The rain came down quicker as the night matured on, Julian was sleeping wrapped up in the blanket Shannon had packed in the emergency back pack she had brought from New York, his auburn covered head using that same bag as a pillow. James had brought there thing's from the motel after Shannon had decided it would be best to wait and make sure no more back up arrived. For the past three hours she had watched the remain's of the Rictor house from the safe distance of the woods, close enough that her power's could reach anyone that wandered in there way.

Shannon sat resting her back against one of the tree's, her legs stretched out in front of her across its roots. Tiny cut's ran across her skin from when they had walked away from the house to there hiding spot, the borrowed dress was more muddy brown then green. She smiled as James handed her his leather jacket, it smelt of him and as she put it on she could feel the warmth from his own body inside. "Thank you." She spoke as he sat opposite.

"Anything?" He gestured to the direction of the house. Shannon shook her head, she hadn't felt any murmur of life since they had walked away.

"We'll give it another hour then we'll take Julian to the bus station and then we get the hell out of this place." James smiled at Shannon as he pushed his jet black locks out of his eyes behind his ears. She openly studied him, his gaze was relaxed and at peace a complete change to the guarded look he had when they had been inside her apartment not even a week ago. She could make out the beginnings of whiskers growing on his cheeks and chin, she could just imagine sitting beside him, his metal arm around her and her check resting against his but she couldn't make herself move, the pit in her stomach stopping her.

"Do you believe in karma?" She turned her gaze back to the house, her chest aching with guilt, out of the corner of her eye she saw James shake his head, when she turned back to look at him concern was etched across his features "I was loyal to Hydra once, not to Knight and other's like him but to the other prisoners. I dreamed of escaping, setting everyone free and I failed. I led my best friend's to there deaths and I abandoned the rest of them to misery and torment." Shannon stopped, tears of guilt flowed from her eyes.
James moved forward to her but she raised her hand stopping him in his tracks "Why are you telling me this?"

"Because children like Julian are paying because of me... what they did to you, its all my fault. If I had got you of there when I had the chance you wouldn't of suffered as much as you have."

"Stop it." James commanded, ignoring her and moving to her side, he gently wiped away her tears from her cheeks even though fresh one's appeared almost instantly "You were a child, a prisoner yourself. The people responsible for all the evil Hydra's accomplished is Hydra, it's not your fault if you couldn't save anyone, someone should of saved you." He sighed as he took her face between his hands "We deserve happiness, let someone else fight."

Shannon pulled her face away, she caught how much her action's hurt him "You need the rest of your memories before you make a decision." Finally she looked back in to those ice blue eyes that had suffered so much pain.

James sat back on his heels as if Shannon had physically shoved him away, he stared at her confused "Why?"

"Because this isn't a decision for the Winter Soldier... Bucky Barne's should decide."

James pulled up to his feet, the ache in his chest like Shannon had stabbed him straight threw his heart. "I am James" He whispered, tears burning at the corner's of his eyes from her words "I'm not that thing anymore, I'm not that animal." Shannon stood to her feet, she reached to hug him, she wished she could rip back her words, promise she would run to the end of the world with him, anything to stop the pain she had caused but she couldn't because she was the monster and as soon as he remembered everything he wouldn't be able to look at her, never mind run away with her.

"I won't let you do this." James shouted, charging away. His shout startled Julian from his sleep.

"Shannon?" Julian questioned alarmed, as he watched her follow a furious James further in to the woods, she quickly pulled her power inside his mind sending him back to his dream.

As she followed James she could see his body shaking, she jogged to keep up with his stride. "Do I mean so little to you?" He spat as he turned on her, a mere centimetre distancing them "Do you even count me as a person, am I good enough to save your life but not to make decison's for my own." He looked in to her eyes, as tears of hurt and betrayal flowed from his "ANSWER ME!"
Tears of her own fell from Shannon's as she thought of the right words "It's because you are the most important thing in my life that you deserve the truth."
James grabbed Shannon and kissed her hard on the mouth, she wrapped her arms around his neck, for a few second's nothing existed apart from them, James pulled away "I don't want to know." He kissed her again "I won't let you."

Shannon's body shook as she tried to control herself, she reached and touched her hand to his stubbly face "You don't have a choice." Her power's pulled deep in to James's mind, further then they had before, he screamed with agony as his body stumbled to the ground, unconsciousness his savior. Shannon dropped to her knee's beside him, her body shaking with sob's, she yelled at the world, angry at her actions. Sitting down, she placed James's head in her lap "I love you, more then you'll ever know."

James's hand banged as he woke up on a cold, concrete floor, the vague notion that he remembered more of his life, more faces of the list of victim's added. Now where was he?

As he sat he realized he was in one of his memories as sat in a chair surrounded by Hydra agent's was another version of himself. His hair was shorted than now and he was cleanly shaven but it wasn't just the physical that gave it away, it was his eyes. Cold, hard and dangerous, the eyes of a killer.

The present James got to his feet to inspect his past self, he walked around the chair that he sat in, recognizing it as Alexander Pierce's go too torture device. A movement from the other side of the room caught James's attention. Shannon stood in the clothes she had worn in the woods, she stared at the past James. "Another shared memories?" James asked, it felt like the one from before but Shannon had never mentioned that that memory hadn't been the only time they had together.

"I didn't know." She whispered, not able to take her eye's off the past James,.

"What? What didn't you know?" The present James made to move to her as the door's to the room opened up and more Hydra agent's filled in. A younger Knight then before brought up the rear, holding the hand of a child, a child that looked barley six year's old. Her hair had been recently cut off to the skin, her eyebrow's the only thing available to suggest she was dark haired, her eyes were scared but a pang of familiarity hit him. James quickly looked at the Shannon away from the scene and back to the girl even though he was sure, without a doubt it was...

"Whisper, we need you to check that this man is telling us the truth, can you do that for me?" Knight knelt down to the child's level, tenderness clear in his voice. The young child took a moment to process what Knight had said and slowly nodded, she walked towards the younger version of James and gripped on to his human hand, his other arm covered from view. The child gazed in to the Winter Soldier's eyes for a moment and then asked "Who is Steve Rodger's?" Confusion crossed the young James's face as Knight gently pulled the child away.

"You heard Pierce's orders,wipe him and put him on ice." Knight ordered to the men as him and Whisper moved for the door, the sound of the chair coming alive with power following them out.

James felt himself being pulled away, he could feel other memories on the edge of his conscience's but last thing he remembered was a sound that was becoming very familiar in his memories, the sound of electric shock's running through his body and his scream's replying.

Shannon watched as James, slowly awoke and pulled himself up, she had moved away from him guessing he needed space "James?" She whispered, almost hoping he didn't hear her. "Bucky?." She spoke louder when he didn't acknowledge her.

"I'll wake Julian, its time we got out of here." James quietly replied, turning his back on her, he moved toward's the boy leaving Shannon sat in the woods,she stared at the place he had been sat, a single tear rolling from her eyes.

"I didn't know."