A/N: I don't want to come off as a bitch or beat a dead horse but anyone who has read my author notes know that I have been sick since August, I can't believe it has been this long wow, okay, anyway, due to my illness I've had little to no energy ruining my concentration level so it affects my ability to sit down and right. Also, I can see some ppl still read this but the number has decreased and I never get any reviews so I don't know if it's worth continuing this story, so I think I am nixing the new chapters and just posting the old edited chapters and ending it for good.
Disclaimer: I don't own LWD.
Casey's POV
I can't believe I did that. I kissed, that's right. I. Kissed. Derek. I was so caught up in the excitement of finishing the song that I just, oh man. I wonder how he felt about it. He did leave right after it happened, is it because he hates me or was he just confused, in shock, or nervous? And this avoidance game we have going on is making this harder for me and now I have to perform a song, the song, which caused that stupid kiss.
(Now a special performance by the up-and-coming D-Rock)
Here you go again, leading me on
Here I go again, playing along
Is this a never-ending game we are playing?
And if it is, it's such a shame
You know he was kind of leading me on with his attitude these past couple of months but then again I was going right along with it and letting him.
We're just stuck in this mess
Playing our hands on this could be guess
Hanging on to our last lives
While runnin' with knives
Here we go again
I mean seriously this is all because of some conclusion I made because of Britt. I caould be completely wrong about my feelings for Derek but yet…
Today we are playin' hot and cold
Right after we say it's getting old
I can't believe that we allow
Things to stay the same somehow
Seriously, even though we have gotten closer we still are like friends one minute then enemies the next. Even though, I wish we could just get along because the fighting is getting old, but we still act that way with each other.
keep saying I'm sick of you and me
and it's so unfair
Because I can't leave your stare
I want to end this game
But I don't know if I want to win or quit
It's such a shame
At this point, I'm not sure how I feel about us. I just want this to end but do I want it to end with us as nothing or something. Seriously, do I want to win or quit? Oh. My. God.
We're just stuck in this mess
Playing our hands on this could be guess
Hanging on to our last lives
While runnin' with knives
Here we go again
when every single thought leads back to you
the only thing I can say is here we go again yet another day
here you go, here I go, here we go
This song, this song is about us. How could I miss it? Wait it was Derek's idea does that mean that we feel the same way? Could we possibly both think we like each other? Has he always felt this way or was this because of Britt, did she tell him the same story that she told me? God, I don't want to think about this for the rest of the night, it's always the same old questions.
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