Rokudo Hakumei


My brother's funeral passed like any other funeral for me. I know, that's so horrible, but I was so sad, it really had yet to hit me that it was brother being serviced. He had never attended a single funeral, aside from our mother's that is, but we had been there from her death bed until the very end. It was just so foreign to me, standing in black, surrounded by people who had known my brother. Everyone gave their condolences and wishes to my family, and I stood there by my father, a zombie with no connection to my surroundings or the people in them. My husband acted like any good husband should act in his wife's time of need, but he avoided me as much as possible. I was in too much shock to care. My father was the same as I was.

"Hakumei, it's about time for us to be leaving now," His voice was dry as I packed my things.

"Yeah, I know. Hey, why do you think people get so horny at weddings? I saw several people when they were leaving, and it was almost as if this was an orgy instead of a funeral," I commented, feeling miles away from my body.

"Who knows," He was even talking to me less than before our talk last night.

"Hika would have known," I cried, falling to the floor in a wave of tears.

"Hakumei," He sounded like a man who had given into his wife after a long fight, "You'll catch a cold,"

"As if you care! I'm so alone now, no one to comfort me," I wiped my eyes with my sleeve.

"Comfort. That's why. People need comfort, so they have sex," He told me frankly, pulling me off the floor.

"You probably expect me to be the same. To cry in your arms, and lean on your shoulder. To let you hold me as I slow my shaking. Then at some point we'll probably kiss, and then...." I closed my eyes as my words became actions, "We'll move to the bed."

"Yeah," He kissed me again, going to second base as my hand swam around the sheets, pulling them closer.

"Stop, not like this," I said that, fine, but my body was saying something else entirely.

My body was burning, and arms wrapped automatically around his neck as he slipped off my dress, rougher this time than on our honeymoon. I wanted this so much, it was maddening. He wasn't going to stop even if I changed my mind, but I didn't care. I wanted this too badly.


MM (Jealous Of Hakumei)


"Just how long is the damn thing supposed to last anyways?!" I had waited all week for the weekend, but because of that little tramp's brother croaking, I had to wait.

"Aw, the hooker late for her shift?" Ken roared with laughter.

That loser with the specs joined him. What did those losers know? They wouldn't know a hot chick if she nailed 'em in the balls with her fifty-five thousand dollar designer heels. I know, I've tried.

"Mukuro-sama took her home so she could get her things, so maybe that's the hang-up. Besides, the funeral was only this morning," The dweeb with the over-sized ball informed me.

"Grazie," I waved, leaving the lameos for the comfort of my many hand-made bags.

Rokudo Hakumei

So that was sex. I can see now why everyone was making such a big deal about it. It hurt, but it was a good hurt, so that made the searing pain bearable.


Mugotarashii Hikarakuyo (Hakumei's Brother)


My face paled. I had never imagined in a million years that my sister would have lost her virginity like that. I had seen her waiting until her honeymoon, and she was in love. True, it was my fault that her honeymoon was with that man, but still, I had excepted her to be in love, not to say that it would be with her husband.

"That really happened, didn't it?" I didn't need to hear my mother to know the answer.

My sweet Hakumei had been deflowered at my funeral. At least it was her choice, which really surprised me. I had assumed that her spouse was the type of man that would have raped her, and I still inferred that it was possible with him.

"We so rarely ever lose our virginity the way we'd imagine. Even we had failed to meet our ideals, but it changed nothing for us sexually," I wished her guidance had not been so visual.

"Mother, I know sex is nothing like we think, but still, I thought that she was stronger than that," I was not disappointed in her, just her lapse in judgement.


Rokudo Hakumei


I sat up, holding the sheets to my breasts, even though he had seen them already, "So, uh, what now?"

He got out of bed and got dressed, "What do you mean? That was just sex."

"Oh. Well, I mean, we are married, so does that change anything?" I would have gotten dressed, were I not so embarrassed to let him see me.

He raised his eyebrow at me, "Are you asking what I think you're asking?'

I flicked at the sheets, "And what do you think I'm asking?"

He snorted, amused at my coy act, "Coy doesn't work so well for you. Hapless bookworm is more your thing."

"Pft! I couldn't be coy if I was an A-list actress. I......" I blushed and looked away, muttering so that he couldn't make out the rest of my words.

"You're fucking with me, right?" He found my words odd.

"Well, I mean, we did have unprotected sex, and if I did get pregnant....."

"Just stop right there," I refused to talk about that scenario.

"But if it does happen-"

"Shut-up. You didn't get pregnant by me, and you sure as shit won't ever get pregnant by me," He was pointblank.

"Trust me, I'm not the girl who counts the days in anticipation for that kind of stuff. I'm just being cautious. And how are you so sure I can't get pregnant anyways?" I really didn't want kids, especially in a life like this with a man like that, but I am smart enough to know that my actions have a reaction.

"That's for me to know," It was clear as day that his reason was something with little to no hold in science. Something a teenage boy would cook up.

I was comforted to know that this would be the last time something like this could crop up on me. I may have lost my virginity on a stupid, emotional whim, but it would not happen again. Not unless I fell in love, but the odds of that happening are less than abysmal.


Three in one day?! I am freaking awesome!!!! OK, so bad language, kid's, don't use it! I'm am ubber tired, so this chapter may not be the best around, but yeah. Ok, so Hakumei is not a whore, she is human. Humans do these kinds of things, which children also should not do. Please review? Grazie is Italian for thanks.