Ch 8: Share my World

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"Why do we close our eyes when we dream? When we cry? When we imagine? When we kiss? Because the most beautiful things in this world are unseen."

"I woke up and she was still there. I laughed and stared at her for few seconds. She turned, so I thought it would be the right time to get into the shower and bring her some food.

God the hot water felt good, it seemed like everything in my life was finally clicking. I got out of the shower and made my way back to my room to get clothes. It was only nine, so we had two hours before she had to go home.

I walked down the stairs and went to the kitchen. Of all the things I could cook, I opted for the cereal and made my way back up stairs.

I opened my door and smiled, she was still asleep. I put the tray on the floor and walked over to her, my hand slowly made its way to her body. I kissed her lips and lightly shook her arm.

"Spencer, you need to get up. It's about nine thirty. I got you breakfast." I pointed to the tray.

"Ashley! Thanks! I really appreciate everything especially last night." Her voice was earnest and I nodded.

"Hey, eat up and I'll take you home." I said.

"Wait, you drive? Then why the hell did we walk everywhere yesterday?" Her Irritation seemed to be underlining her tone.

"Well, it's a long story, and I promise to tell you, but we need to go." I said.

We got to the garage and I hopped into the 2007 silver Porsche Carrera Gt. Spencer just stood there.

"What the hell are you doing? Let's go." I impatiently said.

"Damn Ashley, calm down. This car is gorgeous. God you're a lucky bitch, I hate you." She pouted.

"Aww, do you want to drive it? I think I see some drool right there." I taunted and pointed to her chin.

She rolled her eyes and hopped into the car.



I turned over the ignition the car started.

"She A Very Freaky Girl Don't Bring Her To Mamma
First You Get Her Name Then You Get Her Number Then You Get Some Brain In The Front Seat Of The Hummer Then You Get Some Brain In The Front
Seat Of The Hummer"

The music blared, the system was an easy ten thousand dollars, but it was worth it. I looked over at Spencer and she shook her head. I laughed, grabbing the iPod and I switching the song.

"I am finding out that maybe I was wrong
That I've fallen down and I can't do this alone"

Subtly, she started to sing the lyrics. Her voice was soft, angelic like. I smiled at her, giving her a reassuring look and started to sing with her.

"Stay with me,
This is what I need,
Please.

Sing us a song and we'll sing it back to you
We could sing our own but what would it be without you?

I am nothing now and it's been so long
Since I've heard the sound, the sound of my only hope

This time I will be listening."

I pulled out of the garage and made my way to her house.

"This heart, it beats, beats for only you

This heart, it beats, beats for only you
My heart is yours

This heart, it beats, beats for only you
My heart is yours
(My heart, it beats for you)

This heart, it beats, beats for only you (It beats, beats for only you)
My heart is yours (My heart is yours)



This heart, it beats, beats for only you (Please don't go now, please don't fade away)
My heart, my heart is yours (Please don't go now, please don't fade away)"/I

It took about twenty minutes to get there. I walked her to the door. I refused to let her go by herself and until I knew she was alright. Everything seemed fine so I turned to leave and waved at her when I got to my car. I pulled out my phone and quickly texted her:

Hey, tell me if anything happens.

Ash

I sent her the text.

A few seconds later my phone vibrated and I flipped it up.

K, I will.

I closed my phone and left.

I drove for hours and ended up at the beach. I just sat there, the water calming senses. I remember when my dad brought me here before he left my mom. She had everything right in front of her but she never realized it.


"Christine, how could you do this?" He cried.

"I'm sorry! It won't happen again, I promise!" She said defeated.

"I'm tired of promises. You lie to me and I can't forgive this anymore. You just stabbed me too hard this time" He got up and left.

"Dad, please don't go. I need you, please." I cried. That was the first time my heart broke.

"Mom, what happened?" I asked

"Don't worry about it. It's none of your fucking business." And with that she stormed out the room.

Seven months later Kyla was born.

I closed my eyes and everything vanished. My mind eased, and my thoughts stopped. I was at peace with myself and with everything around me. I looked once more at the water and made my way back to the car.

I got home and a letter was on the table. There was no post mark or identification. I open the 

letter carefully, I was unsure what to expect. Of course it was a simple letter and I unfolded it.

I read the letter a few times before putting it down. The tears trickled down my face, god why now?

It was one sentence that broke me.

All over again.

You need to come home.

Spencer, I can't leave her now. I love her, god I love her. If something happened to her, I would never be able to forgive myself. I had to call her, god I hope the ass isn't there right now.

"Hey." She said.

"Hey, is Steven there?" I asked her.

"No, he left for a few days. Why Ashley?"

"Will you go on a date with me tonight?" I pleaded

"Yes, when will you pick me up?" She said excitedly. I smiled through the tears streaming down my face.

"Around five. That gives you two hours. Be ready!" I sternly told her.

"Fine, any other request, I'd like to know now, so I can perform them later." I could feel her smug look.

I laughed, "Yes. Wear something comfortable. You can get dressed up if you want, but there is no need." I hung up and made my way upstairs.

I looked through my clothes pondering what the hell to wear. I went simple. Grey pair of skinny jeans with a black strapless halter top. I straighten my hair and put eyeliner and mascara on. Throwing on some sandals, I was out the door.

I finally got to Spencer's house, I was so nervous and anxious. I walked to her door and she opened it. She was beautiful. She had on pair of jeans on and a blue backless halter top. The top accented her eyes. I smiled and gave her a kiss.

"So, are you ready?"

"Yes." Her eyes gleamed with her response.

God, this is going to break her when I tell her. She doesn't need to know just yet.

I took her hand and intertwined our fingers.

We got into the car and left to go to the first surprise of tonight.

I parked the car and we made our way to the club. I smiled at her and she looked at me oddly.

My lips made their way to her ear, "Don't worry, trust me." I whispered.

She nodded her head and followed behind me. The guy looked at me and motioned me in. I smiled and gave him a quick thank you.

"Would you like something to drink?"

"Yes, can I get a coke?" She asked.

"Yep I'll get it. I want you to find a table, okay?"

She nodded her head in response and made her way to the table.

I had a waitress bring Spencer back her drink. I needed to get ready for the surprise.

"Hey Eddie, am I ready to go on?" I smiled and asked.

"Yea kiddo. Good luck!" He gave me hug and left.

"Hey guys, I want you to give this next act a warm applause, this is her first live performance." He told the audience.

The clapping was initiated and my nervousness overwhelmingly increased. What the fuck did I get myself into? I hope this doesn't back fire. I want to swoon Spencer, not embarrass her, or myself. Please voice, don't disappoint me now.

I walked onto the stage. Oh fuck here goes nothing.

"Hey guys, I want to dedicate this song to a special someone in the crowd, she knows who she is." Our eyes connected and my nervousness dissipated.

I went to grab my guitar, I placed the strap on my shoulder and started to pick the first verse. My eyes connected with hers, I smiled and begun to sing.

"Share with me the blankets that your wrapped in
Because its cold outside cold outside its cold outside
Share with me the secrets that you kept in
Because its cold inside cold inside its cold inside"

My eyes never left hers, our eyes burned into one another.



"And your slowly shaking finger tips
Show that your scared like me so Let's pretend we're alone
And I know you may be scared
And I know we're unprepared
But I don't care

Tell me, tell me
What makes you think that you are invincible?
I can see it in your eyes that you're so sure
Please don't tell me that I'm the only one that's vulnerable
Impossible"

Here it goes...

"I was born to tell you I love you
Isn't that a song already?
I get a B in originality

And it's true I can't go on without you
Your smile makes me see clear
If you could only see in the mirror what I see

And you're slowly shaking finger tips
Show that you're scared like me so
Let's pretend we're alone
And I know you may be scared
And I know we're unprepared
But I don't care

Tell me, tell me
What makes you think that you are invincible?
I can see it in your eyes that you're so sure
Please don't tell me that I'm the only one that's vulnerable
Impossible"

There was something her eyes I couldn't read, god please be good. I searched deeper in her eyes for answers. She smiled and that was all I needed.



"Slow down girl -- you're not going anywhere
Just wait around and see
Maybe I am much more you never know what lies ahead
I promise I can be anyone, I can be anything
Just because you were hurt doesn't mean you shouldn't bleed
I can be anyone, anything, I promise I can be what you need"

I continued to sing to her, I wanted her to know everything I had, was hers. I loved her. She was the first person I was willing to admit it to. My heart was hers.

"Tell me tell me
What makes you think that you are invincible?
I can see it in your eyes that you're so sure
Please don't tell me that I'm the only one that's vulnerable
Impossible. I was born to tell you I love you, I love you"

I closed my eyes hoping she would like this. I wanted to give her something intimate; I wanted her to have a piece of me. I finished the song and immediately was welcomed back to reality the crowd was giving me a standing ovation. I opened my eyes and they met hers, she smiled and I bowed.

"Thank you guys so much." I told them

I forced myself through the crowd to get to Spencer. I couldn't find her. Where the fuck was she? I felt someone's hand in mine. I turned around and there she was. Leaning forward, our lips meet in a passionate kiss.

"Let's get out of here; I have one more place to go." I whispered seductively in her ear. Grinning, we made our way out of the club. I opened her door and we left.

"So, where are we going?" Curiosity seeped through her voice.

"Be patient, you'll see." I told her.

We pulled up to the next stop and she laughed at me. I help her out of the car, and follow her to the swings. We sit there and absorb the comfortable silence we've both released.

"So, I hope the song was okay, and you liked it?" My voice was weak and weary.

"I loved it, that's one of best thing someone's done for me in a long time. You made me feel like I was the only one in the world. You didn't have a hidden agenda, it was simply for me. This right here…" she pointed to her heart "is yours and these right here…" She pointed to her lip "are yours. No one else's."



I was about to cry but I couldn't. I took her hands and brought them to my lips, kissing them. I looked at her and told her we had to go.

"Okay, so I lied. We have one more place to go." I smiled towards her and looked back at the road. My heart was beating fast, my thoughts racing back and forth.

The last stop was my house. I walked her to the door, opening it, and led her to living room. Raife was out of town, so this was the perfect time.

"Oh god, this is beautiful." She said animatedly.

Rose pedals laid the path to living room. I took her hands and walked to the living room. The candles were the only light produced in the room.

"So, I thought I would give you a private show. Just for you." I smirked and walked to get my guitar.

"Spencer, please sit down for this?" I laughed and she obliged.

"I just want you to know this song is a work in progress." And with that I started to sing.

"My whole life has changed
Since you came in
I knew back then you were that special one
I'm so in love so deep in love you make my life complete
you are so sweet no one competes
glad you came into my life
you blind me with your love
with you I have no sight"

"Spencer, will you dance with me?" I anxiously asked her.

I put my guitar down and I took her hand and pulled her closer. My lips were to her ear as I sang the rest of the song to her.

"Girl you open me,
I'm wide open and
I'm doing things I never do but
I feel so good,
I feel so good
why it take so long for me finding you
this is my story and
I'm telling you it's not fiction it's surely a fact without you
right here having my back

I really don't know just where I'd be at"

Our eyes connect and my heart practically explodes. There's a certain fire burning within those blues, and damn are they setting me on fire. It's not a look of lust.

No.

It's a look of pure, beautiful, radiant love.

My singing becomes a bit stronger. She needs to know I feel the exact same way.

Always.

"I analyzed myself
I was buck wild never thought about settling down
but all the time I knew
I was ready
but girl I put you first
now you made me help mold me turned me into a woman
I'm so responsible and I owe it all to you

God blessed me girl
he was good to me when he sent you
I'm so happy baby share my world
I'm so in love
I'm addicted to your love baby"

The song ended and I held her tightly I didn't want to let her go. I wanted this night to last, but deep down I knew it wouldn't.

I took her to the couch and my lips instantly found hers. My tongue was massaging her bottom lip, asking for entrance. She gave in and my tongue found hers. Our tongues gently grazed one anothers. It felt so good; I softly let out a moan. We broke apart and went upstairs.

"Spencer, are you sure you want this?"

"God, more than anything." What she said was final.

Her body was on mine, her mouth sucking on my neck.

Fuck.

She slowly removed my shirt and stared. I laughed and flipped her over. Pulling her shirt off, I stared, she's beautiful.

My tongue made its way down and stopped right above at her bra. I slowly unclasped it and threw it to the floor. Her left nipple was in my mouth, I felt her body jerk.

I wanted to take it nice and slow. I knew we had plenty of time. I brought my lips back towards her and my finger traced her right nipple and roamed around her stomach. She moaned; I smirked.

"God Ash, please."

"Patience is a virtue, Spence." I said grinning and worked my way to her neck. I sucked on it, making sure to leave a mark. I stopped and unzipped her pants, sliding them off her.

My hand reached lower, I could feel the wetness seeping through her panties. I slowly rubbed her clit, my lips were still on her neck. Her body buckled with each touch. I pulled my hand out, and brought it to her lips. I traced over them and moved my lips to replace my fingers.

I brought my hand back down below, gently pushing two fingers into her core. I probed to see how deep I could go.

"Fuck, Ashley."

I moved my mouth down her body; licking between her breasts, around her belly button, and down to her thighs.

I took my tongue and slowly licked her inner thigh, removing her panties in the process. I licked my way to her outer lips. God she was so smooth. I spread her legs apart, opening her lips and looked for a moment. I heard her breath hitch and her body contorted upwards.

I gently stroked her vulva until her stomach jerked upward.

"Please stop teasing." Her voice was desperate.

I made my focus on her clit, gently sucking on it. Her hips met my lips. Each suck forced her stomach to heave up. Our rhythm was in sync. I paused,

"Spencer are you alright?" My voice was sincere and comforting. I wanted to make her at ease.

"Yes god, yes, don't stop!" She shouted. I laughed and continued.

I added a finger and slowly started to thrust into her. Her moans grew louder and more frequent. I added another finger inside she let out a low scream. I pulled my mouth to her lips and I could feel her trembling from the thrusting.



I felt her breath on my ear, "I'm so fucking close," she whispered. Her voice turning seductively and she told me, "You better be ready, I'm going to make you scream." Her eyes closed again and I could feel her grow tighter around my fingers.

I knew she was close and I continued to use my fingers. I brought my mouth to her left nipple and started to suck on it.

"Fuck." She screamed. Any minute now, I counted down. … her body buckled up… 6.5...her breathing growing rapid...my hand was drenched.

"Ah god, Ashley!" She shouted. Her body collapsed and her eyes were closed. I laughed and wrapped her in my arms.

This moment was perfect, everything was right, but tomorrow would bring us back to reality.