Hi everyone, I'm sorry I haven't update. I was sick and I wasn't in the mood. Next chap will be about how everything started, their junior year.

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Chapter 9

"Hey" Ashley greets me, sitting on the swing next to mine.

We are in the park which is close to our house.

"Hey yourself" I say playing with my shoes on the sand.

"How are you?" she asks looking at me.

"Hung over and grounded for a week" I tell her looking at her chocolate eyes.

"And what are you doing here?" she asks grinning.

"My punishment stars tomorrow" my mom took pity of my hang over and broken heart.

"Your mom is so cool"

"I know. Remember me to never drink again"

"Sorry" she drops her gaze to the sand.

"It's not your fault. I shouldn't drink"

"You shouldn't. You get horny" she laughs.

"Shut up" I say hitting her arm. We both laugh.

"I acted like an ass" she says rubbing her arm.

"Nothing new" I tell her, she pushes me.

After a few minutes of uncomfortable silence, Ashley decides to break it.

"I.. I'm really sorry. It's not an excuse but..ugh! I was so mad and confused" I don't say anything just look at her.

"Christine called and..you know we had the same old fight"

I know the same old fight, Christine trying to convince Ashley to "cure" herself.

"Why she can't accept me? I don't get it. she isn't even part of my life, why she cares if I have a dick or not? I don't care what she thinks"

"You do Ash"

"No I don't. She is no one" I take her hand and stroke it.

Even though Ashley doesn't say it she cares about her mother.

"And then I went to see Jess and Troy was there" I roll my eyes at her and drop my hand.

Troy is Jessica's ex-boyfriend.

"They are friends Ash"

Jessica and Troy broke up because he moved to Texas.

"I know but it scares me" she adds with a small voice.

Her answer hurts me.

"Ash, they dated for two years. It's normal you are… jealous" It's hard to talk about her relationship with Jessica.

"Jess wants you not him" I assure her.

"That's what I'm afraid of" she says looking her gaze with me.

"It didn't bother me…I didn't feel jealous"

"cause you trust her" I state. She just shakes her head.

"When he said goodbye he hugged her and I didn't feel anything" she takes a deep breath.

"You were never the jealous type" I say laying my hand on her leg.

"But when I saw Carmen all over you….I..I wanted to punch her"

"That's what scares me. I shouldn't feel this way. You are my best friend" she says.

"cause you are always trying to protect me" I play dumb.

"I shouldn't feel this way" she says shaking her head.

"Which way Ash?" I want her to be completely honest because of our fears we are in this situation.

"You know Spencer"

"I want to hear it" I press.

After a few minutes of silence I take her face with my hands and lock my eyes with hers.

"I love you" I finally say.

Ashley gulps.

"I love you too"

I lean in to kiss her.

But Ash beats me at it.

She kisses my cheek.

"I'm in love with you Spence and I understand…"

I don't let her finish.

I crash our lips together.

I can't believe it!

She is in love with me!

I'm the happiest girl!

"Spence wait" she says stopping me.

"What? Why?" I say pouting.

I already miss her lips.

"We can't. I can't" she says getting up.

"But we love each other"

"You didn't hear me" she says moving her hands in the air "I'm in love with you" I have the biggest smile on my face.

"and I'm in love with you" I say grinning

"No Spence, you are not. You are just confused. You say that because you are afraid of losing me".

"Ashley I know what I'm feeling"

"You felt that way about Aiden a few months ago and what about Taylor? Oh and Carmen"

"What about them?" I say getting angry.

They are just my friends.

"I was confused about my feeling towards Aiden, but I'm 100% that I love you"

"Spencer I don't want to mess up our friendship. Let's forget about this" she argues.

"Ohh! So we are gonna pretend nothing happen" I yell getting up.

"you are just gonna throw a jealous fit every time you see me with Carmen and I'm gonna pretend it doesn't hurt me to see you with Jessica?" I ask her getting in her personal space.

"I don't want to hurt her. I care about her"she whispers.

"New flash Ashley, you already did. You cheated on her" I yell.

"I didn't" she defends herself.

"Oh really? So it wasn't you who were making out with me last night" I hiss.

"It depends on what time you are talking about" she spats and I glare at her.

"You know what Davies, leave me the fuck alone" I say getting my purse, ready to leave.

"Spencer wait" she takes my hand "I'm sorry. I...it still bother me that you were with her"

"Nothing happen, and you have no right to be jealous you have a GIRLFRIEND and cheated on her. You kissed me" I yell.

"I know.. but…"

"but what Ashley? You regret it?"

"No" she says seriously "I don't want you to get hurt, I don't want to get my hopes up and I don't wanna hurt Jess"

"You are doing an awesome job" I say sarcastically.

"I didn't cheat" I roll my eyes at her. "Ok. I kind of cheat"

"You kind of? Just because we didn't go all the way, doesn't mean you didn't cheat" she rolls her eyes this time.

"Yesterday, Jessica told me that if I go after you, we were done" she says sighing. "You know the rest"

"So you guys broke up?" I ask trying to mask my happiness.

"I guess. We haven't talk. I can't promise you anything until I talk with her. I love you Spencer and I will like to be with you, but I know you too well. I know how your feelings change. One day you love someone and then…"

"Because they weren't you, I dated all those guys because I wanted to be normal. I was afraid of my mom's reaction. I was afraid you would leave if you knew I was attracted to you, and….then Aiden came. I really like him. He was the perfect guy and I was finally normal. A straight girl dating the school's stud" and having a small crush on her best friend. "You wanna know why I like him so much" she nods her head. "Because he was the male version of you and I was safe with him. If I lost him it wouldn't hurt me as much as losing you. I can't be without you Ash" I cry. She hugs me.

"And then Carmen came and I found myself attracted to her" I feel her tense and hug her harder. "I was so confused. I didn't know if I was straight, bi or gay. It scared me not knowing"

"Then I realized it wasn't about my sexuality. It wasn't about me being gay or not. It was about my feelings. The only person I want to spend my life is you. I love you."

"Spence" she says cleaning my tears "why didn't you tell?"

"I was afraid of losing you and when I was ready you were with Jessica"

"You are never going to lose me. No matter what I'm always going to love you" she says kissing me forehead.

"I need to talk with Jess" she says and I nod. "and I don't know if I'm ready to be with you. I'm afraid you will change your mind."

"Ash"

"Spence listen, no matter what we will always going to be Spashley" she says grinning.

"Come on let's go home. I want to hang out with my best friend" she says grabbing my hand.

"Everything will be ok, right?" she gives me her crinkle smile and I know it is going to be ok.

We still have things to work , but at least I have hope.

I know she loves me like I love her.

Godlove: thank you. I hope you like this one too.

Lileyfan1415: did you like this chap? Any suggestions?

Goshtperfect: next chap will be about how spence and Ash started "dating"

Lexi10290: I started reading Kissing Booth love and I like it. I have read a few chaps, but it's a good fic. They are so cute and I like Paula.

Jserenade: I also like jealous Ash. She is so hot, lol.

Pati1996: there will be Spaiden.

Spashley: haha Ash is weird. When I'm horny, I do other "things" but crying lol. Ash had a lot emotions going on that day. She was drunk, hurt and horny.

Charlee: yeah I thought I need to make Paula nice since Arthur won't be in the fic. Did you like the talk?

Dani: yeah spencer and Ash need to straighten things out.

SoNFan: here is the chap.

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