Prompt 12 – Longing

"We must be willing to let go of the life we have planned, so as to accept the life that is waiting for us"
~ Joseph Campbell

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While she waited- the longest, quietest time she had experienced alone in God knows how long- Rachel thought about giving up, and by extension letting go. The truth, the very heart of the matter, was she had wanted an after- give or take the ever or the happy. Graduating high school, college, marriage, children, growing old with him- and to watch everyone she loved doing some variation of the same- but in the end, there were so many other things she loved more.

She wanted Jordan and Sara growing up as normal as they could (after everything that had happened) in a house (not as refugees in a valley), and both of them going through life without fear and paranoia dogging their footsteps as it had hers. Rachel pictured possible nieces and nephews with her hair and their father's smile, and she thought she would have liked to see that- but if she stayed, it maybe never would.

Cassie moving on from the war, as she had always been meant to do, and continuing to try and shape the world by example, and make it a better place in a way Rachel would never be able to do with her own 'gift' of violence.

She pictured Tobias spending time with his mother outside of danger, and God she hoped Loren could step in and love Tobias when she no longer could.

Hell, she even loves- on some level Rachel would never tell him about- the material dreams Marco has of becoming a hugely public star, and buying his parents a massive mansion so the three of them can catch up on lost time together.

And Jake… Jake she would love to be able to find enough happiness in front of him that he can move on from everything he had experienced so far.