Chapter Nine: Adam's Story
"Sean came to talk to me, that day at the baseball game." Adam says as he takes a bite of his ice cream.
I nod. I already knew this piece of information.
"He told me that he hated my guts, and wanted to punch me every time he saw me."
I gulp. I guess the fact that I talked about Adam a lot wasn't a good thing.
"He told me to stay away from you, and that I was a dirty old pervert for flirting with you." Adam chuckled. "That's when I told him that I didn't lay a finger on you and that I wasn't interested in women. Believe me; he changed his attitude pretty quickly."
I sigh. "I'm so sorry he did that."
"It's alright. But that's not the end of my story. I told Sean that I had a boyfriend and he apologized for insulting me. Then he told me this really long sweet story about how he fell in love with you the first time he met you. I asked him why he never told you how he felt and he just said that you were too busy obsessing over me to really pay any attention to him."
I feel a lump hardening in my throat. Was I really that cruel?
"I told Sean that he should confess his love to you before anyone else did. I told him that he shouldn't make the same mistake I did and wait until it was too late."
What? "Adam, you've been in love too?"
Adam gives me a surprised look. "Haven't we all? I've only been in love twice in my life. The first was with Brad Bell, the guy whom I'm kissing in all those internet photos."
"I haven't seen those yet. Who was the second guy?"
For the first time ever, I actually see a little bit of colour rising in Adam's cheeks. "I'd rather not say."
Suddenly, I think about what Cho said before about Kris Allen. Could it be...? I shake my head quickly. No that's absurd. Kradam doesn't exist.
"Anyways, with Brad he never loved me as much I loved him. I was pretty much just a fling to him. With the other guy, well let's just say I should have told him how I felt a lot sooner." Adam sighs as though he's remembering a painful memory. "That's why I think you should also tell Sean how you feel, because if you don't you'll regret it."
I feel my face flaming up. "What makes you think I have feelings for him?"
Adam raises an eyebrow. "Sweetie, what makes you think you don't have feelings for him?"
With a burst of intuition, I realize that Adam is right. I mean, why was I hiding my feelings about Sean? Why was I so afraid? Then it hits me.
"But Adam I'm scared. What if I do end up going out with Sean and it doesn't work out? What if we hate each other after we break up?"
Adam slaps his face into his hands, obviously frustrated. "What if, what if what if! Just tell the guy that you love him okay?"
"But-"
"No buts! You've got to be optimistic. Now I was kind of hoping to go to sleep early since I have a show tomorrow but I don't think that's possible anymore."
I look up at the clock and realize that it is already midnight.
"Oh my god! Adam I am so sorry! I didn't realize it was so late!"
"It's okay. I'm just glad I was able to help you with your love problems. ``
``Thank you so much Adam! You really are a true friend. `` I say as I walk over and hug him tightly.
``No problem Di. ``
In that moment, I almost let out a crazy fan girl squeal. He called me Di. Just as I am about to leave Adam`s room, he calls out to me.
``Make sure you and Sean come to my show tomorrow; after all it will be your last day in San Diego. ``
I realize that this is true and that tomorrow will be the last day to see Adam. I suddenly feel as though a huge weight has just been dumped on to my chest. Not wanting Adam to see I smile and say goodnight, feeling solemn all the way back to my room.
The next morning, I wake up with a huge headache. I guess all that crying myself to sleep didn't really help me much. I look over at my alarm clock and realize that it is already noon. I feel as though there is something I am supposed to do today...but what was it? Could it be...?
Oh shit. The show! It's at one O'clock and I totally forgot! I quickly run out of bed and hop into the shower. I throw on a T-shirt and some jeans and quickly put some mascara on. How could I forget? I think to myself as I run down the hall. It's the last time I'll ever see Adam!
I practically punch the crap out of Kallie's door when I get to her room. "Kallie! Wake up! It's Diana! This is an emergency!"
Kallie opens the door with an annoyed expression on her face. "God Diana, if you're pissed at me about last night; don't take it out on the door."
"Look, Kallie I'm not mad at you" I say impatiently. "But right now we've got to hurry because Adam is having a show in less than an hour and it`s the last time we`ll maybe ever see him.`` I really hope that last statement isn`t true.
``Well, shit! I better hurry! Go wake up the others! ``
``Already ahead of you!`` I yell back as I run over to beat the life out of Serena`s door.
Less than fifteen minutes later, I and my friends (minus Sean) are down in the hotel lobby, panting.
``Okay...`` I say trying to catch my breath. ``Has anyone seen Sean? I knocked on his door, but no one answered. ``
``No. I haven`t seen him anywhere`` Christine says, red faced.
I quickly turn around and run forward, looking for Sean. Why had I run away from him yesterday? It would have been so much easier to find him if I had just admitted to lo- Wait. Was I about to say that I loved him?
Before I can continue my train of thought, I bump into someone and almost fall backwards, but before I do they hold me so that they can keep me balanced. I look up to see who is holding me. It`s Sean.
I am suddenly speechless. It`s true that his hair has returned to that ordinary bed head he usually always wears and he is wearing casual clothes, but something about him seems different. Maybe it`s the fact that his eyes seem a lot more mysterious than usual, or the way he`s holding me makes me feel small and protected. Whatever it is that makes him seem different, I think it makes him look totally hot and I just want to stay in his arms forever.
What the hell is wrong with me?
Before I can say anything, my friends catch up with us and ruin our little moment. `` Look you guys, you can get a room after Adam`s performance! `` Serena teases us. Oh gee thanks, now that really didn`t make me feel awkward right now. But at least I`m not the only one who feels that way because I notice that Sean`s face has turned a bright shade of scarlet. (Which looks totally cute on him...urgh now I`m just creeping myself out with this lovey-dovey crap.)
I clear my throat. `` Yeah we have to hurry. `` So I (awkwardly) grab Sean`s hand and we all race outside to catch the limo.
Once we get to the outdoor parc where the show is being held, Adam is already on stage making his welcoming speech.
``I want to thank everyone for coming to my show! Without you guys, I wouldn`t even be up here performing. Now I want to talk a little about this first song, which is a cover of the song I just love you by five for Fighting. I sang it as a demo before I was on American Idol. This time though, I would like to dedicate this song to my friends Diana and Sean! Let your love for each other find you through these lyrics! ``
I swear, Sean and me, our jaws drop at the exact same time. I cannot believe Adam is doing this. I look over at Sean as the beautiful sound of Adam`s voice joins in with the piano.
Lonely yeah, that`s the word I leave my heart when I leave her
The days go on forever, and the nights do too.
An evening out on the road, a half a world away from home...
The song really is beautiful, but this is just really cheesy. Does Adam really think I am going to tell Sean I love him while this song is playing? I look down at the ground and blush. I can almost feel Sean`s gaze penetrating through my soul.
``Diana, look at me. ``
I do as I am told and stare into Sean`s deep green eyes, which look obviously troubled. ``What`s wrong? ``
``I-I`` Cheesy or not, I have to tell Sean how I feel.
``Sean, I love you. `` I finally blurt out, as the song takes its Chorus.
Until she said I...I just love you
I don`t know why...I just do.
When are you coming home?
I`m coming home soon.
And I just love you too...
Author`s note: Wow, I didn`t think this chapter would get so lovey dovey.
Anyways I`m glad Diana finally confessed. Please review, tell me what you think(suggestions or ideas for later chapters are always welcome.) and thank you guys so much for reading my story!!! I love you guys!
