As the day continued my eyes drooped further and further until it took me everything to keep them open.
Amy always had the most energy, but I never knew that one day it would wear me out.
We went down to Port Angeles to hang out with a couple of friends of hers, then went shopping for their junior Prom dresses, then went for shoes and accessories and make-up. I felt like an old lady compared to these girls.
I had already experienced both my proms, and they were alright, but since I had no money to buy a nice dress, nor did anyone else at my school, our dances were pretty much crap.
But my senior prom with Jacob was amazing...
The
dress that I wore that night made me feel like an absolute princess.
It was tight, long, black, and beautiful.
What I looked like
didn't really matter to me. It mattered more that I was with the most
important person in my life.
The way I was in his arms the entire night, the way he held me when we danced, and the way that we kissed made it the most perfect night.
So I could see why these girls were excited.
Since I had nothing to be excited over I got tired quickly.
I ditched dinner that night just to go home to sleep my problems away.
Possibly half of my tiredness was because I was depressed; it had happened in the past.
The other half was caused by my lack of sleep at night. For one straight week I got about ten hours of sleep combined which is roughly about less than an hour a night.
I couldn't sleep even if I tried. I missed the warm feel of Jacob's arms around me, and his humming in my ear, and his hard chest, which I used for a pillow.
This had only been a week and I was already freaking out.
Amy said she would get a ride home with her friends, so I took my car back to my place silently. There was no music playing in the background, or wind from outside. Pure silence rang through the car.
When I got home I dragged myself upstairs and onto my computer. I signed into AIM and got on Myspace to cool myself down.
i alphavsbeta222- hello my angel /i
I read the message once or twice over.
i alphavsbeta222- everythin alright?
2cool4u- uh... yeah
2cool4u- sorry kinda spacing
alphavsbeta222- lol no problem babe
alphavsbeta222- what did u do 2day?
2cool4u- um... helped the gurlz pick out prom dresses, then went 2 lunch, then came bak
2cool4u- they go bak 2 skewl 2morro
alphavsbeta222- yeah embry was tellin me that
alphavsbeta222- whatcha gonna do wen amys in skewl?
2cool4u- idk hang by da beach, help ems with the lil ones, stay home
alphavsbeta222- u ever get bored call me
2cool4u- i know
alphavsbeta222- gues wut?
2cool4u-
wut??
alphavsbeta222- i love you! /i
How cliched was that? The love of my life acted like an actor from a romantic comedy.
i 2cool4u- i luv u 2
alphavsbeta222- i luv u more
2cool4u- hahaha i doubt that
alphavsbeta222-
sooooooooooo... how r things home?
2cool4u- fine, i suppose
everyones still alive
alphavsbeta222- lol good
alphavsbeta222- i cant wait 2 come home
2cool4u- wen u come home i think im ready 2 go 2 college
alphavsbeta222- u sure babe? ur still only sixteen, and i can wait 4ever if i have 2
2cool4u- yeah im sure
2cool4u- once we get accepted 2 a place and start the semester ill be seventeen, and a bunch of ppl start college 17
alphavsbeta222- okay wutever u want babe ill do anything u want
2cool4u- thnx
alphavsbeta222-anythin 4 u m'darlin
2cool4u- :)
alphavsbeta222- wut time is it down there?
2cool4u- like 4
alphavsbeta222- i hafta leave soon, like in 5 mins
2cool4u- okay
alphavsbeta222- i miss u so much
2cool4u- i miss u 2
alphavsbeta222- when i come home im gonna hold u in my arms and never let go
2cool4u- yd u have to leave :(
alphavsbeta222- baby u no y i had 2, it breaks my heart 2
2cool4u- i know
alphavsbeta222-well i hafta go ill talk 2 u l8er baby
alphavsbeta222- i love you so much
2cool4u- i love you too
alphavsbeta222- bye baby /i
b Alphavsbeta222 has signed off /b
As soon as I closed the conversation another popped up.
ibite4me- hey hey
2cool4u- hey bella
2cool4u-
sup?
bite4me- um... nm u wanna come ova?
2cool4u- sure...
when?
bite4me- NOW
2cool4u- hahaha okay um.. lemme get my stuff 2gether ill be down in like twenty mins
bite4me-
esme is so happy 2 hear ur coming bak she is like in luv with
u!
2cool4u- hahaha nice
2cool4u- ill c u soon /i
I signed off, got out of the chair, and went into my bedroom. I shoved my phone into my back pocket and threw on a Bullet For My Valentine sweatshirt.
Quickly
I ran downstairs as fast as my legs could take me.
"I'll be
back soon Em!" I called into the kitchen.
The door slammed behind me before she could even reply,
So I felt bad that I was actually rushing out of the house because I was excited to see i Edward /i instead of Bella, but Edward had so much power over me. I wanted him in so many different ways.
The entire car ride I was anxious, jumpy, and excited. My mind completely forgot about Jacob.
When I pulled into the Cullen's driveway I could see Bella's face in the front window. I giggled, climbed out, and went to the door. Immediately Bella popped out.
"Hey!" She engulfed me into a hug.
"Uh… hola."
She took my arm and dragged me inside.
"Look, it's the new meat."
Emmett took me under his arm and ruffled my hair. I squealed, and pulled out of his grasp.
Bella hit Emmett's arm. "Be nice."
"Jenny!"
Alice came from the living room and into the front hall where she took me in her arms, with a little less pressure than Bella had.
Jasper and Rosalie came out right behind Alice. Rosalie simply looked me up and down, then nodded, but Jasper hugged me.
"Wait, we're missing someone," Bella mused. "EDWARD!"
"I'm coming, my love," he chuckled from upstairs.
Slowly, he floated down the stairs like an angel, went to Bella, and then placed his arm around her.
"Hey Jen."
Edward nodded at me, and I gave him a sweet smile back.
"What are we gonna do?" Emmett mused. "Anything that wouldn't hurt this one." He shoved his thumb at me.
"Hey!"
He chuckled and put his arm around me again.
"Um... we can go down to Port Angeles and eat," Jasper mused. He slid his arm around Alice's waist, and kissed her cheek.
Emmett took Rosalie quickly with his other arm. We looked at each other; she glared, so I backed off, sliding out of Emmett's grasp.
"That sounds fine," Alice giggled. "Do you guys wanna do it?"
"Italian please!" Bella squealed.
This was going to be perfect.
Edward's hand slid between my legs on my jeans, massaging my inner thigh, while holding Bella's hand on the other side of him, giving her a kiss on the cheek.
My body was tense, and I could barely touch the plate of spaghetti I had in front of me.
Edward squeezed my thigh again, and I almost jumped out of my seat. His hands were ice cold, but that wasn't what made me jump. It was the strength of his hand and the way he grabbed.
"You
okay Jen?" Emmett asked. "You haven't eaten
anything."
"Uh..." I barely could breathe, let
alone talk. "Y-yeah."
I could see Edward chuckle from the corner of his eye. I knew he was enjoying this, and every time I jumped at his touch.
"Do we need to force feed you?" Edward teased.
Bella giggled at his remark. A rush of guilt ran through my veins and into my heart. She was so happy with him, and I was going to ruin that.
I gulped, looked down at my food, and was sickened.
But, by force, I picked up my fork, took a few noodles and a meatball, and then placed it into my mouth. Every time I chewed I wanted to throw up.
The food traveled down my throat, and I did everything to keep it down. I took a long sip of water, and then sighed.
"What was that for?" Alice raised her eyebrows.
My head snapped up, and my eyes were as wide as a deer's.
"Nothing."
Who did I want more? Bella or Edward? I wouldn't be able to have both, and I knew it.
Edward's hand disappeared for a minute, but returned with a piece of paper.
I looked down at his hand, then back up at him. Edward gave me an encouraging nod, so I took it and opened it.
i Leave your window unlocked tonight. I have something I want to tell you /i
My attention went back up to Edward, and all I could do was nod.
He smirked with satisfaction.
This was going to be a long night.
