It has been about two weeks now, since Natsuki last spoke with Nao. Although within those weeks Natsuki has tried to do whatever she could to get back into Nao's good graces. She first had suspected that Nao was still cross with her, when she had stop asking for rides home like she did on a daily basics. Always after school Natsuki would wait; but the other thing that told her that Nao was still mad was the icy cold shoulder she would give her. But of course this didn't stop her from trying.
Today Natsuki thought of trying a different approach toward Nao… even though in Natsuki's mind it seemed like a great idea, to others it would fall on borderline stalker.
"Hey why don't you let me take you home after school?" Natsuki smiled. Nao rolled her eyes and started to walk away. Natsuki quickly grabbed her arm.
"Please Nao. Besides it's getting really cold. Don't you feel the coldness in the air, it would only be right if I gave you a ride home."
"I could find my own way home thank you very much." Nao said angrily as she tore her arm away from the older girl and started walking away again.
"Nao! Nao!" Natsuki kept shouting across the courtyard to Nao who kept on walking without looking back or saying a word. With eyes glued to the couple; their classmates watched on as the duo continued on with their show of sorts.
"SHUT UP NATSUKI! GO AWAY! LEAVE ME ALONE!" Nao finally shouted back at her. But that of course didn't stop the blue haired beauty.
"Nao please listen!"
"No! I don't want to hear it! Just leave me alone!" Nao begun taking up speed, running for the school building she ducked around the corner to hide out of site of her pursuer.
(I wish she would give up! I'm never talking to Kuga for as long as I live!)With that thought in mind; Nao peeked behind the edge of the wall and started walking. She didn't get far as she fell back suddenly. She had walked right into something without looking where she was going.
"HEY! Watch where you're—
"Nao I'm sorry."
"YOU! What are you following me now too!" Nao flared as she got herself up from the floor.
"Nao I'm so sorry! Please forgive me. And no I'm not following you… I think you already have your #1 fan." The girl laughed. Her laughter filled the silent corridor but unfortunately Nao didn't find it funny.
"Listen Mai, when you get a chance tell your friend to leave me alone… for good."
"That's what I wanted to talk with you about Nao… don't you think you should be more understanding?"
"Understanding of what?" Nao roared in anger at Mai. Mai saw the icy glare that Nao gave her; it sent a chill down her spine. Her face softened as she took Nao's hand.
"Nao I know it's hard because of everything you and Natsuki have been through together. Also now that you both have confessed your feelings for each other, it makes matters that much difficult. You have to understand it's especially hard on Natsuki… yes she's in love with you and clearly cares and wants to be with you a great deal. But at the same time, there is another person involved unaware of what's going on."
"You mean that woman…" Nao snarled. Even the mere mention of Shizuru's name was enough to leave a bitter taste in her mouth. Mai nodded gently and continued on.
"Yes… so you have to see that Natsuki is trying her best for you at the moment. Yes of course she could be doing a better job, by not following you around like a lost little puppy and not shouting you're name every second would help… but the point is you have to ease up in return. I know you're angry and frustrated, but Natsuki will decide soon I'm positive." Nao groaned and took her hand from Mai's. She lowered her head.
"She won't pick me… I know it. Tokiha I do understand it all. I get the position she is in and I know she loves me but she is also in love with that woman. In my heart I know she will stay with her even though I wish she would really choose me. But because of everything that's happened and with them being with each other for so long… I don't doubt her feelings for me one bit. But if I don't do this now, act this way with her… then my heart breaking would hurt less." Nao put both her hands up covering her face to hide the tears that began to slip out.
"Nao… I don't know what to say…" Mai reached out for Nao, but she back up and wiped her eyes.
"There's nothing to say… I'm not naïve you know."
"I didn't say you were. I am surprised however that you did understand all this."
"Just because I'm younger than you doesn't mean I don't understand things. Don't treat me like a child! I know very well about everything! But if I seriously knew then what I know now then maybe me and Natsuki would have had a chance! But not anymore… it's too late. I may have been the one in her heart… her important person, and maybe I still am… but it doesn't matter. What's done is done. And because I was selfish and didn't allow anyone to get close to me this is the outcome." Nao backed up and turned away with her back facing Mai.
"Nao you still don't know what could happen. Nothing is easy; especially when it comes to the person you love most. You have to make scarifies and sometimes you get the answer you didn't want but you have to accept it and move on. But you don't know Natsuki. She could—
"I know enough! And I know I was stupid enough to fall for that idiot!" With that last said Nao ran off holding her tears back once again. Mai had tried calling out to Nao but it was no use. Seeming defeated Mai walked off back outside, while all along unknowingly to Mai or Nao; Natsuki was listing the whole time.
(Nao… I wish things were different too. I'm sorry I never was there for you like I wanted to be)
Throughout the rest of the day, Natsuki avoided Nao as Nao had avoided her. She quietly went through the day without saying a word to anyone and attending all of her classes for once. Once school was over Natsuki made her way to her bike like she always did, but she was surprised to find someone there waiting for her.
Natsuki didn't say a word, she was barely breathing for that matter. All that happened was a wide smiled was placed on her face. Standing there by her bike was Nao. Nao was holding herself up against the motorcycle; she had seemed to be waiting there awhile as she shook slightly from the chill in the air.
Natsuki took off her jacket and slowly approached the fiery red-head. She got up very close to Nao with very little space left between them. She placed the jacket around Nao's slender frame. Nao let out a tiny gasp. Nao was shocked by Natsuki sudden presence; she was too focused on keeping warm she hadn't noticed Natsuki snuck up on her.
Nao gazed into Natsuki's deep emerald green eyes. She felt lost in them, for she hadn't looked into her eyes for what seemed like forever. Natsuki placed her hands on Nao's shoulders, rubbing them softly. She then placed her arms around Nao embracing her tightly.
"I missed you…" Natsuki whispered in Nao's ear. The warmth of Natsuki's breath, made Nao's cheeks flare up. Nao pushed Natsuki away from her, looking down so that she wouldn't be able to see that she was still blushing. Natsuki placed her hands on either side of Nao's face. Nao looked up at Natsuki once again.
"I know how you feel and I understand why you haven't been speaking to me. All I can ask for is for you to not give up on me." Natsuki spoke with a pleading voice. Nao placed her hands over Natsuki's and slowly removed them from her face.
"Kuga… I can't. I just can't anymore. That's why I've been acting this way with you. I wanted you to stop loving me because I know in the end you would still go back to her."
"That isn't true!"
"Yes it is… because even now, even after you take me home you have to go back to her. It's as if you really don't have a choice. And I don't want to say you're stuck, but I feel that ever since that night you have been. And it's my fault."
"You would stop saying that! Nothing that has happened till now is your fault! None of it, when will you see that? I have to choose everyday and every day I choose to be with you, I choose to wait for you I choose to do this…" Suddenly she leant down capturing Nao's unsuspecting lips.
Nao's eyes widened but soon closed them. As she did she melted into the kiss, it was more intense and felt more passionate than it had been before. Nao gripped onto Natsuki's shirt as their kiss deepened and her body began to tingle with pleasure. Before long they both pulled away from each other gasping for air. They smiled at each other for a few moments, then without saying a word Nao got onto the bike and patted the sit with her hand, signaling for Natsuki to get on.
Natsuki smiled and hopped on her bike. She placed on her helmet as did Nao. Nao wrapped her arms tightly around Natsuki's waist and laid her head on the side of Natsuki's back. She started the motorcycle, revved the engine a few times and sped off. Nao seemed to hold on tighter to Natsuki with each passing second, as if she never wanted to let her go ever again. But a thought over shadowed her. She knew soon enough would have to let go of her… maybe forever.
As they were nearing Nao's home Natsuki slowed down her bike. They both got off the bike and took off their helmets. They both seemed shy as they kept glancing back and forth at each other.
"I wish we could go back to that park. It was nice there that night." Nao spoke suddenly. Natsuki smiled back at her.
"Well once winter is over I promise to take you there again. I want to visit that park again too. Because it's the same night I told you I loved you." Natsuki stepped up closer to Nao and held her hands.
"I love you Nao. And I— Natsuki was cut off by the ringing of her cell phone. Natsuki slapped her hand to her forehead and groaned. Nao rolled her eyes and kicked at the ground a little. Natsuki reached into her pocket to get her cell.
"Hello?"
"Natsuki."
"Hey Shizuru. What's up?"
"Is everything okay? Are you okay?"
"Yeah. Why do you ask?" Natsuki asked with a hint of confusion. She hadn't a clue what Shizuru could be talking about.
"Well, I wish to talk to you about something. I don't want to do this over the phone… when will you be home?"
Natsuki looked over in Nao's direction. She felt sad as to the fact she may have to leave she lover so quickly, just as things were going smoothly between them again. Natsuki sighed heavily into the phone.
"I'll try and be home as soon as I can. Okay?"
"Okay… I love you Natsuki." Natsuki felt even worse at that moment, as she could hear the sadness in Shizuru's voice. Now she knew for sure something was really bothering her.
"I love you too. Goodbye." As soon as Natsuki hung up the phone she saw the look in Nao's face. Natsuki felt herself being put in a very awkward position like she had been in so many times. She felt torn she wanted to stay but she also had to go.
"Well what are you waiting for?" Nao abruptly blurted out.
"What are you saying? I'm not waiting for anything." Nao crossed her arms and glared at Natsuki.
"You know what I'm saying. You're going to leave now just like you always have to do. You're always running to her!"
"I'm not running anywhere!" Natsuki shouted back. She clenched her fists. She didn't want to admit to herself that what Nao was saying was true. At the same time she didn't want to leave though, she wanted to prove Nao wrong.
"Nao I'm not going anywhere. If I did and wanted too I would have been gone already. I'm still here I'm here because I want to be and I want to… I want to…" Nao raised an eyebrow, looking at her curiously.
"What's the matter Kuga? Cat got you're tongue?" Natsuki shook her head.
"No… I was trying to stop myself from saying…"
"Saying what? Spit it out already! You're really annoying me!"
"I'm sorry… I just…" Instead of trying to finish what she wanted to say, Natsuki walked up to Nao and held her close kissing her once again. Nao didn't fight back she very much welcomed the impulsive kiss. She was in fact quite taken by Natsuki's forwardness. The kissing was halted for a moment as Natsuki pulled back.
"I was wondering if I could... stay with you for awhile…" Natsuki began to blush. Nao giggled at Natsuki.
"You're very cute when you get embarrassed."
"SHUT UP!"
"HAHAHAHA! Sure you can come upstairs with me." Nao said through her laughter.
Nao smiled at Natsuki who was still blushing. She took her hand and led her up to her apartment, she unlocked the door. Nao walked still holding onto Natsuki's hand. Once inside they took off their shoes by the door and entered into the living room. Natsuki grabbed Nao by her waist pulling her into another intense lip lock. Natsuki began to push Nao backwards until they both tumbling onto the couch.
Nao moved her head so that she could catch her breath, but that didn't stop Natsuki from attaching her lips onto Nao's neck.
"Natsuki… what are you doing…" Nao peacefully moaned. Natsuki halted her assault and looked at her lover with desire in her eyes.
"Please, forgive me."
"For what?"
"For what I'm doing…"
"Natsuki…" Nao felt Natsuki place her hand on her breast. Her heart started to beat fast and her breathing became labored.
"I want to do this with you. I'm sorry I was holding back before. It wasn't you… it was me. I'm ready now and I want to do this with you if you still want me." Nao placed her hands on the back of Natsuki's neck pulling her closer.
"You're such an idiot…" Nao kissed Natsuki forcefully. Both their hearts were beating rapidly at the excitement of what they were about to do, exploring each other's bodies for the first time.
