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Chapter 9

Bella's POV

These past two months were possibly the most exciting months I've had in all of my existence. And let me tell you, I've already existed for a pretty long time now...

I was at home today, lying across the couch, waiting for Alice and Rose to pick Lisa and me up. We were going to Seattle to find dresses for the big dance next week.

Sabine, lately, was in no mood for anything. She didn't talk to Edward, heck, as far as I know, she's been staying in the guest room to avoid him all in all. She's full of pride and she wants Edward to make the move to apologize.

She wasn't coming with us today because Alice and Rose doesn't like her and now that she has me as her 'favourite' sister, she suddenly had the guts to let them know that she doesn't like them too.

I sighed as I sprawled widely across the couch. A huge grin plastered on my face as I remembered one of the many sneaking around Edward and I did these past two months...

FLASHBACK

"Jane?" Edward called as he approached me. I was lying on the grass in their backyard, arms crossed behind my head during one of the many times we were over at their place.

"Mmmm?" I was staring as the clouds pass by.

He sat down beside me and looked down to my face. I turned my head and looked at him as well and smiled.

"Jasper knows," he simply said.

"He... knows?" I whispered the last word, shocked. Why would he tell Jasper? Why not Alice or Emmet?

"Yes, for quite a while now. It was really hard for me to keep my emotions in control whenever I see Philip with you," he told me, smirking at the last part.

Philip had only visited me twice in one month since he was travelling to Europe now to 'learn the ways' of a 'special' cult. I didn't want him to go because I still loved him of course, but now I know, in a brotherly way. He assured me though that the cult was not evil or anything and he really seemed like he wanted to go; so I let him.

I rolled my eyes at him and sat up. "Yeah, and it's really easy for me seeing Sabine all the time."

He shook his head and leaned closer, but I leaned away automatically. "What are you doing? Your family will see us!" It was really exciting, this thing we had going. We had to be sneaky and all that if we wanted to kiss and get... affectionate with each other.

"Janey, love," I rolled my eyes at him when he used the sisterly nickname, "I've got it covered," he said, winking. "Jasper's helping me." He was suddenly shaking with his laughing.

I narrowed my eyes at him, he was obviously planning something. "Edward, what are you up too---" I nearly screamed as he stood up, suddenly pulling me off the ground, with too much force if I might add, with him.

He started running and dragging me to the forest behind. Then I suddenly heard screams coming from their house.

"EMMET! JASPER!! PUT THE WATER GUNS DOWN NOOOOW!!" I heard Rosalie screech. I laughed as I ran with Edward more willingly. Now I understood, he had Jasper get Emmet to do something with him that would get everyone distracted (and annoyed).

"MY HAAAAIIIIRRRR!" I heard Sabine scream. Wow, so I guess, everyone really is distracted.

"What if they look for us?" I asked Edward.

"I already told Jasper that if any of them asks, you went for a run while I went for a hunt," he said, smiling crookedly at me.

"Very well planned, I see," I said, using an English accent.

"Why thank you my lady," he said in the same accent and we both ended up laughing.

We've stopped running and we were fairly far away from the house now. I turned to face Edward and he was staring at me with too much intensity. He suddenly grabbed my waist and pushed me against a tree. It took me by surprise but then composed myself and played along.

I wound my arms around his neck and jumped up so my legs were around his waist; then the kissing begun.

He crashed his lips onto mine and our lips moved perfectly with each other. I brushed my tongue against his lower lip and he opened his mouth completely for me. Our tongues massaged and danced with each other as my fingers twirled around in his hair. His hands moved from my waist to my thighs as to support my position.

We kissed like that, for who knows how long, then we both pulled away, panting and breathing heavily. I let my legs drop to the ground so I was standing again. He rested his forehead against mine while we were still panting, staring at each other.

"I love you," I told him.

"I love you too," he said, pecking my lips.

"We better get back before they get suspicious," Edward said, leading me back in the direction of his house.

"I go in first since I only went for a run, you follow after 5 minutes," I told him and we sped back to the house.

END FLASHBACK

I sighed happily and shifted to my side, only to see Lisa and my 2 best friends leaning against the doorway of our living room with amused smiles on their faces.

"What?" I demanded.

"Don't you 'what' us, Janey," Alice said, approaching me and sitting beside me on the couch.

"What were you thinking about just now, sis?" Lisa asked grinning while Rose wiggled her eyebrows.

I rolled my eyes at them. "I was thinking how Philip's going to react when he sees me in the piece of cloth you call a dress during the dance," I lied.

"OH!!! That's right! I'm so excited! His eyes will bulge out of its sockets when he sees you!!" Alice gushed and she started pulling me off the couch.

"Well, you know how much I hate shopping but for this, I'm actually excited!" I said, getting up with Alice and walking out the door.

I was really excited about the dance that I wasn't really paying attention to the shopping trip. I just let Lisa drag me along to whichever shop Alice then drags them to. I was busy thinking about how Edward's going to look gorgeous in his tux or whatever he chooses to wear.

Eventually, I ran out of imagination and stirred back to reality. We were in this expensive looking boutique, I didn't notice the name of the shop but the clothes had French tags on them.

"Okay, I think I've got a couple of pieces that will be perfect for you girls, let's go," Alice squealed as we went to the dressing rooms to try the dresses she's picked out for us.

"Does everyone have their dresses on?" Rosalie asked from one of the stalls.

"Yes." We said in unison.

We stepped out of the dressing rooms to look at each other's dresses and gasped.

Rose had a red dress on that looked absolutely stunning on her. It hurt my eyes to look at her, for goodness sake! I swear, that girl is too beautiful for her own good. Her dress was being held by spaghetti straps and it showed some skin in the middle of her chest. The cloth clung to her bust in a rounded form and ended in a point just above her belly button. The length of the dress was longer on the back than at the front and it flowed around her body gracefully as she moved. (PIC ON PROFILE)

Alice had a black dress that reached her ankles and it had soft shredded ruffles on the hem. The dress was held by two thin black straps and the neckline came out in a soft sweetheart like shape. It had glitters all over and she looked absolutely breathtaking. It looked like it was made just for her. (PIC ON PROFILE)

Lisa was glowing in her bright yellow floor length dress. The neckline cut in between her chest and ended just below the bust line. It had gems that formed a line under her bust and it was simply magnificent. The back of the dress was open with only two yellow straps forming a cross on her back. (PIC ON PROFILE)

My dress was not too bad either. Thank God Alice didn't force something that only covered my boobs until the middle of the thigh.... yes, thankfully that wasn't the case. My dress was a midnight blue halter piece. The dress emphasized the chest area and in had a diamond in the middle holding the two thin straps in place. It was simple but beautiful. I have to admit... I look damn good (PIC ON PROFILE).

"Omigadomigadomigad! We look absolutely stunning!!!!!" Alice squealed rushing and pulling us all into a big hug.

We all giggled with her as we hugged each other.

"I've got to say Alice, you have yet to fail!" Rose exclaimed.

"Ha! That's never going happen!!" She squealed back and we went back to the rooms to change into our casual clothes again.

We paid for the dresses and headed back home. Apparently, while I was zoned out earlier, Alice had already bought us shoes. How she did that without even having bought the dresses yet, I'll never know.

They dropped Lisa and I at home and went home themselves. Now that I'm sure I look drop dead gorgeous in the dress I've got, I can't wait till the dance and until Edward sees me.

xXx

It was a day before the big dance and we were over at the Cullens. Alice and Rose wanted to help us get ready and they wanted us over today so we wouldn't waste time tomorrow. Carlisle and Esme were over at our place with Kate and Justin. My parents and the Cullen parents were the 'parental' supervision at our dance.

"Lisa! Really, I am so grateful you are my sister. I think I would've gone insane if I've been living with these two all this time!" I told Lisa, pointing to Alice and Rose while we were painting our nails.

"Oh don't be so dramatic Jane! You'll get used to it!" Rose teased me, winking.

"Yeah, maybe I will get used to it, in about a century!" We all burst out laughing.

After we painted our nails and let them dry, I decided to go downstairs and find Edward.

I skipped on my toes down the stairs, not making a sound; I wanted to surprise him. When I reached the bottom step, I heard a noise. Like someone's being pushed against a wall.

I made my way over to the noise on my tiptoes as to be sneaky. When I rounded the corner of their living room, there I saw, a sight I wish I never saw.

Right there in the hallway is Edward against the wall with Sabine pressed against him and they were making out! Sabine had her arms around his neck and Edward had one hand on her shoulder and his other hand on her thigh.

I gasped out loud, then quickly covered my mouth. Sabine and Edward stopped abruptly and turned to look at me.

"Jane," Edward whispered.

I took my eyes away from him, forcing the tears not to fall. Not here and not right now at least. I turned my head slightly to look at Sabine.

"Well, don't let my presence stop you sister," I told her winking; forcing myself to be calm.

"I'll be... outside...hunting. Enjoy my sister's company, brother," I told Edward, my face blank.

He was about to say something but I whirled around and bolted out the door running as fast as I can around the woods.

Edward's POV

Okay, today is the day. I've decided that I'm going to break up with Sabine today. The girls were upstairs, putting on nail polish. I knew Sabine wasn't with them because my sisters dislike her and she dislikes them as well.

I looked around the house and saw her sitting in the single seat sofa. I walked closer and leaned against the wall in the hallway. How am I going to put this gently to her?

"Sabine," I called her attention. She turned around in the seat to look at me.

Just say it straight out Edward. You can do this, I told myself. "Sabine, I'm sorry, but---"she cut me off by appearing in front me, holding my shoulders.

"Edward! Oh I knew you couldn't stay mad at me forever! I was waiting for your apology and I accept! I knew you loved me! I love you too!" She said all this without skipping a beat then she suddenly pushed and shoved me against the wall.

"What are you---" I was about to ask her when her lips declared war against mine; crashing into them with too much force. The kiss was rough and I was not responding to it. She put her right leg up trapping me. I placed my right hand on her shoulder and my other hand on her thigh, trying to push her off of me gently.

I was getting really, really uncomfortable now, she was resisting too much, every time I push her away, she pushes herself more to me. It was suffocating!

Then I heard a gasp and she stopped attacking me. I was free. We turned our heads to the sound and who I saw made me want to break down and cry.

It was Jane. Of all the people to see this, it just had to be Jane. She had one hand over her mouth but I didn't need to see the rest of her face to know what she was feeling.

Hurt and betrayal was clear in her eyes as she took in our position.

"Jane..." I whispered. I wanted to explain to her that it wasn't what it seemed but she tore her gaze away from me and turned to Sabine.

"Well, don't let my presence stop you sister," she told her winking. It was clear that this was hurting her and it was all my fault.

"I'll be... outside...hunting. Enjoy my sister's company, brother," she told me in a dead voice. When she called me brother, I felt like she just hammered a hole in my chest. Not that I didn't deserve it. I should've shoved Sabine off of me right away!! Screw being gentle!!

I was about to say something but she whirled around and bolted out the door running.

I am such an idiot!!

Sabine turned back to me with a smile on her face. "Well, you heard her, she told you to enjoy my company," she said beaming.

I felt the anger boiling inside of me as I pushed her away from me, no longer restraining the amount of force I was using.

She doubled over and actually fell to the floor. I was fuming and I could tell my eyes were starting to get black because she started backing away on the floor.

I grabbed her wrist and pulled her up. I dragged her to the backyard and started running into the woods. I would only go as far enough as so my family couldn't hear us.

Sabine was behind me and I stopped abruptly, causing her to run into me and fall backwards.

I turned to face her as she was just getting up.

"What the hell was that for Sabine?!!?!" I yelled in her face. I was not in the mood to be a gentleman at the moment and as of right now, she was really pushing me to the limit of my patience.

"What?! I don't understand!!"

"THAT! Back there! Why did you attack me?!" I said, still yelling, pointing to the house.

She looked completely confused and I was really losing my patience with this woman.

"Sabine, I DIDN'T come to apologize for giving you the cold shoulder! You deserved it!! You're always complaining about shallow things no one ever cares about! You get jealous with everybody! You even got jealous of Alice and Rose at first! I mean, what is wrong with you?! They have been my sisters for about two centuries already!!! Sisters, Sabine, SISTERS!!! And honestly! You already know they don't like you! Why push your luck by challenging them?! It's a death wish; don't you know that by now?! Don't you think it would easier for everybody if you'd just try to get on their better sides?!" I was already ranting and yelling so loud but I was not getting to the point I wanted at the moment. I took a deep breath and pinched the bridge of my nose.

I looked back to her and she just stood there with wide eyes and her mouth hanging open from the shock of everything I said. I decide to take advantage of the situation.

"Sabine, I want to end this with us, right now," I stated simply. That shook her out from being frozen.

"Wha-what?! Why?!"

"For obvious reasons I just mentioned earlier. Let's face it Sabine. The reason I've never agreed to mate with you is because it doesn't feel right. I'm sorry to be saying this to you right in your face but I don't think I've ever loved you Sabine." I told her, calmly.

She was taking a few steps back, obviously taken back by what I was saying. She didn't say anything so I continued.

"Sabine I know you don't truly love me as well because if you did, you wouldn't always force yourself on me. My siblings don't like you and you don't like them back. What are we doing? It's pointless and we're just pissing everybody off." I let out a huge breath and decided to wrap this up.

"I know you're not truly disturbed by this since we have no bond. We never mated. Tomorrow, after the dance, you can pack your things and head on back to your old coven."

She just stared at me and I stared back at her, waiting for her to say something. After a few minutes she did.

"You know what Edward, I'm not exactly thrilled by this, but I agree. I haven't been getting anything from you and I despise your siblings," I let out a low growl, "I thought I could soften you up into giving yourself to me but I was wrong." She paused for a moment then continued.

"Since it is... over, I have nothing to lose so I'll admit. I only did ever like you because you're gorgeous. Probably the most gorgeous man on this planet and you have an incredible body to die for," I cringed at the lust that was leaking in her voice. She was speaking her mind, literally. Her thoughts were spoken at the same time as she thinks them. She was even shallower than I thought.

"I was just putting up with all of these," she said waving her hand around the direction of the house, "so I could get to you. Now I realize it's not worth it. The break up is mutual Edward. If anyone asks, tell them I broke up with you."

She started walking back to the house. "I'll leave tomorrow since I still want to go to the dance and I want to say goodbye properly to Jane." I froze, but she had her back to me so she didn't see.

"She was the only person I could put up with and I truly think of her as a sister. Goodbye Edward, in advance. I'll leave right after the dance.

Bella's POV

I can't believe this! I am so stupid!!!! I fell into his trap again!! He doesn't love me! He never did at all! I was just some game to make things interesting for him! Just the same as when I was human! How could I let this happen to myself! Stupid stupid stupid!!! I started banging my head against a tree. After about hitting it five times, I turned and slid down the tree against my back.

I haven't noticed that I was already crying very violently. I put my legs up so I was hugging them.

All those words he said to me. All the kisses and embraces he gave me. They meant nothing to him. Why? Why me?! Even in vampire form and even when he can't recognize me, it's still me he chooses to fool around with! I am so screwed up!

I lay myself on the ground, still hugging my knees. I suddenly remembered my dim human memories. This was exactly how I looked like when Edward left me in the woods all those years ago.

I am so pathetic. Do I not deserve love? I thought Edward loved me when I was human; but then it turned out that he didn't. When I got Philip, I thought I was happy, but then I really did realize that I just loved him as a brother. Now Edward and I are back, I thought he loved me for real now! But he still didn't! He was playing me!

Tears kept streaming down my cheeks and I could feel the soil dampen from the tears. I pulled myself up to sit again, wiping the dirt, sticks and soil on my face, hair and clothes. I couldn't go back there. I couldn't face Edward, not after what I just saw.

I patted my jean pockets; ah! Thank God, I have my phone with me. Philip was supposed to arrive in a couple of hours. Maybe I can wait for him somewhere and we could both head back to the Cullen's together.

I sighed. He truly is my safe zone.

I wiped my tears and cleared my throat. I didn't need Philip getting all worried when he hears me.

I dialled his number and it started ringing.

"Hello?" He answered on the second ring.

"Hey Philip," I greeted him in the best cheery voice I could manage.

"Hey Honey, you know I'm not really supposed to use my phone while in the air..." he told me, trailing off.

"I know, I know, I just miss you so much! You haven't been able to see me that often. When is your plane landing?" I felt comfortable talking to him. He really is like a brother, no awkwardness.

"I miss you too babe. My flight lands in an hour," he informed me.

"Oh good! Listen, can you meet me in my house first? I was over at the Cullen's but I came back home to get something I forgot. When you get here, we can go over to the Cullen's together," I told him, making my voice as calm as I can get.

"Okay, not a problem. I'll see you about an hour an a half. Bye, love you."

"Love you too." We both hung up then.

I decided to really hunt so I could kill time.

I was feeling pretty pissed off so I took off to find myself a mountain lion. I ran almost half way to Canada and spotted my prey. How ironic, my prey was also hunting.

I snuck behind him and pounced. I wrestled with him for a couple of minutes, feeling the adrenaline and exhilaration of the fight. But after a few moments, I got tired and decided to just get it over with.

Since this was a lion and not a deer or buck, I felt extra full. I shoved away the drained carcass away from me and headed back to my house.

I got there in twenty minutes. I checked the time and saw that Philip would arrive here in about forty minutes.

"Hello? Kate? Justin? Carlisle? Esme?" I called into the house. No one answered. They must be out. I checked the garage and yup! Only my car was left.

I went upstairs and took a shower, washing off the blood and dirt from my crying and hunting session. I changed into a clean shirt and jeans and looked around the room.

I told Philip I forgot something here and I'm sure my sister, Alice and Rose will bombard me with questions as to why I was gone for a long time.

Then, I saw it. It was perfect and I really did need this for the dance tomorrow. It was my genuine diamond studs my mother gave me when I was sixteen. It was simple, it matched my dress and it was sentimental. It was enough for me to go all the way here to retrieve them.

I shoved the case in my pocket and went to look at myself in the mirror. I looked horrendous! My eyes were still puffy and red. I needed this to clear away before Philip got here.

I went downstairs and took a couple of ice cubes. I lied down on the couch and placed them on my closed eyelids. I didn't feel the coldness though. It was practically the same temperature as I was.

After a while I felt the cubes melting and I scooped them in my hands before they could wet my shirt. I checked my eyes again in the mirror in the hallway and saw that they returned to looking normal. My eyes themselves looked better too since I've just hunted.

I thought about what happened for a while and decided to back upstairs to my room. I couldn't handle seeing Edward again, not after being fooled twice. And I don't think I can burden my family with the new depression I'm going to be in. And Philip... I can't keep on using him to comfort me. I don't think I'll ever forgive myself if I just let him pick tiny pieces of myself up and start putting them together again. That would take too long. And what about the rest of the Cullens? How much can they all truly care for me when they couldn't even remember me?!

I sighed very heavily. I know what to do. I have to leave. Leave this place. Leave them all behind. I'm too much of a burden for everyone. Maybe I'll come back to the Dewey's when I'm better. Maybe, maybe not.

I took out some paper. I decided to write them letters. I can't just leave without having anything to tell them...I owe them that much.

I started with my family.

I started tearing up again, but I wiped them quickly away. Philip will be here soon and I don't want him to be worried. When I was done, I folded the letter in half and wrote Dewey's on top. I placed the letter aside and stared writing another one.

As I finished, I folded it also and wrote down, Cullen's on top. I put that aside and started to write the last letter. Probably the most important letter I'll write ever.

I forced myself not to cry again and thankfully, succeeded. I folded it the same way and wrote My Only One on top and I shoved all three letters in my back pocket. I decided to tell Philip face to face tomorrow.

I ran a hand across my hair then I heard the doorbell. I rushed to the door and opened it.

"Philip!" I said in relief and wrapped my arms around his neck while he chuckled.

"Hey honey, I missed you so much!" He said pecking my cheek.

"I missed you too! Now let's go over to the Cullen's," I told him, hooking my arm around his and closing the door. I helped him put his bags in the trunk of my BMW and drove off to the Cullen's mansion.

When I got into their driveway, their front door flew open and Alice, Rose and Lisa came rushing out to my car.

"Where the hell have you been Jane Marie Dewey?!" Lisa yelled to me as I got out of the car.

"Oh hey, Philip," she said when she noticed Philip with me.

"Hey Lis," Philip greeted her back. She smiled then turned back to me with a frown.

"Well?" she prompted.

"Relax, Lisa. I just went to our house because I forgot something," I told her. Well, it wasn't exactly a lie.

"And what did you forget?" She asked crossing her arms and raising an eyebrow at me. I saw Alice and Rose exchange looks. They've never seen Lisa like this before; but she always gets all big-sister-mode on me when she gets worried.

I reached into my pocket and pulled out the case that held my earrings. "This," I said, opening it and showing it to the girls. "My mom gave it to me when I was still human. When I turned sixteen," I said softly, sadness leaking in my voice.

"Oh Janey, I'm sorry. You know how I get. You just disappeared and no one knew where you were. You didn't call and I couldn't reach you," Lisa said, hugging me.

I rubbed her back, "It's alright Lis."

I walked a fee steps inside the house and called, "Emmet, Jasper, can you come here and help me?" I specifically did not call Edward with them. I didn't want to see him. But of course, the gods hate me since he emerged beside Emmet and Jasper in the living room.

"I only need two extra guys, Em, Jazz, can you help Philip with the bags? He insists on carrying them all by himself, but I wouldn't let him," I told them, looking only at Emmet and Jasper.

"You know how she can get," Philip said, wrapping an arm around my waist and kissing my cheek.

I saw Edward scowl at Philip's arm around me.

I rolled my eyes and turned to my boyfriend. "Okay, get your bags and go to our room."

He let go of me and went to my car to get his numerous bags. Sometimes, I think he's the male version of Alice when it comes to clothes.

I followed the boys upstairs to the room Philip and I were staying, ignoring Edward's eyes, as I felt them boring onto my back.

I reached upstairs; Emmet and Jasper were just exiting our room. They ruffled my hair as they passed by me and went back downstairs.

I was going to miss all of this.

I sighed heavily. Tomorrow was going to be a long, long day.


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