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Chapter Nine:

'Rin!'

The moment I opened the door to the classroom I was pulled by the wrist aggressively away to the girls' toilet. By Neru. I opened my mouth to protest, but was cut off when she suddenly stopped and shoved me into an empty cubicle.

'Len! Kagamine Len!'

I stared at her contorted face filled with anger, and sorrow. Tears had begun to form at the corners of her eyes, as she slammed her hand onto the wall in frustration.

'What's wrong with Len?' I spoke quietly, unsure what to expect.

'Miku!' Her voice was unsteady, as overflowing tears began to shower her flushed cheeks in bulging drops.

'M-Miku..?' The name had rolled of my tongue in uncertainty. Foreboding. Ominous foreboding. Of sorrow.

'Th- They're going out.'

Her words had resonated deeply within my mind.

I sucked in an inaudible breath.

Then I blinked.

Going out?

Len and Miku?

Going out?

Dating?

Dating.

Miku and Len. Len and Miku.

I closed my eyes.

Then I opened them slowly to meet the floor.

'What do we do? How can we-'

'What can we do?' I had spoken before realising it, voice wobbling, expression pulled together stiffly. 'I'm glad. For them..' I added as an afterthought.

Insincere.

Neru's expression seemed to use melted into a breakdown, as she began to run her eyes frantically and wheeze in agitation. She was sobbing, hard, as she turned her back to me to hide it.

'I liked him first! I-I liked him way earlier than that bitch, and s-she, s-she... I liked him before she liked him! I-' She had fallen to the floor in agony, fingers crossed over her hair, ruffled and tangled.

The sound of crackling fire had invaded my sense of hearing as I felt the thorns of her words pierce my chest hard. Neru's crush on Len was no secret; the only person that didn't know about this would probably be Len himself.

And it hurt just to watch her cling at her own chest for air as she wept. My vision was blurring.

My eyes were clouded with confusion, still unable to process what had just been heard. Len and Miku were going out. Miku, the girl who had once been one of my best friends. Len, the boy who had once been my everything.

What were they to me now?

'Rin! You don't want this, right? You hate this too, right?'

I looked down at Neru's pale face, drenched with tears, as she wheezed for a steady breath.

'It's fine.' My breath was stuck at my throat. I was unable to say more.

Neru's face crumbled and she lost the little composure she had kept, bawling in despair. I was motionless.

I couldn't even bring myself to comfort her, to kneel beside her, to rub her gently on her back, to whisper reassuring words.

I left the toilet without a word.


'Len.'

'Rin!' He swung around, grinning lightly.

Behind him was a flash of teal hair. Miku.

And behind her stood Mikuo.

'Can we talk for a second?' I chose my words carefully, aware that Miku was staring.

'Sure.'

He made no motion to move. I sighed, exasperated.

'Privately please.'

His eyes betrayed bewilderness and annoyance as he followed me. Miku was staring. Hard.

We turned to the door and left the room, outside to the empty playground.

'What's up?'

'You're going out with Miku, I heard.'

He immediately flushed. I scoffed internally.

'Yeah. I am..'

There was a pause, as I clenched my teeth in deep thought.

'Miku.'

'Y-yes?'

'How did it start? Your relationship?'

'She, uh... Confessed to me the other day.. So I accepted.' He looked at me with uncertainty, blush still apparent on his cheeks.

'And you accepted.' I repeated, hands clenching.

'Yeah?'

I looked to the ground, and took a deep breath. A deep, deep breath.

'What do you like about her?'

Len rubbed his messy blonde hair carefully, eyes lost in thought, though visibly flustered. His mouth was half open, his brows furrowed in confusion.

'Well... She's funny, and easy to talk with. And she's friendly and cute, I guess. And you're friends with her, too..' He added as an afterthought.

Friends...

This girl who had once been my best friend three years ago.

This girl who had abandoned me three years ago.

This girl who had ignored me, ostracized me, looked down on me for three years.

This girl who had been sucked into the illusion of popularity, who had changed, who had lost interest in old friends, and had left them to pursue new one.

This girl who would no longer acknowledge me truthfully to be one of her friends.

Just another girl to be taken advantage of, she often thought.

Just another girl who would follow me around, she would always think.

Just another social parasite, she knows.

'She's not my friend.'

'Huh?'

'She doesn't think I'm her friend.'

'What? No! That's not-'

'I don't either.'

'What?'

I looked up from the floor, and met Len's eyes. They were confused, whirling with unidentified thoughts. When I spoke, I spoke with finality.

'We are not friends. We have not been friends for years.'

The moment the words had rolled off my tongue, I regretted it. I couldn't have said this.

My true feelings. They had been exposed.

'D-Don't worry about that. Sorry, that was stupid of me.. Haha.. I'm just a little annoyed at Miku, that's all. Sorry, I shouldn't have said that. I'm-'

'You want me to break up with Miku?'

I stared at him blankly. What?

'I'm sorry?'

'Do you want me to break up with Miku?' He repeated slowly, expression indifferent.

My eyes widened. Break up? What?

Miku and Len.

My former best friend, and someone who had once been my everything.

Break up?

Len was staring right at me, unblinking. I could feel his piercing gaze, which I dared not meet. He knew. He knew what I truly wanted. He could see through me, as if my feelings and emotions were an open book. He could always recognise my inner turmoil. He could always understand my physical reactions, however much I try to hide them.

I was afraid.

So afraid of him.

So afraid of someone taking him away from me. My only pillar of support. The only one who could truly read me as who I was. That one and only person who had given me inspiration, support and encouragement for the past few suffocating years. He had been family.

But he was no longer family anymore.

And I was scared to lose him. Scared to lose him to what had been my bet friend a few years ago. Scared he would leave without turning back. There was no familial bond between us anymore. He can leave me as he pleased.

'No.' I spoke firmly, with strength. As much as I resented Miku's actions, I could not interfere. I couldn't deny their mutual feelings, after all...right?

Len's gaze met mine.

And I froze.

Those were not eyes of relief. They were not eyes of sympathy.

They were eyes of indifference, narrowed eyes of irony.

He did not understand me.

'Oh. That's good.' His stare had become icy yet tinged with anger. Then he directed a meanful expression to my shock. 'After all, I would've said no had you said yes.'

An inaudible gasp had escaped my throat.

Len looked at me without flinching, and continued.

'If you have any grudge towards Miku, if you guys have any problems in between you, please solve it as soon as possible.'

His face softened as I caught his meaning; make up with Miku.

I scoffed.

Rather audibly.

Len looked surprised.

I said nothing more.

Make up with Miku? How am I supposed to make up with someone when I wasn't in a fight with her in the first place?

We grew distant, that's all.

That's all.

She changed, and I changed too.

'Rin- what-'

'I'll go now.' I cut through him, seething, yet at a loss of what more to say.

'Wait-'

'Then don't break up with Miku. Bye.' I turned away, and fast walked away.

Then I stopped.

'Speak to Neru.'

'What?'

'Neru.'

And then I ran away.

With a heavy heart, and growing desperation, I ran away.

Anger. Anger directed to Len. Anger directed to Miku. Anger directed to mother. Anger directed to father. Anger directed towards all my false friends. Anger directed towards myself.

I could vaguely remember me singing a nursery rhyme with Miku a few years ago.

It's raining it's pouring

The old man is snoring

He bumped his head and

Went to bed and

Couldn't get up in the morning

I had everything back then. I had lost everything now.

I was lonely.


That was a long chapter to write! I don't know about it, but I hope the story's pace has quickened more now.. I'm sorry about updating so late.. It's been a busy week, and will be a busy week so... I guess I'll update this soon though. I hope.

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