After dinner we head back to the house. Lip is incredibly affectionate during the drive home. He holds my hand and every so often he will kiss my knuckles. When we get back to the house he opens my door for me. He wraps his arm around my waist as we walk into the house.

"I have another surprise for you." He says with a smile.

Lip opens the door and the house is silent.

"We have the house to ourselves for a few hours. I will make the popcorn and you pick out the movie."

Lip kisses me longer than just a quick kiss. He holds his hand on my lower back, almost on my ass, as he kisses me. Instead of letting me go he pulls me closer. His hands are snaked around my back and he pulls my hips to his. Our kissing grows deeper and his hands slide down to my ass. He firmly holds on and I put my arms around his neck. I stop our kissing before it gets too far. I can see Lip's momentary frustration before he brushes it off. He gives me a quick kiss on the cheek and goes to the kitchen. I pick out a movie and put it in. Lip comes back with a bowl of popcorn and sits down on the couch. I sit down next to him and he pulls me in close.

Through the course of the movie our positions change a few times. Lip is lying down against the arm of the couch and I am lying across him. This is everything I have ever wanted. Lip holds me in his arms like I mean something to him. He gently runs his hands through my hair. I am not even sure if he knows he is doing it but it means so much to me. I can hear the steady beating of his heart under my ear. I look up at him and he smiles down at me. He leans down and kisses me.

I can feel in an instant that this kiss is changing things. We are no longer just hanging out and watching a movie. The whole atmosphere of the room has changed. He puts his hand on my cheek and holds my face to his own. He slides down on the couch so that I am now on top of him as we kiss. I am fine with making out but I don't know how far I am comfortable with this going. Lip has gone so much farther than I have and so he is comfortable with so much more. I don't want to ruin what is happening here. Maybe I should just let it happen.

"Do you want to go upstairs? The couch is becoming uncomfortable." Lip says.

I know what going upstairs means but I decide to agree. Lip holds my hand as we go up the stairs to our room. If I let this happen then it is going to change everything. Our relationship will take on a whole new level if we have sex tonight. Lip closes the door behind us and looks at me with what I can only assume are his bedroom eyes. He knows what he wants. How many other girls have seen these eyes? How many other girls has he brought into this room?

Lip stalks his away across the room to me. He grabs me and pulls me against him. He wraps his arms around my waist and begins to kiss me again. His hands begin to slide up under my shirt. I freeze. I don't know if I can do this. I am not confident in my body. Lip stops.

"Are you alright?"

"Yeah…I just…I'm not confi…"

"Stop, Rose, you are beautiful. I find every single thing about you sexy. If I didn't then this wouldn't happen."

Lip takes my hand and places it on the bulge in his pants. He begins to kiss me again. I guess he is done discussing the topic. He pushes us back to the bed and sits me down. He comes up on the bed over me and I lay back. He once again puts his hands under my shirt. This time he pulls my shirt up as he goes. I want to cover my stomach but so far he hasn't gagged so I guess I am alright. He pulls my shirt over my head and then pulls his own off. I love looking at him shirtless. He is toned without being overly toned. He still has softness to his body. His hands slide up my bare flesh and it gives me goosebumps. He reaches around and unsnaps my bra. He gives me a kiss before he pulls it off. It is like a little reassurance. He throws my bra on the ground and looks at my bare breasts. He bites his lip and groans.

"Fuck, they are even more perfect than I imagined they would be. Jesus Christ… Rosie, you are perfect."

I put my hands on his back and feel the warmth of his bare skin. Lip carefully and slowly unzips my jeans. It is like he is waiting for me to tell him no. He pulls my jeans down and I am so glad I wore my cute panties today. Lip unzips his own pants and throws them on the floor with mine. I can see his erection bulging in his boxers. He puts his fingers into the waistband of my panties. He pauses like he knows this is the turning point. Once he pulls these down I will be fully exposed to him. I don't know if he knows how big of a deal this is for me. Lip pulls off his boxers and I can't help but feel a little overwhelmed. I have never seen even seen a dick in person before. Lip leans down to kiss me again and I can feel his throbbing dick against my bare skin. He brushes my hair out of my face as he looks at me. He smiles down at me with that signature Lip smile. I know he cares about me. I know this is what he wants. I don't know if this if what I want. Lip has been here so many times before, so many times. I have never once been this close to a guy before. I feel like I am rushing into things.

While all of this is going on in my head I don't think anything is going on in Lip's besides his sex drive. This is just another ordinary day for him. I am just another girl on his list. His list is so incredibly long. This whole time he has been guiding me along and getting me ready. I haven't even noticed until just now. He is already positioned to enter me. I can't do this. I can't.

"Wait!" I say.

Lip stops and sits up.

"What's wrong?" he asks looking concerned.

"I can't do this."

"Why?"

"I'm just a number. Lip, you have slept with so many girls. I have never been with anyone. You just have been with so many girls." I say as I sit up.

I want to pull the sheet up over me. I feel more exposed than I have ever felt before.

"Rosie, you know you aren't just a number to me."

"Get tested."

The words are out of my mouth before I can stop them. I didn't know that is what I wanted until it came out. Lip looks at me like I just slapped him across the face.

"What the fuck did you just say?"

"Lip…I just…"

"You think I am fucking dirty? Like I have STD's just because I have had sex before."

He stands up and pulls his pants on. I pull the sheet up over me. I don't know how this went so wrong.

"I'm sorry Lip. I just don't feel comfortable with it. I want you to get tested before we have sex."

He pulls his shirt on and I can see the absolute fury on his face.

"Fuck you Rose. That is fucked up. I have been with you for a month, let you sleep in my bed, I just fucking took you on the only real date I have ever taken anyone. Why are you such a prude? It's just sex not marriage."

"Maybe you feel that way but to me sex is a big deal."

"So we aren't going to fuck any time soon? You just like leading me on and using me for a place to sleep. Goddamn it Rose. You are fucked in the head."

"Lip, no…"

"Shut up. This is stupid. I'm leaving and I expect you to be gone when I come back. I am not dealing with the blue balls anymore. I can find someone else to fuck."

With that he storms out of the bedroom. I hear the front door slam a moment later. I have just ruined everything.