I wouldn't get too happy about Raura in this story btw just saying.
Chapter 9
How Do I Get There From Here
Tell me where it is cuz I can't see it
Every bit of faith that I believed in
Every single smile has disappeared
Now it feels like someone hid the sun where I can't find it
There has to be a world with life this clear
But How do I get there from here (1)
Maia had been sat in the waiting room of the clinic for about an hour now and she still hadn't been seen to by anybody. And there were people who had been here longer than her waiting to get in to see the doctor. So how long would it be until she got in? She was also beginning to think if she was making the right decision doing this or not. Cause what if this got out to the world? It wouldn't only look bad on her but it would also look bad on Rocky, then they would be in the shit with everyone.
Maia shook her head as she placed her head in her hands. She wasn't making the right decision, she knows she's not. Maia quickly stood up, she went to go leave through the door but a nurse came out and called for Maia to go through. She sighed and turned around going to walk towards the nurse, but she was distracted when she heard heavy footsteps running from behind her in the corridor. She turned around where she saw Rocky come sliding through the doors. Her eyes widened.
She turned around to the nurse "Hold on a moment, I'll be there in a second, or just see to someone else.." Maia said before grabbing Rocky by the arm and taking him out of the waiting room and into the hallway where they were alone.
"Okay, Maia, what the fuck are you playing at?" Rocky asked "why didn't you tell me?"
"Because.. you flipped out the last time you thought I was pregnant and I kept on imagining all the horrible things you would do and say this time to me. I was scared.."
Rocky rolled his eyes at Maia. "Scared? Seriously! Couldn't you of just told me anyway instead of me finding out the way I did"
"How did you even find out?"
"Your doctor called up to tell you the appointment had been delayed," Rocky said making Maia sigh. "Look," Rocky said taking her by the hands and away from the door "I love you... you love me. Now, I'm begging you. Don't you dare walk through that door and get rid of that baby, it's a baby for crying out loud it deserves to have a life and live. C'mon, we'll talk about it and sort things out."
Maia looked at the door of the waiting room and back at Rocky "I'm sorry.." She said pulling away from him and going to the door.
"Maia.. please."
"I'm sorry!" She said before she disappeared through the doors.
Rocky sighed and looked down before turning around and leaving down the hallway. If only he'd of been a little earlier, or better yet of known. He should of known. Especially with all the weird illness she's been having.
Laura walked through the front door of her and Riker's apartment, once it was shut she leant against the door and sighed happily with a smile on her face. She knows it's a little bit dangerous to be re-dating Ross again after the last time, but that was then and this was now surely things will of hopefully changed in the way he handles things. The only problem they have really is telling the R5 fans and the others, which shouldn't seem like such a big deal.. but it is in their world.
She walked over to the kitchen to get a drink, she looked at the time and it said 7:30pm. Her eyes widened and she nearly spat out her drink. She never realised she'd been out this long, and she'd told Riker she'd be back at 4 after going out at about 11. 'Well done Laura, almost 12 hours out of the house, good job' She thought to herself sarcastically.
Laura hoped that she could sneak into the room her and Jenny have without being caught by Riker, but that wasn't going to work as, as she went into the room Riker came out from putting her back to bed. "Hey Laura, are you just getting in?" Riker asked.
Laura sighed "Um.. yeah."
Riker looked over to the time and back at Laura "Where have you been all day? I thought you were coming back at 4.?"
"I was, but.. I was out with Ross because I'd promised him we'd spend the day together once he was out of hospital and better.. and then we lost track of time." Laura explained. She wasn't lying, just lied about the friends part. She still doesn't know how Riker would take it if they were both together.
Riker smiled at Laura and gave her a quick pat on the shoulder "That's fine, you have your own life. I can't exactly tell you what to do," Riker said as Laura smiled back at him "Jenny's asleep." Riker said walking over to the couch.
"Okay thanks.." Laura said smiling at him as she went into Jenny's room.
She had literally forgotten how sweet and kind Riker was. Although, she has been in Colorado for the past 2 years so she was bound to forget about stuff in LA. Wasn't she?
Like who she really loved.
A Few Weeks Later
Rocky was sat at home all by himself, seen as though he hasn't seen Maia since the abortion clinic and Titus has took Rydel out. So little old Rocky was sat home alone all alone, almost depressed and sad not even knowing what to do with his life anymore but try to get R5 back on track. Even then he couldn't be bothered to do so, it was like his life had no meaning anymore.
Seen as though Rocky hasn't seen Maia for weeks, he's just taking it as them two are done. No, they haven't said to each other that they're done, but they may as well be, right? After all, Maia did go behind Rocky's back and lie and hide the truth. What kind of guy does Maia take him for? He wouldn't of been angry or mad, like he is now. Every time Riker, Rydel, Ross, Ratliff, Ryland or Laura asks where Maia is Rocky has to lie because he doesn't want to make Maia look bad, but after what she did he has a right too. He should. But he won't because he's not like that as he's not that type of person.
He looked over to the door wondering when Rydel would be home, he wanted to do something and get out of the house. Maybe he could do something with Rydel for a change, like take her around LA for a bit or somewhere else and maybe they could take Jenny with them as Ross and Laura were planning on going out tonight and Riker seems to be very annoyed at stuff lately, Rocky knows Riker doesn't know about Ross and Laura dating as Rocky is the only one that knows really after he caught them together. Not a pretty sight,he's not going to lie.
Rocky went to go pick up his phone to call Rydel and ask her if she could come back home and then call Laura, but then there was a knock at the door. He sighed and put the phone down before getting up and going to the door. He opened the door "Ye-" He stopped when he saw Maia stood there right in front of him "oh.. What are you doing here?" Rocky asked.
Maia sighed, she knows Rocky doesn't want her there but she wants to be there so she can talk to him about this whole mess. "I want to talk to you."
Rocky looked Maia up and down for a couple of seconds before he moved out of the way of the door so Maia could get in. He shut the door as she walked over to the couch "What were you thinking?" Rocky asked "seriously. What were you thinking? That's all I want to know." He knows starting off the talk wasn't going to help them both patch things up.
Maia shrugged "I-I don't know," She said "I.. I was scared.. I didn't know what to do. I wouldn't of known what to do so that felt like my only option, I'm sorry, but I didn't feel like I was ready." Maia explained to him getting close to tears.
Rocky sighed as he stepped closer to her so there was about an inch between them both. "I would of been there for you if you'd of told me. I'd of made you feel safe and secure about the whole thing, I'd of made you feel ready, but damn it Maia you didn't have to go do this. So that's what I would of done.. if you were wondering.." Rocky said lifting up Maia's face with his hand as he kissed her on the lips, letting her know that their relationship is safe.
Maia kissed back and pulled away, she looked up and smiled at him placing her hands on him. She sighed as she met his eyes "Do you still want that baby?" Maia asked.
Rocky shrugged "I wouldn't of minded.." Rocky said, in kind of a sulky tone as he looked down. He then looked up at Maia in the face, giving her a puzzled look "Why...?" He asked curiously.
"Because.." Maia trailed off "I didn't get the abortion."
"What?"
"I'm still pregnant."
"What?"
"I'm still with child."
"What?"
"Oh Rocky get a grip!"
Rocky smiled at Maia before giving her a giant bear hug "That's great!" Rocky said before he released her and kissed her on the lips.
Maia wrapped her arms around Rocky's neck as he deepened it. The kiss became more heated before Rocky let his hands find a way down to Maia's shirt, he started to pull it off her when she stopped him. "Rocky," Maia said as she pulled away from him "as much as I would love to do this.. It won't really be good for the baby."
"Oh," Rocky frowned "well that's a bummer... We can still kiss right?" He asked.
Maia giggled as she nodded and kissed Rocky again.
Ratliff was making his way to Rocky's apartment so he could see Rydel, given that the last time he saw her was when he told Titus that she doesn't need him because she has her brothers, Laura and Maia. So he decided it was only right if he apologised, even if it is been 2 or 3 weeks late. But it's better late then never, right? He also thinks it's only right if he manages to spend more time with Rydel and help her with her memory to get it back, seen as though it's been almost 4 or 5 months since. Then she can stop spending as much time with Titus which will hopefully evaporate into no time at all. That, and he really doesn't know how much longer he can cope being without Rydel. It's literally killing him inside to be away from her.
As Ratliff was walking, he decided he would take a short cut along the beach seen as though he couldn't be arsed going the long way around. It was too long. Way too long. But he began to wish he took the long route when he saw Rydel with Titus sat on the beach wall. He sighed as he could feel the anger building up in his body. But he decided to let it slide, realising he was being stupid because Titus is only being nice.
But then the nice line was crossed when Titus cupped Rydel's face and bent down, kissing her on the head and cheek. To top it all off, Titus kissed her other cheek a little too close to her lips. Ratliff shook his head, that was it. He'd had enough of being without her, if he couldn't be with her then what was the point in Ratliff being around anymore? He turned around and stormed off back home.
Once he stepped through the door of his apartment, he slammed the door shut. He didn't care if Rocky heard him as he lives across the hall. He went to go smash up his living room, but then realised if anybody comes to see him later, like Ross, Rocky, Riker or Laura, they'll notice and won't rest until Ratliff told them what was the matter. So he calmed himself down before deciding he needed to go to the bathroom.
He stepped into the bathroom where he sighed and all of a sudden the anger just rose back up into him again where he shouted out in anger before throwing everything and smashing things up in the bathroom until everything was on the floor. Once everything was on the floor in the bathroom all smashed up or in one big mess, Ratliff took a deep breath as he knelt down and began to pick it all up. "Ow.." Ratliff hissed in pain, yet he felt better for the pain. He looked down to his finger where he saw it bleeding "Oh great.." Ratliff groaned, looking down to see what made him bleed.
That's when he saw an old razor blade sat on the floor with a drop of blood on it. He cocked his head at it before he automatically just picked it up like it was the first thing that popped into his mind. He looked back to his finger, if that made him feel a little bit better then what would cutting himself bigger make him feel like? The only way to find out is to test it right?
Ratliff got the blade and put it to his arm and cut a big line down it, letting it bleed making him feel like the anger was just leaving him as well as his troubles and worries. Why not make it all go away huh? He then began to cut himself more.
1 for Rydel
2 for Titus
3 for all the happy couples out there with no problems
4 for all the parents with their unborn babies that actually are surviving and not dying in some horrible car crash
5 for the lorry driver who decided it was a fantastic idea to crash into the car
6 for Rocky wanting to stop the freaking car to go for a stupid piss or shit whatever he was going for
7 for Riker being the driver and not moving it out of the way quick enough
8 just for the hell of it
And a couple more just for the people he missed out, even though they have done no wrong to him. Ratliff stopped when he felt his arm bleeding, he then just fell back against the wall and took a deep breath as he let his arm bleed. He then got up off the floor and cleaned everything up. The last thing he had to put away was the razor blades, he picked them up and put them in the top cupboard.
But it wouldn't hurt to keep just one. Right?
Next: Never Say Never
Then: Chapter 11
Later: Crazy, Stupid Love
After: For The First Time
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