CHAPTER NINE
I laid staring at the ceiling, Edward's body tangled around mine. I couldn't sleep. Of course Edward told me there was nothing to worry about but I couldn't help it, it must have been in my genes to worry. We finally were able to make it down to the bedroom; a gorgeous room that had a window that looked out over the ocean. Edward drove us out to sea and when we were about a mile away from the coast he dropped anchor and then came down to join me in our room. Just the two of us on the ship.
A tear slide down my cheek. How could this have happened again?
Edward had taken me into his arms and softly began exploring my body like it was the first time all over again. For me it felt like the first time all over again. When he entered me I couldn't help but cry out. I tried to play it off like it was a sound of pleasure but it was pain. I cringed and buried my face in his neck as Edward pumped in and out of me. I could hear him say sweet things to me but I couldn't focus on his words, I was just trying on focusing on anything but the pain. Once more just like the beginning of our sexual relationship, I didn't feel pleasure just pain. Finally Edward noticed my tears and instantly he pulled out. My body sagged with relief and I started to curl up.
"God, honey. Why didn't you tell me?" Edward asked in concern.
"I'm sorry…I was trying to make…it good for you." I managed to say through my sobs.
"Sweetheart, why would you worry about that?"
My hands applied pressure to my lower regions. Edward got up and walked over to the bathroom and brought back a warm wet towel to place between my legs.
"Why is this happening to me again?" I cried. Edward wrapped himself around me and kissed my neck.
"Baby, we got through this once before and will we get through it again. But you have to tell me. It will be okay. Why don't we go to sleep; I'm sure you're exhausted."
I nodded my head and I could feel Edward pull the covers over us. He pulled me closer to him and started to rub my arm until he finally fell asleep.
I hated myself. Well, I hated my body. All I wanted to do was share a magical moment with my fiancé and once again I was betrayed. I couldn't stop my body from shuttering from my quiet sobs. What kind of woman was I? I couldn't even pleasure my man without having to stop due to pain. Part of me told myself that I was overreacting and just like before I would overcome this but still…
Edward eventually rolled over to the other side releasing me for a quick moment. I quietly got out of bed and decided to take a moment alone. Grabbing the extra blanket from off the chair, I wrapped myself in it and I made my way upstairs. I walked over to the front and sat down on the deck. It was a tad bit chilly, but I welcomed the cold. I gazed out on the stars that lite up the Hawaiian sky.
My eyes were so transfixed on the stars that ultimately my lids became heavy and sleep overcame me.
"Bella." I heard shouting but it was the brightness from the day beginning that ultimately woke me that next morning. Groggy, I pushed myself up to try to locate the noise.
"Honey, what are you doing out here?" Edward ran over to my side dressed in his boxers.
"I must have fallen asleep." I replied lamely.
"What were you doing sleeping out here?" he asked. "You're going to get sick."
"I had trouble getting to sleep so I just came out here to look at the stars and stuff." Edward helped me up. "What time is it?"
"It's almost seven. Come on, come back to bed." He guided me back down to our room and helped me back into bed. I was still so tired that I fell back to sleep in minutes. When I awoke the second time, it was Edward who was absent.
I crawled out of bed and found a white fluffy robe with a gold "C" monogrammed upon it, laid out for me. I put it on while searching out where Edward had disappeared to. Well, obviously he didn't disappear; the boat was only so big.
Edward was up on deck lounging at the table we had eaten dinner at the previous night wearing his swim trunks and reading a magazine.
"How are you feeling?" he asked upon seeing me.
I scratched my head. "Better. I guess." I replied softly.
"Come here." He reached out for me and pulled me to sit on his lap. "What would you like for breakfast, my love?"
"I'm not that hungry."
"Bella." he was short obviously upset with my response.
I sighed, "I'll have whatever you want." Hopefully that will appease him.
"Baby, please don't be upset over last night. I know you are having a hard time with this but sweetheart, I promise everything will be fine. It could take a couple of times but remember what happened last time; you were able to control it and eventually it felt good. It will feel good again."
His words did little for me. I couldn't help but be disappointed and I felt like a freak. He could tell I wasn't exactly believing it.
"Hey, we are in Hawaii. Look around you. Do you really want to waste this time mopping?" he asked.
I shook my head.
"That's right. I may just toss you overboard." he continued.
"You wouldn't dare." I softly threatened.
"I don't know?" he taunted. He stood up with me in his arms and started to walk me toward the side of the ship. I clung onto him.
"Edward!" I squealed.
"Are you going to have fun? I can't have anyone aboard this ship who doesn't want to have fun." He started to pull me away from his chest.
"Edward, put me down." I playfully demanded.
"Wrong answer." he made like he was going to drop me, I screamed. He brought me back to his chest.
"Okay, okay. I will have fun." I gasped.
He set me down on my feet. "That's right you will." he laughed. He pulled me closer and let his hand roam underneath my robe. I could feel my body instantly respond to his touch and for a moment I was lost in the pleasure I was anticipating but just like that, my brain reminded me what had happened previously and I sighed disappointed.
Edward stopped sensing my negativity. "Let me make you some breakfast. Then we can go swimming. How does that sound?" he asked.
I nodded, "I probably should go and change." I started to take off for downstairs. Edward called after me telling me to put on a swimsuit. I went through the suitcase that Edward had packed for us. Not much in the way of clothing but there were two swimsuits for me. I still hadn't worked up the courage to go with a bikini yet and that thought saddened me.
When I arrived back up top, Edward had eggs and bacon waiting. I hadn't realized that I had taken that much time mopping downstairs. I really did need to snap out of this or else I would ruin everything great this place had to offer.
Through breakfast, I managed to talk myself into enjoying this mini vacay. Edward could notice the change in my attitude and he seemed happier as well. After we were finished, Edward drove the boat toward this deserted beach. He lowered the anchor and it looked like we would be taking a skidoo to the beach. Thank god. I had heard that Hawaii had shark infested waters and I wanted to limit my time in the open water.
Once we arrived on the beach the previous night's events were forgotten and I focused on my precious time with Edward. He apparently knew the area fairly well and knew this area had some sea life for us to see while snorkeling. We spent the afternoon snorkeling and monkeying about.
The warm water and sand beneath my feet, this was how I always pictured Hawaii to be. Edward came up behind me and wrapped his arms around me as I looked out over the clear blue water towards Edward's boat.
"Whatcha thinking about beautiful girl?" he asked softly.
I smiled. "You."
I turned around and pulled myself up to meet his lips. I could feel Edward reach down and pull me up to wrap my legs around his waist. Our tongues were battling it out for dominance and I felt what this was doing to Edward as he began to become hard between my legs. The water held my weight perfectly and Edward took advantage of that. He moved his hand between my legs and started to rub my clit. I moaned out in pleasure and was unable to stop myself from looking around to see if we were truly alone.
"It's okay baby, I promise we're alone. Be as loud as you like, my love."
I unwrapped my legs and stood back from him. I slowly peeled off my bathing suit and my breast lay just atop the water. Edward attacked them on sight, latching onto one of my nipples. I could feel him bend down and do away with his swim attire as well. He brought his fingers to my pussy and started to push a finger inside. I moaned out in appreciation.
"Does that hurt, baby?" he asked quickly.
"No. No. Please keep going. I…I'm so close." I pulled him to me and wrapped my legs around him once more. "Please. Please." I chanted as I could feel his bulge fighting to dive in. Edward took his hand to control his shaft.
"Think about all the dirty things I want to do you. Think of your beautiful pussy being soaked in my cum." Edward was trying to distract me from what he was about to do and it was working. All the moments that Edward had ever put his cock in me flashed through my mind. Slowly he slipped himself inside. I started to pinch my nipples focusing on how erotic it was when I would look down and see Edward sucking and biting on them. He took my cue and continued on with my vision placing his mouth on one once again. He wasn't thrusting in me he just let his cock rest inside allowing for my mind to grasp how full and pleasurable it felt for him to be in me.
Ever so slightly I raised up from him testing and then brought myself back on him squeezing my legs around his waist trying to bury him further.
"Okay, I think I am ready." I gave him the go ahead to start pumping in and out but he wouldn't comply.
"No, baby. I just want you to mentally get used to the idea of me being inside you. I don't need to cum." He pulled me in for a hard kiss. Well that's all well and good but I needed to cum. It had been so long.
"But…I…need to cum." I pouted.
"And you will. Before the day is out." He laughed quietly.
Uh…excuse me? Before the day is out?
"Honey, just think about how amazing this all feels. Look around you. I am making love to my fiancé in Hawaii. We don't need to rush this. Let's just take our time." Edward gently lowered his lips to my neck and laid soft kisses there. His hands placed on my naked behind squeezed my butt cheeks as he pulled me tighter to his body. Slowly he pulled out of me and placed me back down on my feet.
"Let's get back to the boat." He suggested.
I looked around for my suit, the sooner we could get back to the boat the better. Edward playfully tossed it to me and it landed on my face. I scowled as I started to pull it back on.
"Ah come on. It was funny." He taunted.
I splashed him as hard as I could.
"Isabella Swan! Splashing salt water at someone's eyes." He scolded.
"Yeah and I'll do it again." I threatened. I pushed off and started to swim toward the skidoo. "Last one to the boat is a Razzie winner." I screamed.
We raced back to the skidoo and I won by an inch. Once we were back aboard the ship, I told Edward I wanted a moment to shower. Edward said he would start on an early supper to be ready when I was done. I think I was impressed the most with the amount of food Edward could cook on that little ship.
The weather turned cold so unfortunately we had to head back downstairs to eat our food. There was this beautiful living area with comfy couches and a television as well. Of course I had other ideas in mind and as soon as the last bite was had, I promptly jumped back on Edward attacking him.
All the time apart from one another, well physically anyways caused this reaction in both of us to reestablish the bond we once had. I now understood what Edward was trying to tell me back in Los Angeles when I was so upset with him. It wouldn't have been satisfying to try to reestablish our connection with just some quickie fuck; we deserved to really cherish one another.
Edward slowly started to peel my robe from off of me but then paused.
"Wait here." He whispered. He rose up to his feet and left the room. Within seconds he came back with a big fluffy blanket and laid it upon the floor. I watched him as he slowly undressed himself right in front of me, his eyes never leaving my face.
"Lay down on the blanket." He softly commanded.
I practically scrambled to place myself on top of the blanket like he requested. I pulled off my robe and tossed it aside.
"Lay on your stomach, sweetheart."
Confused I slowly turned over onto my stomach. I could feel the floor slightly vibrate as Edward kneeled down beside me.
"I want you to keep your eyes closed but please feel free to be as vocal as you wish."
I never heard Edward's voice sound so smooth. Not sure with what he was planning to do I could tell my body was tense from the anticipation. Edward placed his hands on my back and started to give me a massage. At first I have to admit I was a tad bit disappointed since I really wanted to see if we could try love-making again but that disappointment quickly turned into sheer adoration as his wondrous hands worked themselves all over my body. I almost felt like I could go to sleep but there was this loud moaning that kept me awake. Oh yeah, that would be me.
I could feel Edward's hands as they paused on my butt. He gently glided his hands over them and then I could feel him bring his lips down to backside and leave a delicate kiss upon it. I felt like Edward could actually picture what my backside must have looked like after he whipped me that day. I let him have a moment not wanting to disrupt his need for this. After a time I felt him move on to another part of my body.
Eventually, I could feel Edward prompt me to turn over on to my back.
"Keep your eyes closed." Edward softly reminded me.
Edward didn't massage my front, instead he worshiped it. A tender kiss was placed on my nipple which instantly began to harden. He spread my legs apart further and I felt his legs cross over mine to place himself in between my legs. He started to massage my inner thighs and then I felt a soft breath. I started to wiggle.
I opened my eyes and looked down upon Edward.
"Keep them closed or I will stop." He commanded.
"Ugh!" I flopped back down and shut my eyes once more.
A finger lightly slide up and down my slit almost tickling me. Edward blew on what I was sure was a very wet and slick opening. He kissed my little pleasure mound and finally began to suck on it. I moaned out and couldn't help but push myself on him as I sought out some friction. Edward held my legs down and I whined with dismay.
Once he knew that I understood that I needed to stay put, his hand left my thigh and I felt a finger start to play with the juices that flowed freely from my pussy. He spread them all around before slowly inserting one of his fingers into me and began to pump in and out slowly while still maintaining his brilliant attention to my clit.
"Yes. Right there. Yes." I cried out as I could feel my body so close. Edward abandoned my mound for a moment to lick up and down my slit and push his tongue inside me.
"So close."
And then he stopped everything. It took a moment for me to realize what he had done. I popped my eyes open.
"Why did you stop?" I practically yelled.
Edward couldn't help a laugh bubble up.
"Close your eyes." He whispered. I sat there up on my elbows still staring at him in disbelief.
"Bella, I'm not going to continue until you close your eyes."
I huffed and laid back down. He better not pull that shit again.
I felt Edward come up alongside of me. His hand guided my face to his lips and his tongue pushed inside of my mouth. He brought his hand down to my breast and started to massage it; pinching the nipple every couple of seconds. Our lips never left one another when he took his hand and once again started to fiddle with my wet little hole.
He moved on top of me and I opened my legs to welcome him. I could feel his long hard shaft pushing on my sweet spot. Finally. I reached a hand down between us to guide him in but Edward felt what I was trying to do so he grasped my hand and secured it over my head to the ground.
"Please." I cried.
His cock was pushing on my clit and I was becoming desperate for any kind of release. I kept feeling my body build up and coil in my stomach tighten. Edward surprised me when he finally pushed his shaft inside me and moaned so loudly I wouldn't have been surprised if the coast guard had heard.
Edward started off slowly pushing in and out of me. I raised my hips up to meet his thrusts.
"Open your eyes, beautiful." He whispered.
"Yes, Edward." I practically praised. He quickened his pace and our eyes never left one another. He could see how close I was and just as I was cuming I screamed out and I felt Edward pinch my nipple prolonging the glorious feeling. I felt like my heart was about to burst; it wouldn't slow down. I was panting and Edward pushed into me hard one more time before groaning out and filling me full.
"Oh my god. Oh my god." I couldn't stop chanting. I felt his pull out and fall beside me.
"Yeah. Oh my god is right." He concurred.
I smiled and couldn't help the tear or two that slid down my cheek. Edward pulled me to him.
"I told you. I knew we could do this. We were made for each other." He said softly.
"I guess you're right. But just to be on the safe side maybe we should try that one more time."
"One more time? Isabella, by the time I'm done with you; you'll be walking funny for a week."
I laughed. "Well all right then. You better get started."
And that was how we spent the rest of our time in Hawaii. I went in the water once. Had one Hawaiian dinner. Never stepped foot in the city, jungle or even a souvenir shop. When we left the boat sure enough, I was walking funny but oh was it worth it.
Our plane took off and I sighed looking out over the island as it got further and further away.
"Don't worry baby, we can come back sometime. I promise to take you to every tourist trap there is next time." Edward jested.
"I know. Maybe for our honeymoon." I laughed.
"Speaking of honeymoon. I really want to get married soon. I don't want to wait any longer. Just the idea of you being Isabella Cullen drives me insane. I have been thinking…how about Christmas?"
"Christmas? Wow that's really soon. I have a lot on my plate right now. How can I even begin to plan a wedding?" I asked.
"Well, honey we can hire people to do all the hard work. You just tell them what you want and they will make it happen."
"I just remember the last time we had a big party and no offense, you were kind of a nightmare." I cringed.
"This time you can be the nightmare." He laughed.
"I will be a nightmare if I have to shoot a music video, launch an album. Two albums. Yes, I would be a nightmare. Besides, Savannah's birthday is on Christmas. I want to celebrate that with her, this will be the first time I have ever been there for it."
"Okay well then how about January?" he asked.
"How about June? A nice summer wedding?"
"February. Final offer."
"If I say no to February, you'll call the whole thing off?" I challenged.
"No. But then I will plan the whole thing and we all know what kind of a nightmare I was before and no offense but my marriage to you is to be far more celebrated meaning I'll probably spend ten times what I spent on your birthday. There will be just that many more people. Hmm…maybe I could rent the Vatican for the wedding and then for the reception I could rent an island."
"Edward, we're not even Catholic." I stated.
He looked at me with face that said he was not planning on backing down.
"Fine. February but I swear if you start to go over the top, I will meet you in a cheesy little chapel in Vegas where your only option is to be married by Elvis."
"I love you." Edward leaned over and sealed our deal with a kiss.
I was in the middle of kissing Edward when something popped into my mind. I pulled back with a gasp.
"What is it?" Edward asked worried.
"Your election. Crap. Tuesday was your election." I exclaimed.
"Well, it really wasn't my election." Edward clarified.
"But, I know how much it meant to you. Did you even find out if you won?"
"Bella, I didn't win anything." He smiled.
"It's just that…I know how important this was for you. I'm sorry."
"You have nothing to apologize for. You mean more to me then the presidential election. If my guy lost then we have four years and then we can try again."
"Did your guy lose?" I asked knowing that somehow Edward would have found out by now.
"Oh hell no, he totally rocked it." Edward replied smug. "Sorry your guy lost."
"I never said who I voted for, Edward. It doesn't matter to me who wins or loses; I will support the President no matter who I voted for because that is the right thing to do."
"Well it's nice to know you have finally come over to my side." Edward replied superior.
"Ugh! You're incorrigible!"
Just for the record, Edward never did find out who I voted for and I think that always drove him a little crazy. That alone made the secret worth keeping.
I spent the rest of the flight catching up on my work for the Erase Me video. I seriously needed to see what my casting directors came up with in my absence. Crap! I forgot to call my mom and tell her I went on vacation. I can just imagine the headline she had to go off of this time. Edward Cullen and Isabella Swan Elope. She'll have a fit.
Married by February! AHHHH! How am I ever going to pull all of this off? I guess I would just have to back down on any other projects that get thrown my way until March.
We arrived home around dinner time and it did feel good to be back until I walked in on a house guest sitting on our couch eating a bag of Doritos. Don't get me wrong at first I was ecstatic until I heard the reason for which he was here for.
"Embry?" I questioned. I turned the corner and stopped in my tracks the moment my eyes met his form.
"What are you doing here?" I ran over and gave him a hug. "Where are the girls?" I asked even before he could answer my previous question.
"Hey, B. They're upstairs. Surprise." He gave me a toothy grin. I started to turn from him and seek out Savannah and Gracie but he caught my arm.
"Wait, I need to talk to you." He stopped me. I turned back to him apprehensive and afraid his visit was for negative reasons.
"So…I did something kinda stupid." He started off nervous. I nodded my head for him to continue and we both took a seat on the couch.
"The producers from the American Music Awards contacted me and I told them that we would perform Trade Places at their award show at the end of the month." He slightly cringed waiting for the blow.
I sat there staring at him, "You are stupid."
"I said I did a stupid thing…not that I was stupid." He tried to clarify.
"No. No. Trust me on my assessment." I paused trying to take a breath. "Are you…out of your damn mind? Embry, I don't have time. I committed to directing a music video before Thanksgiving. I committed myself to do press and crap for WMG for the albums they just agreed to distribute. I can't add on one more thing. Oh and Edward wants to get married by February. There is like no time left. Why would you commit me to something before asking me?"
"I already talked to the people over at WMG and they think it's a great idea, it will give you great exposure. Plus I showed up here now so you would have more than enough time to plan out the performance. It doesn't need to be anything fancy; I'm sure you will come up with something great. You're practically a genius."
"Don't try to win me over with flattery, mister." I shook my finger at him. "You want me to arrange the performance?"
"I thought you would be the best for the job. You did help write the song, who better?"
I picked up the pillow from off the couch and proceeded to scream out my frustrations into it. Embry gently patted me on the head. I snapped my neck up to meet his eyes.
"If you are really putting me in charge of this, we will do it my way. I don't want to hear complaints or bitching of any kind. I mean it Embry. Also you will work on my schedule. I have a very busy couple of weeks and if I feel that you are not pulling your weight, I am out and you can explain to WMG and the American Music Awards what went wrong. Understood?"
"Uh…yeah…got it."
"Now if you wouldn't mind, I would like to go up and see the girls since I will practically be abandoning them until Thanksgiving, thank you very much." I huffed.
"Well if it wasn't for me you wouldn't even see them until Thanksgiving." Embry shouted after me.
"UGH!" I growled back.
I had been so focused on going over the list of upcoming projects in my head that something finally occurred to me. I was going to be performing in front of millions of people with E.C. Crime. Millions of people were going to see me on stage. Millions of people were going to listen to me sing live. MILLIONS OF PEOPLE!
"Bella? You kind of pale. Are you okay?" Jacob was standing in front of me where I had paused for my reflection. My eyes slowly met his.
"Bella." He repeated louder.
And then there was nothing.
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