A/N: Thank you SO much everyone who has read and reviewed and following this story! I love writing it and it means so much that people are actually enjoying reading it 3 This chapter is a little fast paced, I have written it a few times, but it never seems to be good enough, so I'm sorry, but please enjoy!

Some Hearts

Carrie Underwood

Without Sirius my world grew blurred and fast, I told Amos that I could not date him. I realized that I have problems though, I think that maybe I fear being truly close with someone. I think a part of me wanted Sirius to run away and I never told Lily the truth.

"Haley," Lily began as she say next to me on my bed, "you aren't you. I know you don't want me to notice this, but I can tell that you are fading and Sirius is…not happy. I know that you have liked him for a long time, but what happened?"

I always tried to never cry in front of people, but at Lily's words I lost all self control and began to cry. I leaned into her and cried, she never found out what happened, but I will never forget that she didn't run away.

It was after potions the next day that Lily nudged me toward him, "Sirius," I began timidly, I wanted to have confidence but I couldn't bring it out of me.

"Go away, Haley." He snapped and walked away at a fast pace.

My real name upon his lips sent a knife through my heart, rather than breaking down I ran after him, "No, I will not let this be one of those STUPID movies where you ignore me!" I used all my force to throw him into a wall and I shockingly succeeded, "You can say whatever you want, but you know what you are bloody stupid! You need to listen to your friend rather than some random girl!" I realized how weak I was becoming when I felt the wet tear stream down my face, "I am in love with you and I always have been, I'll leave you alone, but there is no way in bloody hell that I will ever stop loving you or ever hurt you!" with my little dignity left I spun on my heels and walked away through the crowd of people that happened to be watching.

"You are so selfish!" He called after me, "You don't believe in love and you will never love me!" I wanted to yell at him but I kept walked trying to hide the tears.

After our fight, our first fight and last he began to date more and more. That time where he had stopped dating was over and each relationship was shorter and shorter where it didn't even count, but each one broke my heart more and more. Lily would talk to me sometimes, she was worried that all I did was school work. I had stopped crying and I knew I had become almost grey.

It was after graduation, that is when I received the confidence that I had never had before, "I am bloody in love with you, you are!" I spun on my heels and ran away, I heard him call after me, but I just kept running. I knew that his rejection would push me off the edge.

Lily and I luckily stayed in touch, I became a healer at St. Mungo's and Lily joined the Order of the Phoenix with James and Sirius. The Dark Lord was becoming more and more powerful, but we tried to keep our spirits high, James and Lily even got married.

I must say that as I was becoming an adult in the world I realized how wrong I had been all my life. Love is real, but it's not the love that I dreamt about as a little girl. Love doesn't do the work for us, we have to do all the work. Love just enjoys showing a glimpse of itself and then sit back and watch up burn from the inside out. It was a simple year after graduation, it may have felt longer, but only a year had floated by.

"Remus, Remus!" I yelled running into his house one spring day I had mastered the fake happiness that I no longer noticed it.

"What?" He asked with mock excitement, making fun of me. We were in his kitchen and I was so excited that I didn't notice Sirius sitting at the kitchen table.

"I have created a potion that gives you control of your furry little problem!" I screamed using James name for the werewolf problem and I threw my arms around his neck.

"W-what?" Remus asked stunned.

"It will still hurt, which I am truly sorry about, but I swear I am working on it as best as I can. Hopefully soon it wont be painful with the transformation or you will be cured!"

Tears were in the corner of Remus's eyes, "You did what?" he was still in shock so I nodded waiting for a reaction. He grabbed me into a huge hug, "I love you, Hayley-bear!"

Once we had calmed down we were drinking tea at his kitchen table, it was a little awkward between Sirius and I, but for Remus' sake we didn't say anything to each other, though we kept stealing glances at each other and I realized that no matter how much I had thrown myself into my work, I was still in love with him. Remus was amazed that I had discovered something to help him and we spent hours discussing it. Through the entire discussion all I could think of was that maybe, just maybe Sirius could…love me…?