I am so sorry that i was late getting this out, but here it is.
I still own nothing and mistakes are my own. If anyone knows where I can find a beta I would be happy to take the help.
"Doyle." I repeat again, for the third time, I know he's close, and he can hear me.
"Dammit Doyle, I need to speak to you."
"What's so important Rizzoli?"
I spin around; he's the only one that can ever sneak up on me.
"We need to talk."
"You mentioned that, so what is it?"
I knew exactly what I wanted to say, but had no idea how to get it out.
"You have something to say, just spit it out Rizzoli." Doyle said.
"How do you know that's how I feel about Maura?" I asked.
"I've been in your head Rizzoli, and there's only been one time in my life I've ever felt that, and I was willing to give up my angel status for it, are you?"
"I honestly don't know."
"That's what I thought; maybe you should put some more thought into this before you start asking questions." Doyle said, and then was gone.
That man never stuck around for anything. I said to myself.
Maura still had herself looked in the bedroom, I could get myself in easily if I wanted to, but I wanted to give her some time before I just went in. She was still upset with me, because I had gotten upset with her for cutting herself. I thought she would understand, but I was wrong.
"Humans." I mumbled to myself. "Can't live with them, can't live without them."
I made it to the bedroom and knocked on the door. "Maura open up."
After no reply. "Maura I'm going to come in if you don't open this door." still no reply.
I closed my eyes and in seconds I was in the room with Maura. She was reading a book, and listening to a cd, and didn't even look up at me when she spoke. "Do you angels not know the concept of privacy."
"I knocked." I said.
She put her book up and turned to face me. "What do you want Jane?"
"I want to apologize." I said.
"You have nothing to apologize for; I should be the one to apologize. I'm sorry Jane." she said.
"Maura, I made you upset shouldn't I be the one to say sorry."
"You don't interact with humans much do you?" Maura asked.
"Humans are actually a big part of my job, but I still don't understand them, I don't understand you, I don't understand human emotions, there's just too many to keep up with. Sometimes your happy others sad, why does it change so much?"
Maura smiled. "As much as i would like to explain human emotion to you we just don't have enough time for that. The human mind and emotions is a very complex thing it could take a very long time to explain everything, especially to someone that doesn't know anything about it."
"Could you explain love to me Maura?" I wasn't going to ask that question, but it came out before I could stop it.
I watched Maura for several seconds; she was trying to come up with a way to explain it.
"That's a tough one Jane; I've never had to try to explain it before." I searched her emotions, but didn't get a lot of information, while I waited for her to explain.
"Explaining love could be very different from one person to the next, but in my opinion love is when you would put your happiness aside for one you love, when you want to do everything you can to make that person happy, you never want to hurt that person, when you try to protect them from everything you can, you would lay down your life for that one person."
I listened to everything she had to say, and I would have done all that for her. In those few seconds of Maura trying to explain to me what love was, the only thought that came to mind was Doyle's right. A smile came to my face, and I had to stop myself from laughing.
"Maura can I try something?" I asked when Maura finished.
"Anything Jane."
That's all I needed to hear before I was at Maura's side. She didn't expect me to come at her so face, I felt her surprise.
"Sorry." I said two seconds before I grabbed her face between my hands. She didn't have to ask what I was doing, because she already knew. I looked into her eyes, and got lost in them.
"Jane." Maura said, and then her lips were on mine, and I was in her head. I had no control over my own powers, I was in her head in seconds I felt her lips on mine and mine on hers, I felt every one of her emotions it was just waves and waves of emotions, some of them I knew the others I got lost on. The only thing I knew to do was pull her closer to me. In those few minutes, I saw the life we could have together, I saw it all, I could be human, and live this life with Maura.
Maura pulled away all too soon. I wasn't for sure what to say, I had a lot, but only one thing came out of my mouth. "Why?"
"Why what Jane?"
"Why would you let me do that? You don't even know me."
"I know enough Jane. You don't let your guard much, but you just did, when I was in your head I felt love Jane, that's what love is." Then her lips were on mine again.
As I listened to the changing of the music and heard the sound of a piano, Maura pulled me back with her towards the bed, and for the first time in my life I felt what it was like to make love to someone, felt everything all through Maura, and for the first time in my life I was truly happy, I knew what I wanted in life, and that was Maura. I would give up my wings for this woman.
I stayed in here head long after she fell asleep. Her dreams were of me. When I finally pulled out of her head, I went into the living room, and was started when I found Doyle sitting on my couch reading the newspaper like he owned the place.
"Put anymore thought into it?" he asked.
"Yes I have, and would like to spend my days as a human. How did you do it?"
"I clipped my wings." He said as he put his paper down.
"Tell me how to do it Doyle." I said.
"You need to go talk to your bosses." Doyle said.
"What about Maura?" I asked.
" "I'll keep an eye on her."
"That doesn't make me feel any better."
"She's my daughter Jane, I'll protect her."
I didn't wake Maura to tell her I was leaving because I planned to be back before she woke. I gave her a kiss and then disappeared.
When I appeared in front of the higher ups, the first person I saw was my father. This was going to be hard to explain with him here. I said to myself.
"Where's Ms. Isles?" one of the higher ups asked.
"That's not important; I've come to talk about me." I said I didn't risk a look at me father, I didn't want to see the disappointment.
"You tell us where Ms. Isles is or we will the recycle you."
"I'll fall from grace before I tell you where she's at." I said.
"You've decided for us then Rizzoli."
Before anything else was said, and before I could react I saw a bright light.
I awoke in a field rain pouring down on me with no memory of ever being an angel.
This chapter was a very diffcult chapter to write and I know that some things did not sound right, but thats the best I could do.
Let me know what you think of this chapter.
And the song that if I could have got in there would have been Beth/Rest by Bon iver the piano version, If you've never heard it you can look it up on youtube beautiful song, which i think goes perfect for this couple.
