I am who I am
PG –13 turning to M soon
Summary: Sakura, a very poor, very dirty, skinny but pretty into the royal palace to be a servant. Why does she have to be a servant? Will she be staying a servant forever? Is this end of her life? – I doubt it –
"…" – Speaking
… - Remembering or dream
… – Thinking
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Syaoran: 19
Sakura: 18
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China, Beijing - year 1845
Chapter 8: let me think about it
Chatting happily, Sakura and Syaoran walked arm in arm, heading back to the great hall. On the way, they didn't catch the looks from servants and guards. They gave the couple or Sakura dirty looks. They all hated her because there was a rumor going on. That she is here to steal the emperor's heart. And she is trying to be the empress of China.
As you see the rumor would not start if Yelan haven't screamed and lost her temper.
"Syaoran, how could you write to the girl behind my back? What does she want? Luxury? Money? Does she know her place?"
Yep, you see now, that's what everyone's mine is thinking about, to be an empress.
Still chatting happily, the both of them arrived to the great hall with laughter and smiles. In the hall, Yelan narrowed her eyes.
"Ahem, Emperor of China needs to know what he is doing."
Quickly as they could, they unlink their arms, and Syaoran pushed Sakura away. Incase the queen have anymore weird thoughts.
"That seems a bit better. Syaoran, but I do believe the whole clan is waiting for you to start the meeting."
Syaoran looked over to the right side, there standing unmistakably the whole clan.
"I'll see you later, Sakura."
Sakura nodded and followed to the path of the servant's room.
She entered and there were three gasps, there stood Satora, Ana and Yuki.
"Oh my goodness, is that you Sakura. What happened to you? You looked thinner than before." The first who spoke is Satora.
Ana and Satora ran to Sakura and the three hugged tightly
"Why are you so dirty, Sakura? We missed you so very much. Where were you sent to?"
"The chan's, they were horrible."
Sakura loosen the hug and move back slightly, still smiling she walked to Yuki. "Hey Yuki, long time no see."
"Why are you here? Didn't Queen get rid of you to the Chans for good?"
Satora and Ana walked to the both of them, "Why are you so mean to her? She didn't do anything to you, Yuki. She's your friend, she helped you loads."
"Haven't you heard? She's the one who contacted the emperor and she is here to steal his heart." Yuki point a finger to Sakura.
"Well, I did heard that Sakura. However I refuse to believe it until you told me so." Satora paused. She and Ana moved closer to Sakura. "Well did you, Sakura?"
"I'm not here to attract and to get myself a place in the palace. You guys know I'm not like that!"
"I knew it's not true, there are many rumors going on, saying you're trying to steal his heart, making sure you got the emperor."
Sakura started again slowly. "Although I could not deny me and the emperor haven't been sending letters."
"I told you, she's here to hook the emperor." Yuki smirked.
"I told you again and again, I'm not..."
"We know." said Ana and Satora together. "We believe you." The both of them gave glares to Yuki. Who was stared hard back at them.
There was a shout to break this tensed moment.
"Servant Sakura, you are being called by Emperor Syaoran."
Yuki gave the three of them an "I'm a right." look.
Sakura opened the door and saw a guard calling for her. "Yes, sorry sir, I'm coming."
Sakura gave Ana and Satora each a hug before she walk to the door following the guard out to the emperor's studies.
The guard knocked on the door and shouted for Syaoran.
"Emperor Li, I have brought you Servant Sakura."
"Good, thank you. You may leave now."
"Sorry, Queen said that I have to stay and keep an eye on Emperor."
"Thank you, you're allowed to leave."
"Queen's orders are-
"Leave."
The guard gave a disgusting look and walked away.
Sakura pushed open the door, and saw a very stressed out Syaoran. He has a hand on his forehead.
"O hey, come and takes a sit."
"I'm a servant, Syaoran."
"If you can call me, you don't regard me as the emperor. So sit down."
Sakura didn't dare to talk back, Syaoran seems very tired. She pulled a chair that is across Syaoran and sit down.
"How may I help you?"
"I'm very tired, I hate my life. Why does everyone have to look at me for everything? What does it different between you and me, Sakura?"
Sakura bowed her head, politely answered, "Syaoran, that's because you're the Emperor of China, of course everyone sets you as an example. Also why hate your life; your life will never be as bad as mine. You live with luxuries and money; you never get hungry or run out of money. When if we get some food we are satisfied, we have nothing really to look up to. We poor ones are unlike you; you have a reason to live, because you are rich, powerful."
Tears spilled from Sakura eyes, "Why would you hate your life when you have a better life than any of us, Syaoran."
Syaoran hold her hands in his, "Sorry, I don't mean to make you cry. I don't mean that. I just – just don't like my life, but I never knew that people in town have to suffer this much. I'm sorry I didn't understand just now."
Sakura nodded, "Thank you for understanding, Syaoran why did you want me to come?"
Syaoran suddenly remember why did Sakura need to come. "Sorry I almost forgot, I asked you to come to get your job back in the palace."
"Really, you will do that for me? You will help me get a job back in the palace?"
Syaoran held her hands in his, and nodded. "I'll do anything for you. You were the only one that understood me."
Sakura smiled. "It is my duty to fulfill my master's dreams."
"Let's go now, before anything comes to my mother's mind to pull us off- I mean – unable to get your job."
Sakura giggled and nodded. She took his outstretched hand and he guided her to the main palace where sat Yelan and the whole clan.
Sakura bowed on her knees to Yelan.
"Sakura greets Queen Yelan, hoping she will be living more than a hundred years and have a great health."
"You have a sweet mouth but unfortunately for your place. You may stand."
Sakura stood up again.
Syaoran bowed to his mother.
"Syaoran greets mother, wish that mother will have a peace in the country, and happier every day."
"Obviously, you are here to ask for something? Am I right?"
The both of them nodded.
"Tell me and you may have your wish granted."
Syaoran walked up holding softly on Sakura's hand.
"As we all know, that Sakura have been trained to be worked in the Palace. She did wonderful and all the judges love her. Even Uncle wants her to be on the top list. Somehow, Mother you disliked her. You have many things against Sakura. You didn't like her being my personal maid; you didn't like her position as a servant. You didn't like she was friends with me. That's because you're over protective. I'm eighteen, Mother; I believe I can do what ever I can."
"I know you are eighteen, Syaoran. But there are many things I fear, I fear that you'll be thrown off your throne. It had happened before I do not want to it to happen again. Also I don't trust that girl with you that's because she might want to be empress."
"Mother, how many times do I have to tell you, that Sakura is good and nice? She is not like the Chans. She does not plot anything. She doesn't plan anything. She just has a simple mind, wants to serve the palace and earn some wages to send off to her father and brother. It is that simple and straight forward. Why blame her on everything that she never done."
"You never know how her mind works, she might want to get on your good side and just use you later to take over the country."
Syaoran gripped on Sakura's hard, and he seems pretty angry.
"Mother, I don't care if you or the clan approve or not. But Sakura will be my personal servant."
"Syaoran, don't you dare."
The clan was speechless, Yelan turned to them.
"If I let Syaoran do anything he wants, he will want more things. Next he would want a marriage. Do something."
"We can't do anything Yelan." Zhang the oldest of the clan told her. "It's his decision we cannot do anything to stop him doing. The Clan only guides the emperor but not order him to do everything. We have no permission to do that."
Yelan sighed.
"I guessed I have no choice too, I've got to give in. You may have Sakura for personal servants but you'll have guards guarding the room you're living in."
"I sound like a prisoner than an emperor." Cried Syaoran. Yelan looked at the Clan and all of them just shrugged their shoulders.
Yelan gave a sigh again.
"There will not be personal guards or any other maids except for Sakura. However I DO NOT WANT – I REPEAT – I DO NOT WANT ANYTHING FROM YOU TWO! YOU UNDERSTAND. I've gave in too much, and if your wishes cross the line, Syaoran Li. You'll suffer the consequences."
Syaoran nodded happily along with Sakura. Sakura's smile is so big; her jaw is starting to hurt.
"Thank you, Queen Yelan. Thank you. I owe my life to you."
She bowed on her knees again and jumped back up happily standing beside Syaoran, who also have a big grin.
Yelan gave them a wave to dismiss them and they happily ran outside the main hall.
"Thank you, but you shouldn't really cross the line for me again, or else Queen Yelan might really make you suffer."
"I don't care anymore, I'm too happy to care."
He gave her a kiss on the cheek softly. Sakura felt the heat all travel to her cheeks. She touched where his lips touch and smiled happily.
"I guess it's a happy ending after all." She giggled and pulled Syaoran to his studies.
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