"You can't say yes because he can't love you like I do. You can't say yes because (He soft was barely above a whisper) because when I ask my normal, my best friend, my true love, my soul mate to marry me…you…you Jude…have to say yes because I never loved some one as much as I ever loved you before. I couldn't go a day with out you and make it through…don't you get it Jude? Don't you get it?"
Jude looked down and started to sob and all Tommy could do was hold her because he didn't know what else to do. After a while the tears subsided and he picked up her chin and looked back into her eyes and surprisingly seen tears of sadness instead of happiness.
"Jude?" he questioned not really knowing the battle she's trying to conquer or for who.
"Jude…What's the matter?"
Jude looked down and away from him afraid he was going to hate her for her answer. She loved him so much but she didn't know what to do if things got out of hand and he gave up on them, ignored his heart, and never looked back.
"Would you be mad if I said my heart tells me I believe you but my head tells me you don't truly mean that, that this time is timed… Am I stupid to rely on my head then my heart?.... because it's been broken so many times before I wait till it's broken again just because I know it's gonna happen" Jude said in a whisper.
Tommy held her tighter to himself and wished she hadn't said that. He wished she could just believe him because he had said it but he knew she couldn't.
"Jude, how can I make you believe me?" Tommy said a little frustrated.
"I…I don't know, Tommy…I just don't know" Jude said as she sighed and pulled out of the embraced.
"Jude?" he called after her as she walked into the living room.
Jude turned around, "What?"
"Let me take you out…to celebrate your tour" he said with a little hope in his voice.
Jude looked down and blushed then looked up with a big smile, "I guess" she said as she didn't care.
Tommy smiled after seeing Jude not only smile but blush. Maybe things won't be so bad. All he needs to do is prove to her that he means everything he said and he gonna do just that and before she leave for her tour.
