Unsteady

Bellamy:

We all quickly loaded up the Rover with food and supplies we may need. Considering these new sky people were unpredictable our best chance of surviving was to keep everything we may need close. I closed the back door to the Rover as everyone got seated in the back. It was getting cramped in the back, but we made enough room for everyone to sit.

As I take a seat in the driver's seat I take one last look around to make sure the coast was clear. "Monty, Harper stand out the sunroof with your guns hot we don't want any issues." I turned to look at Clarke who had her eyes focused on me. Her face was soft as she gave me a nice smile. I pulled out slowly listening to Clarke as she gave me directions towards Polis.

As there was no sign of any people Monty and Harper joined the others in the back. Everyone was on their toes after what had happened back at the lab no one wanted to take any chances even if everything seemed fine.

I glanced over at Clarke who was staring out the window. The light was shining on her golden hair making her glow more than usual. The streaks of red only adding to her beauty. I quickly looked away as she began to turn her head, but she caught me. "Eyes on the road Bellamy." She grinned at me. It was a relief to see her smile, she looked breathtaking when she smiled.

I smirked back at her. "I've got my eyes on what matters." Her round cheeks began to turn pink as she blushed. She turned her face away so I couldn't see her, but I knew she was still blushing. "Is this brave princess blushing?" I mocked.

She turned back swiftly hitting me in the arm as she let out a laugh. She always knew how to make me smile. Even when I hated her she was the only person other than Octavia capable of making me smile. But I guess that's what made her stand out from the rest of the 100. She was different.

Eventually, everyone fell asleep except Clarke and I. So, to pass the time Clarke began telling me stories of life after Praimfaya.

"Well, you would think that surviving is great but when you're alone you really just start to feel like you're losing your mind. It's like you can do whatever the hell you want, but what's the point of doing whatever the hell you want if you can't enjoy doing it with anyone. Obviously, once I found Madi she began to keep me sane, but before that, I could slowly feel myself going crazy." Her eyes were wide as she talked about what it felt like to be alone. Although, I had been with 6 other people I felt like I could relate to her because even when we were altogether without her I felt like I WAS alone.

"I owe Madi my life. She's been my world for the past 6 years and I don't think I would have made it without her. She really just gave me the will to live. I had no contact with anyone from the bunker and I didn't have any communication with the Ark it did take a large toll on me." She turned to look out the window. She was hiding her tears, but I let her. She didn't want to feel weak. "But it wasn't all bad, once Madi came into the picture we really got to look into everything. We found a few hidden bunkers and places with old supplies. It was convenient. Madi and I fixed the Rover. We really just got to explore the world without anyone getting in our way. It was beautiful, but there was always a part of me that wished I could do this with you."

I looked over at her meeting her cool blue eyes. I placed my hand on her thigh caressing the outside of it with my thumb. Her body instantly relaxed as I touched her. I couldn't help but smile at the thought. I was the only one who could instantly relax her.

"What was it like on the Ark? You got to know for the most part what it was like down here, but I don't know much about what you did up there." Clarke's eyes were filled with curiosity.

"Well, Monty made moonshine almost immediately so for the first few days that's all I really had. Well, actually that's all I had until you began to radio us." Her face fell I could tell she was disappointed. "In my defense, though there wasn't much to do other than drink, eat, and sleep. I wasn't much help up there. Sometimes I felt like I just dragged everyone down. Like I was just a burden. But Monty, Raven, and Echo really kept me going. Monty and Raven helped me realize how stupid I was being. Echo helped me realize why I was being so stupid. I spent so many months regretting everything I had said and done, everything I hadn't said and hadn't done. But that's why once I knew you were alive I had all the motivation I needed to fight."

I looked over to see Clarke's head tilted to one side, questioning me. I couldn't help but let out a laugh as I looked at her. "What?"

"It's just when I talk about how much I hated myself and how I felt like everything was my fault you don't judge me at all, but when I tell you that your radio entries kept me going you doubt yourself."

I gave her thigh a nice squeeze as I looked over to flash her a quick smile. "I've hurt you a lot, Bellamy. I've hurt everyone a lot. I don't deserve you." She looked down at her hands and then turning her head towards the window.

I move my hand to her waist, tickling her so she would look back at me. "You can try to push me away, but I already promised Madi that we would be one big happy family. And how would be a happy family without YOU?" I didn't need to look at Clarke to know she was smiling. Her lack of a response made it even more clear.

"How long until we get there?" Madi chimed in as we began to fall silent.

"We're almost there, we already passed the tree line so it's not far from here," Clarke responded.

Madi moved forward and leaned her head against Clarke's seat. "Do you really think we're going to get everyone out of the bunker?" Her voice sounded hesitant as if she was scared to ask. I looked over my shoulder at her. Her eyes were wide but curious.

"I don't know, but we have to try." I couldn't live with myself if I didn't give it my all to try to get my sister out. I hope she's okay.

As if reading my thoughts Clarke leaned over and put her hand on mine. "Octavia is a fighter, I'm sure she's fine. We WILL get them out." I felt better knowing that Clarke was just as determined to get them out as I was. We didn't always agree on what we wanted to do, but we both only ever shared our people's best interest at heart.

We pulled up to what looked like a wasteland. Everything that Polis ever stood for was gone with nothing but broken buildings left behind. Everything was gone. I felt a kick in my chest as I thought about all the people that had once populated this city.

Clarke:

I hated coming here, we'd come here many times when we were alone to try to move some of the rubble but it only ever felt hopeless. But now I had hope.

Raven got out of the back moving past me, turning around as she took in her surroundings. "So where do we start?" I walked up towards the hill of rubble that covered the bunker.

I moved up to stand on top of it. "This is what we need to move to get to our people." Tension filled the air as they took in the large pile we had to get through.

Bellamy stepped forward moving some rubble out of the way as he looked around. "I have to say we've had to do worse things than to dig through some rubble." He stood with his head held high, confidence beaming from him. I couldn't help but admire his hope. "Between the 9 of us, we can make this happen. This is our best bet if we want to survive."

I moved down from the hill looking around at everyone. We had to organize our labor in some way if we wanted to be productive. "Madi, Raven you two are on guard duty. You'll take the Rover towards the tree line and you can warn us if anyone is coming. Raven while you're there see if you can fix the radio so we can communicate with anyone from inside the bunker." Madi and Raven both nodded at one another before they stepped back towards the Rover taking out what may help us.

"Echo, Emori you two will look through some of the surrounding rubble if you can find any type of tools to help us cut through this faster." The two former grounders both turned on their heels to help Raven and Madi.

"Harper, Monty, Murphy, Bellamy the rest of us are going to pick at the rubble. Monty, Murphy, Bellamy you two will work together to pick up anything too big for one person. Harper and I will pick the smaller pieces." Everyone nodded in unison.

Everyone went on to start their work. I walked to Madi and Raven as they were getting ready to leave. I pulled Madi in for a tight hug. "Be careful out there. We'll keep you updated on our progress. Once the sun begins to set make your way back to us so we can find a good place to set up camp."

Madi shook her head. "Okay, okay we get it, Clarke, we'll be careful." I knew I was smothering her, but after almost losing her last time I felt extra cautious. I reached back at her and gave her a nice kiss.

Bellamy walked up to Madi probably telling her to be careful. I just looked at them from the other end of the Rover. It was nice to know that even if I couldn't always be there for Madi that she would have Bellamy. Bellamy helped Madi get into the Rover and all I could do was stand and watch them drive away.

I was pulled from my thoughts as Bellamy walked in front of me. "Time to get to work." I quickly turned around to join the others.

We worked for what felt like days. Emori and Echo found some long rods hidden under some rubble that we used to sweep out pieces of rubble. Eventually, they joined us in our efforts to get to the bunker. Every hour or so Raven radioed in to update us on her progress with contacting the bunker. Nothing.

It felt hopeless. The sun began to set and we still weren't even halfway through. Everyone was exhausted. We decided it would be best if we moved out of this dead zone to set up camp. We drove up to a river about 10 minutes away.

Everyone slowly got out of the Rover, clearly exhausted from all the work we had done. Harper, Raven, Echo, Emori, and I set up the tents. Madi pulled out the cots for everyone. Murphy and Bellamy went hunting for food. Monty set up a fire in the middle of our camp.

"Madi do you want to sleep with Bellamy and me?" I want her to sleep with us, I feel like if she's with me nothing bad can happen to her without me being there to protect her. I knew I was just overprotective, but she was the closest thing to a daughter I have ever had.

Raven sat on a log next to the fire, heating her hands as she rested her elbows on her legs. "You can sleep with me if you want." I can't say I wasn't surprised. Raven had come to be very close to Madi.

Madi tilted her head looking at the fire. The flames of the fire brought out the green in her eyes. She reminded me so much of Octavia with her dark hair and green eyes. "It's okay I'll sleep with Raven tonight." I sat and joined her on the log, she leaned her head on my shoulder. We all sat around the fire as we waited for Bellamy and Murphy to come back.

Eventually, Raven stood up and walked towards the Rover. I let her go alone since Madi had fallen asleep on my shoulder. "Bellamy, where are you?" I listened for a response, but nothing but static came back. "Murphy, do you read?" There was still static.

Fear filled my body as several scenarios filled my head as to what could have happened to them. I relaxed. They had guns. They were fully equipped to get some food. There was no way they wouldn't have told us if they were under attack.

"Bellamy! Murphy! DO YOU READ?" Raven's voice was nearly shaking. Suddenly I'm shaken by a large explosion in the distance. My entire body froze as everyone around me got up and began packing everything. It was as if my entire body went into shock. "WE NEED TO GO NOW." Raven was standing in front of me, her hands gripped around my shoulders.

I jumped up picking up Madi and getting her into the back of the Rover. I threw some water on our fire before jumping into the passenger's seat in the front. "You don't think that's them? Do you?" Raven kept her eyes aware looking around for any sign of Bellamy and Murphy. Her hands tightly gripping the steering wheel. Monty and Harper stood out the top ready to open fire. I picked up a gun from the back seat as I opened the window.

If someone was going to attack I was going to take them down. No hesitation. If they had Bellamy I would show no mercy.

"If they have John, I swear." Emori also grabbing a gun ready to go out and put up a fight. She loved Murphy the way I loved Bellamy. She was going to fight for him.

A crack comes across the radio. "Clarke! Clarke! Are you there?" Murphy's voice echoed within the Rover. I picked up the radio.

His voice was full of fear. "Yes Murphy, where are you? Are you okay? Where's Bellamy?"

"They got him." He began to sob hysterically. "I tried to help him, but there was too many of them. He told me to run. He told me not to come after him until we had our people." He took a deep breath. "I-I'm sorry I couldn't save him." My body became numb.

"Where are you? We're coming for you." Why did I let them go alone? I should have been there. I should have helped him.

Murphy spits out his coordinates on the radio talking about what had happened but I was too lost in my thoughts to hear him. I let this happen. Bellamy was taken because of me. This time we couldn't just kill everyone and take him.

We picked up Murphy and headed back to where we had set up camp. Murphy estimated about 50 people all dressed the same. Loaded with guns and some homemade bombs. It was usually Bellamy who came to save me. He always came up with the rescue plans. He always executed them. He was the true leader. How was I going to do this without him?