XLIX You're Not Twelve

I was caught before my head hit the cement by this big hairy guy seriously he looked like big foot. There is a whole bunch of fucking random ass people right outside my window.

All I could think is 'Damnit every time I try to get help for my people some strangers end up sticking me in a cell!' So I decide to go on the offensive and get away from them before they can stop me.

"Goddamn it all to hell I won't be delayed any longer you fuckers my friends need me and I'm going to them!" I yell as I try to push past them.

They don't move in fact the one with the long red hair grabs my arm and asks "Where are they little one?"

Yeah I know this routine I tell them everything and then they lock me up and do nothing. "Fuck you! You can't stop me not now my friend called to me and I have to go to her. They need me and since no adult seems to fucking give a shit I'll just rescue them myself. Let go asshole you are in my way. Damn you why won't anyone help them can't you hear their pain. It's so loud I can hear it from here get out of my way mother fuckers!"

I admit I was so upset that I had tears in my eyes but what do you expect no one will help us no one but me seems to care if we live or die and I'm sick of it. Where the hell is the humanity in the American spirit?

I guess they felt guilty or something because they all started to wince. (No Christy it was the screeching). (FUCK YOU I NEVER SREECH)!

One of the men he had lite gray eyes and lite sandy colored hair was fingering something under a jacket I wonder what it is. Well I think the others felt it was inappropriate to pull out because they all started to stop him.

Another one of the men with dark plum eyes and black hair and a ear ring gave this look like 'we came for that you have to be kidding' and then when I got so upset he started to laugh and kept right on laughing. Fucking prick asshole arrogant snob (and no Arlen that's not a compliment). (I took it as one so thank you).

Then like the youngest man, with dark brown hair and gold eyes came up to me and just looked me in the eyes and I didn't feel so upset anymore.

They all looked like someone had taken a load off their shoulders and I had this weird feeling come over me. It was like getting a stuffy head cold that sort of bleeh feeling you know.

The young guy spoke to me "It's alright little one we're not like everybody else you can trust us." (You're not like everybody else oh dear God above is that ever an understatement).

"No I can't every time I trust someone they lock me up! I can't be locked up they need me I'm the only one who is trying to save them! Why is everyone abandoning us? We need help and no one cares if we live or die damn you unfeeling bastards! Let me go I have to save them the guards are hurting them! They need me now and you're only delaying me move damnit move!" I yell out as I try to wrench free of not one but two holds.

I don't like this I feel crowded I feel like I can't breath! They are too close and it's like the walls are closing in on me I can't breath I really can't breathe!

"Hey now little one easy it's alright no one is here to hurt you or even stop you. But you need to tell us where your friends are so we can help you rescue them." This man had curly blonde hair and very dark gray eyes spoke with a soothing voice.

But I can't catch my breath they are too close.

"No you won't you lie! You'll only lock me up again! Everyone locks me up I hate being locked up! They hate being locked up I need to get to them I need to save them! Why won't you just let me go? He told me to find the twelve I have to find the twelve now since these assholes have done nothing even after I told them everything! Why won't anyone ever believe me?"

Suddenly I stop speaking not because I run out of words but because something blocks my ability to speak. (Yeah otherwise known as shock you have to experience it to understand).

"Oh come now little one is your math skills that far off? You found us we're right here we're ready to help you now open up your damn mouth and tell us where they are already!" One of the men in the back speaks out in what sounds like pure irritation. (I know how to count to twelve and no matter how many times I counted you guys you didn't equal twelve).

But my mouth won't work I…I…I'm turned off. I am totally scared but if there is one thing the guards taught me it is to never show fear. So I give him this glare that said 'how the fuck am I supposed to do that if I can't talk asswipe?'

"Uhh Night I think you need to turn off your power in order for her to do that. Hello she CAN'T talk dumb ass." Soothing voice guy said.

Then the Night guy the one who sounded irritated said "Oh yeah I guess that would help wouldn't it."

Suddenly I can speak again and I don't waste anytime in voicing my opinion on what just happened. "Fucking piece of shit! What the HELL was that? What did you do to me? Who are you people? What are you people? Get away from me! Get the HELL away from me you assholes!"

I would have kept going but that…inability to talk happened again only it got worse I couldn't do anything. God I need to get away from these people what the hell are they doing to me!

"Right let's try this again slowly. You tell us where they are and we can go get them together." He annunciates each word slowly like I was hard of hearing or slow or something. I'm not retarded I know how to understand English you know.

Anyway this goes on for a good forty-five minutes. The pattern being I get my voice back and start freaking out then whoever or whatever it is taking it away again.

Finally the lone woman steps forward. "Night knock it off that's not working! Boys let her go now!" She gives all the men this glare of death and they back off.

Then she just takes me and embraces me like my mom would whenever I was scared. "It's okay sweetheart the men are idiots and that never changes no matter how old they get"

With that comment there was the vocal reply of "Hey!" And her unvocal reply of another death glare.

"You can tell Mommy Calypso and she will definitely do something not just ignore you like all those worthless men have done."

All of her worthless men are now giving her death glares.

But you know I feel like maybe she will. Maybe these scary people are the answer to my prayer. 'Please God let them be the answer to my prayer! Let them be willing to help me!'

Because I don't think I can take one more rejection of people that are supposed to help but don't. I nod my head in her shoulder I just can't look at them I am afraid I will see that they are lying too and I just can't take it right now.

So I tell her everything from my nightmare that came true to how I ended up stuck in that cell to the experience I just had that made me escape when I did. No one talked no one interrupted they just listened to me and heard my constant begging of aide that went unheard.

When I was done the woman just kissed the top of my head and handed me over to that Night guy. "Wait here I will only be a moment." She said then she walked to the door of building.

After like a couple of minutes we hear this pounding like she was trying to break down the door or something then she appears around the corner hurrying to our side.

L That Didn't Take Long

"Let's go boys! Night do you remember how she described it in her report?"

The Night guy just nods his head.

"Good take us there! And get that look off your face!" She orders him and a really weird experience happened.

First the Night guy takes a strong hold of my hand. Then Night turns us toward the wall that we had been standing by the whole time. Everybody else holds on to me, the Night guy or someone who is holding on to one of us.

Night starts to walk toward the wall like he is going to walk right into it. I tense up but instead of smacking our faces into the cement we…PASS THROUGH IT.

Everything just goes gray and it was really freaky and it was like the gray place was a signal because those that were grabbing Night himself shifted to me or grabbing onto others to keep linked to us. (You don't want to get left behind in the gray place it is not a pretty future).

The Night guy is constantly looking around like he expects danger to appear. There were these shadowy things that were near us but kept their distance for the most part.

Some of them came at us like they were going to attack us and he draws this sword and slices at them. The weird thing was the sword glowed with a light and not long after that we were out of the gray place.

When we get to wherever it is he took us I stumble and would have fallen but one of the men the laughing one I think grabs me and steadies me.

I got to tell you he was a brave man because I was feeling really nauseous and he risked me puking up on him. Thankfully for both of us I kept everything down.

I look around and I'm back in the spot where I was standing when I saw him fall. Oh gosh I only skimmed over this part of the story I never told them that I saw him fall.

I feel tears well up in my eyes but surprisingly none fall from my eyes (oh if I only knew)(and knowing is half the battle)(Anthony get out this is not GI JOE) and make my way unsteadily forward.

When I get to the spot where he died I just drop to my knees and wrap my arms around myself as I start to shake uncontrollably.

They don't say a word as laughing guy picks me up in his arms and they keep walking in the direction that I was traveling. He sets me down when we reach the building.

Oh merciful God I really don't want to go back into this place. I take a deep breath and lead them inside.

LI Why Does She Sound so Familiar

I still have the lead as I take them down the same corridor that mystery guy and I ran down so many months ago. 'Damnit don't think about him tears won't help him and it won't save your friends.'

As I thought these words laughing guy whispered them into my ear as if to give comfort. As I approach the cell where he was kept along with those bastards of the military men I swear I must be locked in a memory.

I could hear the sounds of yelling coming from the cell the words sound so familiar. I speed up 'it couldn't be him could it no that is a woman?'

"You mother fucking sons of bitches what the hell is your problem? COULD FUCKING COULD FUCKING HELP, FUCKING HELP ONLY! YOU KNOW THOSE ASSHOLE SHIT FOR BRAINS CAN'T DO FUCKING SHIT WHAT THE HELL WERE YOU THINKING COULD FUCKING COULD YOU PIECE OF SHIT IDOITS WHO THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOU FUCKING ARE SHE IS A BABY A LITTLE INNOCENT BABY WHAT THE FUCKING HELL. YOU ARE LUCKY I DON'T KILL YOU. WHY , YOU ARE TOO DUMB TO FUCKING LIVE. BUT MY BABY MAY FIND THE BODIES AND THIS WOULD WORRY HER. YOU GRRR WORDS CAN'T SAY HOW I FEEL YOU STUIPD ASSHOLES SHIT FOR BRAINS. YOU SAY YOU ARE PROTECTING THE LIVES OF OTHERS LIARS FUCKING LAIRS."

The people who came with me had a strange reaction they all smiled and started to giggle.

What the fucking hell is going on? I feel like I have only the last two pages of a book but everyone around me is expecting me to understand the whole plot. I am so confused but I have a feeling that what happens on this day with these people will affect my entire future (holy shit I'm a goddamn prophet),(a good one too).

I make it just outside the door and look in. It is a teenage girl she looks to be around my sister Amanda's age or maybe 14.

Actually I wonder what month this is and how old would my family be now. 'Focus Christy this is too weird a sight to just daydream unimportant shit like that.'

Anyway this girl looks like she could be mystery guys kid sister. So I turn to the twelve who were really eleven (I can count and there weren't twelve so don't be surprised it took so long to believe you would help fucking arrogant bastards!) and ask them "Does mystery guy have a baby sister?"

They all openly laugh at this and young guy said "no but sometimes I do."

These people are weird and I think I want them out of my life quickly (quit smirking all of you assholes).

I am so confused so I ask him "what do you mean?"

He just smiles this knowing smile and says "some things are just better finding out on your own little one. Don't worry you will understand soon if I know my sister that is."

I would have questioned him further but things really started moving at that point. For one thing MY guard appeared and the teenage girl turned and noticed us at last.

They said at almost the same time "Hey guys what took you so long?" "WHAT THE FUCK TOOK YOU DAMN IDIOTS SO FUCKING LONG TO GET HERE YOU'RE GODDAMN FUCKING LATE!"

LII You're Him

I was absolutely speechless they…know…each…other? How do they know each other? Oh Merciful God in Heaven who are these people and what do they want with me? My eyes were huge and my mouth dropped open. I really wanted to get away but they seem to have surrounded me with out me realizing it. I…I was trapped!

The young guy that looked in my eyes and made me…not feel was by my side again. He lightly touched my arm in reassurance I guess all I know is that I was feeling less trapped and he said to the teen girl "Hey sis long time no see if your done bitching at the losers let's go save some kids."

Completely forgetting the fact that she started bitching at him and I guess the girl saw that he was touching my arm because she looked right at me.

It's…my mind must have been playing tricks on me because I swear it was like I was looking at mystery guy all over again.

But that's impossible he is dead I saw him die *sniffle sniffle* I saw him die and no amount of imagination is going to bring back the dead.

I think everything just really caught up to me and I just slammed my face into my hands and sobbed. If not for my guard and young guy I would have collapsed to the floor. I know they said things to comfort me but I was to far gone to even hear what it was.

"FUCKING HELL PIECE OF SHIT! WHO MADE HER CRY? I WILL FUCKING END YOU!" was all you heard and the sound of a door opening and closing.

A bunch of stuttering denials and blaming were issued forth from several lips as the men try to avoid the rage that this teenager is portraying.

Then I was in a single pair of arms and held like I was the most precious thing in all of creation. A soothing hand stroked my hair and back.

I heard a voice it was the teen girl whisper in my ear "hey little girl who can't eat it's okay it's just me. Ready to go save the children I still have your back."

I look up with tears in my eyes that still won't fall and with a trembling lip say "how can you know that only he called me that but you're not him."

She smiles at me and strokes the hair off my face saying "of course I am. I'm mystery guy God just realized that I still had more to do so I got sent back into this body that's all. It's still me though."

Several snickers to that comment and a death glare that put mommy Calypso's to shame soon stopped it though.

I take several deep breaths trying to calm down. Mystery guy…girl…whoever this person is just continued to hold me up and stroke my hair in that soothing fashion.

Finally I nod my head and say "yeah let's go free the others." And step out of her hold.

LIII Christy's Back

I turn to walk toward the cells the girl walks beside me and the twelve fall in behind us. This corridor is a lot smaller then I remember it and we arrive at my 'home' cell in just a couple of minutes.

You can feel the hopeless despair halfway down the corridor. It is so strong that I swear you can see waves of it in the air like heat waves.

I stop and look between my guard and mystery…chick and ask them "what happened? What's going on?"

The guard answered "They don't know anything about what happened to you. Many think you are dead and those that still think you're alive think you left them behind. I did my best to keep them alive and tried to remind them that you are not like that but I don't think they listened."

I had this horrified look on my face. I mean it had only been a couple of months right? 'Did they go back to the way things were before I arrived just because I was gone?'

No something more happened to cause this. "Did anything happen between my escape and when this started?"

Mystery chick with a sad look in her eyes replied "you could say that. They brought all the dead bodies past them surrounded by so many men that no one could see sizes. Your friends were told nothing about your escape."

I nod my head and pick up the pace. I have to show them that I live and that I'm back. They HAVE to see me 'God in Heaven help me know what to say put words in my mouth that can drive out this despair and give them courage once more.'

I arrive to the cell and look in. My heart just breaks. I have no words to describe what I saw in that cell and in the others as we got to them.

The only thing I can describe are the few believers that thought I was still alive.

They had their hands wrapped around themselves sitting on the floor rocking themselves and chanting "she's not dead she's coming back." Over and over again.

I wanted to cry and never stop. I felt shattered just looking at them. I did this by being successful I should have prayed for the strength to get us all out together. I will never leave a friend behind again we go in together and we will leave together forevermore.

I take a deep breath to stop the sobs that want to erupt and say in a soothing voice "hey guys miss me?"

Holy shit did that get a response. The entire room focused onto me so fast that several of them gave themselves whiplash. It was a room full of blank faces staring at me. I just smile and nod at them.

It started as a voiceless sound then it rose until it was a joyous shout "Christy? Christy's back! She's come back to us! She kept her word!"

You saw life slowly enter their eyes until it was like looking at a supernova with your unaided eye. . They were so bright when they saw I was real and not some cruel illusion.

I couldn't help it I laughed out loud. "I'm back now let's go free our people and kick these mother fuckers' asses."

The twelve behind me cheered almost as loud as the children in front of me.

Mystery chick did the honors of opening the door. In a show of respect the ones who never lost their faith in me came out first and embraced me.

Scott held me so hard he started to shake like he had something to tell me but he just couldn't.

I wouldn't push him but I wondered 'where is Megan?'

The pattern of the first cell held for all the cells except the Mormon cell they all believed that I would return and a shout of "finally" came out of their mouths when they saw my face.

I got to my sister's cell and she wasn't there.

I knew it would kill Scott but I had to know "where are the girls?"

Several of them burst into sobs but Scott my brave Scott answered "they took them away. I think they are being tortured by the leader. I don't know where but Christy I think it involves your whole family."

I couldn't help it I gasped out loud. I turn to my guard and say "you told me you were keeping them alive?"

The others including the mystery chick gave my guard the death glare to end all death glares and that one guy reached into his jacket again only no one was stopping him this time.

"YOU BETTER HAVE A FUCKING GOOD REASON FOR THIS DORIAN!" Mystery chick said.

"Of course I do chill out Becks. I mean really you are acting like a child. No I don't know where per say but I have a DAMN good idea I was headed that way when I ran in to you all. IF YOU ALL HAD BEEN ON TIME THIS NEVER WOULD HAVE HAPPENED. IT IS NOT MY FAULT!So back off I mean it damn can't you all do anything right."

Orders were given in unison to two different groups.

I gave my orders to Nick and Scott "Stay here I will find where our families are and send back word. Go to them and stay with them until I come for you then we will get the fucking hell out of this goddamn hellhole together."

Mystery Chick gave orders to my guard "Take us there now Dorian and fill us in on what sections have you looked at already."

Nods from all around and we were off.

I went with the twelve and mystery chick this is my people and I will save them. I got a slight smile and a nod of approval from laughing guy and a wink from the others. (Why do I have that sinking feeling they KNOW what I am thinking.)SHUT UP RICHARD AND ARLEN YOU TOO DORIAN GRAY.

LIV Quick Stop at the Records Room

My Guard leads us to a room and says to us "I believe they were taken to the section where the adults and older children are being kept. We find a map or document stating where that is we will find the missing children and the rest of their families."

"Good job everyone spread out and look for anything about the adults." Mystery chick told us and we spread around the room.

I don't know if I was lucky or subtly lead to the right spot (with the people I know it could easily be either one)(I don't know what you mean Christy)(yes you do don't lie to those generations that are reading this after you)(I NEVER LIE how you say that sadness)(crocodile tears do not make you believable)(real tears BITCH)(full of SHIT bastards)(At least I am full of something smirking, smirking, and smirking)(I am full of creative ideas and colorful language)(lol lol lol lol you win can't stop laughing) within minutes of beginning our search.

"Oh Merciful God in Heaven I found it!" I shout out as I read about our families.

The others crowd behind me and read over my shoulder (you know being behind me I never could see if you were smirking or not),(we would never) (Bull and Shit you would never).

It was a document detailing where in their side of the compound the adults are located. According to the document the building was shaped like an H with the children's and records room on one side and the parents and older children on the other side.

I call out "did anyone find a diagram of this place."

One of the men produce a weird picture (I later learned it is called a blueprint)(poor Christy) and I point out "there that's where we find the parents cells. It looks like this room is the twin of the old torture room so that would be a good place to look for my missing girls."

I look up and they are just beaming at me. It reminds me of a teacher smiling at a student that never participates and that student just raised their hand.

Like they didn't expect me to be that authoritative or something I mean HELLO I am the leader for these kids of course I know how to act like a leader (SHUT THE HELL UP AND NO COMMENTS).

"Hey Dorian guard I need you to head back to the others and tell them where to find their parents. I'm going to go find my missing girls and reunite them with their family personally (that won't be hard one of the girls is my sister)." I look up to him and decide to see just how far my leadership can stretch.

He looks at me Gives me a grin and a two finger salute then turns around and heads out the door.

I look back down at the diagram and see if I can find the door way for that connecting hallway.

"We're here" soothing voice guy says as he points our location out to me on the picture.

I nod my head and memorize the location of the hallway from here.

"I'm going, you coming with?" I ask the rest of the twelve as I turn around from the diagram.

I just love the expressions on their faces. This latest one after my question was a cross between 'I'm so proud of you. You just sounded arrogant' and 'what the fuck else do you think we'd be doing.'

I just nod my head and wade through bodies to lead the way. (For the record even I wasn't such a blond that I didn't realize they were letting me lead. Contrary to what Richard says I do have a brain and I know how to use it. NO COMMENTS I MEAN IT) It was mere minutes until we arrived at the hallway that connects us.

As we walk down this thing I can't help but pray we are not too late to save the girls and possibly my family as well.

Mystery chick just grabs my shoulder in support and we keep walking a little faster. 'God above these people are mind readers' (Oh shut up all of you arrogant assholes especially you Arlen) (WHAT)