Authors Note
Here we are another chapter
Chapter Nine
I just sort of stand in shock, staring at Paul. What the hell just happened? Have I lost my mind or have I found something? This all so confusing.
Why can't life be simple, like a romantic comedy? You know the guy will get the girl in the end, and then they'll play one of those pretty songs, the ones you sing along to in the car. Paul makes everything so hard and confusing though. If we were a movie no one would bother to go see it because no one would understand the plot and what the characters meant to each other.
"What just happened?" I finally say. Yes, that was what came to my mind. How unoriginal am I?
"I kissed you," Paul says. His honesty shocks me - it's like a bullet to the heart. That's another problem with Paul, he's far too blunt and honest. Lying is familiar, but Paul says everything so bluntly. It's uncomfortable to say the least.
"I know, but why?"
"Cause there's something about you Sam. Something that makes me want to always be near you," Paul tells me with a grin on his face. He looks so damn happy about the idea of being with me. Doesn't he know what a mistake he's making? I'm not worth the effort.
"Oh."
Paul grabs my hand, making my whole body warm in temperature for two very different reasons. His hands are rough, unlike mine that seem to feel soft in comparison to his. He smiles at me, that gentle smile that's so safe and oh so perfect, just like how his hand fits in my mine. Wait, I take that back...I mean...Oh hell, I don't know what I mean.
"You know Sam, if you're going to run away from this I'm just going to chase after you."
"You are?" I choke out.
"Yeah, and I'm a faster runner," Paul adds with a grin.
I don't even respond. My head is spinning and I can't stop the happiness that is filling my body and I just want to shove it away.
"So are you planning on running? 'Cause it's best to stretch first."
"You lay your cards on the table don't you," I whisper.
"With me it's more like a heart," Paul respond,s looking straight at me, daring me to leave him. I just can't do it. I cant walk away.
"Paul," Jared yells. His voice ruins the moment. The moment where I was about to open my mouth and say I wasn't running.
We both look up. and I realise how close we are. We must only be a centimetre apart. I move away slightly, feeling confused and awkward.
"Yeah?" Paul asks, finally looking at Jared, who grins broadly when he sees our questionable position. Kim is standing next to me, sharing the same smile. They look so right together it makes me want to vomit. Damn them and their perfection.
"You ready to go?"
"Suppose," Paul says with a relaxed shrug, the kind that could mean any number of things.
"Okay then," Jared agrees.
Kim gives me the "tell me everything" look, and I wish I could. I wish we could just stop, and I could explain how confused I am, and how I need to talk this through, but telling her my problems seem pointless and silly. What can she change? I need to figure this out with Paul. I need to talk about this, and I get the vibe Paul doesn't like to talk things through.
We all hop in the car, and Backstreet boys start playing loudly. Nick Carter croons his heart out, and for the rest of the trip I don't talk to any of them, I stare out out the window instead. Trying to work out everything, trying to make things simple, like when all I had to worry about were my family issues, not...Paul. Paul, who makes no sense for me to be with, but at the same time perfect sense.
Finally we pull up outside Paul's house. A couple of times Kim and Jared try and get both of us talking, asking about the movie, but I can only manage one word answers, and the same goes for Paul. We're both so lost in our thoughts. I almost feel bad for being rude, but I know that Kim will understand. She always does.
"Well I'll see you guys around," Paul says. Je runs his fingers through his hair and tries to meet my eyes. What am I suppose to say? 'I think I really like you and I can't deal with that cause I'm cliché that way'?
Does he want to hear that?
Do I want to even say it?
I know that I'm not cliché. I want Paul, and God that scares me more than anything. Wanting someone, really wanting someone, 'cause everyone knows people leave. I know what you're thinking: she has abandonment issues, but I have reasons. With no mum and my brother leaving, what am I suppose to think? As soon as I let someone in they leave.
Do I want to be the girl that falls in love, her whole life changes and then he leaves her? What if I can't get over it?
High-school romances never last anyway. Maybe in movies, but in reality they just fade away. They become a story you tell at parties about who you fell for in high school. What's the point in jumping into something if it won't last? And then if it does I'll just end up getting hurt.
"Sam, this is your stop," Kim says, jerking me out of my world of over-thinking and worrying. I realise that Paul is long gone, probably just as confused as I am. Somehow, I managed to miss him leaving the car. How does that happen? I was too busy thinking of him to talk to him. How messed up is that?
"Oh, right...thanks, see you tomorrow," I choke out.
"Yeah, tomorrow. See you then Sam." Kim says. Jared waves brightly at me, and I manage to weakly wave back. Kim mouths "call me if you want". But I know I can't.
I walk inside my house to see Johnny and Jake watching football. They both see me and smile. I smile back and say a quick hello to Dad, who is watching as well. They're all so into the game, so entranced. I wonder if Paul is like that, but somehow I get this feeling that I'll always get his full attention. What am I saying? Why must he come into every thought?
"Dad, I'm sleeping at Kim's tonight, is that okay? I'm just grabbing my stuff," I find myself saying.
Dad looks up from me, and smiles at me brightly. "Yeah, that's fine sweetheart. Have a good time." He looks almost happy I'm gone, leaving the guys to watch the football in peace.
"I will," I reply.
I rush into my room, throwing things in my bag, and then bolt for the door. I run as fast as I can to Paul's house. It's raining, of course, does it ever not rain? I run faster, tripping over things and receiving strange looks.
I knock on the door, loudly tapping my foot impatiently, and staring at my feet, begging them to explain to me what I am doing.
The door finally opens to show Paul's dad, who smiles from ear to ear.
"Thought I might be seeing you again, Paul's friend," Micheal says, making sure to emphasize the word 'friend'.
"Is he here?"
"Yeah he just stormed into his room, swearing. He's charming that way."
"Oh."
"Well go on, you'll probably make his day."
"Maybe I'll ruin it."
"I doubt that, you're all he talks about."
I blush at this, full on red.
"Thanks."
"Well go on, cheer the kid up. Oh, and use protection," Micheal says with a wink.
I turn even redder, not sure how to respond. I mean, what do I say to that? I just decide not to respond, and head up the stairs. I get to Paul's room and knock on the door lightly, trying to ignore Micheal in the background not so subtly watching the scene unfold.
"Dad, I told you I'm fine."
"It's Sam," I squeak out.
"Sam?" Paul repeats in disbelief.
"Yeah..."
I hear the sound of someone getting up, and then the door opens to show Paul with shock all over his face. He's shirtless again, just in sweatpants.
"What are are you doing here?"
"We need to talk," I say.
"Right," Paul says, looking nervous.
"Can I come in?" I ask.
"Oh right, yeah."
I walk past Paul and sit on his bed. He sits down too, facing me, and I realise I am in Paul's bed...in his room. Oh my God, I barely know the guy! I feel like I'm on a trashy show. Looking around his room, it looks the same as last time I was here. Is it just me or am I starting to sound more slutty?
"So here's the thing, Paul-"
"Sam, it wasn't a mistake, so don't say that. Maybe it was yours, but it wasn't mine, and I won't forget about it," Paul says, cutting me off.
"That isn't what I was going to say," I respond just as quickly, and I'm shocked at how sure I sound.
"Oh, then go ahead," Paul mumbles, clearly embarrassed.
"So here's the thing. You kissed me right? And I kissed you back, which is the most random thing ever, since we both, well, we're just different, right? And I realise I like you, which sucks 'cause I have issues and shit, so I'm just warning you. I'm just putting it out there.Okay, so don't act all surprised if I make a billion mistakes and freak out every now and then-"
"Sam."
"Let me finish. And I talk way too much when I'm nervous, by the way, and I am in over my head with what ever we have going on, but I don't want to pretend it never happened or ignore this, cause that only makes things get worse. So I'm laying my cards on the table. This is who I am, take it or leave it."
I take a huge breath when I'm finished, completely exhausted. Where did all that come from? I have to have scared him off by now. If I was him I'd be running. Instead Paul is smiling, looking beyond happy.
"Intense," I say after a second.
"I like intense," Paul says.
"Makes one of us."
"I like you as well."
"Oh." What is with me and the word Oh lately? Seriously, is that all I can think of? I'm so lame.
"Sam, I want to take it, take you. Do you understand that?"
"Yeah..." I blush again.
Paul moves closer and closes the distance between us. This may have been an incredibly romantic moment, had the door not opened suddenly, making us both jump. I stare accusingly, looking to see Jared and Embry.
Kill me now.
I almost fall off the bed trying to distance myself from Paul.
Oh, what are they going to say? Jared is bad enough, but Embry is off the charts in that area.
"What is going on here?" Embry asks, wiggling his eyebrows.
"Nothing now," Paul says, shooting Embry daggers.
"So you got the girl?" Embry asks.
"Go away Embry."
"I come here to see you too canoodling and all I get is a 'go away Embry'? What about a go away Jared huh? We are here to comfort you, you know..."
"I don't need comforting."
"We can see that!"
"So then leave."
"What, why?"
"Cause I'm busy."
"Paul don't be so cruel! My TV isn't working, and I'm bored, and Jared is in a bad mood 'cause Kim kicked him out."
"She didn't kick me out! She just said that she wanted me to spend some time with the guys."
"See? He got kicked out."
"Hold on a second, okay? She said she wanted some alone time. and for me to spend time with the guys. It was a mutual decision."
"Ignore his denial, we're desperate men here!"
"I am not desperate!" Jared protests.
"See, so desperate. He's trying to say he isn't desperate, which every one knows makes you more desperate."
"I..." Jared opens his mouth and shuts it again.
"You can't win," Paul says, with a roll of his eyes.
"Embry, go use Quil's TV."
"Can't. Him and Claire are watching some Disney movie."
"So?"
"I'm not 4..."
"Are you sure?"
"Shut up," Embry replies. "Besides, Sammy here wants me to stay, don't you Sam?"
"Me and Paul really have to talk," I say.
"You mean make out. Come on Sam, who would you rather make out with, him or me? Though how it would work between us I'm not sure...After all, what will you have to offer a man like me?"
"Embry, leave." Paul almost sounds like his pleading.
"Yeah come on Embry, Emily made some cookies. Let's go annoy the other Sam," Jared says, and Paul gives him a grateful smile.
"Fine," Embry says with a dramatic sigh.
Paul mouths a thank you to Jared and we say our good bye, with Jared dragging Embry out the door with the promise of food.
"So I guess you've seen some of my baggage friends..."
"I'm sure Embry sees himself as a bonus."
"Yeah me too," Paul admits with a grin.
A silence falls, leaving both of us staring at each other.
"You're breathtaking," Paul murmurs.
"No, I'm not."
"Yes you are."
"Paul."
"Beautiful, stunning, amazing."
"I get it!"
"I'm afraid you don't," Paul says with a grin, and then we kiss, the kind of kiss that stays in your head forever because it feels so damn good.
Authors Note
So there you go the first part of there relationship I thought I'd end this chapter on a sweet moment, I know I am good to you people. LoL so what do I have to say there's heaps of drama coming up next chapter should have some Drama in it. I know Sam tends to think of all sorts of things at the same time she tends to look at everything from different angles
Now I know what your thinking what no cat and mouse game. That idea is just so overdone after they kiss you know and I wanted this to be original so there you go what do you think did I handle it the right way. Well leave any suggestions in your reviews HINT HINT
Another thing do you want me to put up pictures of the characters do tell and who do you think Paul should be I really want to see your guys thoughts on this.
So thoughts and thank you for all your reviews
Ps
I try and include people from the pack in each chapter but do you guys want more of them less of them or the same amount
