"Honey, don't cry." Pam said, as the doctor ran tests on Jason. "M-mommy." Jason said, then deiced that he didn't want to say anything. The doctor said everything was normal.
LATER THAT DAY
Jason was taking a nap, and Pam just thought to her self Am I really a good Mommy? Am I giving Jason the life he deserves? Is Jason going to be okay later on in life? Am I a piece of shit? What the hell is happening? Those were little questions that kept on nagging at her.
Pam noticed Jason's teddy bear on the floor in his room. So Pam picked it up, and gave it to her five year old who seemed to be looking for it.
"Here ya go sweetie." Pam said. "Thank you." Jason said, hugging the teddy bear.
Pam loved him, she loved him more than her mother loved her.
FLASHBACK- SEPTEMBER 1982
"Mom, can I uh talk to you about something?" 15 year old Pam asked her mother, who was watching some made for TV movie.
"What is it Pammy?" She asked, staring at the teenager in the Quiet Riot tee shirt. "I don't know how to tell you this." Pam said, starting to cry.
"Honey, it can't be that bad. Spill it Pamela Sue."
"Mom. I'm I'm I'm... pregnant." Pam said, she was now in hysterics.
"WHAT?" Pam's mother yelled.
"Yes. I'm I'm sorry. I really am."
"HOW COULD YOU DO THAT TO ME AND YOUR FATHER?" Her mom yelled.
"What should I do? Mom?"
"GIVE THAT CHILD UP FOR ADOPTION OR LEAVE! I KNEW YOU WOULD BE A NO GOOD SLUT!"
"B-but I wanna keep this baby." Pam said, sobbing
"THEN PACK YOUR BAGS AND LEAVE, NOW!" Pam's mom said, pointing to Pam's room.
Pam knew what to do, she packed up her clothes, a blanket, and she left. Her mom really didn't care.
Don't worry little baby, I'll be the best Mommy ever. Don't you worry. Pam said to the little baby, who was developing in utero.
Pam remembered the nights she spent sleeping on a playground slide, with nothing but a blanket, a few pairs of sleazy looking skirts, spandex pants and over sized concert shirts.
On the days she had 10 or 20 dollars that she didn't spend on food, she'd spent a night or two at sleazy motels.
Pam worked at a Dairy Queen in Springwood for about a month, until the manager fired her for taking 10 dollars out of the tips jar.
Then, fall began to turn. It was getting cold, she could make it until late October sleeping in parks, but soon she'll need to take residence in a motel. Something she could afford. Something cheap.
She spent January 1983 at a 15 dollar a week motel. It wasn't the best place on earth, but she needed shelter.
Then she made her way to Crystal Lake. There she found a foreclosed home for cheap, and a job selling beauty products by phone.
June 1983 rolled around, she was due any minute now with this baby she decided to name "Jason".
She gave birth on a Friday, a Friday the 13th. She knew her son was diagnosed with metal retardation and hydrocephalus, and was very deformed, but she loved him so much. He needed a mommy, and damn it he got one.
END FLASHBACK
Pam wasn't proud of her past. But she loved the present. She had her little boy and that's all she needed.
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