-nii? He's done nothing but care for Hibi-nii!"
"What do you know?"
The brunette and raven turned to Hibiya, shocked that he had spoken. Hibiya too was quite surprised by his sudden outburst, but he could feel the anger bubbling inside of him as his hands curled into fists and his face heated up. He spoke before he even realized what he was saying, "You don't know anything, Psyche! Delic has never cared for me! He's always only cared for you! He's never once looked at me like the way he looks at you! He—"
He loves you. But the words got caught in his throat, and Hibiya could feel his heart twisting in pain again as he clenched his chest and looked at the ground. He wondered if he'd faint this time as well.
"Is that what you think?" Hibiya looked back up at his brother with shock. Psyche looked at him with narrowed, hurt eyes, his arms crossed across his chest as he leaned somewhat to the side, something he did when he was angry. Hibiya was confused. Why was Psyche acting this way? What did he mean? "You think Deli-nii cares more about me than you?"
"Doesn't he?" Hibiya bitterly mumbled as he also crossed his arms, turning away from his brother.
"Hibi-nii, I never thought this before, but you are really stupid."
"Wh-wha?" Hibiya sputtered as he suddenly turned to his brother, shocked and angered once again.
But Psyche looked at him with serious eyes, which were so unlike his usual cheerful disposition. "Deli-nii has never once looked at me. He's always looking at my face. Your face. He's never once ever seen me as someone to love. I was always just your little brother to him."
"B-But," Hibiya tried to protest, tried to force down the hope swelling in his chest.
Psyche shook his head, suddenly producing some papers from his pocket and shoving it into Hibiya's hands. "I found this on the nightstand next to Delic's bed. He wanted to surprise you with it."
Hibiya blinked with at his brother before he looked at the papers in his hands. And then he felt his eyes widen with shock as his hands began to shake. It was the official papers stating that Delic had bought Genevieve, and there were receipts for a stall and food in a horse ranch in Ikebukuro.
And it all amounted to $5,000. The exact amount Delic had won in the festival.
"You know," Psyche's voice suddenly broke through Hibiya's thoughts and the latter turned to look at the former. "When Deli-nii first signed up for this festival and showed me the song he was going to sing, I asked him who it was for."
Psyche then placed a music score on top of the papers in Hibiya's hands. Hibiya looked down at it, feeling his heart thump in his chest as he looked at the words scrawled at the top under the title.
For My Golden-Eyed Angel
Something pounded through his head in the shadows. At first, he thought it was just a headache. But then he realized it was someone at the door. He growled, wondering who the hell it could be, before he wobbled out of bed. He knocked into a bottle, hearing it clink against a glass. He growled again, kicking it aside and hearing it thump against the wall.
The pounding became louder. "I'm coming!" Delic snarled as he turned on a light and stomped to the door. "What the fuck do yo—"
Instantly, he sobered up once he saw who it was at the door. And then he wondered if he had passed out and was dreaming. His angel stood before him, panting a little as his breaths came out in puffs, sweat glistening against his pale skin. Golden eyes like the sun looked up at Delic with a mass of emotions flashing across them. Black hair that was usually tame and neatly kept was wildly strewn around his beautiful features. And then Delic finally opened his mouth and his angel's name tumbled out of it, "Hibiya."
And suddenly his angel's eyes flashed with anger as Hibiya pushed him. They fell to the ground with Hibiya sitting on top of him as the door swung closed and papers flew around in the air before landing on the ground around them. "Why the hell are you so confusing?" Hibiya demanded as he grabbed fistfuls of Delic's shirt.
Delic blinked, unsure of what Hibiya was talking about as the raven continued to rant, "Why do you give that gentle smile to my brother and treat him so nice, but you fight with me. Why do you act like you don't care but then you sing those kinds of songs? Why did you give me that stuffed horse? Why did you give me those CDs? Why did you buy Genevieve? Why do you sleep with me but you don't kiss me? Why—" Hibiya stopped, closing his eyes and taking in a deep breath. "What do you really feel towards me?"
And suddenly Delic could see it in his golden eyes. The same look he had in his own eyes. That longing and the love. And Delic finally understood what Hibiya's questions meant, and a small smile crept onto his face.
Hibiya looked taken aback, not expecting the smile, and Delic thought of the perfect way to convey his feelings. Delic reached up, grabbing Hibiya's face and pulling it down to meet his. Their lips first met hesitantly and softly, brushing against each other before they melted together, their mouths simultaneously opening and their tongues meeting, savoring the taste of each other.
And Delic faintly wished he had done this years ago. Maybe if he had, all these things would have never happened. Maybe things would have worked out had he not been afraid. But that was the past, and Delic was glad he had done it now as he moved to sit up, one of his arms moving to wrap around the raven's waist to hold him close as his other hand went to grab Hibiya's chin, tilting it ever so slightly to make Hibiya open his mouth more and give the blonde better access.
Hibiya threw his arms around Delic's neck, pulling the blonde closer to him for more. Maybe it wasn't such a bad thing that Delic had waited six years to kiss him, because after being deprived this felt absolutely amazing.
Hibiya almost wanted to pull Delic back when the blonde finally pulled away, both of them panting for breath. Delic cupped Hibiya's cheeks, weakly smiling at him as he answered, "I love you, Hibiya." Hibiya felt his heart soar at that moment before it sunk in the next one, "But I don't think I deserve you. Not after that."
Hibiya felt his cheeks heat up with slight anger as he half-heartedly slammed his fists against Delic's chest, "Idiot! You're such an idiot!" He started to hit Delic harder. "Did it ever occur to you to ask me what I thought?"
"Well," Delic started sheepishly, reaching out and grabbing Hibiya's fists to stop the raven from hitting him more. "No but—"
"So what if I think you're just fine?" Hibiya pointed out, looking at Delic with angry yet saddened eyes. "What if I love you just the way you are?"
"But Hibiya—"
"Delic, do you love me?"
"Well, of course I do, but—"
"So what should it matter?" Hibiya demanded. "Why do you think I'm such an untouchable angel?"
"Because you are!" Delic insisted.
"And because of that you can't love me?" Hibiya asked, looking up at Delic with sad eyes.
"I didn't say that!" Delic protested as he held up his hands innocently. "What I meant was what I've done in life, it just makes me…bad compared to you."
Hibiya's eyes softened as he looked at the downcast blonde. He reached out and placed his hands on Delic's cheeks, lifting the blonde's face to his. His golden eyes searched the blonde's pink ones and for a moment there was that gentle look Hibiya had so badly wanted Delic to give him before the blonde's eyes tightened with pain, probably thinking some stupid thought again about how he wasn't good enough. Hibiya could feel the courage suddenly fill himself as he firmly looked into Delic's eyes and spoke confidently, "I love you, Delic. No matter who you were in the past, this is you now, and this is the you that I love."
Somehow hearing Hibiya say that to him cleared away all the doubts in Delic's mind, and he softly smiled at his angel. He reached up with his own hand to caress Hibiya's face, softly whispering, "How could you love someone like me? After all I've done is hurt you?"
"Well," Hibiya started with a sly smile on his face as he wrapped his arms around the blonde's neck, bringing their faces close together once again. "I guess since it's you, I can forgive you."
Delic laughed, the sound deep and melodious to Hibiya's ears. He couldn't remember the last time he had heard Delic laugh. "Are you sure you're not an angel?" the blonde jokingly said when his laughs subsided.
Hibiya chuckled somewhat mockingly as he leaned forward and whispered in Delic's ear, "I'm not as angelic as you think."
When he pulled away he caught that naughty look in Delic's eyes as the blonde's mouth stretched out into his signature smirk. "Well, it's a good thing that I was never angelic to begin with," Delic said with a wicked spark in his eyes. And then he grabbed the raven's neck and brought Hibiya back down for another kiss, addicted to how good it felt to finally touch his angel's lips.
Kadota sighed wearily and sadly as he plopped down into a chair in the room. He propped his arm up on the arm of the chair and placed his hand against his forehead, as if that would somehow shield him from everything. Kadota chuckled bitterly as he slumped in the chair. "I guess I never had a chance."
A knock interrupted his thoughts and the brunette curiously looked up at the door before he moved out of the chair and went to open it. "Yes?" Kadota questioned as he opened the door, surprised to find a man he didn't know standing there.
The man also looked surprised to see Kadota but smiled nonetheless, his coffee colored eyes smiling with him. Kadota wondered what the bandages around his forehead and under his right eye were for as red brown hair covered by a tan fedora fell above it. "Can I help you?" Kadota wondered.
"I was told I could find Delic here," the man spoke as he casually placed his hands in his pockets.
"He's in the room two doors down," Kadota grumbled, talking about the blonde irritating him slightly. "But he's probably…occupied right now."
The man seemed to notice Kadota's choice of words and smiled more softly this time at the brunette, "Hm, trouble in paradise?"
"Something like that," Kadota mumbled, wondering faintly why he was mentioning all of this to a stranger and why this stranger was curious.
"Hmm," the guy mused again. His smile became more cattish as he held out his hand to Kadota, "I'm Rokujo Chikage by the way."
"Uh, Kadota Kyohei," Kadota shook his hand.
"Pleasured to meet you," Chikage nodded. The two then awkwardly stood in silence before Chikage spoke again, "Hey, Kadota-san, I was supposed to talk to Delic tonight, but since he's otherwise occupied, how about joining me for a drink in the bar downstairs to kill time? I'll lend you a kind ear and listen to all your sorrows."
"I don—" Kadota started before he paused. A drink sounded pretty good right now, and it wouldn't hurt to share his sorrows with someone, would it? Although he didn't know this man…but wasn't that better? It wasn't like he was going to see this guy ever again so what it did it matter if he shared his love problems? "Sure, why not?"
"Hey, Dotachin?" Hibiya called out as he knocked on the door slightly. He was surprised when he hadn't seen Kadota all morning, and he was worried that the brunette was stewing over what happened with Delic. When Kadota didn't answer, Hibiya slid the card key and opened the door. "Hey, Dotachin, it's already noon and you usually don—OH MY GOD!" Hibiya's eyes widened as the card key dropped from his hands.
"Eh, Hibiya?" Kadota groggily moaned from the bed. "Is that you?" Kadota sat up slowly, wondering why his body felt so sore as he looked at the raven. He then finally looked down at himself and was shocked that he was naked.
"What's with all the noise?" another sleep voice joined as an equally naked Chikage leaned up on his arms, rubbing his eyes.
"Hibiya, what's the matter? I heard you scream?" Delic suddenly appeared behind Hibiya and his eyes widened as well.
"This isn't what it looks like!" Kadota quickly insisted as he held up his hands innocently, although he was panicking in the back of his head and hoping that was true.
"Hey there, Delic!" Chikage chirped as he appeared behind Kadota, throwing his arm around the brunette's shoulders. "You never told me you had such a cute friend here."
"Chikage?" Delic was surprised to see him. The blonde and raven then looked around the room, the scattered clothes, rustled bed sheets, and unkempt hair on their friends tell-tale signs of what probably happened.
"Uh, we're sorry," Hibiya managed to say as he blushed. "We didn't mean to interrupt you."
"Wait, no, Hibiya, that isn't—" Kadota tried to say.
"Aww, don't be shy, Kadota-chan~" Chikage teased. "You weren't very shy last night."
Kadota was blushing up to his ears as Delic snorted and tried to hold back a laugh, Hibiya biting his lip to do the same although he was smiling.
"I'll gladly leave him to you then, Chikage!" Delic announced as he pulled Hibiya away and moved to shut the door, waving at the MC.
"Thank you~!" Chikage said in a sing song voice as Kadota called out, "Wait, don't leave me here with him!"
Delic and Hibiya smiled at each other as they closed the door but could hear Chikage say, "Now, now, Kadota-chan, don't even think about pushing me away. You can't deny that our meeting was destiny."
"What destiny? Get the hell away from me!" The rest of their conversation faded as the blonde and raven walked away.
"You think Dotachin will okay?" Hibiya asked with a curious expression on his face.
"He'll be fine," Delic reassured. "Chikage seems like a pretty decent guy. I don't think they'll have any problems at all. Now stop talking about Kadota."
"You jealous?" Hibiya teased as he smiled slyly at Delic.
"Very," Delic said seriously although he was smiling too as he grabbed Hibiya's hand and kissed the top of the raven's palm, "After all, you're mine."
"Psh, I don't belong to you," Hibiya muttered although his face was slightly tinted with red and the tiniest of smiles graced his face.
Delic smiled widely as he intertwined their fingers together and brought Hibiya closer to him with his other arm. "Then I guess that means I'm yours."
Hibiya smiled more widely too, "I like the sound of that."
Yes, I am a total fan of Chikage/Kadota! *squeals like a fangirl* Haha. I hope you enjoyed the ending of Delic and Hibiya's story guys. :D
Also, I just wanted to say that the wonderful, lovely Llumina drew me a fanart for this story! :D *dances around like a happy person*It's the first fanart I've ever received and I never thought I'd ever get fanart so I'm greatly happy that Llumina drew me one! It's a picture of Tsuki and Roppi and it's absolutely adorable, so please check it out! :) There's a link to it on my profile. (I also hope that Llumina doesn't mind that I'm sharing this with you guys but I was so excited about it I just had to share. XD)
Hopefully, I can post the start of Tsugaru/Psyche's story soon, but I have midterms next week so I apologize ahead of time if it takes a while.
But as always, I appreciate you guys reading and reviewing! Thank you so much! ^^
-Xaleria
