A/N: Haha, I was re-reading some of the chapters of this story and in chapter 4, Sirius writes a letter to Evie and addresses it to Julia..I guess I was so used to writing Welcome to My Life I slipped up. :) Thought that was funny. Anywho... hope you enjoy the chapter. :)
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This chapter gives you a little background on Sirius and Evie's relationship..hope its not too slow.
Chapter 9: Remembering the past, forgetting the present
Finding out who a spy is? Well, it's harder then one might think. Finding a Death Eater father? Easy, when they he's already looking for you. That's how I got into this predicament.
"So what's your next move pumpkin?" my father spat at me. We had our wands drawn at one another, trying to guess the others next advancements. I ignored his comment and concentrated on what I was doing. A flash of green light burst from his wand and rocketed towards me. I blocked it easily sending a hex in return, it was blocked skillfully.
"Can't we stop this little dance Evie? We both know your not going to kill me, and we both know even if you tried you would fail dismally. And we also both know that..." He stopped mid-sentence as my killing curse hit him square in the chest. His body crumbled into a heap on our hardwood floors. My hand unconsciously dropped my wand, it clattered to the floor and I fell to my knees.
"I just killed...I just..killed..." I repeated to myself over and over staring at my fathers body. What had I done? Surely I would have suffered the same fate if I had continued the duel, but I had just killed a human being. My father no less! In my childhood home! In the exact spot I used to open Christmas presents.
I blinked, remembering why I had killed him. Remembering why he had to die. My brothers, my mum. Then my mind went into overdrive. A million thoughts flew in and out of my minds eye. What should I do with the body? Would more Death Eaters come after me because of this? Would I go to Askaban for murdering a Death Eater?
I got up and paced in front of my dead father, casting nervous looks towards it. Just leave, I decided. That's what I did, I left my childhood home for probably the last time, my father lying dead on the floor.
"Sirius!" I yelled bursting through his flat door. I quickly checked every room calling his name.
"Maybe he does have a job." I checked my wrist watch, 7:50 p.m.
Surely he wont be much longer, I thought. I decided to wait on him to return home and fell back onto his leather couch, noticing the first time that the wall on my left was covered in pictures. I recognized most of them because I was present for most. James, Remus, Sirius, and Peter suck their tongues at me from one of them, they were wrapped up in warm jackets and covered in snow outside the castle. I chuckled to myself, I remembered that day perfectly. It was over Christmas break sixth year and we had all decided to stay at Hogwarts. It was also the day Sirius kissed me for the first time.
"Come on Evie! Take the picture already! I'm freezing my...well, let's just say somethings freezing!" James shouted. I giggled as the boys smiled for the picture, I made them suffer for a moment pretending to fix the lens.
"Evie!" Sirius whined, then he winked at me.
"Okay, okay!" I said laughing. Right as I clicked the the button on the camera they all suck out their tongues, Sirius putting bunny ears behind Peter's head.
"Aw come on guys! For once I would like to have a picture with all of you smiling!" I chuckled as I walked over to them.
"Wait, wait! One more!" Sirius said. He whispered to the boys. They all looked and pointed to their left using the other hand to hold their chin's. I shook my head laughing and snapped the picture.
"Thank you my dear lady!" James said taking a deep bow. Remus rolled his eyes at him and gave me a quick smile. Blushing i turned away. I had the biggest crush on Remus for the past year, I never could bring myself to tell him.
"I think it's time for some hot chocolate," Remus said throwing a arm across my shoulders. We all turned and headed back to the castle. Remus's arm left my shoulders as James jumped on his back demanding a piggy back ride.
"Just one! Please Moony! Just one!" James begged struggling to hold on to a angry Remus. Finally Remus managed to make James fly of his back into the snow.
"Oh your going to get it now, wolf," James said jokingly. Remus bolted, James hot on his tail. Peter began to run after them trying to catch up.
"Evie..." I heard Sirius say from behind me. I turned to face him a broad grin plastered on my face.
"Yes Sirius?" I asked. He caught up with me throwing a arm over my shoulders just like Remus had, but it felt different. Sure, the boys put their arms around me all the time but this time was unlike other times. I could tell by the glances Sirius kept sneaking as we walked towards the castle.
"What is it Sirius?" I asked stopping in my tracks. He was looking down nervously at his snow covered trainers. I placed a hand on his arm and squeezed gently.
"Come on, I've never seen you nervous in front of me before," I said smiling wondering what it was to cause him to act like that.
He raised his head and met my eyes saying, "Your right."
He took a step forward confidently, totally obstructing my personal space. I gulped nervously realizing what was about to happen. He placed a hand on my cheek his thumb slowly caressing it. He looked deep in my eyes and he kissed me like I'd never been kissed before. At first it was slow and unsure until I started to hesitantly kiss him back and my arms moved around his neck to pull him closer. I felt him smile against my lips and then slid his tongue across my bottom lip. I felt butterfly's building up in my stomach.
I sighed. Times were so much easier then, so carefree. I turned my attention to another moving picture. It was of Sirius and I, we were sitting under the willow tree in front of the lake. He was holding me in his arms my back resting on his chest and his head resting on my shoulder. It was in our seventh year right before graduation and before I caught him cheating with Becca.
"Hey Evie?" Sirius said kissing the top of my head.
"Hmm?"
"I was wondering, after graduation whether you would want to live together? You know we could get a flat in Diagon Alley so it'll be close to the Prophet for you. Only if you want." I turned around and straddled him, I kissed him on his nose. He smiled licking my cheek.
"Eww!" I yelped wiping my face on his tee shirt. He chuckled and began tickling my sides I tried to scramble away but he climbed on top of me. He continued to tickle me and I laughed so hard I started to tear up.
"Sirius! Sirius!" I said through side splitting laughter.
"Oh yeah, say my name!" He said laughing along with me now. That only made me laugh harder.
"Stop! Stop! Please! I'm dying!" I said. He stopped and fell beside me on the grass, I tried to catch my breath as I rolled over on my side to look at him.
"I take that as a yes," Sirius said.
I smiled and said, "Yes." Then I licked his face.
I sobbed, it just now catching up with me. Realizing what I had done. I had actually killed someone. I found myself rethinking what I had done. Should I have giving my dad a second chance? Maybe he could have changed? Maybe...
I knew, I knew deep inside that he would never change. He had been evil and conniving since I was little, why would he change? I felt so guilty, but I also felt like I had avenged my mother and brother's which gave me an odd sense of accomplishment.
"Evie? Evie, wake up," Sirius was shaking me. I had fallen asleep on his couch then I remembered why I was at his place in the first place.
"Sirius, I killed him," I stated flatly, clutching his arm.
"You killed who? Who, Evie?" He questioned turning my face with his hand to look at him.
"My dad, I killed my dad," I cried throwing myself in his arms. He held me for a long time and stroked my hair.
"What am I going to do?" I asked him.
"Dumbledore. We'll talk to him." He kissed my forehead and carried me to his room. We laid there, me crying into his chest and him holding on to me as if he'd never let go.
"Sirius?"
"Yes?"
"I love you too."
"I know."
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