My mother always told me I was a kicker. When I was in her womb, I
would always kick her and my Father would always talk to me, telling
me to be a little less reckless. Even after I was born, I would
always fidget in my crib, and kick at the wooden poles that
surrounded me. During ballet, I would be the one who was chosen to
demonstrate a move because of my swift, high jumps and my
flexibility. In Figure skating, my jumps and twists were always
higher and more powerful than normal because of my strong legs. But
no matter what anyone told me, I would refuse to let them say I was
my legs were my strongpoint. I had always thought was my graceful
movements were my strongpoint. Without my movements, I wouldn't
have such strong legs. My arms helping with balance and my graceful
movements caused me to grow strong legs to support me. I
realised that there wasn't such a thing as I, just us. Every river
needs some rain. ~~~ But all that was eight years ago.
I'm 34 now and Celino is 7. He's just like his father, always
causing trouble and picking fights with his friends. We can't
control him to much, but at least we try. Our second is on the way
and Xanxus is going to come over next week to visit his nephew. It
was funny, because when I was two months in, Xanxus finally noticed
and asked what the hell was wrong with me. I started crying and told
him everything, which was kind of funny, remembering his shocked
reaction to it. He almost murdered Bel, but I kept sobbing and he let
it go. He's been a big help though, since he helped pay for part of
our house when we moved out of the Varia base. He refuses to let us
pay him back too, which is nice, but slightly annoying. Bel's
gotten a job as a substitute math teacher a Celino's school, for
grade 7's and 8's though, so he doesn't get to see Celino much.
For some odd reason, the real math teacher has to go on leaves
because of a medical condition, so Bel fills in for him most of the
time. The kids have learned to love him, which is really nice,
considering the things he's done in the past. He still
works for the Varia; he says he will until Xanxus dies or a new boss
comes. I really don't get why he does that, but I guess I can't
do anything about it. Lussuria, Levi, and Squalo come down every
Saturday to play with Celino, so Bel and I can have a date or
something. But I'm surprised how gentle they all are with him. They
start acting like kids too, and Celino ends up calling them immature,
even though, I'm pretty sure he doesn't know what that means. Celino has his father's personality; devilish and slightly
selfish. We're teaching him to share still, and be a bit gentler,
which is starting to work. He has the same hair color as mine but his
eyes look like Xanxus'; sharp and serious. Our boy is very talented
too, since all his Uncle's know how to do things they pass on.
Squalo taught him how to swim and Levi taught him loyalty, which I
always thought was kind of creepy. Xanxus taught him how to hold a
good poker face (bite down on your tongue until it hurts. The pain
distracts you from whatever's going on) and Lussuria taught him how
to be a ladies man. That last one seems horribly odd to me. I
can tell Bel is as happy as can be though. He's cut his hair so you
can at least see part of his eyes and he comes home and hugs me
grandly everyday. I can tell he's changed from his old, psychopath
self and has finally matured into a man. He never pressures me into
things and he tells me he loves me all the time. I honestly can't
believe how much he's changed. He says it's all my fault (his
sarcasm has never left him) but I say it's the kids. The kids he
works with at school love him. They always take pictures with him at
graduation (The saddest and happiest part of the year) and they thank
him for making math fun. Now, you may be wondering what I'm
doing. I'm a dance instructor; how typical, huh? But at least it's
not all ballet. The boys and girls I teach come from different
genres- not just classical. So I started listening to all the
different genre's when Celino was about 3. I've learned to love
rock and pop as well as rap and music from places other than Italy.
The kids in my dance class are amazing, always coming up with funny
jokes to tell me or stories that they found on the internet. Bel
and I both love our jobs, even if we're surrounded by kids. Well,
I'm off work for a while since I'm pregnant again. But Alessia,
who is my replacement, comes over after every practice and gives me
the cards and gifts the kids send me. So many things have
happened in 18 years. And I'm still kind of getting over all of it,
but I know it will all be alright. I decided to believe that a long
time ago. I remember a week after Xanxus took me in, I made a promise
to myself that I wouldn't stop believing that everything would turn
out alright. And really, now that I think about it, if I hadn't
made that promise, I'd be killing me to this very day. God, it
would be eating me up from the inside, like Viper and Colonello's
scars, or Bel's guilty confessions; but that's not going to
happen. I'm here and I'm now and nothing's ever
going to turn out right, but that's okay because I have a family to
support me and I know I'll be alright, even if the world isn't.
