Well this chapter was a royal pain! I hope it makes sense if not I guess I will be answering lots of questions. Read it twice before asking though. Oh hush it's not that long! By the way these are not my characters they are glorious stephenie's but the rest of us can still pretend!
Chapter 9: Powers
"What did you just say?"
"What, Edward what's wrong? I didn't say anything."
Edward looked taken aback, "I don't really know. All I know is that one minute I could here and see Rosalie and Emmett shouting and showing me things in my head. The next minute I heard you and you said, "I wish I could make them stop." and then everything disappeared."
I stared at him, "What does that mean? I knew that I wanted to help but I didn't do anything. You heard what I was thinking? How?"
"I don't know how but let's try to figure it out."
I just shrugged my shoulders, "I don't know how I did it."
"Well you were trying to protect me so maybe … Alice, Jasper come here for a second."
They ran over and Alice was already giggling, "This is going to be fun."
"Okay so start shouting unpleasant things at me and Bella, see if you can figure out how to block it again."
I closed my eyes and tried to think that I just wanted to protect Edward from being hurt or upset and I started thinking about good things like our wedding night or this morning. I decided to try to will those thoughts at him.
All of the sudden I was in his arms and he was kissing me.
I laughed through his kissing, "Well I guess that worked."
"Bella, that was amazing . You seem to be able to project your mind protecting ability on to someone else's now. It seems like you can also interject your thoughts into other people's minds, can you hear my thoughts too?"
"Well I can try. I'll try to hear you say something."
And all of a sudden I heard his voice in my head, "You are the most lovely and sexy wife a man could ask for."
It was a very strange feelingto have him inside of my head.
I responded right back to him, "Thank you, Mr. Cullen."
He laughed, "You are very welcome. So I guess that works too."
Jasper smiled, "That is really cool, Bella. Try it out on me and see if you can keep Edward out of my head while you are at it."
I wondered what I should do. I decided to go with what I thought might be an important memory for him and Alice and I consciously tried to keep Edward out. I thought of the time we got off the plane in Seattle after Italy and how he and Alice had just looked into each others eyes. I said to him that I thought it was a beautiful moment.
Jasper had a far away look on his face now and whispered, "Thank you, Bella. That was a beautiful moment it was interesting to see and feel it from your perspective." I could feel the sexual tension rise in the room and I knew it must be Jasper. Then he grabbed Alice and went upstairs with her giggling all the way.
She shouted from her room, "I promise we will help you practice some more later."
I laughed, "I guess we need to find some more guinea pigs."
Edward smiled at me and called to Carlisle and Esme to come into the room. and we tried to explain to them what we had been working on.
Carlisle's eyes got big around and he said, "You just continue to surprise us don't you?
All I could do was smile and say, "I try."
"Well Bella, lets see what you can do. Edward, try to get into our minds and Bella, you try to block him from both of us. If you can do that then try to interject something into our minds.
I tried to close my eyes and find their minds I brought them out with me and tried to shut Edward out. It was hard to concentrate on all the voices and thoughts bombarding me coming out of all their heads. After finally shutting Edward out I tried communicating with Carlisle and Esme. It was hard but finally I was able to concentrate hard enough to think, "Do you think Mr. Nosy out of your head? " I knew I succeeded because they started to laugh.
Carlisle then wanted me to try to pick things out of Edwards head that he was trying to keep from me. Edward looked uncomfortable.
Carlisle felt it too," Or you can use me."
Edward tried to cover quickly, "No, it's fine, it's just weird I'm not use to being on the other end. "
Carlisle looked at Edward questioningly and Edward nodded. He continued, "I need to know if she can pull images and thoughts out of your head like Aro but from a distance, especially thoughts or memories you don't want her to see."
I gave them a skeptical look and started to try. I put myself back in Edward's mind and it was confusing and frightening to be in the middle of someone's thoughts and feelings. He had almost a hundred years of thoughts and memories so it was overwhelming. I could sense that he was trying to hide something. I started sorting faster through tons and tons of images until I finally saw the ones he was trying to keep from me and I went after them. The first was an image of me on that first day of school. The frightened, sad look on my face when Edward had glared at me with his angry black eyes in Biology the first day I met him. I could feel the shame that image brought to his mind. Then his mind flickered to Volterra where I just looked thin and scared and sad. I felt his pain. Then more images of him hunting and killing humans. The shame was starting to feel overwhelming. I stopped sorting. When I saw what he was trying to hide it broke my heart and I forced my thoughts on him.
Edward I love you. You have nothing to be ashamed of . I love you, all of you and I always will. This is what I think of when I think of you and I bombarded him with images from our first day in the meadow, the day I was able to save him in Volterra, our wedding, my vampire epiphany that I hadn't had a chance to even share with him yet, and waking in his arms feeling his love and pain this morning.
Edward offered me a weak smile. I think Carlisle and Esme realized what was going on and sat quietly waiting.
I looked at Carlisle, " Well that worked too. What's next?"
Carlisle chuckled, " Well I 'm not sure but I'm sure we will think up some more things to try. Eventually we will need to find out the extent of your ability. I'm sure we are all wondering if you can protect all of us against someone as powerful as Jane or even Aro? There are still a lot of questions. We definitely need to keep this from them when they come to visit. All we need is for you to seem even more interesting.
I was sad and tired. Even though I couldn't sleep anymore I still felt mentally drained.
Carlisle and Esme excused themselves and headed upstairs to give us some time alone.
When I opened my eyes Edward was just staring at me then with that look . The look that I knew well. He wished that he could know what was going on in my head.
So I closed my eyes again and let him in, "You still want to know what I'm thinking?"
Then I heard his voice in my head as velvety and soft as usual, "I've always wanted to know what you were thinking from the moment I first saw you."
"I have nothing to hide from you. You are my everything and I have always loved you and always wanted to be with you."
I started laughing nervously and said out loud, "This is kind of fun. I think I can just keep it open to you like a window with your name on it. You can come and go as you please just as you always did before."
I laughed again, "but be nice because I can shut it and lock it like a real window too."
He started laughing then and I heard his voice again in my head, "I will always be nice. Now let's go upstairs and use this to our benefit. Emmett can't complain too much now and you won't ever have to say what you want me to do ever again….."
I rolled my eyes he was so funny! He picked me up and ran me upstairs. The Cullen house was hot tonight……
My husband thought that line was silly but I couldn't resist!(and yes I do make him read my fan fiction though I am sure it's torture for him.) He must really love me!
